Tom Lyngcoln: “As soon as somebody figures out how to commodify something genuine, we have to start again.”

Original photo: Suzanne Phoenix / handmade collage by B

Tom Lyngcoln has spent decades carving out his own path through Australian underground music. Best known for his work in The Nation Blue, Harmony and his most recent band Metho, Lyngcoln’s world is one built on intensity: dissonant guitars, uncompromising expression, deep community ties and a lifelong suspicion of commodified art.

Gimmie yarned with him, while he was on a break from his day job as a carpenter. What begins as a conversation about music quickly unfolds into something much larger—grief, friendship, underground culture, environmental collapse, mental health, masculinity, creativity and the strange beauty of surviving long enough to keep making things. Thoughtful, funny and brutally self-aware, Lyngcoln speaks the same way his music sounds: raw, searching and completely uninterested in pretending.

TOM LYNGCOLN: I’m pretty fired up! I’ve got a lot of projects going and, maybe for the first time, I’m actually taking the label [Solar/Sonar] that I’ve got seriously.

I saw so much drop-off with people scaling back releasing music. It feels like a bit of an insane thing to do, but I just got keen!

I was able to put in for one round of production on a record, made the money back, didn’t spend it, and kept it to one side. And I’m going to keep doing that. I make no money from it, but it’s going to allow me to effectively keep doing thing after thing, hopefully for a while.

But it’s tough, you know? Growing up when I did, I was pretty fortunate that there were lots of people writing about music and listening differently.

I like the idea of trying to help younger bands; I’m trying to pay it forward. I got treated really well when I was coming up. I also had absolutely unsustainable ideas about music and selling out and all that kind of shit from growing up in Hobart.

It’s so good to hear that you’re feeling inspired and motivated. Sometimes, with the world the way it is, it can be a struggle to feel that. The last time you and I spoke about your music was when The Nation Blue’s Damnation came out in 2004. It’s been over two decades, and I’m stoked to say that we’re both still here, doing what we love to do, and helping other people out while we do it.

TL: Yeah, lifers! That is also a product of when we came up. For me, through the ’90s, all those people that I came up with are still engaged—still writing music, or writing about music, or painting, or whatever it is. We’re all kind of lifers in that way. You’ve got to be making things, and it’s got to be tangible stuff. I love it.

I think staying curious and staying engaged, does wonders for a person in life. As does pushing yourself and continuing to do things that challenge you.

TL: There was always a set way to do things. And now, through scarcity, that’s been obliterated, and you just have to be creative in those choices too. It’s kind of endless. I like problem-solving. But I’ve only got so much energy as well. 

I hear that. I’ve been thinking about problem-solving a lot this year. If something goes wrong, it’s become more about: here’s the problem—how can I pivot? 

TL: Yeah, I find reducing things down has helped. I’ve always been really focused on how things are trending in a macro sense, but I’m 46 now, and you start to realise it’s really about community and small collections of people. You can actually have a big impact there, and that’s really rewarding.

If you try and do too much, I don’t think it’s futile, but it’s less effective and less rewarding. You don’t get the drive to keep going because you just think, “Oh, fuck, that was a monumental failure.” You chalk up another one in the loss column.

But you can do a lot locally. That was always my focus when I was a kid. I had a total disregard for the mainland—couldn’t give a shit about anything happening there. And when I think about it now, it was probably a community of 100 people, but a lot of those principles are still informing everything I do.

Whereabouts in Tasmania did you grow up? 

TL: I grew up in Hobart, on the Eastern Shore, which was pretty bogan. I went to a rough school and was around all that kind of stuff, but I decided to have a bit of a circuit-breaker.

For Years 11 and 12 down there, you go to a different place—college instead of high school. High school ends at Year 10 and then you move on. It was there that I started engaging with different people.

I went to a Fugazi show in ’93—the only band like that to come down to Hobart. And what I saw there were local bands that I didn’t even think existed. I was like, “Oh, there are people playing heavy music in Hobart.” That changed everything.

But they’re really small communities. Then you come to Melbourne, or anywhere else, and you see the same thing replicated on different scales. You realise the same rules apply.

It’s been 25 years in Melbourne now, and you start to meet everyone and see everything. It’s the same principle as Hobart—it’s just bigger. If you can not be a jerk to people, be supportive, and participate positively in a community, you get to do a lot. It feels good. It feels rewarding.

You mentioned that a lot of the ethics and principles that still guide you now came from growing up in Tasmania. What do you think it was about that environment and community that shaped you so strongly?

TL: Down there, releasing a CD in the late ’90s was considered a sellout. Even putting out a tape could be seen that way. Those anti-sellout politics were probably the most stringent of anywhere I’ve ever been.

But it served me well when I got to the mainland and started engaging with the industry, because there was no industry down there. You played music because you wanted to make something. I never subscribed to the idea of playing music to make money, get girls, or any of those stupid fallacies. The people who are really good at music are compelled to do it. It’s on a DNA level. The others fall off pretty quickly.

A lot of those principles were really strong. DIY was everything—learn every aspect of it. Songwriting, writing about music, booking shows. I was booking shows when I was 14.

When I had my 18th birthday at the same venue I’d been booking, they were like, “You’ve been working here for two years.” I was like, “Yeah.” They said, “You do a great job. It’s all right.” Nobody had ever asked to see ID, which I didn’t even have.

Older people in the scene used to get me into shows as their kid or whatever. I was always around, but I had no interest in drinking or anything except watching bands. People weren’t seeing me at the bar asking for ID. There were lots of young kids floating in and out of pubs back then. It was possible to do that.

There was a lot of backward stuff too, but there were also really strong women in the scene who informed my politics early and checked me on bad ideas. There was a strong queer scene as well, despite homosexuality still being illegal in Tasmania in the late ’90s. We’d stick up for members of that community, because there was really only one place they could go, and it became a target for bogans trying to get in there and start shit. It could get pretty heavy at times.

Again, it comes back to small community stuff. You’re growing up and absorbing all these pretty big concepts, and it was a good framework to do it in. Everybody was insanely mentally ill, and that’s why we gravitated towards each other. I think it helped me a lot. It made me look at things differently, gave me different ideas about creativity, and definitely made me want to keep doing it.

What were you listening to back then? 

TL: Harsh shit. It was funny—you’d go to a Hobart show back then and I reckon 15 minutes of the set would just be tuning because nobody had a tuner.

I didn’t realise how much I missed that until I saw Alastair Galbraith play just after COVID. He spent about 20 minutes trying to tune to the bass player, and nobody could get it. Everything was out of tune, nobody had a tuner, and nobody cared.

Back then, I reckon I was 16 when I played with KK Null from Zeni Geva. We’d go to the Conservatorium and do Cobra by John Zorn as teenagers. It’d basically be me, a drummer and a bass player, alongside all these people from the Hobart Conservatorium with their hyper-flutes and tubas and all this bullshit. We’d just play this game of noise warfare against them.

So there was lots of pretentious experimental shit around. I loved SKiN GRAFT Records as a kid. In the ’80s I was into Mötley Crüe and Guns N’ Roses, and then my best friend Chris—kind of a proxy big brother because he was older than me—gave me a tape with Jane’s Addiction on one side and Dead Kennedys on the other.

I thought Dead Kennedys were a comedy band. I’d never heard anything like that before. I was like, what are we doing here? But the hooks were rusty, rancid hooks, and I was just like, oh, this is unreal. From there it just descended further.

Then bands like Butthole Surfers and Rollins Band, all those weird late-’80s, early-’90s crossover bands, really got me going. My favourite bands were stuff like Archers of Loaf and Girls Against Boys. Just weird indie-rock stuff. I loved it. Even things like The Jim Rose Circus—all those counterculture things—I was obsessed with them.

I went to a school where everybody was super metal. They used to make me go into the music room at lunchtime and play Metallica because that’s all the bogans wanted to hear. They’d be like, “If you don’t come play guitar in our band, we’ll bash you.”

So I’d go in there and try. I’m not a very good guitarist, so trying to play that stuff was rough. There was heaps of grunge around too, but I was already off somewhere else musically.

I still remember Debut by Björk. That record is still one of my all-time favourites. I’d sit by myself at lunchtime listening to it over and over on my Walkman.

It was back in the days where you’d take the batteries out and put them back in to squeeze another 15 minutes out of them. I reckon I had the same two non-rechargeable batteries for about 12 months.

Totally! Yep. You and I are the same age, so I get it! Or you try to rub the ends together to try and generate more juice or charge or something.

TL: [Laughs] Yeah, like why are you licking batteries again? It’s like, don’t fucking judge me! You have to eat, right? I’m just trying to get more juice!

[Laughter]. So you move to the mainland around 25 years ago? 

TL: Yeah. I got run out of town effectively. 

What do you mean “run out of town”? 

TL: Oh, man. Some bikers tried to kill my best mate. I was already on the verge of leaving, and then I got spiked really badly on Y2K. I woke up during a CAT scan after falling two stories onto my head on a slate floor.

I was already going to leave, but that sped it up. I had to get out. The town was getting too small.

It’s the same thing I was talking about before: the good thing about knowing everybody is that, if things are going well, it’s really nice. But if things go badly, they’re going to find you pretty quickly.

So in 2000 I came over. I still had a few medical appointments to check on everything, and I just kind of cruised into Melbourne.

But Hobart’s really cyclical, and everybody left at the same time. There was probably a three-year window where around 30 people from this 100-person scene all moved away.

I walked straight into a share house in Brunswick with one guy I was playing in a band with and another guy I used to work for back in Hobart, so the transition was pretty easy.

It was still lonely and weird, though. I remember going to Supergrass and Stereolab on my birthday weekend and just standing there on my own. Then, as soon as you’d spot another Tasmanian, you’d immediately latch on. Old habits, even though I was only 20 or 21 at that point.

So yeah, I got out in 2000. With a bit of distance from the place, I realised some aspects of it were pretty insidious.

My wife used to say to me, “Why are you so fucking sarcastic? Why can’t you just talk normally?” And I’d be like, “I’m not being sarcastic. What are you talking about?” She’d say, “You’re doing it right now.”

I reckon it took me three years to unlearn the defensive sarcasm everybody used to communicate with down there. Unfortunately, that lined up with the overly sincere emo era, and I was just like, “I think I’m going back to sarcasm for a bit. I don’t know if I can be this earnest about everything.”

When writing songs, what feeling do they often start from?

TL: These days it usually starts with the feeling of, “I’ve got band practice tonight, I told them I’ve got four songs, and I’ve actually got one.” So I’ll sit here—this is just an office at work; you can see the wallpaper, it’s pretty bonkers—and try to write.

Back then, though, I’d just play every day. I never really went out. Tim Brennan’s wife Kathy says I’ve got “the most punchable head in Australia,” so even as a kid I’d mostly stay home. Even as a teenager, working in a pub, I’d finish work and go sit on a beanbag playing along to Tasmanian TV ads. That’s where I put in all the hours. I’d always have a guitar in my hands, just writing constantly.

Some days it feels like somebody’s greased the pan—it’s super easy. Everything becomes abstract and sits outside the framework of what you normally do, and songs just come naturally. Other days you’re just banging your head against the wall.

So I try to play a lot, because when those good days come around, I might get five songs out of a half-hour session just because it’s flowing. You hit this point where you realise, “These are the same chords I’ve always played,” but your fingers are suddenly moving all over the place. Sometimes you just hit the right combination.

I’m classically trained, but honestly, that doesn’t help as much as people think. A lot of it really is luck, which isn’t what you want to hear and definitely not what you want to rely on. But I don’t know—20 albums in, and it still feels fun to do.

Do you trust your creative instincts more now than you used to earlier on? 

TL: Yeah, you’ve got to trust it. I work fast and I like things raw. A lot of the Harmony records, particularly the first two, are literally the first take we ever did of those songs, straight through. You can feel that “oh fuck” energy where nobody really knows the song yet.

I’ve always gravitated towards dissonance and mistakes in music. I love things that probably should’ve been deleted—to quote Torben Ulrich. That’s the stuff that gets me going. It’s that feeling of, “This is so wrong it’s right.”

Even outside music, I love stuff like Wesley Willis—things that shouldn’t work. There are these little moments where the two rocks grinding against each other suddenly slot together for a second, and that’s when the explosion goes off in your head. All the endorphins hit at once. Sometimes I almost lose consciousness. I’m just like, “Oh, there it is. That’s it. That’s the moment.” That’s the magic.

You do have to trust it. I feel fine about it now, but over time I’ve had to learn not to think about what other people are going to think. A lot of people don’t get it, and that’s fine. You just have to keep doing it. I do it for me. I don’t do it for other people. Not everyone will get it and that’s fine.

I’ve got a worldview and a way of doing things, and hopefully that comes through in the music. That’s really all I’m going for. I want people to hear me play guitar or sing and recognise a consistency across everything I’ve done. That’s the most important thing to me: making something that feels unmistakably mine. A lot of people don’t do that.

I’m always getting messages from people saying, “Hey, I want to start an SSD band—do you want to play in it?” or “Do you want to do this kind of thing or that kind of thing?” But people aren’t really going to get that from me. Unfortunately, it’s always going to sound like me. If you’re on board with that or not, honestly, I don’t really care.

I’ve heard a lot of people describe both your music and your live shows as abrasive, chaotic, or confrontational. But earlier you said that the music is really just an extension of who you are. Do you see yourself that way?

TL: No. I’d say this is more about not knowing what I’d be without it. I think music is a way for me to self-regulate. It’s a big vent.

I like intense expression. Whether it’s grinding dissonance, bleakness, or confrontation, I’m drawn to those things. This is how I get it off my chest so I can go back into the world and not be a liability as a parent or in everyday life. It’s like a filter where I can dump all the shit.

Honestly, I don’t know what I’d be without it. I don’t know what other outlet I could have that would stop me from becoming a destructive person. So getting it out on the page, writing, playing music—it’s not shtick. It’s not performance in that sense. It’s just all I’ve got, and I need to get it out somehow.

And when I play live, I’m not trying to hurt other people. If anything, I’m trying to hurt myself. I enjoy pushing myself physically. It means I never walk around wanting to throw a punch at somebody because I’ve already exhausted all that energy.

I enjoy confrontation in an artistic sense, but ultimately it’s mostly for me. It’s fun. It’s necessary.

I still do all the same things I’ve always done, simply because it’s fun. At this point, I don’t know what I’d do if I stopped interviewing. I’ve been doing it since I was 15 years old. I’ve done thousands and thousands of interviews with all kinds of people. And honestly, I probably have deeper conversations with the people I interview than I do with most of my friends.

TL: Yeah, I know. 

I’ve learned so much from the people I talk to. And I like that they get something from our exchange too. Sometimes we’ll be having a discussion and I’ll point something out about their music or even about themselves, and they’ll go, “Holy shit! I never realised that.” It’s nice to have that two-way connection. Especially now, when everyone’s supposedly more connected online but it actually feels like we’re more disconnected from each other. 

TL: Yeah, it’s the opportunity to actually talk to people on a real level. You realise there actually aren’t that many opportunities to sit with someone for a prolonged period and genuinely get to know them. 

It ties back into community as well. In Hobart, people had their defences up for different reasons, but on the mainland people felt disconnected in another way. Nobody smiled at each other in the street. If you smiled at someone, they’d look at you like, “What the fuck are you looking at?” I had to adjust to that.

Having these thoughtful conversations is something that’s really important for me, even for my own mental health. Unless we go to a show or occasionally have a meal with family, we rarely see other people. It’s sad to say but more often than not, we’ve found that people just never seem to think of us, or if they do they never reach out and let us know. 

My whole life, I’ve been the one that reaches out to say “hi” or check in on friends or be there when someone needs or that opens doors for people. But I’ve never really had people that do that for me. It blows my mind that I know so many people yet in my toughest times, no one has really been there for me.

TL: Yeah, and you’ve only got limited time. How long do you really get between songs to talk to someone? It can end up feeling pretty superficial.

I’m still the kind of person who’ll actually call people, and that’s horrifying for a lot of them. They see the phone light up and think, “Christ …” [laughs].

I’ve got a whole circle of friends, mostly people from bands, and my strike rate is probably one in ten. These are close friends, too. But it’s always good when they actually pick up. That kind of connection is important to me. A lot of the people I’m friends with don’t live near me anymore, so you’ve got to stay on them. You have to punish them a little bit [laughs].

The downside of social media, is it creates this feeling of, “Cool, we’re good for a while. I sent you some words in a Meta app. Hope you’re doing okay. Here’s a little love heart. And that’s nice, but it’s not really the same thing…Um, cool—friendship maintained

Sometimes I feel a bit like a counsellor. But yeah, it’s also why I avoid things like Facebook now. People see all the stuff that gets cross-posted from Instagram and assume I’m active there, and then six months later I’ll open Messenger and find someone telling me they were going through something really heavy. I’m like, I didn’t ignore you—I just genuinely didn’t see it. At this point, I’m pretty happy to limit all that. Just text me. That’s probably the best way forward.

I know you’ve described writing lyrics as a real grind at times, but I’ve noticed there are recurring themes running through a lot of your work—environmental collapse, greed, corruption, political disillusionment. Why do you think those ideas keep appearing in your work?

TL: It definitely occupies most of my thoughts, so it’s hard to avoid. Honestly, the hardest thing I ever did was write a Harmony record that was just about love. That was difficult.

The other stuff is easy—you just turn on the tap and it all comes pouring out. But trying to write one good song about love, let alone ten, took forever.

It’s always the same process, too: a pen, a blank piece of paper, and listening to the song 400 times over and over until I get so frustrated that something sparks. Usually it starts with one line or a song title, and then I can work from there. But lyrics are hard.

Honestly, the only reason I became a vocalist is because I hated singers. I really did. There are so few genuinely good frontpeople. We had Linda Johnston from The Little Ugly Girls and The Daisies locally, and she was incredible, so that was one exception. But there were just so many bad singers that I didn’t want to deal with one.

So I started doing it myself, even though I absolutely could not sing. The early Nation Blue recordings—and the band I had before that—are kind of hilarious in hindsight. What I thought I was doing and what I was actually doing were completely different things.

Which is funny, because I was classically trained. I played piano for years and years, but I just could not do this thing. I couldn’t sing. Eventually, though, I found a way of doing it that works for me. At this point it’s basically a magic trick.

We LOVE that Harmony record; why did you want to write a whole album about love? 

TL: Because I’ve got 19 records about hate [laughs]. I don’t know if I was out of ideas, exactly, but I just hit a point where I needed something else.

I love sad songs, but with Harmony it was starting to impact my physical health, trying to be as sad as possible all the time. It was exhausting to sit in that headspace constantly. The first record is basically about all my dead friends, and every time I sang those songs I’d just feel miserable.

So I thought, “Well, I’m lucky. I’ve got a great relationship with somebody I love. Maybe I should try to put some of the subtler aspects of that into words instead.” I wanted to find a good way to write about love without it feeling corny or dishonest.

Before that, though, the Harmony stuff was so bleak. All the references were military operations, munitions, warfare. The best way I can describe my lyric-writing approach back then is that guy Elaine dates in Seinfeld who wears army fatigues everywhere. She asks him, “What’s wrong with you?” and he says, “I had a bad date once.” He’s not even military. And I was like, that’s me—miserable for miserable’s sake.

You mentioned earlier that a lot of the first Harmony record came out of losing friends. And unfortunately, as we get older, loss just becomes more and more present in our lives. At the end of last year we lost Jhonny’s mum, and I’ve already lost both of my parents, so it’s something I think about a lot. Is there anything you’ve found that helps you process grief—or at least live alongside it a bit better?

TL: Not doing it alone. That’s the main thing. Talking to people. Even though everyone worries about being a burden socially, I really think talking to people is the only thing that gets you through it.

Sometimes it’s just having a beer and sitting with somebody while you work through things together. I don’t think we’re designed to carry all of it internally. We don’t really have the capacity for that.

I’ve had some pretty bad losses, and I’m lucky that I can put some of it into songs and then, ten times a year, scream it out into the night. That helps. But if it’s not that, then it’s the quieter version—just talking to people. Because grief is universal. Everybody goes through it.

And the stuff people carry can be unbelievable. Even two weeks ago, on New Year’s Eve, we ended up at this small family gathering that my wife, kid and I basically house-invaded. Somebody asked, “How’s your year been?” and I said, “I broke my little finger playing basketball and it still really hurts.”

Then the woman sitting next to me said, “I was blind until a month ago.” She’d had an operation four years earlier that didn’t work, and then suddenly her eyesight came back out of nowhere. I was like, “Yeah, okay … what about my little finger?” The things people go through are just incredible sometimes.

Everyone I talk to lately seems to be having a rough time. A lot of my friends are really politically active as well, and with the way things are, it’s hard not to be engaged on some level. But it can feel relentless sometimes.

TL: Yeah, a lot of people choose not to engage with it at all. But I think that’s part of why so many people are struggling—because it’s hard to look at the way things are going and still just live your everyday life normally. Honestly, I sometimes wish I was blissfully ignorant. But once you see things a certain way, it’s hard to unsee them. And that can be pretty tough.

Totally. I think for some people, blind faith gives them a real sense that things will be okay, and I can understand the comfort in that. I just don’t think my brain operates that way.

TL: It doesn’t feel realistic to me either. Especially when you’ve got a child—you want things for them that, deep down, you’re not even sure are going to happen anymore. At that point, all you can really do is try to leave the world in a slightly better place and see how it goes. We’ll see how it all ends, I guess.

Fingers crossed. Ha. I just wish more people cared about the fact that if we don’t have a planet, we’ve got fucking nothing. That’s the one thing that affects every single one of us. And the whole scarcity mindset—the hoarding, the constant need for more, more, more—I’ve always found that really strange, even when I was a kid. I’ve always felt a little out of step with the world in that way.

TL: Yeah, absolutely. It’s a huge fixation for me. I think a lot of it started with growing up in Tasmania and seeing enormous trees on the back of logging trucks. It felt like people were cutting down dinosaurs just to turn them into woodchips.

That really stayed with me. And now, when you look at almost every major foreign-policy conflict happening in the world, so much of it comes back to natural resources. It never ends. It’s just hoarding for hoarding’s sake. At the core of it, it’s greed. And it sucks.

We’re incredibly lucky to live where we do, but at the same time it feels like nobody’s actually worried until it directly affects them.

Yeah. So, we’ve talked a little bit about community and I know that you like community, but then you’re not into scenes. For you, what’s the difference? 

TL: For me, community is a broader thing. It’s about like-minded people, friendships and genuine connection. A scene feels much more rigid.

I don’t think scenes are great for creativity because they’re built around conformity. It’s like a fraternity or some kind of closed system where individuality gets crushed. You see it in hardcore, punk and all those kinds of spaces—people become so dogmatic and bloody-minded about traditions that nothing actually moves forward.

What I’m interested in is personality. I want to see that reflected in music, art and creativity. If people are constantly trying to conform to a scene, they’re limiting themselves. At that point it’s no different to organised religion.

I want to see the best in people. I want to see people treating each other well. I think you get more of that through community than through scenes. In scenes, people get rejected for having different ideas. Community allows more flexibility, but it also takes more work.

Anyone can get sworn into a scene, tick all the boxes and fit the dress code, but that often creates superficial relationships. Community feels more organic. You give something, other people give something back, and you build actual friendships through participation.

Whenever I get close to really rigid scene culture, though, I immediately back away. If somebody says, “You’re part of our scene now,” I’m like, “I’ll wait in the car.” I’m not interested.

That happened when I first moved to Melbourne. I looked at the hardcore scene and thought, “What the fuck is this?” Eventually I met people in it who were incredible, but around the edges there were all these foot soldiers policing everything.

And I’d think, “We’re not friends. You don’t know anything about me.” They weren’t even paying attention to the person standing in front of them. I just had no interest in that kind of behaviour.

I love being friends with people from completely different kinds of music and backgrounds. But as soon as somebody starts telling me how I’m supposed to act, what I’m supposed to like, or how I’m supposed to look, I’m out. It’s always some guy enforcing that stuff too. And I fucking hate it.

Sure is!

TL: It’s always some fragile little-minded dude going, “No, we don’t do that here,” or, “That’s not allowed,” or, “You can’t do that.” And I’m just like, “Cool, I’ll be in the car. Fuck off.”

[Laughter] Yeah. I love hardcore music, but no matter how many bands I’ve interviewed from that world, or how many people I know in it, I’ve never really felt like part of the scene. And the strange thing is that hardcore is always talking about being this community, but a lot of the time it doesn’t actually feel that inclusive. At least in my experience, it never really felt like there was space for me in it.

TL: Yeah, exactly. In every regard, really. I don’t like safe things, and I’m drawn to extreme expression, but scene culture often just becomes exclusion for exclusion’s sake.

Honestly, the happiest we ever were was after we lost all connection to that scene entirely. Around the Damnation era, we got completely rejected by that whole world. At the time it fucking sucked.

We booked this huge national tour, including a 400-capacity room on the Gold Coast, and nobody came. One night literally four people showed up. Two got kicked out for dancing, and one of the remaining two stole our merch at the end of the night. There was more merch in the room than audience members.

But I wouldn’t change any of it. It probably took three years before people started understanding the band differently. The turning point for me was when women started outnumbering men at the shows. I remember thinking, “Oh, this is the best it’s ever been. We’re finally getting the right people here.” And those people still come to the shows now.

People wanted us to be something else entirely. We turned down record labels and did everything our own way, and it was brutal trying to navigate that. But we’re still here, and most of those bands aren’t. The good ones survived, and there are still some great friends from that era, but we realised pretty early on that we were never going to fit neatly anywhere.

We don’t fit with rock bands, hardcore bands, punk bands or indie bands. We played a Dick Diver EP launch in Melbourne once, and I remember feeling like Metallica playing a Simon & Garfunkel concert. Before the set we were all like, “Just play the quiet songs. Don’t destroy anything. Don’t freak people out. Just stand there and play it straight.” And we still cleared the room.

Then we played with Flipper and cleared that room too. We started joking, “Who actually likes this band?” Eventually we just came to the conclusion that we did. That had to be enough. I hope some of that comes through. 

It does. I’ve never thought of your band/s being one of those toxic masc bro bands. 

TL: [Laughs].  I couldn’t think of anything worse! But I have spent so many hours sitting in cars waiting for those  kinds of bands to finish. I got into and love skip-hop. I found that excitement and a vibe in going to hip-hop gigs. 

Same. I remember talking to Michael Franti about it once and he said, “You’ve got to go where the energy is.” That’s exactly what happened for me.

At a certain point, hardcore stopped feeling exciting and started feeling really alienating. It became something I didn’t recognise anymore, especially in the way women were treated in the scene from the mid-2000s onwards. Whenever I spoke up about it, I’d get labelled difficult or crazy. So for a while, I stopped going to punk and hardcore shows altogether. Instead, I started going to hip-hop gigs, raves and pop shows—places where the energy still felt open, alive and welcoming.

Because by that point, the scene had become something I never signed up for.

TL: Yeah. All that individual-expression stuff has always mattered to me. But even that goes back to things like the straight-edge scene, where suddenly it became, “This is what we all look like now.”

I’ve never really fit into that. I’ve always dressed in workwear because I’ve worked shitty manual-labour jobs most of my life. That whole uniform thing just never worked for me.

After shows I’d sometimes go outside to load gear and then not be allowed back into the venue because security assumed I couldn’t possibly be in the band. They’d be like, “Sorry mate, you can’t come in.” And honestly, it felt like a giant metaphor for the whole thing.

You’ve collaborated with so many different people across all your projects, and when you look back over your work there are all these incredible connections and crossovers. Are there any particular people who’ve been especially important to you creatively or personally?

TL: Yeah, absolutely. All the early stuff still informs everything I do. All those people from Hobart are still incredibly important to me.

Even a couple of months ago, when we did the Damnation anniversary show, almost everybody onstage was from the Hobart scene in the ’90s. There was Linda Johnston again from The Little Ugly Girls, Tim Evans from Sea Scouts and Bird Blobs, Monika from Sea Scouts and Love of Diagrams—all these people I grew up around.

But in terms of wider influences, I’ve also been incredibly lucky. We had Marc Ribot play on ‘Rain Dogs’ by Tom Waits, which was a massive record for me growing up. When I first heard his guitar playing, I was like, “What is this?” It sounded like he was only hitting three out of every 10 notes properly, and I loved that. I thought, “Oh, that’s okay—that’s how I play guitar too.” It made me realise there was room for imperfection and personality in playing.

He was really into it. I honestly have no idea how that even happened. I just found his manager online and sent a message saying, “Do you reckon he’d want to play on this song?”

And she came back saying, “No, he actually wants to play on this other song.” I was like, “No, no, he has to play on the shit one because we really need help making it better.”

But yeah, I’ve just been incredibly lucky. I’m playing with Mick Turner this Sunday, and he’s probably my all-time favourite guitarist. I love Dirty Three, Venom P. Stinger, Fungus Brains—all of it. He’s another one of those people who approaches an instrument completely backwards.

The only problem is now I actually have to play guitar in front of him. I get “the claw,” where my hand just locks up and I lose all dexterity. I can feel myself tensing and freaking out.  So after this I’m going to rehearse just to keep everything moving.

But honestly, since moving to the mainland, a lot of my life has just been about engineering interactions between people I admire. Half the people I’ve collaborated with had never met each other before, and now they’re lifelong friends.

I’d just think, “I want this person, this person and this person together,” and then see what happened. That’s basically been the approach with bands too. I’ll love somebody’s skill set or the way they think about music and just go, “Let’s put this together and see what happens.”

That’s a really important thing, though. When somebody has a genuine vision for bringing certain people together, and they can see how those personalities or creative approaches might connect, it can create something really powerful. Sometimes it’s less about technical ability and more about recognising a chemistry or energy between people that maybe even they can’t see yet.

TL: Yeah, exactly. You can maximise different qualities in people. For me, it always comes back to personality. I’ll look at somebody and think, “If I put this person together with that person, it’s going to turbocharge something.”

It becomes irrepressible at that point. It doesn’t matter what obstacles are in front of it, something powerful is going to come out. I might not know what it’s going to sound like, but I know the expression will be huge.

I love that. Honestly, that’s probably been my favourite thing over the last 20 years. All the smaller projects around the main bands have basically come from me thinking, “I’d love to see what these two people would create together.”

At some point I stopped being the liability and became the facilitator. Back in Nation Blue, I was the person nobody could rely on. Now I’m somehow the administrator. It sucks.

Why were you the person that couldn’t be relied on?

TL: I was really prone to destroying things back then. We’d have insanely bad shows depending on my mood. I was erratic.

With Nation Blue especially, I’d get completely skeeved out by industry stuff and just shut things down or deliberately sabotage them. There are emails from Westy where he’s basically saying, “Man, you fucking blew it.” And I’d just reply, “Yep.”

I related a lot to that famous The Replacements story where all the A&R people came to a show and Bob Stinson completely lost it. Apparently there were all these label people there because the band was blowing up—they were getting mentioned alongside bands like R.E.M.—and Bob got drunk, came out naked, ripped down the backing curtain and turned it into this giant cape, then threw a shoe full of shit at the industry people. And honestly? I can relate to that energy on some level.

It’s no secret that I find the music industry difficult. I’ve mostly existed outside of it, apart from when I was younger and thought working in the industry might actually be a cool job.

I did work at a big record label as a teenager, and one of my jobs was calling record stores at certain times of the day to check whether they were playing their artists. If they were, the stores would get points, and whichever shop had the most at the end of the month would win some kind of big prize. Basically, they were being rewarded for prioritising certain music. When I realised that was how the system worked, I was out.

I still see a lot of the same stuff happening behind the curtain now. I’ve watched the same artists receive big amounts of funding over and over again—for some we’re talking up to a hundred thousand dollars—while so many other, actually independent musicians, that could use a leg up struggle just to survive.

I find it frustrating when artists market themselves as independent or DIY while quietly having teams, all the industry connections and financial backing behind them. There’s nothing wrong with having support, but I think people should be honest about what’s actually going on.

TL: Yeah. I think we are the industry now, though. So there’s nobody left [laughs].

Ha! But there is. Tell that to the dinosaurs, gatekeepers still clinging to outdated ideas of power in the music industry.

You’ve got managers and publicists giving writers five or 10 minutes with an artist, and then everyone wonders why interviews feel shallow. You can’t have a meaningful conversation in that amount of time.

Then there are publicists who expect writers to cover their entire roster, and if you don’t, you get blacklisted from the interviews you actually care about. I know writers who’ve completely burned themselves out trying to keep up with those demands just to secure a handful of conversations they genuinely want to have.

People wonder why music journalism in this country is struggling, but the system itself is part of the problem. Fanzines to me, is the most important form of music writing.

TL: Yeah, it’s culture. That’s the thing people trying to commodify music never seem to understand. The culture is the most important part. People can smell what’s fake. Genuine artists usually recognise each other because there’s a kind of cohesion there, a glue between people who make good things.

I honestly think it’s really hard to make meaningful work within a commercial framework because everything becomes exploitable in that system. From the moment you have an idea for how something should sound to the point where it finally gets released and marketed, it often becomes a completely different thing. The perception changes, the intention changes—everything shifts. Whereas if you’re doing it yourself, you’re the only person shaping it.

The idea of getting notes on how to write songs? Fucking hell. That’s when I’m already in the car park mentally. The second somebody starts telling me how I should write, I’m like, “No. Show me what you’ve written first.” And then the confrontation starts.

I just don’t understand how people in the industry still don’t see how successful underground culture actually is. There’s no real sweet spot in a lot of the music industry here where people genuinely understand underground culture, because I don’t think a lot of them actually come from it. They’ve come up through other avenues that I don’t really understand.

To be fair, though, some of the people who do get it are slowly moving into those positions now. I look around at some of the major labels these days and think, “Fuck, I know all these people.” So you hope things might change. You hope they remember what it felt like growing up inside this world and don’t lose touch with it.

One thing I’ve been thinking about lately with the label isn’t even starting a blog, exactly, but just creating more space for people to engage with music. I made a post online and got all these responses from people saying, “I really want to write about music, but there’s nowhere to do it anymore. If you send me records, I’ll write about them.”

And I thought, if I’m getting 10 messages like that from one Instagram post, maybe people are actually hungry to communicate about music again. To listen deeply and talk about it properly.

There are still heaps of people who are genuinely into this stuff. The scene is definitely smaller now, but in some ways I think it’s more important than ever. Even talking to pressing plants, they’ll say that 150 copies is now a standard run for underground or local bands. But there are still heaps of people going to shows. The community is still big.

A lot of the things we grew up with that made us excited about music feel like they’re coming back around again. Kids are picking up guitars again instead of feeling like they need to save for 10 years to buy some vintage synth that costs $12,000.

A guitar is such an egalitarian weapon compared to a lot of electronic gear. You can pick one up and just do it. And funnily enough, that was the whole spirit of punk in the first place—the idea that you didn’t have to be Earth, Wind & Fire or The Alan Parsons Project to make music. You could just go out and do it yourself.

The way people have been talking to me about music over the last couple of years makes me think people are fired up again, which is good.

COVID really knocked everyone around, and we’re still walking through a bit of a zombie state after it. But I can feel a thirst for older underground ideas coming back pretty strongly.

And honestly, the bands are incredible at the moment. That’s the biggest thing I notice. These bands just sound completely like themselves. They’re just genuine outliers, and I love that. It’s a hard expression, but it’s exciting. It feels really good again.

Who are some of these bands? 

TL: Oh God, Serpette, who are now called Whip down here, don’t sound like anything else. They count in four and then whatever happens, happens. It’s wild. So good.

Then there’s Sienna Thornton. I don’t even know how to describe it, but it feels like a direct line into some part of my brain. Every note feels perfect. It’s an incredible level of skill—completely different to Whip, who are just pure chaos and energy.

And then there’s Tongue Dissolver. That band is unbelievable. It’s like if you took ‘Exterminator’ by Primal Scream and put it on bath salts. It’s one of the most convulsive things I’ve seen in years.

What I love is that none of these bands belong to scenes. There’s no rigid identity around them. It’s completely unbridled. And there’s no careerist reason to do it anymore. Nobody’s thinking, “I’ll play music so I don’t have to work at a bank.” Everybody’s heavily invested for the right reasons.

When we were younger, especially around the time Jet blew up, labels were throwing contracts at anything remotely guitar-based because people at labels were panicking about missing the next big thing. Nobody cared what bands actually sounded like. It was just, “Here’s 30 grand for your garage band,” even though nobody was ever going to recoup it.

Now it’s different. The question is genuinely, “Why are you doing this?” And I think post-COVID especially, younger bands are doing it because they need the release. You can feel it. It’s electric.

We played in Brisbane this year at Branko’s Festival, and every band on the lineup was incredible in some way. A lot of them are probably getting courted by indie labels now, but the thing is, they’re undeniably good. There were just so many great bands.

We got there way too early because somebody told us to go see KNEE. We watched them, and then I basically didn’t move for eight hours. I don’t think I went to the toilet or even bought a drink because every band was so good that I couldn’t leave the front of the stage.

Brisbane’s always had a ridiculously high strike rate for bands!

Totally. I’ve always felt like bands from Brisbane tend to have their own distinct identity and approach, which I’ve always thought was a bit special.

Because a lot of bands we love don’t get up this way too much, going to Nag Nag Nag in Sydney or JERKFEST in Geelong is a real treat for us. We get to see all the bands we love in one or a few days. At JERKFEST we end up running from stage to stage trying to catch every band because everything is so good. Both events feel very community-centric.

Australian music has always been exciting to me. There’s so much incredible stuff happening if you’re paying attention.

TL: Yeah. Billy Gardner at Anti Fade Records always does a great job of building community. A lot of the same people from the very first festivals are still involved, just moving through different bands and projects over time. More recently, there’s also been this integration between younger and older musicians, which has been really good to see.

What’s exciting right now is that you can walk into a venue and even the first band or the opener in the front bar is absolutely firing. It feels really healthy.

That was a big part of why I wanted to keep the label going. For 20 years people have been sending me demos, so I’ve ended up with this huge archive of little moments and unreal songs. I want to turn that into a series of compilation mixtapes, press them onto vinyl and just get them out there.

I’m talking like 40 tracks on a record—just a massive snapshot of what’s happening. Then I want to keep working through as many local bands as possible, because at the moment it’s almost impossible for a lot of them to afford proper vinyl releases on their own.

We had a Gimmie compilation in the works with around 40 or 45 tracks. It was almost ready to go, and all the profits were going to charity, but we couldn’t get a few things lined up properly, so we had to shelve it for the time being.

Everything has become so expensive just to survive. We’ve both been record collectors our entire lives, but lately we’ve basically had to stop buying records altogether. I think I only bought a handful of releases last year. Even going to gigs is starting to feel unaffordable.

It’s a strange and pretty sad feeling to be priced out of something that means so much to you—something that brings so much joy, connection and nourishment into your life.

TL: Yeah, and imagine being a kid trying to afford all of this while still staying enthusiastic about music culture. Shows are $30 or $40, records are ridiculously expensive … I get that production costs have gone up, but not enough to justify some of the prices people are charging now. A lot of it is just greed.

I grew up playing shows where entry was $2 or $4. Maybe that’s why so many people from that era are still involved in music culture—it was affordable, so people could participate constantly. They could form ideas, build communities and create their own little worlds around it.

Now I look at the tickets I’ve bought for the first half of this year and barely anything is under $100. It’s insane.

Yep. Australia is actually one of the most expensive places in the world for concert tickets right now!

TL: And vinyl pricing especially is something I’m really fixated on. Records should not cost that much. Obviously there are production costs involved, but there’s also a lot of taking the piss. I honestly think it would only take a few local labels deciding, “We’re not selling records for $60 anymore,” to shift things a bit.

Like, a record should maybe cost $35. That should roughly be the ceiling. Fuck inflation—some of these prices just don’t make sense, and eventually it’s going to cannibalise the culture itself.

The records we put out—Guppy and Piss Shivers—were $35.

TL: Yeah. You see record stores are sitting on piles of unwanted stock, especially after things like Record Store Day. I bought this Roky Erickson bootleg a couple of years ago for something ridiculous like $110, took it home and it was completely unlistenable. It sounded like a phone recording pressed onto vinyl. I took it straight back and was like, “This is dogshit.”

So what happens when record stores start disappearing entirely? Because I’m sure they’re already under enormous pressure from rent and everything else. It all has a flow-on effect. I really think affordability has to be the starting point again. Otherwise younger people just can’t participate properly.

That said, in the ’90s I’d buy one CD every six months and listen to it obsessively for six months straight. And honestly, that kind of deep listening is still in my DNA.

I really love some of the things Bad Habit Records up in Nambour are doing. Borg has always had a real knack for building community wherever he goes.

He does things like selling cool records to younger people at cheaper prices to help them start collections, and he regularly puts out calls for donated instruments that he then passes on to kids so they can start bands of their own. When new records come in, locals get first dibs on Saturday mornings before anything goes online. He gets international and interstate bands to play shows, that might not usually make it to regional places.

I still remember being a teenager making my first zine, and Borg stocked it in his distro even though it definitely wasn’t really his thing. At the time, I was new to everything and didn’t really now anyone in the scene, and that gesture always stayed with me. It meant a lot. And I see him still doing it now with the next generation.

TL: Yes! It takes that kind of blend to spark something new. That’s how these shifts begin.

It’s the same as coming up through the late ’80s when everything was just cock rock. All it really takes is a change in mindset to suddenly create something genuinely exciting.

And I can see that happening now with younger bands. There’s been a real shift in attitude among people making music. A lot of them aren’t doing it because they want careers—they’re doing it because they have to make music. And I think that’s really encouraging.

If more people like that keep appearing, it’s going to trigger a whole wave of really interesting art. It has to. Because honestly, I don’t need to hear another bunch of private-school kids playing indie music. I want to hear different voices—that’s the important part.

Yep. Some of the most vital music being made right now is coming from traditionally marginalised people.

With Gimmie, a lot of the interviews I’ve done have actually been the first time those bands have ever been interviewed, simply because mainstream media either ignores them or doesn’t even know they exist.

We put Guppy and Pale Horsey on the covers of print issues before they’d really even released much music. People told us we should’ve put King Gizzard & the Lizard Wizard on the cover instead because they were in the same issue and it would’ve sold more copies. But we went with Guppy because we could—and the issue sold out anyway.

Over the years, I’ve seen editors at publications decide who gets a cover story or major coverage based almost entirely on social media numbers, not because the artist actually rules. And obviously mainstream media is heavily shaped by advertising, paid editorial and industry relationships too.

A lot of people don’t realise how much mainstream culture is influenced by those systems rather than actual merit. A lot of artists effectively buy their way into visibility and success.

With us: we cover things because we’re genuinely fans of them. There are so many incredible bands out there that people would absolutely love if they were just given the chance to know they existed in the first place.

TL: Yeah!. And that’s why it continues. People know what they’re going to get with Gimmie and they trust it.

I was talking to Josh, the singer from Rapid Dye the other day and he was honest and said, that he doesn’t always like all the stuff that Gimmie covers, but he knows there could be something cool coming. That we really have an eclectic curation of stuff. A lot of publications are often one note.

TL: That’s it! I used to write a lot for Unbelievably Bad.

We loved Unbelievably Bad

TL: It’s the same reason, really. You’re not buying something because of whatever insanity is on the cover—you’re buying it because you know it’s going to be interesting. It might not even be to your taste, but that’s part of the point. If your tastes aren’t constantly evolving, then you’ve kind of given up a little bit. If you’re genuinely passionate about music, it never ends. 

There’s always something new to discover. It’s always on to the next thing. That’s what’s exciting about music. There are only 12 notes, and yet it just keeps going forever.

It’s like cracking a safe over and over again. Different combinations of internal, external and environmental factors completely reconfigure the outcome every time, even though the raw materials never change. It’s still just 12 notes.

That’s why music stays exciting to me.

Guppy are a good example of that. I’ve seen Mitch play in so many different bands, but Guppy sounds completely different to everything else he’s done. Again, it comes down to big personalities and people being willing to fully explode with expression. It’s really fun to watch.

And honestly, how else do people hear about this stuff unless somebody is out there doing the work and talking about it properly like you guys are?

When I was a kid and first started making a zine, it was really just about wanting to share music with people. I’d hear something and think, oh my god, this is incredible. How do more people not know about this? I just wanted to write about it so other people could discover them and maybe feel the same excitement I did. That’s always been the whole reason behind it. Still to this day.

TL: Yeah, I can imagine we probably both hijacked the tape decks at school. That was the good side of being a little music dictator. Everybody else was still listening to Metallica or …And Justice for All and you’d be like, “No, check this out instead. Listen to this.”

I still have people I went to primary school and high school with telling me, “I’m still really into Rollins Band and Tool because of you.” And I’m like, “No, no—you’re supposed to keep going past that. Please don’t stop there.” I was only 12 or 13 when I was obsessed with those bands. The whole point is to keep moving forward and keep engaging with new things. But not everybody’s built to be a marathon runner with music.

Sometimes I genuinely think about quitting. There are days where I sit there wondering, why am I even doing this? Especially when people start treating you less like a person and more like a platform they can use. That part makes me really uncomfortable. It can make me want to step away from everything completely.

I’ve had people harass me for not covering their band. I’ve been called snobby or elitist because I didn’t write about someone’s band. There’s a bunch of shitty stuff that happens behind the scenes that we never really talk about publicly.

I’ve never wanted to turn any of that into a public spectacle. I don’t want to feed that energy. I’ve watched public conflict become its own form of currency in creative spaces. I’d rather people connect with what I do because they genuinely get something out of the work, not because I’ve shouted the loudest online about something.

I work a hectic day job as a book editor, helping fellow Indigenous and POC writers tell their stories, alongside doing Gimmie. A lot of the time I simply don’t have the capacity to cover everything. When you spend your days looking at words all day, looking at more words in your free time can be a lot.

TL: Yeah, that’s true. Fuck them. Those people usually quit pretty quickly. The opportunists never really last. I’ve met a lot of them over the years.

It takes stamina to push through all the bullshit. There are always people who just want to be famous, and the money side of it has always been the biggest red flag for me. I’m always thinking, “Why are you doing this? Why are you in this band? What’s actually motivating you?”

There’s one city in this country that’s especially notorious for it—people constantly jumping from one thing to another, using whatever they can to climb as fast as possible. Melbourne has a bit of it too, but nothing compared to Sydney.

I don’t know. That whole world just has nothing to do with me. I try to interact with it as little as possible. At the end of the day, you just try to surround yourself with the right people. That’s why community matters so much. And then, as soon as somebody figures out how to commodify something genuine, it’s like, “Cool, we’ve got to start again.” Burn it down and keep moving forward.

But yeah, thanks for doing so much heavy lifting for so long. It’s genuinely appreciated.

Thank you. I think I do it for the same reason you make music—you just feel compelled to do it. We have to. It’s either keep going or die. 

TL: Well, definitely don’t do that! I think about this a lot. One of the benefits of being in bands is that it’s kind of like a marriage. It pushes friendships beyond their normal limits. A lot of my support networks have probably come from that, because those people have had to deal with me being radical or erratic or whatever I am.

Lately, though, I’ve realised I’ve probably closed myself off from people a bit too much. Just before Christmas I was at a gig talking to this younger guy I’d known peripherally for years. Because of old hardcore-scene baggage and preconceived ideas, I’d never really engaged properly with him. But this time I just thought, “Fuck it, I’m going to lean in.”

We started talking about family stuff, his dad, how he grew up, and I just kept asking questions. I reckon we talked through two whole bands without noticing. And I loved it. I walked away thinking, “Oh, I actually know this person now.” It was really nice.

The older you get, the more you realise we don’t tend to make many new friends—we mostly just lose people. So I’m trying to stay open to connection now instead of shutting it down.

I don’t know what advice I can really give, except maybe to trust that people do care and are interested in you more than you think. And honestly, call me anytime. I’d genuinely love to chat. These days I mostly just see missed opportunities, and I don’t want to keep living like that. There are too many good people out there that we don’t won’t to lose.

I saw a lot of loss pretty early on. Because of that, I think I started realising how precious a lot of this actually is. Even with all the nihilism I carried around for years, you still see the direct consequences of treating people badly. You can see the damage it causes and the bitterness that grows out of it. Trying not to become that way takes work. It’s not easy. But it’s rewarding, because you end up forming real bonds with people.

It’s the same reason I love starting bands with people. You want to see those personalities thrive. You want to create spaces where people can fully become themselves. It’s big stuff, really. It matters a lot. Even in the underground [laughs].

Yeah. I think a lot of people who are drawn to underground culture are also carrying some form of mental health stuff or emotional struggle. You end up with all these intense personalities and experiences colliding in the same spaces, and I think that’s part of why those worlds can feel so emotionally charged and complicated.

I’ve dealt with mental health stuff my entire life, and honestly, I think it’s something I’ll probably always be managing on some level. I don’t really believe there’s a magical point where everything suddenly gets fixed.

TL: Yeah, it took me a long time to realise that basically every person I surrounded myself with during my formative years was dealing with some pretty serious mental health stuff. And eventually you start thinking, “Well, it can’t just be everybody else. Maybe it’s me.”

So I’ve just kind of gone through life happily undiagnosed and unmedicated, probably under the false impression that I can manage it all on my own. 

But then you start questioning where the line is. Is it mental illness, or is it just my personality? Maybe this is simply who I am.

At this point, I think I’m mostly just trying to manage myself in a way that doesn’t hurt other people. We’ll see how we go! [laughs]. Into the void.

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Murphy’s Law frontman Jimmy G: “I’d much rather love than hate. It feels a lot better.

Original photo: courtesy of @creepynyc / handmade collage by B

At 60 years old, James Drescher aka Jimmy G, is racing vintage Harley-Davidsons on beaches, jumping off stages, touring the world, hangin’ with his chihuahua cutie, Finley, and laughing louder than most. Speaking ahead of his NYC punk band, Murphy’s Law’s first ever tour of Australia and New Zealand, Jimmy moves effortlessly between hilarious tour stories, deep reflections on mortality, talking about NYHC history and explaining why he’d rather inspire kids to start bands than smoke their first joint.

More than 40 years after Murphy’s Law started playing parties and clubs like A7, Jimmy remains the band’s one constant member. In this in-depth conversation, he talks to Gimmie about friendship, ageing, spirituality, surviving a near-death health scare, the changing hardcore scene, upcoming new music and reissuing their back-catalogue and why, despite everything life has thrown at him, he still believes making people happy is one of the most important things you can do.

JIMMY: We’re doing a new record right now, we’ve been working on it for the past year. It’s been a while…

A while? Only 25 years!

J: [Laughs] Yeah. And we’re doing a deal with Trust Records right now, who’s going to put out our back catalog. We’re hoping it works out, because there’s a lot of legalities around it, but hopefully it’ll be out by next year. It’ll be nice for the new album and all the old records to be out on one single label, under a good trustworthy label. 

Yeah. Trust Records do a really great job. All their releases have been killer, from the first release they did of Circle Jerks’ Group Sex to everything else. Good to know Murphy’s Law’s getting the Trust treatment!

J: Yeah, and we’re getting ready to go to Australia and New Zealand. And then we’re doing Riot Fest this summer.

Other than that, I race motorcycles. So I’m getting ready to race in the beginning of October. 

That’s awesome. My brother races speed cars. And my dad was celebrated speed car driver in the 60s.

J: Oh that’s great!

Yeah, I’ve been around that stuff since I was young. When I was a kid, my family started the first motorcycle shop in our area. They had a playpen set up out the back in the mechanics area and when all the bikies would come to get their bikes fixed, they’d play with me while they were waiting.

J: That’s really great! I race vintage Harley-Davidsons. I’m actually in Wildwood, New Jersey right now at the beach. I’m out at the ocean [turns camera towards the window], can you see it? I’m racing on that beach. We race with tank shift Harley-Davidsons.

Nice! How did you get into that? 

J: I’ve always been into motorcycles, and my friend started this race called The Race of Gentlemen. I had the opportunity to get one of these bikes designed to race on the beach, and I jumped on it. I’m getting better at it. Every year, I’m a little less scared when I do it.

What first attracted you to motorcycles?

J: Same thing as punk rock—it’s the same stupid, dangerous thing that you shouldn’t do [laughs]. You know, they go hand in hand: motorcycles and punk rock music and hardcore music. You’re on the street, you’re risking your life, you’re having fun at the same time. That’s pretty much it. And it’s just cool!

I know you live above a hot rod shop and that you’ve lived in Astoria, Queens forever; what keeps you rooted to there?

J: I get cheap rent right now. Unfortunately, where I’m living, with the hot rod shop, they’re selling the house, so I don’t really know what I’m doing anytime soon. But the house was there since 1920, and my landlord builds hot rods, so I’m above a garage, a lot of cool stuff. So there’s always something new and cool pulling up in front. And the block I live on, I’ve lived here for 60 years. I can see the Empire State Building from my window. So it’s pretty cool. I’m right by the city.

As far back as the lyrics of your song ‘A Day in the Life’ you’ve been telling the world: Astoria, Queens rules. Why does it rule?

J: Queens is where the Ramones came from. Where Tony Bennett came from. Where Christopher Walken came from… don’t get me started [laughs]. The band Reagan Youth is from Queens; Urban Waste, Kraut; Token Entry; Gorilla Biscuits! Not to brag, but all the best stuff from New York Hardcore and punk music is really coming from Queens. I’m very proud of that. 

And it’s very multicultural. They say, there’s more languages spoken in Queens, New York, than anywhere else in the world. There’s more different cultures’ food that you can get in one spot than anywhere else. And it’s just badass. It’s two seconds from the city, you can see it right from your front door.

Cool! New York’s always somewhere I’ve wanted to visit. I’ve been through a bunch of America but never the East Coast.

J: The East Coast is beautiful in its own right. The West Coast is beautiful, very beautiful, but the East Coast has got a lot of different flavour. You could start down south in Florida, and it’s like the Bahamas of America. And then you work your way up to freezing your ass off all the way up north. It’s got a lot to offer. If you go at the right time of year, you can go from 100 degrees to 30 degrees along the whole eastern seaboard. It’s really beautiful from top to bottom. 

Before music, what were you interested in? 

J: I’ve pretty much been into music since I knew to know anything [laughs].

My grandfather, who I didn’t know, he passed before I was born, was a drummer and he made drums. And I had, there was one picture that I would see of him, I only have three pictures of the man. And his name was James Fioravante, Italian. Lived in Brooklyn, New York. And I had a music studio called Jimmy Pop’s Music Studio. And he made drums by hand and could play pretty much every instrument except for the fiddle or the violin. And I was really intrigued by it.

My mother was very, very into music. My mother always influenced me to listen. I was always listening to music in the house because she liked the oldies and Elvis and such. So I was always listening to the rock and roll in the house.

And my mom was always talking about my grandfather—this man I was intrigued with, who I would never get to meet. I wanted to impress him from the great beyond, I guess. But I wanted to be like him because he seemed so cool and so pure.

Aw, man, that’s so lovely. I’m glad you mentioned your mum—I was gonna ask about her, because I see you post photos of her every now and again. She seems like a pretty important person in your life.

J: She was! She went through a hard life. 

What’s your mum given you that is still a part of you today? 

J: My personality, and being supportive, understanding and loving, gave me the feeling of being Italian. I’m Italian American, but very much the New York Italian American experience came from my mom. We’d have meatballs on Sunday and sauce and the whole thing.

My brother—my other brother—he didn’t really feel the vibe of being Italian. But it really clicked with me. My grandfather and my mother, made me proud to be who I am. So that’s important.

My father wasn’t Italian, but I grew up in a bar that made Goodfellas look like a beauty parlour [laughs]. I grew up in this very hard bar with gambling guys, and my father was a shylock—not the nicest guy in the world. But I grew up around that whole element my entire youth, in a bar called Coretta’s Bar.

I’d shine shoes in the bar. There were slot machines in there. Guys would still be gambling from the night before, and I’d walk in wearing my hockey uniform on my way to play hockey for the church. I’d go shine shoes in my uniform and make my money for the weekend as a little kid, then go play.

Was the your first job?

J: I’ve worked my whole life. I sold lemonade on the corner, I sold newspapers, I shined shoes, I shovelled walkways when it snowed. Then I got a job fixing elevators, and then I started a band, and that ruined my life [laughs]. Once I started the band, that was it. I couldn’t go to work in an elevator shaft anymore. I started going on tour and here I am, forty-three years later, still doing it.

What drove you to work so early? 

J: I needed money. My father wasn’t giving away money, and he was very big on work ethic with me. I had to work. If I wanted extra money, if I wanted a skateboard, I had to work for it. If I wanted a Bee Gees record, I had to work for it. If I wanted anything, I had to work for it.

And the same thing goes for the band today. Everything I do with the band, I have to work for. No one’s really given us anything. But Dave from Vinnie’s has definitely helped us out a lot now. He’s making sure a bucket-list item gets ticked off for me by getting down to see you guys. I’m nervous and excited because I don’t know what to expect. When I got on the plane to Japan, I thought I was going to another world. Now I see how far I’m going to see you guys and it’s like, wow.!

Who or what else inspired you to want to play music? 

J: There was a guy, Doug Holland, who played guitar in the band Kraut and later on the Cro-Mags. He was a neighbour of mine and he taught me what music to listen to, and I give him a lot of credit for turning me on to a lot of music.

And Harley Flanagan from the Cro-Mags as well. He and I became friends when we were both very young, and he taught me a lot about music too.

Once I met those guys and they started turning me on to more music, I started going to shows. There was a guy, Jack Rabbit, who was a DJ and he turned me on to a lot of music too. It just spread from there.

The more people I met, the more music I learned about, and the more it drew me into the vacuum of music, the music scene, which is not a bad thing because I have some of the best friends I could ever imagine because of it.

You initially met Doug talking on CB radios? 

J: Yeah, before we had these little boxes [smart phones]… Old guy talking now [laughs]… there was no way to communicate. If it was late, your parents weren’t gonna let you use the phone. So we had walkie-talkies and we’d all communicate through them around the neighbourhood.

Then we figured out how to put CB radios on our bicycles, and we’d talk to each other through CB radios. We’d have fights with guys from other neighbourhoods and talk on the CB radios while running back and forth. It was funny. We were nerds with CB radios, running around [laughs].

But Doug would play punk rock music over the CB radio, which I guess is illegal, but that’s how I started hearing it. I was like, ‘What the hell is this?’ Then he and I met up, and he just started playing more and more music for me.

Then when you were around fifteen you started DJ-ing at a club?

J: Yeah, I was fourteen or fifteen, when I really started getting into music and buying records, that’s when I started DJing at A7, which was an after-hours club. Which is pretty funny. I was a bouncer and a DJ at fifteen!

I’ve heard [documentarian/author] Drew Stone talk about A7 and mentioning that “for a hardcore band, A7 was like Madison Square Garden”.

J: I don’t know about that [laughs], but maybe not. The culture we were in was anti-Madison Square Garden. It was more like playing in somebody’s home, not in a big arena. It was much more grassroots than Madison Square Garden.

It wasn’t a cold, empty venue that anybody with a lot of money could play in. It was a place you had to earn the right to play. You had to gain respect to be able to get onstage, and you had to gain respect to not get pulled off the stage and thrown out the door.

So it was very different from Madison Square Garden. It was a very humbling place. Not everybody knew about it, but everybody who did was part of this cultural explosion happening in the Lower East Side, and also around SoHo.

Across the street was the Pyramid Club, and that’s where the whole drag culture was being born. That’s eventually where me and Raybeez from Warzone worked.

So there was this whole little scene stretching from one side of the street to the other that kept growing. The punk scene, and the drag scene. We were protecting the drag queens, and the drag queens were making us laugh and giving us work and security jobs. It was a big family community.

Unfortunately, that neighbourhood is very expensive now, very gentrified. It’s hard to have music like that now, any real grassroots stuff. It’s all twenty-dollar drink bars and fancy food and stuff. And that has its place, but not in that neighbourhood. Unfortunately, it’s been ruined. But there’s still a lot of that as I tour the country and the United States. There’s always a little dive bar and there’s always some little place that sprouts up. It’s like a joyous little wart that pops up with music coming out of it.

Yeah, a lot of people I know get really sad when local venues close. But because I’ve been around the scene for maybe thirty years or so now, you just know something else will eventually come along. And someone will get something together and something new will happen. That’s usually when shit is most exciting, when its forming.

J: Yeah, and a lot of times the people crying online about a venue closing haven’t been to that venue in fifteen years. There’ll be all these people complaining about it.

There’s the CBGB Festival now, and understandably, it’s not CBGB. It’s a festival celebrating what the venue was and the energy it brought.

We played it last year and there was a lot of back-and-forth nonsense online about it. But really, people should just celebrate anything that gives attention to music, especially punk and hardcore.

People say, ‘It’s too expensive.’ Okay, so don’t go. Or, ‘It’s not CBGB’s.’ Well, obviously. It’s just the internet, people get balls of steel online. 

Morrissey is headlining this year. I saw that and thought, Morrissey playing with Agnostic Front? Who would’ve thought?!

Let’s see if he turns up.

J: [Laughs] That’s the bet. There’s a betting thing in America where you can bet on anything. You can bet on stuff like whether Morrissey will cancel for the CBGB Festival. People will bet for or against it, and you win money.

I saw people online saying, ‘Oh, so Patti Smith is headlining then.’ Because she was billed right under him.

J: Patti Smith deserves it because she played CBGB’s. Morrissey never did. 

Yep. And, Morrissey also did a review of the Ramones bagging them out in 1976, I believe he called them “no-talents” and then in 2014 he did the Morrissey Curates The Ramones release!

J: Yeah, it’s amazing what people will do for money when they’re offered it. Yeah, they’ll back that! [laughs].

You know, Morrissey puts his foot in his mouth a lot, unfortunately, and then doesn’t really back it up with action. He misses shows and lets his fans down. I’ve never really been a fan, but that’s not my forte anyway. I like hardcore punk music. Obviously, that’s why we’re here. So whether he’s there or not, I don’t care. I won’t lose sleep over it. I wouldn’t go see him anyway.

I’m excited, if I’m in town, to see Patti Smith and, of course, Agnostic Front and A Wilhelm Scream. And I want to watch A Wilhelm Scream totally destroy the place, even though the place is made of stone! Literally, where we played was on the Hilly stage in an old stone quarry. There were giant boulders the crowd had to move between. So I’m looking forward to seeing them destroy the stone quarry.

Recently, I was revisiting American Hardcore by Steven Blush. In it, you talk about how, back in the day, there was a lot of chaos, riots, arrests and heavy partying around the scene. Did all of that just feel normal at the time, or did it feel kind of out of control even then?

J: We were crazy punk kids. And as far as doing shows back then, it wasn’t organised like it is now with professional promoters within our community. Now we have merchandisers within our community. We have businesses within our community, which is fine. I think everyone should be able to make a living within our community, and I think that’s a good thing.

Because when this music first started, it was people taking advantage of us. Now our friends take advantage of us [laughs], but it’s within our community.

Back then, though, it was the Wild West. We’d play shows and Nazi skinheads would show up and you’d fight them. Cops would show up because kids were jumping off the stage and they didn’t know what was going on. The bouncers would fight us. It felt like every day was another battle because nobody knew what to expect from it. They didn’t understand it.

It wasn’t on TV all the time like it is now, and you couldn’t look it up in a little box in your hand. It was a threat to people. We looked threatening to people and they didn’t understand us.

Now we do benefits for kids. We do benefits for animals. We’re a community of people who support each other. We love each other and we love everyone around us who loves us back. I’d much rather love than hate. It feels a lot better.

Was there ever a moment back then, where all the craziness that was happening, stopped feeling fun? Were there ever any really heavy moments?

J: When my bass player got murdered, Chuck Valle. We were on tour. He wasn’t in the band at the time, he was out doing sound for a band called Sugartooth. He was in Los Angeles and he got murdered. He got stabbed.

That really took the wind out of me. All of a sudden, you start realising things. Then, as you get older, your friends start dying. So there’s this push-pull feeling of sadness because, as you get older, you see people dropping off, naturally and unnaturally, through drugs and things like that. And now illness. Cancer has taken a lot of our friends.

But then I think about it and I’m like, if I wasn’t doing this, how unhappy would I be? I have my music to make me happy and I have people in front of me who make me happy.

This is like a gateway drug without any drugs involved. I’m going to Australia to make people happy. My job is to make people laugh and have a good time, not to be some lunkhead tough guy. I like to drink beer and have fun with people. I think word got out about that [laughs].

But you know, it’s easy to be sad. I think it’s easier to be happy if you set your mind straight. It’s a mindset. I don’t want to be the cliché guy saying ‘P.M.A.’, but it’s positive mental attitude. You need to keep your head up and understand that life is very short.

If you’re sad all the time, you’re wasting the chance to enjoy life.

Totally!

J: Like, I’m sitting here looking at the ocean as I speak to you. I’m at a hotel taking a break with my girlfriend. The ocean’s right there. You can see it from here.

You’ll love the town, Gold Coast, I live in. You can walk to the ocean from Vinnie’s Dive. It’s really beautiful. You’re going to love it.

J: But you guys get sharks that jump out of the water and shit, right? Don’t you? 

Out from shore they have shark nets, so it lessens the chance of sharks coming near where you swim.

J: Shit, if you got to put up a net to protect me, I’ll go in the pool. 

Ha ha!

J: I’m so excited to go there because everything I love is in Australia. I love Mad Max. I love sharks. I love The Saints. I think you guys have platypuses and wombats. You guys have all the stuff I love. Kangaroos.

There’s a big mob of kangaroos that live down the end of my street and they come into the park near my house. Sometimes there’s up to twenty of them!

J: I heard they’re kind of scary or they can punch you. That they get up and get in boxing stance. I’m more of a wombat guy in my older years now, they’re little chubby teddy bears. 

They’re one of my favs too! I heard that one of your all-time favourite songs your whole life is ‘Dancing in the Front Lines by The Stimulators. 

J: Where did you get all this stuff? This is great, I’m impressed.

It was about us in the front line. And this was before there were mosh pits, mind you. He called it ‘skanking’. We’d knock the seats out of the way and get up the front, and they’d do the ‘dancing in the front line’. And Harley Flanagan would jump over the drum kit and grab the mic and sing. That was when Harley played drums, which I think he does best. The Stimulators really changed my life too. Did you ever see that band? They were amazing.

I read that Murphy’s Law formed at a party?

J: We formed and then played a party. We only had, like, two songs. It was this guy, Giorgio Gomelsky, who managed The Yardbirds and The Rolling Stones and bands like that. He had this art space, and Jesse Malin’s band Heart Attack was playing, and I believe Reagan Youth too.

It was New Year’s Eve and they let us jump up and play some songs. We played the two songs we had and everybody wanted to hear them again, so we just kept playing them over and over. Then we did a cover of (I’m Not Your) Steppin’ Stone and that was it. The rest was history.

Do you ever get nervous before you play? 

J: Every time I throw up before a show, I still get scared.

Really?

J: Yeah. And I feel like if I’m not nervous, or if any entertainer isn’t nervous… I don’t really consider myself much of a singer. I entertain people and I make people happy. 

I think with any entertainer, if you’re not nervous, you probably shouldn’t be doing it because you’re overconfident. And overconfidence kills capability.

If you’re overconfident, you think you’re cool, and you’re not. No one’s cool. We all fuck up, we all make mistakes and we all make fools of ourselves. And it’s very easy to do that when you’re standing in front of a group of people with an amplified microphone in your face.

So yeah, it’s scary. I want to make sure that when I get out there, everyone’s laughing, everyone’s having a good time, everyone’s smiling, everyone feels as important as I feel on stage.

And when they leave, for that hour we’re up there playing, they’re not thinking about politics, they’re not thinking about what side they’re on, they’re not thinking about religion or bills or any of that stuff. They’re just enjoying the moment they’re having with me and the band.

It’s not about being afraid or angry. They should be laughing and having fun the whole time.

So being present and being in the moment? 

J: Yes. Thank you. Very, very, very, very Buddha of you [laughs].

Ha! I did a whole project where I interviewed people from the very beginnings of punk like Suicide, Ramones, Devo, The Clash, The Saints and more, all the way through to people still carrying the torch today, about creativity and spirituality and navigating life on your own terms. It took me 20 years. 

J: Wow, that’s impressive. Doing it on your own is very difficult because there’s no retirement plan for this and there’s no pension plan for this kind of life.

Now I’m sixty, and I have friends in their seventies still doing it. But what do you do? I can’t really see it going much further than seventy for me.

I mean, Charlie Harper from UK Subs is, I think, eighty-two now, and to me he’s still completely valid.

But now it’s the scary part, because you start wondering when it ends. The end isn’t too far away for what I do, because I don’t know how many more years I can keep doing this. So while I still can, I’m trying to do as much as possible.

I hear that! I try to get as much out of each day as possible too. Humour feels like a really big part of how you move through the world. Where did that come from? 

J: Because I had a very hard childhood. I was picked on at school, beaten up at school, beaten up by my father. I had a very sad life when I was a little kid.

Then I found music and found a scene full of other kids who felt the same way I did, and it made me feel better. I realised that making fun of things and having fun with things felt a lot better than being scared and sad and afraid.

And I had a community of people around me watching out for me and supporting me. The hardcore punk community is very… well, obviously I’m talking to you in Australia, so it’s international now. It’s all over the world. It’s a great thing. It’s a very powerful thing and a very supportive thing.

Any interview I’ve ever read with you, no one ever really asks you about songwriting, I’m curious about that.

J: I’m not much of a songwriter. Most of the good stuff is written by other people [laughs], but the dumb, funny shit is written by me. Like ‘Fun’, ‘The Beer Song’ and ‘Crucial Bar-B-Q’. The fun stuff I write; the more serious stuff, other guys have written. I’m a terrible songwriter. I’m better at singing and making fun of them than writing songs.

For the new record, myself and Brendan—my bass player—it was just me and him. I’d come up with a title or a verse, and we’d go back and forth via text and build the song like that. He’s really good at structure, and that was where I was failing with the band. I didn’t have members long enough, or strong enough, to help write structure. So I could jot down all the stuff I wanted, but you need verse, chorus, verse, bridge, outro—and I couldn’t get that shit together.

Now Brendan and I have this record done. We’ve finally got 19 new songs, and now we’re doing another record, like a 10-inch EP. It’s going to look like a bootleg show flyer, and every band name is a song on the record. So there’s going to be a song called Agnostic Front. There’s going to be a song called Cro-Mags. There’s going to be a song called Reagan Youth. There’s going to be a song called Killing Time. Songs named after all our friends’ bands. Not necessarily about the bands themselves—the song titles are just the band names.

Are there any particular songwriters that you always go back to, that you think are really great? 

J: My favourite songwriter is one of my best friends: Jesse Malin. He played in the band Heart Attack, and he’s one of my best friends. The way he writes—that’s impressive.

He’s just put out a book and has been doing this off-Broadway play about his life and telling his story. He wrote all of it. He writes a lot of songs. He wrote a song about our friend Howie Pyro called ‘Hollywood Forever’, and I did the ‘woo-hoos’ on it. Howie Pyro played in D Generation with him.

I’d say Jesse’s my biggest songwriting influence. He’s great. And the fact that he can get on stage by himself with an acoustic guitar and sing a song—huge balls to do that. I could never do that. That’s insane. Any folk singer who can get up there and perform acoustic by themselves with just a guitar—that takes an amount of courage I can’t gather. I can’t do it.

I saw that Jesse’s producing your album.

J: He’s executive producing it along with Brendan, and there are a lot of people involved in this record. We started recording it at Flux Studios—which is The Strokes’ studio—and we’re literally about four blocks from A7. So I wanted to make sure it was in the proper area. I wanted to record a New York record in New York. A lot of bands talk about New York hardcore and they don’t even live in New York. I live in New York, and I’m proud of it.

Then we did some of the other vocals at Little Steven’s studio from Bruce Springsteen’s band, which is pretty cool. And then we did everything else with our guitar player, Phil Caivano, who also plays with Monster Magnet. So we’re finishing it up with him now.

We’ve got a real star-studded event happening. Now we’re at the mixing and mastering stage, and we’re trying to figure out what we’re going to do there, because that’s a really important part of the process.

Sounds like you have a lot going on! Murphy’s Law hasn’t had a new release in a long time; why now?

J: It’s been time. It’s been over 20 years I’ve been trying to do it, and we actually have almost a whole other album recorded that I just didn’t like.

What didn’t you like about it?

J: It just wasn’t up to par with what I want people to hear, especially since there’s been such a long gap in time. I want it to be good. I want people to really like it. I don’t want to just throw some shit at the wall and see if it sticks. I want to make sure it’s good—a quality thing.

We also have another covers record coming out, a compilation of cover songs. It’s pretty funny. We did some interesting stuff. We did ‘Time’ by Pink Floyd, we did ‘Nice ’n’ Sleazy’ by The Stranglers, and ‘Zoom’ from the kids’ TV show. It’s all stuff we compiled throughout the years from people asking us to do songs for compilations. I took all of them and made a compilation out of it myself.

So that’s going to be called Covered, and the cover art is going to be a Waffle House. Waffle House is a crazy place to go after a lot of partying, so the cover is literally a riot in a Waffle House, with me running out of it.

And now the cover for this one kind of works as a storyboard with the cover for ‘Go Jimmy Go’. The idea I stole from Circle Jerks—they had a 1982 tour poster with the van and the Circle Jerks skanker running.

So on ‘Go Jimmy Go’ it’s me running while the van’s chasing me. Now, on the Covered artwork, the van is parked, all the people who were chasing me are inside rioting in the Waffle House, and I’m running out of the Waffle House.

The art was done by an Australian artist?

J: Yes, Mick Lambrou. I’m psyched. He’s become he’s the house artist for New York Hardcore now. 

For the ‘Go Jimmy Go’ art there’s a van of people chasing you; tell us about the symbolism of the people chasing you. 

J: Yeah, you’ve really got to look at everything. That’s why so many bands put such bullshit out—they’ll just use a picture of a foot or a boot or something [laughs].

When somebody holds the product in their hand—and a record is a product, I’m sorry to say; most people think we should give everything away—but no, we sell it. And when I sell something, I want people to be happy with what they’re buying.

When you buy the record, you’re holding a piece of artwork in your hand. I want somebody to look at it and be able to spot little details, like: ‘Oh look, there’s a little rat being chased by a pigeon,’ or ‘Oh look, there’s Vinnie Stigma standing in the doorway.’

There are all these little ‘Where’s Waldo?’ moments of hardcore music. Like, ‘Oh, there’s the Killer Beer fighting the Murph Man.’ You’ve got to sit with it for a while. You can’t just glance at it and be done with it. I like doing that.

I noticed there a Hare Krishna guy in there.

J: That’s the running joke in our song ‘Crucial Bar-B-Q’. We have the line: ‘Hare Krishna, stay away, ’cause 18 bands are gonna play.’ It was just a poke at my friends, because there was a time when Hare Krishna got into the hardcore scene.

Ray Cappo is basically like a Hare Krishna monk now, and that’s great. But when you’re a little kid, you don’t understand shit and you make fun of it. Now I’m a big kid, and I know and understand it—and I still make fun of it [laughs]. But I love Ray.

I love all of Ray’s bands. But still to this day, Ray’s the only person who’s ever charged me to do an interview them.

J: What? That’s disgusting. 

I paid it because I really wanted to chat with him because his bands have meant so much to me over the years. I sent him a big email telling him that. Then he charged me the equivalent of a private yoga lesson. I still have a photo copy of the International bank transfer I sent, at the time it was a lot for me to afford.

J: Honestly, though, I think Ray’ll do good with whatever money you gave him, because he’s not an idiot. He’s a spiritual guy, he makes people happy, he makes people healthy, and he’s a very positive person. That’s really funny, though. That killed me! [laughs].

Over the years, it seems like weed’s been a pretty big part of the Murphy’s Law universe—Bong Blast Demo, Back with a Bong and Beer, Smoke and Live

J: Not as much on stage as it used to be. I try to clean things up on stage now, especially with much younger kids coming to the shows. I don’t want to be the influence that gets kids to have their first drink anymore, and I don’t want kids smoking their first joint with me.

I don’t want to influence underage kids to use drugs or drink. Honestly, this is probably the first time I’m really saying this, but I’m not comfortable with it anymore.

What I do in my own time is my own time. But I don’t want underage kids at my shows watching me drink and get fucked up and then thinking, ‘Wow, look, Jimmy’s cool doing that. Let me try it.’ I don’t want to be that guy.

I want kids to want to sing, or play bass in a band, or drums or guitar, or sell shirts and make shirts and be part of the community—not part of the problem. And I think drug use and drinking can be a problem. It’s been a problem in my life. It’s fun until it’s not. And I don’t want to be the guy who introduces a kid to it for the first time.

I love that. Nice work Jimmy.

J: There are a lot of bands that are the complete opposite of that. And obviously, I smoke—I’ve smoked all my life—but I don’t encourage it. I don’t want to be responsible for somebody going down a bad path, because for some people it’s just not good for them.

We’re getting offered shows with The Aquabats, and they were basically like, ‘Jimmy’s just got to do G-rated shows.’ Why do you think they call me Jimmy G for “Jimmy G-rated” [laughs].

The litmus test was when we did shows with The Interrupters. They’ve got a really young crowd too, with parents bringing their kids and everything, and it went well. People loved it when I was bringing kids up on stage.

You can still have fun without bringing a giant bong and a keg of beer on stage. You can have fun with kids and influence them into the community of making music—and that’s important.

I saw a picture on your Insta—it was from when you went to Jamaica. You were standing next to a Rasta guy with all these “trees” around you. I was wondering if you could tell me a little bit about that trip.

J: Sadly, the ganja man just got hit by a car. One of my best friends, Glen, owns a little hotel place across the street called Seagrape, and that’s usually where I stay because I get the hookup. The ganja man is right across the road. There’s a ganja man across the road everywhere in Negril [laughs], but he’s our ganja man.

Somebody was driving like an idiot down this little road (they drive crazy there) and he got hit by a car. So I’m really hoping he’s okay.

He grows organic ganja. He’d be like, ‘Do you want the mango ganja?’ and he’d grow giant plants surrounded by mangoes, or oranges, or all these different organic fruits and stuff. This literally just happened recently, so I’m hoping he’s alright.

I was right on the corner where he sits and smokes weed all day. He smokes weed and listens to music all day. He doesn’t deserve that shit.

But going to Jamaica is really amazing. I love going there to buy records and stuff, and I just love the whole culture. It’s a beautiful place, and it’s a sad place in its own way too.

You go there and some people are living very humble lives. Almost like they have nothing—but at the same time, they have everything they need. They wake up in the morning, grow organic vegetables, listen to music, make music, swim, go up into the mountains—that’s their life.

But there are also a lot of incomplete homes there. People had dreams that went beyond what they could finish. As you drive through the streets of Jamaica, you see a lot of incomplete dreams. That part is kind of sad. I really wish people the best there.

And now they keep getting hit with these storms. It’s hard. But there are so many wonderful people there.

You mentioned earlier that you turned 60, last year.What did that mean to you to get there? 

J: I know I’m on my way out soon, so I’ve got to have fun.

It was intimidating, that’s for sure. It’s kind of scary to be 60 and not feel 60 or live like you’re 60, and then see people on TV who are like, ‘Yeah, I’m 58,’ and I’m thinking, ‘You look like you’re 80.’

It really shows how you live your life. Not necessarily eating healthy or anything—because I definitely don’t do that—but how keeping yourself happy keeps you healthy in your head. You stay younger by being happy, having fun with your friends and making music. That’s for sure.

Every year for my birthday we do this boat trip around Manhattan. We rent a boat, go around the Statue of Liberty, and one of our favourite friends’ bands opens for us. It’s like a three-hour trip—we go under the Brooklyn Bridge—a very New York experience.

What’s one of the most like 60 year old things you’ve caught yourself doing recently? 

J: Rolling out of bed now instead of jumping out of bed [laughs]. The spirit is strong—the knees are not.

I’m constantly getting massages, constantly getting injections in my knees and hip, because of the motorcycle racing and because I still jump off stages like an idiot.

I’m not going to stop doing the things I love until I absolutely have to—until I physically can’t do them anymore. Once I stop, that’s when all the pain kicks in from jumping off balconies and all the dumb shit I’ve done over the years. That’s when it all catches up with you. A rolling stone gathers no moss, and I don’t want any more moss growing on my ass.

You’ve had a lot of health challenges over the years; has that changed your perspective on anything at all? 

J: It’s scared the shit out of me!

Last night I got really sick again. I’ve had this infection in my kidneys that keeps going into my bladder, and it just won’t seem to go away. I’m on all these different antibiotics.

The funny thing is, when I came home from tour, I stopped drinking. I was like, ‘I’m not going out anymore. I’m not going to the bar. I’m only going to drink when I’m with the band.’ I wanted to focus on getting this record done because all of a sudden I’ve got a lot of work to do, a bunch of records coming out and a lot of responsibility on my shoulders.

Then I got sick anyway. My body was basically like, ‘Alright, fuck you.’ The infection wasn’t clearing up and the antibiotics weren’t kicking it. Yesterday I got in some bad shape again. As you can see, I’ve got sunburnt. I was out in the sun yesterday, and I don’t know if the heat just kicked my ass or what, but I was really not doing well. I’ve got to go get antibiotics again today.

As we get older, our parts start to fail. We run out of warranty. That’s when you really have to start focusing on maintenance, drinking fluids, taking vitamins and all that stuff, because God knows I’ve abused my body in more ways than one.

And it breaks my heart seeing some of my friends get cancer. I think about all the drugs I’ve done and all the horrible shit I’ve done to myself, then I see people who’ve been vegan and super healthy their whole lives getting fucking cancer anyway. It breaks my heart.

I get angry about it. Angry at whoever, or whatever, God is for letting this happen. It sucks. Cancer’s taken a lot of my friends recently.

Same, I’ve lost loved ones to that too. It totally sucks. I remember my dad telling me as a kid, that one of the lamest things about getting older is that you start to see all your friends pass away. For my dad, it got to a point where he no longer looked at the obituaries in the paper because everyone was gone. You wrote the song ‘Faith’ and even back then you were saying that you don’t really believe in God?

J: It’s kind of hard to believe in God when you see children being abused, or when you see the atrocious ways humanity treats each other.

I don’t want to be that guy right now, but it’s like, if there is a God, why is that God allowing this to happen?

People spend too much time looking up at the sky, waiting for something that never responds. What you really need to do is look at the person standing in front of you. That’s where spirituality comes from. We’re all spirits in our own right.

We’re here by magic. We live on this little fucking rock with this tiny membrane around it that keeps us alive. It’s a miracle.

And what do we do? We spend trillions of dollars on weapons to destroy each other. It’s fucking dumb. We should be saving each other, living and loving, not killing.

Talking with you, I get a sense that you’re an optimist; would you agree?

J: Very much so, very, very much so. 

Murphy Law’s been around for over four decades, you’re the one constant member.

J: I’m not good at anything else!. This is the best I do. Bad time to become a baker [laughs]. 

Is there any particular members of your band that were hard to lose?

J: It’s like asking a lizard if losing its tail was hard. Another tail grows back [laughs]. I’ve never said that one before. That’s a good one!

A member leaves, another member comes in, and it becomes a new experience. Every person adds something different. Honestly, some of these songs were terrible when we first wrote them 30 or 40 years ago. But then members started families and left, got jobs and left, started some other stupid band and left, and new people came in with new flavour, new sounds and new ways of playing the songs. Everything kept evolving because of it.

Granted, it’s hard when somebody leaves, especially right before a tour. But anybody who runs a business, or anything where you rely on people, deals with the same thing. It’s just part of it.

Through the band, though, I’ve made friends I’ll have for the rest of my life. Vinnie Stigma has been my friend forever. Roger Miret and all the guys from Agnostic Front, that’s family to me. It’s a blessing.

When a member leaves, it hurts, but sometimes it’s for the best. Sometimes they’ve bought a house, or they’re moving their recording studio, like my guitar player Phil Caivano is doing right now, and they’re moving on to bigger and better things. That’s a blessing for them, and it’s nice to see.

But when somebody’s doing something dumb and leaves the band, that hurts. When they’re getting too fucked up and they’ve got to go, that’s when it sucks. When they’re moving on to something better, though, that makes me feel good.

I’ve never read anywhere, why you actually called your band Murphy’s Law in the first place?

J: Well, that’s pretty much fitting, because anything that can go wrong will go wrong. Especially with a band. If the band’s not messing up, then a show gets cancelled, somebody gets sick on tour, the cops shut the show down, you don’t get paid. There’s always something going wrong on tour.

Lately, though, things have actually been going right, which is good. And now I’ve been touring in a camper, which has been great because I can bring my puppy with me. I’ve got a little dog named Finley, so he travels with me in the camper. We make pasta, cook food and just hang out at camp.

I’ve noticed that throughout your life, there’s always been dogs present. What do you get from dogs that you can’t get from anyone or anything else? 

J: My dear dog, spelled backwards, is God! [laughs]. Dogs are the purest souls there are. They’re amazing. I couldn’t imagine my life without them.

Same! Has there been an experience that’s really changed you? 

J: It’s kind of hard to talk about. There’s a movie that Howie Abrams just did with my friend. A bunch of my friends did it. 

Heavy Healing

J: Yes, Heavy Healing. It was about an incident where I ended up in hospital and they destroyed my urethra with a catheter. I wound up with a septic infection and was basically dying in the hospital.

What should have been an overnight visit turned into over a month, and I’m still dealing with issues from it to this day. It really messed my life up for a while.

It also showed me who my real friends were. That’s why I always say you find out who your real friends are when you’re moving house or when you’re in hospital. That’s when you find out who actually shows up.

And it’s sad when you realise the people you thought were your closest friends aren’t really there for you. The people you think you can rely on most don’t come to the hospital or help carry a box when you’re moving.

But that’s part of life, and in a weird way it’s a gift to learn that. A lot of people go through life without really seeing it clearly.

It was really scary for a while. I honestly thought I was going to die. I always expected I’d die young, but when it actually felt like it was happening, when my blood was full of infection and I was lying there dying, my reaction was basically: ‘I don’t want to die. I’m having too much fun right now. This is a bad time to die.’

But it gave me a new lease on life. That’s why I want to race motorcycles as much as I can, play as many shows as I can and keep writing music. I’m gonna ride this donkey until it runs off the cliff.

Thank you for sharing, Jimmy. I totally get that. What’s something that’s made you really, really happy lately? 

J: Well, going to Australia and New Zealand is a big one for me!

We started out playing on street corners and in the back of bars, and now we play all over the world. From little stick-in-the-wall places to giant stadium crowds. Sick of It All are doing the same thing, and I’m praying that Lou Koller gets better so he can get back to doing it too.

Same! We love Lou! I first met him almost 30 years ago! 

J: Awesome. It’s a blessing to go from where we started to where we are now. I’m going to fucking Australia and New Zealand on the other side of the world. I’ve played Japan, I’ve played all through Europe.

We were just morons making stupid songs for fun, and now I’m travelling the world making people happy. That’s a blessing. I’m a happy place right now, for sure. 

Follow @murphyslawnyc. Check out TRUST Records for future updates about the ML reissues. Tour info & tickets for the Australia/NZ tour via Vinnie’s Records.

Guitar Wolf’s Seiji: ‘Rock’n’roll is the path that makes me shine the brightest.’

Photo: Jhonny Russell / handmade collage by B.

For Seiji of Guitar Wolf, rock’n’roll isn’t just music—it’s a way of life powered by pure “jet” energy. Since the late ’80s the iconic Japanese band has blasted audiences with their raw sound and wild mythology of motorcycles, leather jackets, wolves and cosmic-inspired rock’n’roll. We caught up with Seiji to talk haunted houses, night skies, beer, and movies.

You were born in Nagasaki. Do you have any memories of growing up there?

SEIJI: Memories? I started the engine of my memory, but my gas tank was filled up in Shimane. Nagasaki is where I was born, but it was the winds of Shimane that forged my soul. That’s where my jet-setting life began.

Previously, you’ve mentioned that if you weren’t a musician, you wanted to be a “haunted house builder”. Why are you drawn to haunted houses?

S: They’re full of surprises that make people say, “Wow!” They’re the best! The thrill of surprising people is the same as rock’n’roll. The basis of entertainment is getting your heart pumping.

Photo: Jhonny Russell

Why is music important to you?

S: Everyone’s trying to achieve the best life possible, right? Everyone wants to present themselves in the coolest light. For me, rock’n’roll is the path that makes me shine the brightest; the path that makes me look the coolest. That’s all there is to it!

When did you decide that rock’n’roll would be your life?

S: It wasn’t a matter of logic, it was the moment my soul screamed, “This is it!” When I found the place where I felt the coolest, my path was set.

How has music supported you through difficult times?

S: Difficulties? Not in my life! There are many people in the world who have it much tougher. My worries are a blessing. I’m sorry, but the word “difficult” is too good for me.

Photo: Jhonny Russell

What have you learned about yourself through years of touring?

S: I can drink a lot of beer! Hahaha! And also… I love cute girls, after all. Isn’t that a universal truth?

Guitar Wolf has a unique world and imagination; where did this creative spirit start for you?

S: It’s the night sky. I love looking up at it and letting all kinds of images flow. Also, the thrill of riding a motorcycle, and the bittersweet memories of my youth. All of those things fuel my imagination.

What themes or emotions were most important while writing your new album More Jet!?

S: Humans are going to die soon anyway. So I just use music that I think is cool and add my own lyrics. There is no fear whatsoever. That is the jet energy of this time.

How do you feel you’ve grown as a songwriter over the years?

S: ​I think I have acquired the best guitar techniques. ​Even if I cover a famous song, I’m so bad I can’t hear the song. ​This is my “ultimate original”! 

Photo: Jhonny Russell

We enjoyed Wild Zero. What films do you like most?

S: ​Back to the Future, Burn Dragon, Grease!—all of them are the best!

Is there anything that people would be surprised about about you?

S: I have wolves in my ancestry! Everyone in Australia, look up at the night sky and wait. Jet! rock’n’roll!

Check out the new album More Jet! Out now via Sorcerer Records (AUS) & Goner (US).

Don’t miss the Australian tour – tickets HERE via On the Loose.

More Guitar Wolf HERE.

Upchuck’s KT: ‘I surround myself with good times and good energy.’

Original photo: Michael Tyrone Delaney / handmade collage art by B.

Atlanta punk band Upchuck occupy a space where fury meets vulnerability. Known for their explosive live sets and genre-blurring sound, the group have carved out a distinct voice within contemporary punk. Their latest album I’m Nice Now pushes that voice further, exploring grief, identity and unity with biting wit and emotional honesty. Ahead of their first Australian tour and new music, frontperson KT reflects on creative growth and community.

KT: We been busy writing the next album. Trying to spit out what we can and have it done before we go to Australia.

That’s exciting! Your latest album I’m Nice Now was one of my favourite punk records of 2025. What things have you been gravitating towards writing about lately? 

KT: I like write to write about whatever I’m feeling at the time. I’m growing as a person, as I should be, it’s shifting along that. Last year was a lot!

The album that came out last year was me in 2024. The one that’s about to come out this time, is even more vulnerable and more emotional. 

It seems like everyone I know had a rough year last year. 

KT: Exactly. Yeah. It was a lot for me in general. I was busy, we were touring a lot. And then with work and stuff, it’s hard to find a job that will keep me financially ok. Not to mention Trump America is not helping in any way. And just worldwide chaos. It was a lot to soak in, and try to maintain. I feel like it was a lot of chaos in every aspect of my life. I didn’t have it contained, but trying to do better on that this year. This year, I’m locking in. 

Why is music important for you? 

KT: It’s an expression. It has always been a means of communication in a way. Even before I started making music, it was kind of an escape at times. Depending on what I was listening to, it could also be a source of motivation. It’s shaped who I am today, for sure.

Everything that I’ve absorbed in my lifetime — my mum’s Trini and my dad’s Jamaican. So I grew up listening to soca, reggae and all that other stuff. I think that even shapes what I write about today, because reggae has a lot to do with the punk mentality. But yeah, it’s shaped my character, that’s for sure.

What was your coming of age soundtrack? 

KT: Oh geez [laughs]. A mixture — from Chief Keef to The Drums. I was listening to The Drums a lot. What else? I was into Fleet Foxes at one point, Florence and the Machine, and Santigold was up there for me. I was listening to a lot.

Same! I know that you used to play cello. What made you choose that instrument? 

KT: Honestly, I didn’t have a choice. My parents definitely just put me in there [laughs]. I feel like they literally heard on NPR one morning, “Kids in orchestra end up smarter and more successful in life.” So they were like, “Oh, shit, yeah, let’s put our kids in orchestra.” Shout out Miss O’Shea, though — she did teach me a lot when it comes to music and discipline and all that other stuff. It definitely helped in its own way, but it was a little too constricting for me at the time. So I had to wean off all the classical shit.

Photo: Ebru Yildiz

Before you were a vocalist, did you ever think of fronting a band one day? 

KT: Nah, that definitely wasn’t in my cards. But a lot of shit in my life wasn’t in my cards. Especially at the time, I’d just dropped out of Georgia State because I couldn’t afford my classes and shit. So I was just working and trying to pay rent. I didn’t expect to be where I am today, but I’m not complaining either. Now that I’m here, it feels right.

What were you studying? 

KT: I started in public health and then switched to biology, but I was like, I can’t do all that shit [laughs]. So I switched to social entrepreneurship and was like, yeah, I think I could do a nice little nonprofit that could help the community in some ways and give back to the people.

Totally. I feel that. Working in community is important to me too. I work with fellow First Nations and POC writers as a book editor. Being able to help my communities tell our stories in our ways means a lot.

KT: Yeah, that’s nice.

You mentioned that when you write songs they’re about what’s happening for you in real time. Do you ever surprise yourself when you look back at your songs and see your growth is mapped out across Upchuck’s records? 

KT: That actually is funny. I definitely surprise myself every time. Even when we write an album, it’s kind of crazy. It’s almost backwards because we just go into it writing songs and then look back over all the songs we put into one record. It’s like, oh wait, there’s a theme — damn. I didn’t even realise there was a theme happening, but there is a theme within each one. So yeah, it’s always surprising.

That’s the fun part of the writing process, figuring yourself out while writing. It’s crazy to go back to that first album and be like, damn, I really was just mad. I really was just edgy all the time.

Previously you’ve mentioned that Upchuck’s first album was a lot about taking up space. After being out there for a minute and touring and having a bunch of record’s out; has that changed for you?

KT: I think there are bigger problems at hand. The focus for me now is more on unity and spreading that unity. But it’s always been about unity. I feel like that’s the one common thread that’s existed across every Upchuck album. That’s the main thing.

Whenever I read anything about Upchuck, people always mention that you’re a really political band and they mention you’re angry and there’s a rage. But I also think there’s a lot of humour and a sarcasm as well that never gets talked about.

KT: I was actually just talking about that the other day about how we’re portrayed. How I’m supposedly this political, serious person. I’m like, I’m no politician, bro. At the end of the day, I’m just this punk motherfucker, you know? Shit’s too crazy not to have a laugh. It’s all very serious, but even with I’m Nice Now, that whole concept was like, bro, it’s almost so crazy that you have to smile to be sane. Take time to make yourself smile today, bro [laughs]. That’s really what that shit’s about.

I love the album cover, it’s so visually striking and really cheeky. 

KT: [Laughs] Yeah, for sure.

As a POC, I related to a lot of what you’re saying on song ‘Forgotten Token’. That feeling of being invisible or of being visible but being disposable. 

KT: Exactly! 

As women of colour we’re expected to carry history and grief and explain things to everybody. Those themes tie into the song ‘Tired’ as well. What sparked it? 

KT: With ‘Forgotten Token’ I had just lost my sister earlier that year. She was really a G.O.A.T. to me, literally a textbook older sister. On her shit. Don’t give no bullshit. Don’t take shit from nobody. Did it all by herself. Truly a role model for me.

She worked for this big fashion company, but she would always call me like, “Damn, they literally stole my shit and didn’t give me credit for it.” And all this other stuff. And not seeing one of those coworkers at her funeral, I was like, damn, y’all really just didn’t give a fuck. She just slaved for y’all for the past decade of her fucking life, and y’all really don’t give a fuck, but you want all of her creativity.

I feel like they kind of sucked the soul out of her, and that really resonated with me. I know it resonates with a lot of other women of colour. It rocked me and hit close. 

I’m so sorry. It’s so crazy how the world treats people like products, a commodity, and not as people. That’s where shit goes wrong.

KT: Exactly. That’s why it’s going wrong right now, literally. 

I really love the video for ‘Forgotten Token’. It also talks to gentrification, the dark side of it. And I thought it was cool that there’s cameos with your mum and your grandma and brothers in there. 

KT: We filmed it at my mom’s house, so it was really just chilling at the crib. If anything, it was strange to film the white family in the house I grew up in, so it felt trippy in those moments. I was like, damn, this is actually dark. Even my mom was like, I don’t know, that shit’s weird [laughs].

You totally captured that feeling. When I was watching it, it gave me that ick feeling too.

KT: [Laughs]. Yeah, like, what are you doing here, bro? You’re not supposed to be here. Get out. But yeah, it seemed like we were just chilling at the crib. You know, mom’s always gonna do the most. She was being funny during the shoot, like, “So what do you want me to do?” She’s just extra. She’s a certified Aries mom, like, “Oh, is the camera on me, right now?” And I was like, “Okay, mom, you’re doing too much, bro. Just chill.”

I really love the song ‘New Case’ and live the claymation clip for that too!

KT: Oh, yeah, Cissi [Efraimsson]. Yeah, she snapped, she went crazy, nah [laughs]. I think it took her a minute too.

That song reminds me of Santigold!

KT: That means a lot because literally that was my influence growing up.

Same!

KT: Her and MIA, literally G.O.A.T’s.

We’ve only got a few minutes left. We’ve spoken about anger and rage but I wanted to ask you; what are the moments where you feel soft? 

KT: Honestly, nine times out of 10, I’m really goo goo gaga as fuck [laughs]. That’s the craziest part. I was talking about it with someone the other day, and it’s almost kind of conflicting to feel like I’m being portrayed as, oh, I’m just this angry Black woman with rage. And I’m like, I’m really not.

Like, yeah, of course, every person of colour has a right to be upset, and it’s valid to feel that way given how everything has been going on for the past century and more. You know what I’m saying? So it’s like, I’m not out here just yelling at random people on the street and shit. I’m just, I don’t know… I have my qualms.

However, I find my peace. I have my friends, and I surround myself with good times and good energy. I am soft most times. I really am goofy as fuck. I feel like most people would be like, “Oh, that girl wasn’t even angry for real. She just be joking around half the time.” But yeah, most of the time I’m normally chilling.

What’s something that you’ve seen or experienced lately that’s been really beautiful or really joyous?

KT: Honestly, I guess it’s the growth I’m seeing within myself and all my closest homies. We’re all kind of on this lock-in growth journey rather than the usual debauchery we used to get into, and I think that’s really beautiful. It’s just us maturing and growing up. We’re getting older now. It’s sick that we’re all taking our time and appreciating the little things in life.

Check out more Upchuck HERE. Follow @_upchuck_. I’m Nice Now is out via Domino Records. Get tickets for their Australian tour HERE.

Frenzee’s Apollonia: ‘I was lucky enough to be raised by a very feminist mother’

Original photo by Jhonny Russell // Handmade collage by B

Frenzee frontwoman Apollonia moves between worlds. Raised between Greece and Australia, and shaped by a deeply traditional musical family, her relationship to music has always carried weight, expectation, and history. In Frenzee, that history collides with hardcore punk, feminism, and a need for release that feels both personal and political, with Apollonia fronting the band formed alongside her brothers, Nick and Adonis.

In this yarn, Gimmie talks to Apollonia about growing up in a village on the Greek island of Crete, navigating gendered expectations, and finding freedom in loud music. We discuss activism, creative survival, and why making art matters even when the world feels overwhelming. From family legacy and cultural duality to capitalism, anger, and joy, this is a conversation about finding your voice and holding onto it.

This chat took place during their Australian tour in 2025. Since then, they’ve returned to Crete and are now back in Melbourne, gearing up for a February/March Australian tour.

It’s nice to be speaking with you Apollonia! We caught Frenzee’s set at Vinnie’s Dive the other night, which totally ruled!

APOLLONIA: Thank you! That was a lot of fun!

It was your birthday recently too—so Happy Birthday!

A: Yeah, on the 11th, We went camping because we’re on the road. We woke up on a really nice beach and I had a swim. Then spent about six hours in the car to get to the next place and went out for some pool and beers.

Perfect. Is there anything you guys do to pass the time while traveling long distances when touring? 

A: There was a lot of “I spy with my little eye” going on [laughs]. And a lot of napping and listening to music. 

Is there anything awesome you’ve been listening to lately?

A: I’ve been listening to a lot of Gut Health, I’ve been obsessed with them.

We LOVE Gut Health too! They’re one of our favs.

A: Yeah, I fuckin’ love Gut Health! A lot of Don’t Spank Me, Thank Me! too. Also, Where’s Jimmy, who we played with in New Castle.  A lot of Split System too.

Photo: Jhonny Russell

They’re rad! Mawson and the fellas are such good dudes. How’s things been lately for you?

A: Life’s been surreal, in a way. I’ve been dying to be back in Australia since we were here last year (2024) in March. We wanted to play as many shows as we could, and we’ve pretty much done that. But going up the East Coast for the first time, and leaving Victoria to play outside the state for the first time, was so fun. It’s been really nice, because we hadn’t actually travelled to those places before. So we’ve been a bit touristy as well. For us, it’s been a really exciting time.

It seems like a lot of people are really excited about Frenzee! There’s been a buzz around you and there’s a momentum happening.

A: That’s good to know. I’m sad we’re leaving soon to go back to Greece. It’s hard to believe I’ve been here for nearly three months now.

You grew up in both Crete in Greece and Australia; how has the duality shaped you?

A: You always tend to say, oh, you’re half from there and you’re half you’re half Greek, half Australian, or whatever. But it’s kind of more like you feel completely Australian and completely Greek, you know what I mean? [laughs].

And both of those things seem to be the case, especially in the most recent year, just being able to go back and forth more and get back in touch with here again.

It can be pretty full-on, because the cultures are so different. We grew up with really different cultures. 

Crete’s the biggest island in Greece, and is pretty rural, right?

A: Yeah, a village on an island. Pretty traditional culture, from a pretty well-known traditional family. So there are a lot of unwritten rules—like every tradition, it’s you don’t do that because… whatever.

There’s a bit of a lack of private life, in a way. And even though the traditional music scene in Crete is really, really strong—everybody froths it, everybody supports it, gigs go off, and there’s not really anything else—the contemporary scene is tiny. On the island, there are a few bands, but it’s very scattered, very limited, and a really small underground scene. There aren’t really venues to play at.

So it’s the complete opposite to Melbourne. We came here and it felt like we did a mini tour of Collingwood in the first week [laughs].

But yeah, that’s kind of a constant between the two cultures. Especially as a teenager, you’re just like, what the hell?

You’ve spoken about feeling like an outsider, being a girl growing up in Crete. My friend Christina from hardcore band Swab, she’s from a traditional Greek family too—one day we were talking about how she felt there were always these different expectations placed on girls and woman. Like, everyone marries, everyone does all these things. Are there any expectations you’ve felt?

A: Yeah. Crete seems to be a culture where, like a lot of places, the men are raised to not really do anything. The army is compulsory.

Your brothers had to do that? 

A: Yeah, both my brothers did that for about nine months. They managed to be in the marching band. Nick got a bit of snare practice in there [laughs]. 

But the expectations of women are definitely about cleaning up and taking care of everyone. It’s not really trained into boys, but from a young age, as a girl, you’re taught that when there are visitors, you’re the one who needs to serve everyone.All this stuff you’re raised with kind of teaches you that you always need to be taking care of other people.

And in Crete, for example, if you’re seen with a boy—I mean, it’s more hectic with girls, obviously, but it’s definitely a thing for boys as well—if you’re seen on a date or something like that, it can mean you’re officially probably going to get engaged or something. Everyone gets involved. It’s hectic. 

I was lucky enough to be raised by a very feminist mother from Melbourne. So I was really lucky to have that at home. It was definitely very different to a lot of my girlfriends there.

There’s also a big expectation in Greece for girls at school. Girls are expected to be smart and do well. Boys will be boys—they’ll bash each other in the schoolyard or whatever—and there isn’t the same pressure on them to do well at school. But with girls, it’s like, no, they can’t go out after school, they’ve got to go study. And again, I was really lucky to have my mum always fighting that for me.

Photo: Jhonny Russell

Your mum’s heritage is Irish and she was musical like you, in a band, The Troubles.

A: Yeah!

You were exposed to a lot music through your mum’s records. Stuff like AC/DC. What other bands were you listening to?

A: One of the first bands that was really clear in my head that she showed us was the Blues Explosion—John Spencer’s Blues Explosion. I love them. So cool. 

She had all these CDs: The White Stripes, Hole, Nirvana, Bikini Kill, Dirty Three, Dinosaur Jr. All sorts of bands. And then, on top of that, she was also getting me pop CDs that wouldn’t really be found easily in Crete. She’d get me heaps of Destiny’s Child, which was awesome.

I love Destiny’s child! And pop in general. It’s funny, doing Gimmie and all the music writing I’ve done over the last 30 years, people often think I only love punk—I’m the punk girl, lol. While I did grow up with that, along with hip-hop, I still have always loved pop. Who doesn’t love a good banger?

A: LOVE pop! I love my girl pop. 

That shit’s popular because it’s catchy! It’s got the hooks, the melodies. I don’t know how people can hate on it.

A: [Laughs] Yeah. Oh, me neither. Me neither. There are so many strong women in pop. So that’s another thing, you look at as a little girl and you’re like, hell yeah, that’s what I want to do!

Totally. Was there any artist or an album that made you go, wow! I want to do that too?

A: Yeah, what’s the name of that Destiny’s Child album that’s white they’re all wearing white and it’s a white background? Beyonce’s lying down in front.

Survivor.

A: Yeah, I’d play that every day. 

Same! I’d go running around my neighbourhood listening to it heaps. 

A: Nice. Then I’d listen to a lot of hip-hop as well. Mum would get us, you know, 50 Cent and Eminem—anything she could get her hands on that felt like, this is what people are listening to, this is what’s going on in the music scene. The early ’90s and all that, I love it.

Earlier, you mentioned that your family is well-known in Crete, and I know there’s a huge musical legacy; do you ever feel pressure to live up to that?

A: Well, when I was a teenager, I felt a little bit of pressure. That was because I didn’t really have my own music thing going on. The only music performance I was doing was sometimes playing with my dad and my brothers. So maybe back then, a little bit. 

But personally, no—not much pressure.

There’s a legacy in the patriarchy. I’m not named after any grandfather or great uncle. Both my brothers would definitely feel that pressure more. They play traditional band music and live off that in Greece. I didn’t play with them, and they definitely cop a lot of that.

I watched the documentary about your family and found it fascinating. Music seems like, a really serious thing for your family. You can see it sometimes in the looks that you or your brothers give. It’s like you’re focusing and concentrating so hard, and it feels like there’s a lot of pressure there. When I watched the part where your family was all going to play together for the first time ever, I was like, wow, this is such a magical, special moment. And then you had that one rehearsal beforehand. My heart kind of broke when your granddad was like, you messed up the lyrics, or something like that. I was teary watching it. I thought he could have been gentler with you. How did you feel in that moment?

A: To be honest, I felt pressure. I was sixteen! I’m the only granddaughter in the family. I’m the only female, apart from my aunty. My aunty’s been singing with my grandfather for ages. But in that performance, I was the only female voice, so it was all very, very stressful, to be honest [laughs], and pretty tense. 

Was that the first time that your sang in public?

A: Nah, I’ve been doing that since I was really little, when I was five or six with my dad, getting up on stage. 

With my grandfather it was a pretty full-on time, he’s from a different era. He’s been famous for so long in Greece. He’s a pretty full-on character. So my dad tries to balance all the stuff out. It’s a lot of family tension going around [laughs]. Yeah, so it was pretty stressful.

There’s a little clip of you talking about it, and you were like, oh my god, I was so embarrassed, because you wanted to get it right. You wanted to impress your family and your granddad. And you ended up going on to do the performance, and you totally killed it! There’s this cute moment where you were singing and your brother looks at you and he winks at you. A little reassurance, like, you’re doing good sis! I thought that was really beautiful. That part at the end of the song where you’re singing by yourself, and the whole crowd is transfixed. There’s silence in that room, every one in awe. I totally cheered at my TV screen for you! How did you feel once you’d faced the challenge and did it?

A: It always feels good once it’s done. Once it’s over, a lot of the pressure leaves. Because, as you say, the music is so serious and so formal. Growing up with that music, it’s always like, oh my god, a performance. It’s a huge room, a huge crowd, a concert environment, and it’s so quiet. They can hear everything. You know, even when you breathe. It’s very serious. So as soon as it’s over, I’m just like, oh, alright, cool. I do like doing it. I love singing. But when the time comes, it’s stressful, how serious it all is. It’s funny, though, because it’s so serious but then people are dancing and having such a great, like, non-serious time [laughs]. It’s also traditional and there’s rules but then it’s also improvised a fair bit. It’s very trance-y really. 

Another thing I noticed in the documentary is that it seems like, with Cretan music, it’s really important that when people are playing, they’re looking at each other.

A: Yeah, yeah, yeah. Because there’s no real finish to a song. A lot of the music doesn’t have a clear ending—kind of like Irish tunes. They can go on and on and on [laughs].

And it depends on the dance. If people are dancing, you’ve got to play with the steps and finish a cycle when you can. So you all really have to follow each other.

And because our grandfather—actually, my brother Nick plays too—they both play the lyra. They do a lot of improvising, and you’ve got to stay on the beat and follow them.

So all the musos have to follow the lyra player. The lyra player is the boss. That’s why everyone’s staring at each other, to stay tight.

In the doco your father talks about music coming from the gut and of how it’s this real deep instinctual force. Then I noticed on Frenzee’s first EP, you have that song ‘Fire in My Gut’ and lyrically you’re basically talking about the same thing!

A: Yeah, no way!

Yes way! Your lyrics are: Ever since I can remember I’ve had this fire burning in my gut / It’s been my life source, my force / It’s been my electricity / Always been there for me /Always fuels my energy / Sparks my body and my mind / And it makes me feel alive / And it feeds me / The fire in my gut.

A: That’s pretty cool. I didn’t realise that to be honest. That’s pretty wild. I didn’t really know dad said that too!

Did it feel weird being filmed all the time for the doco?

A: Yeah. They were filming us for three years! That was pretty weird because at that age, it’s the worst version of yourself, probably [laughs]. I cringe when I think about it. But back then, I wasn’t lovin’ it. It was pretty full on.

Your family have taught you a lot about music, your dad, especially. You’ve said he kind of pressured you to learn all the great songs; how does your parents and extended family feel about you playing punk rock?

A: Everyone’s really supportive. Some of them might not totally get it, but they support it, which is great. They’ve always kind of seen us do that as little kids — we’d pretend we had a rock band, miming along to Nirvana and Green Day [laughs]. We didn’t know what to expect, people’s reaction in Crete; we were like, oh, we’re going to cop it now [laughs]  …but whatever.

A lot of people that we really didn’t expect to get it were just loving it. A lot of our cousins, up in the mountains — shepherds, only listening to traditional music, hardly ever going to the city, went and played the village, and they were like, wow, this is what you guys need to be doing. This really suits you!

I feel like, starting with traditional music being so formal and serious, Frenzee is definitely a release from all that. That’s why I think it’s so kind of cleansing every time we — cleansing, letting it all out. I’ve been so formal for so many years, you know? I need to take a breath.

I get that. Your album’s called What’s Wrong With Me, there’s a song with that title on the album too; what does that mean to you? What were you feeling when you wrote that? 

A: When you’re here, you kind of feel like sometimes you’ve got your creed and culture holding your mind back in a few things. So you feel like an outsider, like we were saying before. Being in Crete, you’re like the crazy, you know, Aussie, the rock band, or feminist craziness, or whatever. So you’re kind of like, what’s wrong with me, here and there, if you know what I mean? A lot of things come into that title, but I reckon that’s a big part of it. Here you’re like, what’s wrong with me because I’ve got all that, and over there, what’s wrong with me? too.

It’s a question but also a statement: this is what’s wrong with me. And I guess it can be sarcastic as well. You know, nothing’s wrong with anyone—it’s just life.

I noticed that on the album there seems to be a theme of frustration at external forces, and then your internal struggle with dealing with that, or processing those things. You’re talking about capitalism, gender inequality, class struggle and frustration with societal systems.

A: Living in Greece, it’s very hard not to be political. There’s a lot that’s constantly in your face, all this stuff all the time. I mean, we’re lucky that we don’t have to be right in the middle of it. We’re a little bit removed, being in Crete. But it’s so corrupt, you know? You have no choice but to be very vocal about it there.

The good thing is that everyone’s really politically onto it in Greece as well. I’m mostly talking about there because that’s where I live and that’s what I know best. I’d say we’re a pretty political band. All the lyrics are political, and social, and psychological too. You know, it’s venting.

Did you set out to write an album that? 

A: I just kind of automatically started writing about that in the lyrics. My brothers lived together just up the road in the village, and I lived with my mum down the road. They have the rehearsal space there, so they jam heaps. Even if we’re not all together, they’ll come up with a riff or something and send it to me as a demo, you know, whatever. I’ll go and record it, and then I sit on my own and write the lyrics.

It just depends on what I’ve been listening to or reading at that time, you know. Something might have pissed me off that morning, so I’ll write about that. It wasn’t really like, oh, this is going to be a political album. It just automatically happened, with all the shit going on globally.

Photo: Jhonny Russell

The world seems like such a rough place a lot more on the regular these days, everyone I speak to seems to be doing it tough. Many of my friends just feel mentally and emotionally drained just trying to exist. A lot of your songs are about being overwhelmed; is there anything you do to help deal with that?

A: II talk about these things a lot with my mum, and that helps a lot. She’s very switched on with all this stuff and tends to take it very philosophically as well. You know, it can go a bit full-on. Rather than just talking about events, it gets bigger than that and becomes more philosophical, and that kind of helps deal with things, I guess.

Exercise helps too. Staying active, and also trying to enjoy some things. It can be so frustrating, so if you can just appreciate and enjoy even just small things, and keep talking about it with people, you can sort of balance that stuff out. It’s important not to stope talking about those things.

Yeah, it is really important, and like you just mentioned, to remember to enjoy things and to know that it’s okay to enjoy them. Most of my friends are activists and have been very vocal about everything that’s happening in the world. They’re always going to protests and trying to change things in whatever ways they can. 

Some of my friends stopped making art because they’re like, how can I make art when all this horrible stuff is happening? When there’s genocide and war and all these other full-on things are happening in the world. 

I’ve always thought of it like this: when times are really terrible, music and books and films, and all those things, are what I turn to. Those things helps me be okay in the world. It gives you connection or understanding or belonging or even escape. It can help you see things from other people’s perspectives too.

A: Yeah, yeah, reading and music have definitely done a lot of that for me too. I got really sucked into that kind of idea. It just overtook my whole brain energy. I can go for so long and then you’re like, oh my God, it’s going to kill me! It’s going to kill me without some sort of release. The band has helped a lot with that. This was before the band, all that frustration. I feel like a lot of that energy was held back for so long. Not specifically having a band, just needing that kind of release. Just being able to yell. And it’s accepted [laughs].

Your performance style has a confrontational style. It’s the opposite of anything traditional I’ve seen you do. You seem really comfortable and confident up there.

A: Definitely. I’ve had a lot of strong emotions pushed down for so long. And then, finally, you have this outlet where it can all come out. 

Coming from such a musical family, did you ever think of not doing music? 

A: Aw yeah!

You do animation and art; was there anything else you wanted to do?

A: Nah. I knew I wanted to animate for years. I wasn’t really thinking smart financially, but my mum doesn’t think about that much either. She was just like, ‘Yeah, do animation! That’s great.’ I was thinking maybe I could do music videos for bands, and then that could be my thing. I didn’t really plan it out too much [laughs]. I remember going through a phase where I was just like, nah, I don’t want to… fuck musos, they’re all a bunch of wankers. Because a lot of them are, I grew up with a lot of musos around me. 

There can be some big egos!

A: Yeah. You feel sorry for a lot of them because they actually just live in a little bubble that’s not reality. They just hear about how great they are all the time.

Since I was a teen, going to shows, making zines etc., I’ve been surrounded by musos too. I’ve met a lot of great people but also many really terrible people too, especially in the punk and hardcore scene. I’ve dealt with a lot of sexism and misogyny. Racism too. It boggles my mind how people can be so shit sometimes.

A: Yeah, and aggressive and up themselves. Not what you would think they’d stand for. The whole Greek rock scene is all men, pretty much. There are maybe four or five women in Athens spread across different bands. It can be a pretty sexist culture. They might like watching you perform but they don’t really listen when you speak.

Obviously, it’s like that everywhere, but it’s very full-on there because it feels like we’re a bit back in time. It’s like 20 years ago. Like how hard people copped it here in the 90s, is kind of what we’re dealing with now in Greece, at a certain level. And always being compared to other female singers. 

Yes! You never hear about or read about guys being compared to other guys. 

A: Fully! I cop a lot of that! If I was a guy, I wouldn’t be compared to anyone. People would not even go there.

Photo: Jhonny Russell

Yep! I know people compare you to Amy Taylor, and Frenzee to Amyl and the Sniffers. But you’re obviously both your own thing. 

A: Yeah, she’s amazing, one of my biggest idols! 

I wish people would stop with the comparison culture with women. It’s fucking harmful.

A: Yeah. You kind of get used to it, though. It’s frustrating!

Your song ‘Pink Tax’ is about gender inequality; what sparked that?

A: I was watching a lot of Adam Curtis documentaries at the time. He’s this really cool journalist who makes his own documentaries. He grabs all this old footage from the BBC and turns it into these really cool collages. Anyway, I watched some really interesting documentaries on capitalism, and I was obsessed with them. I went through a bit of a study period on capitalism.

A lot of chats with my mum end up becoming songs, to be honest, because we’re just bang on all day. We were talking one day about how I needed to buy some razors, and she was like, ‘You know the pink razors are more expensive than the men’s ones.’ And I was like, oh my God, really? So I went and looked, and I was like, fuck! That’s when the name Pink Tax came up. It sounded good as a title, ‘Pink Tax’.

A lot of people don’t even know it’s an actual thing, so it was like, oh, sick, some people are actually learning what it is. That’s good!

Do you still buy the pink ones? [Laughter].

A: [Laughs] Actually…. I bought these uni-sex ones.

Obviously, the song ‘Sales’ on your record, is about consumer culture and aggressive marketing…

A: Yeah! That one, my brother Nick, who plays drums, thought of that tune. He’s really good with lyrics as well. Sometimes he’ll just have one phrase and be like, ‘Oh, take that, for inspiration and do whatever you want.’  We all fucking hate these salespeople. It’s not their fault, but what are you going to do? [laughs]. And then it was just really easy to fill in the gaps with that song.

‘Rats in Here’ feels like a more introspective song.

A: So ‘Rats in Here’ lyrics were written by Nick. Because we were talking about, writing a song about the army. We thought that’d be pretty hectic, with everything going on in the world. Nick got really sick in the army and was on this desperate bed with like bed bugs everywhere. Greece can be very third-world with a lot of shit. He said it was the desperate couple of says ever. The songs has desperate lyrics but the tune is kind of uplifting. 

In the middle of the album, there’s song, ‘Fear No Fear’. It feels like a moment of hope and overcoming self-doubt?

A: Yeah. It sums up so much of starting the band and how it all felt. It’s an empowering song, for me.

What made you want to start a punk band? 

A: When we were little, we went through a phase where a family friend got some drums for Nick, and we already had a guitar and a bass around. During that time, we were listening to all those CDs and records Mum got us. We’d let our hair grow long. I’m singing along and playing all this music.

We always thought that having a rock band was the best thing you could do. All that tour stuff was just an amazing image to us, like a fantasy. But I hadn’t really thought about actually doing it, if you know what I mean. It was more like, oh, that’s cool, that’s amazing!

Then the Cretan music took over. The boys were playing a lot of that, and I started working in that as well. We were all living separately. Nick was here when I was young, then Adonis moved over, then they moved back, and I moved here. So we weren’t together for many years. That’s when we were all listening to our own kinds of stuff. I went through an electronic phase, hip-hop and pop, listening to more of that kind of music.

Then finally, when lockdown started, I had just finished uni here, so I was living here when the pandemic hit. As soon as I moved back to Crete for lockdown, that was pretty much the first time we were all together and didn’t know when we’d be leaving again. I was like, sick, we’re in the same country and you guys aren’t playing 17-hour days! So let’s start a band.

And that’s when it all started, when we were finally all together in the same country and all listening to a lot of rock and roll at the time. I’d heard Amyl and the Sniffers come on the radio when I was living and working in Melbourne, when they were still a really small band. I was like, what the hell, that’s the best shit I’ve heard in so long! It was like a woman with Bon Scott energy. I loved that. The vocals were really dreamy, and the riffs were simple. That’s when I started listening to rock and roll again, pretty much. Hearing a great female frontwoman just hyped me up so much.

When you were recording the album, you guys spent your days going for a swim and hanging out with your dogs. It’s funny ‘cause the album’s aggressive and hard, but then you recorded it in a very chill state.

A: Yeah, I could finally really have a chill in lockdown; in the village with the doggies and family and eating well.

Photo: Jhonny Russell

Is there anything you do to put yourself in the mindset to sing like you do? 

A: I definitely need a bit of time alone before the gig. It used to stress me out before a gig; wondering if I could do it, if I could actually get through the gig. I’d get really stressed about whether it was going to be good enough, whether my voice was going to hold up, and whether I was going to give enough energy.

But we’ve played so many gigs now that it feels like you’ve got more of a system lined up. You go, you chill out for a bit on your own, you do a bit of this and that, you don’t socialise too much. You blow bubbles in a straw—Amy Taylor taught me how to warm up. Thanks Amy!

She’s THE best! By the way, it makes me so happy to see so many girls at that front of your gigs.

A: Yeah, it makes me so happy too. It’s just the whole point to me. I love seeing that. It feels like a revolutionary time in the rock and roll scene for women. All these amazing bands everywhere and all so supportive of each other. There’s no bitchy competition. 

Everyone’s been so supportive. When we arrived in Melbourne people were reaching out to us, that we don’t even know from other bands being like, ‘Hey! Let’s grab a beer! Let’s hang out. There’s this amazing community. Women supporting women—it’s very very inspiring and moving. 

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Shady Nasty: ‘Making music keeps you sane.’

Original photo: @kataomoi__ / handmade collage by B

Gimmie have been bumpin’ Shady Nasty’s debut album non-stop while cruisin’ through the Gold Coast suburbs ever since we got our hands on it! But TREK isn’t just a collection of bangers or only one of the coolest albums of 2025 so far—it’s a reflection on personal growth, hard work, and the pursuit of one’s dreams, deeply rooted in their beloved city, Sydney. 

For Kevin Stathis (vocals, guitar), the post-punk-meets-hip-hop album with electronic elements draws on band’s day-to-day life. ‘My dad has done solo excavation his whole life, like proper blood, sweat, and tears stuff,’ he shares. ‘About nine years ago, he was like, ‘Fuck it, I’m going to treat myself,’ and bought a Lexus,’ which to his dad wasn’t just a car (it appears on TREK’s cover)—it was a symbol of everything he’d achieved, coming to Australia as an immigrant with only $200 in his pocket.

For the band, TREK is the pursuit of their own dreams while sometimes feeling lost in the rush of life and disconnection, which we can all relate to. The tracks on TREK bubble with the energy of their suburban neighbourhoods and the everyday hustle of its people. In this in-depth conversation, Kevin, Haydn Green (bass), and Luca Watson (drums) open up to Gimmie about the making of TREK, working with The Presets’ Kim Moyes, their roots, and the balancing act of staying true to who they are while embracing change.

KEVIN: I’ve been working a lot. I’m a technician. I’m currently building speed cameras! 

Wow. That’s funny. 

KEVIN: Yeah. It’s very ironic considering my interests [laughs]. I only just started it so we’ll see how long it goes for. Hopefully I don’t get kicked out when people discover my true identity. 

[Laughter]

HAYDN: I’m a tennis coach. We were down there this morning, actually, taking photographs at the tennis courts. It’s an interesting job, I suppose— a little bit left field.

LUCA: I work for the University of Sydney in an air-conditioned office. I’m very email-based, from nine to five.

Why is music important to each of you? 

HAYDN: It’s one of those things, because we all played together in school. I suppose we had a little bit of a knack for it. If you’re told that at some point, you’re probably going to think, ‘Well, maybe I’m all right at this,’ and you follow it a little bit. 

LUCA: Like, ‘Yeah, I’m gifted.’ [laughs].

HAYDN: That’s right. It’s good for your brain too. 

LUCA: That’s not the fucking reason we do it though. 

HAYDN: For me, I would be playing music, even if I wasn’t doing the band. I think it could be a meditation of sorts. 

LUCA: Making music keeps you sane. We all do a lot of things that other people have to do in their lives, and it’s just this one thing where we can come together and do something that has no sort of pre-set expectation. We can do whatever we want.

KEVIN: It’s freedom to an extent.

Freedom—different forms of it—seems to be a big theme on your new album, TREK.

KEVIN: Yeah, it’s a good way to put it. 

LUCA: Most definitely. And, ironically, I am situated at—” [turns camera to show that he’s in a car park outside of Freedom Furniture].

[everyone laughs]

TREK is an interesting title for your debut album. How did you guys get to that? 

HAYDN: After absolutely spamming the group chat with options…

KEVIN: There was some bad ideas in there. 

HAYDN: It was just throwing words at the group chat. Does this word sound good?

KEVIN: One day, Luca was just like, ‘TREK,’ and we’re like, ‘Oh—’

LUCA: I was on the toilet at work. How good is that? Thinking about it, because we’d been talking about it so much. Trek is one of those words we use almost every day to describe things in our life. For example, you’re talking to your parents growing up, and they’re like, ‘Oh, you’ve got to go do X, Y, and Z.’ You might be like, ‘Uggh, trek.’ I told my parents about it, and the fact that they didn’t get it—that’s not a word from their generation. It’s very much ours, from our era in Sydney. 

HAYDN: You wouldn’t say, ‘That sounds extremely arduous.’

Did you all grow up in Sydney? 

HAYDN: Yep. We all went to the same school.

I think I read you were jazz musicians or is that a stretch?

LUCA:  The press release really gives us a little bit too much credit there. We all played jazz together. 

Did you have any other bands before this one? 

KEVIN: Nothing serious. This band, we’ve stuck together. I only do it cuz I like hanging out with these two.

When you first started the band, what kind of music were each of you listening to?

KEVIN: Sticky Fingers.. it’s been a long time since then. 

LUCA: It was such a wide range.

KEVIN: I remember you always were like, ‘Oh, you’ve got to listen to Ice Age. Ice Age is the best.’ I remember listening to it and being like, ‘This shit is trash.’ Now I’m like, ‘Yeah, it’s pretty good.’ I just didn’t understand. Because, me personally, I’ve played piano since I was a kid, so I guess I’m classically trained. It was just painful listening to this music where the guy couldn’t sing in tune, but now I get it.

LUCA: We had to convince Kevin. We had to get in the backend and change some of the plugins and the wires [laughs].

KEVIN: They had to rewire my brain.

I really love the album cover; whose car is that? 

KEVIN: My dad has done solo excavation his whole life, like proper blood, sweat, and tears stuff. About nine years ago, he was like, ‘Fuck it, I’m going to treat myself.’ And he bought that Lexus. He didn’t really drive it much, but it was kind of like a symbol of this guy who flew from Greece when he was 22 with like 200 bucks in his pocket—he literally came from nothing. And for him, having that kind of material possession was much more than just a material possession. It represents a lot of people in Sydney who are struggling, but they’re trying to achieve this dream. There’s a lot of mountains that one has to climb just generally. 

We’re all trying to chase this dream, too. It’s obviously a bit of a different dream from what my dad wanted to achieve, but it’s still, as the son of migrant parents, where I wouldn’t say I had a hard upbringing. They worked hard. They were able to provide. So, my dream is a bit different.

HAYDN: We were taking some press photos in my area the other day, and that photograph very much reminds me of it. Kevin’s in Campsie, I’m in Bexley, and that’s where we grew up. The image just looks like a photograph of suburbia around our parts—like the houses of that style. It’s very Aussie in a way. It has a temperature to that photo as well. It’s a real warm picture, and it reminds you of walking down the streets.

LUCA: The image represents the hard graft of everyday life. If a car is something you care about and it’s precious to you, it’s about putting in the work to keep it from falling to pieces. There’s a level of upkeep in that photo—like investing in the things you love.

The band’s name is borrowed from a drifting team, isn’t it?

KEVIN: Yeah, look, I regret the band name, but I was 18. 

LUCA: [Laughter].

Where did your love of modded cars come from? 

KEVIN: I was procrastinating during my HSC exams. I was bored and discovered drifting, and it’s been an obsession of mine ever since. It’s such a unique niche. To most people, it looks like the most boneheaded shit, but every car is so creative. They’re such an expression of their owner, and that’s what I like about it. They really stand out from the norm, and I gravitated toward that—because I don’t want to be like everyone else.

In the Shady Nasty song ‘Get Buff’ your mum’s voice can be heard talking about you getting a car.

KEVIN: I was going to buy a certain car, which I absolutely knew she would disapprove of, and I recorded her reaction. 

I feel like there’s a lot going on in both your music and the visual accompaniments to it. There’s a lot of meaning and thought behind it. Many of the songs seem to be a balance of the duality of life’s chaos and the search to find meaning in it. 

KEVIN: Nah, you’re giving us too much credit. 

HAYDN: It’s all bone-headed fun [laughs].

LUCA: We do put a lot of time and effort into it. It’s very considered—it’s not just like, ‘We wrote this mad song about our mad car, and our epic mates did a burnout. Hectic!

KEVIN: Nah, it is what we’re about [laughs].

LUCA: A lot of our work is about Sydney—what’s in our own backyard and how we process our day-to-day experiences, especially as people living in the 21st century with an iPhone. When you take all that in and try to make a music video, it comes from the small things we observe or overlook in daily life. We try to code them honestly through our own Harbour City experience, whether that’s using the words our friends use or simply acknowledging the environment around us—like right now, I’m sitting in a car park in front of Spotlight, Freedom, The Good Guys. The typefaces, the colours, the cars in front of me—this is what life actually looks like for a lot of people.

Music videos can sometimes feel detached from reality. Not to say ours don’t have VFX and layers, but they are born from a collective reality for people who live here. 

KEVIN: Inherently, we’ve always wanted to be as genuine and authentic as possible. I get the shits when I hear songs that clearly aren’t about real experiences the artist has done. So we put a lot of effort into that authenticity. Our lives aren’t that exciting most of the time, so we dig deep into certain moments to pull meaning from them. Maybe that’s why the lyrics and visuals turn out the way they do.

HAYDN: A lot of people write lyrics that lean into fantasy—big upping themselves. For us, though, it’s different. Take our track ‘Ibiza’ for example. It’s about living vicariously through other people’s lives, which is exciting in its own way. None of us have been to Ibiza, and that club scene isn’t our lifestyle, but it’s fascinating because so many regular people love that idea. 

LUCA: You see them at the gym, at Westfield—there’s this shared space.

KEVIN: That said, TREK as an album is much less about vicarious living. It’s all pretty grounded in our own lives.

I’ve been really obsessed with the song ‘Caredbrah’ since you dropped it in November last year. It felt like he song of the summer. The vibe and hook rules. Is the song a reflection on ambition and what it costs to make it?

KEVIN: Maybe, in a way, yeah. It’s inspired by the relationship between me and one of my closest mates. We live completely different lifestyles, yet whenever I see him, it’s just like, yo, let’s go. I find that really special, and I’m very fortunate to be mates with this guy—that’s kind of what Caredbrah’ is about.

The ambition part—yeah, I feel like I’m being extremely ambitious trying to play in a three-piece live band in 2025. And he is extremely supportive of it, despite knowing that heaps of people out there will never be able to make a living off doing that kind of stuff. But why not give it a red-hot crack?

I reckon you guys can do it! 

LUCA: That would be very cool if we could do that. If you could organise that for us, that would be great. 

[Laughter]

Do you have a favourite song from TREK

HAYDN: I like ‘A86’ the most. I like the idea of it. A lot of sampled music—particularly in hip hop—takes an older track, like a Motown song, and lifts a full bar from it.

KEVIN: Tell them how you did it!

HAYDN: I took four bars from our rehearsal and turned it into a sample. Then we took it to the studio and layered other elements over it. I started wondering—has anyone ever sampled themselves? It just seemed like an odd concept to me.

Kevin’s chant vocal on it—I really like it. It’s a great representation of what we can do. It’s traditional instruments, but with an electronic or hip-hop element that might surprise people. That combination is what makes it stand out.

That’s cool. I know that Randy the vocalist for 80s-90s Sydney hardcore punk band Massappeal took samples from the bands practices and used the ringing out parts of songs to make an electronic project called Wolf Shield.

HAYDN: Man, somebody’s onto it before me. I’m just stealing his ideas! [laughs].

What about you, Luca and Kevin? Which song do you really love on the record? 

KEVIN: My top two are probably ‘SCREWDRIVA’ and ‘I Don’t Want To Lose’ (‘I.D.W.T.L’)

‘SCREWDRIVA’ because I remember listening to the first mix Kim [Moyes] sent us in the car—it banged so hard. I played it over and over, like six times, on the way to work.

Then ‘I.D.W.T.L’—the demo was so different from what it sounds like now. It really became its own thing. I can’t say I enjoyed the process because it took forever—it was painful trying to work things out. But the end result is completely different from the original, and I think it’s beautiful what it became.

What was it originally? 

KEVIN: There were live drums and heavy guitars—it pumped a lot more. But the version of it now is probably the most laid-back song on the album. It was cool to see what it could become.

Lyrically, it’s again, about having ambition and knowing that it’s a a difficult road to traverse but just doing it anyway.

I feel like that one seems a little more introspective. 

KEVIN: Yeah, I think so. I don’t know what I was thinking when I wrote it. 

LUCA: Your mum and your dad yelling at you.

KEVIN: Yeah, they roast me a lot for not having a stable career, but what are they going to do about it? 

[Laughter]

What’s ‘SCREWDRIVA’ about? 

KEVIN: The long stretches of driving when we play interstate shows. You just want to get there. So, you drive well above the speed limit and you have lots of energy drinks. And it’s about the tunnel vision that you get as you’re just barreling down the highway. You stop caring about getting done by speed cameras or crashing into kangaroos. That’s what it’s inspired by.

I still can’t believe you you’re building speed cameras!

KEVIN: Yeah, me too. I’m on my second week of the job. 

I found a mention online that said you were a stunt driver?

KEVIN: I did some burnouts for a short film. I’ve done stunt driving a couple of times, but it’s not actual stunts, it’s just moving a car into the frame stuff. It’s good fun. 

Luca, what song’s your favourite on TREK?

LUCA: ‘SCREWDRIVA’ or I actually really liked the song ‘Hesitance’, even though I hated it for so long.

KEVIN: That song wasn’t even going to be on the album

Really? That’s actually one of my favourites on the album. With each listen it grew and grew on me even more.

LUCA: That’s how I feel about it. It  leaves me wanting more, every time we did it. We couldn’t get it over the line. And even when we’d finished it, I still had this feeling of unease about it. I’d almost say I like the fact that it doesn’t perfectly scratch that itch for me. I like that it feels like there’s something slightly off, like it never quite makes it over the line. I don’t know why, but I just like that feeling in that particular song. It’s a grower [laughs].

KEVIN: We reworked that song multiple times in the studio with Kim. We tried so many different things. Even like the first mix, after we finished all the studio sessions. Luca you still hated it. I

HAYDN: It sounded flat. It didn’t have any aggression; it didn’t have the bite it probably needed. It was only able to get enough bite by mixing it differently—especially by that point, because we’d spent so much time on it. Turns out, that’s actually all it needed—some compression and mixing. That’s all it fucking needed.

What was it like working with Kim? How did he help shape the album? 

LUCA: Kim is a beast. Kim is fucking awesome—and a very intense guy. Much like us, he has strong reactions to things, and he will fight you tooth and nail to realise what he thinks is best for the song. So he makes you fight for what you want, which was honestly a really cool experience for me.

I liked that he was quite full-on and that you basically had to wrangle him if you wanted to get what you wanted. He really questions your resolve and challenges you on why you think something’s good. I love Kim—he’s a total eccentric. He’s a wonderfully talented and smart guy who can be quite difficult at times, but I have a lot of respect for him.

Kevin and Haydn, how do you feel about him? 

KEVIN: Luca put it perfectly. Although, Kim basically did whatever I wanted him to do, he fought with Luca and Haydn a lot more. 

HAYDN: Yeah, look, there were some fights. But he also brought something valuable to the process—he probably highlighted a mistake we often make. There’s a commercial element that’s lacking. That’s not to say things are worse if they have it, but it’s probably something we hadn’t considered exploring as much as he pushed us to. As for the album as a whole, that was definitely an aspect worth looking at.

He would say things like, ‘Yeah, that’s great—if you just don’t want to make any fucking money and fade into obscurity.’ [Laughs] It’s like, ‘Yeah, yeah… but I like it that way.’ And he’s like, ‘Yeah? Why? Why do you like it that way?’ And then I think, ‘Well… okay, maybe I’m not that attached to it.’

[Laughter]

When you first started the band, did you have an strong idea of what you wanted to sound like?

KEVIN: I probably want it to sound like Sticky Fingers, but then like my tastes have changed, they change monthly. So you just go with it and it’s what it is now, at least for me.

HAYDN: Yeah, I think so. It all changes, even when you’re playing or writing. But I think you can surprise yourself with how far your tastes reach. You might write something and think, ‘Oh, I don’t even know if I’d listened to that before,’ but then it grows on you—and it might inform your later writing as well. It’s all part of the full package of what we set out to do, and it just works.

We kept saying to each other, ‘We’ve got to write a banger. We have to write a banger! We have to write something that’s loud and hits.’ But when you try to put things in a box like that, it often doesn’t get you the result you want anyway. So it’s a pretty organic process in the end.

What’s the most fun you had while making the album?

KEVIN: We’ve been trying to write an album for five or six years. So every rehearsal, if we didn’t come up with something I thought was good, I—well, I think the boys can attest to this—I would just go silent and get really down. Literally, every week. So every rehearsal was a rollercoaster.

My favourite moments were when, for example, we came up with the main riff for ‘SCREWDRIVA’ and thought, ‘Fucking finally!’ It was just pure relief. It wasn’t even joy—it was just the relief of finally getting something, you know?

HAYDN: Yeah, that was memorable. I can still picture that moment when we started to play it. And we all just went, ‘Five!’ I mean, that was the quickest and easiest thing. But is it though, if it costs you months of work to stumble on something?

KEVIN: Bro, like years of work, stumbling!

HAYDN: Well, yeah. And then you come across it and think, ‘That was so easy and quick.’ But that one session, though—it just happened to come together in half an hour. But, you know, it’s years of work leading up to that. And when something like that happens, it’s a huge relief.

Has there been any moments where you thought you just might quit and not do the band? 

HAYDN: Yeah. 

KEVIN: Yeah, I think about that every second day. 

[Laughter]

HAYDN: We had a big chat after we came back from Europe. It wasn’t a particularly good tour, all things said and done. It was fun in a lot of ways, but I think we all came back from that thinking, ‘This is impossible.’ We have to get this done; we have to do an album. I think it was a moment where we had to talk ourselves into it, because you realise you can’t stay at this level forever. It’s just not feasible.

KEVIN: The fact that we all have other interests—like, I love cars, Haydn loves tennis, and Luca loves RuneScape—all these things pull you away from music. In a way, having those breaks is really good. Because if I tried to write music every day, I’d be like, ‘Nah, fuck that,’ I’d be out of here, you know? So, I think, yeah, the fact that it took so long was necessary too.

Was there any big challenge making TREK

LUCA: We all know when it works. 

KEVIN: Yeah! 

LUCA: We all collectively have this intuitive, like, fuck yes moment when it clicks. But we don’t often know, like, what we’re searching for or, like, how to get it there. It’s just grinding it out. And the grind can be brutal—weeks upon weeks. We go to the studio twice a week for over a year, four or five hours each session.

We have tons of music that, maybe to other people, yeah, might have some decent bits in it. But for us, it’s just not hitting that particular nail on the head. And when it does, it’s like—fucking holy shit. Thank Christ.

HAYDN: There’s also the amount of times we’ve said, That’s a great song—for another band. We’ve written something, even fleshed it out, and it takes listening back to it, maybe playing it the week after, to realise—yeah, the parts are good, but it’s not really us. It doesn’t suit the character.

And again, I’d probably listen to something like this, but does it fit the mould? No, probably not.

KEVIN: Like Luca said, we all know when something is right. So it’s basically just about keeping at it until something clicks. I wouldn’t recommend trying to write music this way, though—it’s pretty heavy.

LUCA: We strongly discourage anyone from making music. 

[Laughter]

How have each of you evolved since you started the band?

KEVIN: I don’t play guitar anymore.

LUCA: For you Kev, if I could make a comment on your evolution, you’ve embraced the things that make you, you a lot more. So for instance, you had a lot of like shame and embarrassment attached to your obsessions. 

KEVIN: Yeah, that’s ‘cause my parents were probably roasting me every day. So I held onto that, and I felt shame for being obsessed with cars for a long time. But now, I’m pretty open about it—I really like it. But yeah, that’s definitely changed.

There’s so many references to cars throughout your songs. 

KEVIN: Yeah, sorry about that [laughs].

I saw a mention of you guys being into Avicii and David Guetta? I happy your honest about your influences.

LUCA: The creative world—particularly music—so much of it is stylised. Not to say our work isn’t, but at the end of the day, when we’re not on stage or whatever, we’re scrolling reels at home, you know? We’re going on RuneScape like everyone else, looking at all this stuff, doing shit that we like.

I’m not really sure what I’m trying to say…

HAYDN: Well, it’s not embarrassing to admit that, because, you know, everyone else is scrolling reels at home. There’s no sense that we’re above that.

LUCA:  That’s the point that I’m making. 

HAYDN: Yeah. This extra highfalutin thing—it’s like, no, it’s the same. We’re all digesting the same meal of TikTok.

KEVIN: We’re professional doom-scrollers.

What have you been listening to lately? 

HAYDN: The Fontaines D.C. album was one of my most-played last year—both the artist and the song. And that album is fantastic. It’s just got depth to it. There are parallels to our music in there, and I think that’s part of it. It’s a bit of inspiration.

LUCA: That came out when we were recording, in the middle of recording, actually, and it very much affected the drum sound, on ‘SCREWDRIVA’. 

HAYDN: And ‘Hesitance’ . 

LUCA: I haven’t listened to anything but Top 40 that I’ve really loved in a bit. In my car, I’m either listening to Nova or I’m listening to Smooth FM. 

[Laughter]

LUCA: Whatever they’re playing, I’m into it. I like the Troye Sivan song. [Sings] ‘I feel the rush.’

KEVIN: Holy crap! Bro, you’re out of the band!

[Laughter]

How did you come to play your respective instruments? And why don’t you play guitar anymore Kev?

KEVIN: I just don’t play it at home. I would rather do anything, but play guitar by myself. So I literally, and I know this might sound weird, but like I only crack it out when I’m in rehearsal. I probably should play it more at home. But yeah, I’m too busy. 

Do you think that not playing so much adds to your playing style? Does it lend itself to keeping a freshness for you?

KEVIN: That would be a great justification for my laziness. Maybe, maybe. 

HAYDN: For me, I didn’t play bass until we started the band. I wasn’t very good at it.

KEVIN: Haydn was a guitarist.

HAYDN: Now, I’m okay. I don’t know if I loved it at first, but now I do. I think it sort of became like a new toy, you know? I still don’t, really sit down at home much to play bass. But it’s something where I’m like, how do I make this thing sound… you know, like a guitar?

I played piano before I picked up bass, and that influenced me. I was better at guitar, but I never got piano lessons. With bass, it was the same—I never really had lessons. So I sort of treat them similarly. In my head, I’m like, well, the bass doesn’t have to just be low notes. It definitely should be sometimes, but I like playing chords on it, mucking around with harmonics, that sort of thing. And it ends up sounding like… well, you just don’t usually think of bass that way.

I certainly didn’t think of it as an instrument with that much depth until I started playing. And then that made me want to seek it out more.

KEVIN: Most of the time, Haydn is the one who comes up with the main riffs—he’s usually the main meat and potatoes guy in the band. Luca and I just sprinkle stuff on top.

That didn’t used to be like that. It used to be, you’d think of the guitar as a traditional riff instrument. So it was on me—until Haydn came out of his box and started playing high notes, chords, and harmonics. And I was like, Damn, he’s way better at that than I am. I’ll let him do that.

Is there anything else you’d like to tell me?

LUCA: I’m an artistic genius [laughs].

KEVIN: All the videos are spearheaded and done by Luca. We do get help from our good friend Harry [Walsh], who’s in Behind You—he co-directs a few of the videos. But the most recent video was just Luca being like, ‘Oh, Kevin, I need you to come here at this time.’ Then I’d rock up, and he’d be completely hungover.

We’d film some stuff. I don’t know if you’ve seen the SCREWDRIVA’ video?

Yeah, it’s awesome!

KEVIN:  All the crazy 3D stuff?… Luca bought five GoPros off Amazon, and Haydn built a rig in his backyard to put them on. We went to a bunch of different servos, and Luca would be like, ‘Okay, Kevin, go walk into the servo.’ I hated it so much. But the shots came out pretty cool.

Luca, you come from a creative household growing up, right? Your dad is a photographer?

LUCA: Yeah, my dad’s an artist, and so is my mum. I think being around them from a very young age exposed me to pretty out-there stuff. Some of my parents’ favourite artists were often people who made things that hadn’t really been made before. I remember growing up listening to The Fall with Mark E. Smith, or watching Harmony Korine’s films.

That’s what influenced me. My dad, for his PhD, swam the Parramatta River as a performance piece. There’s a screenshot of it hanging in our house, and that’s stuck with me for a long time. It’s a big part of my aesthetic.

Rad! Last question; what’s something really awesome that’s happened to you in the last week? 

KEVIN: I bought a new bicycle today because me and my girlfriend have gotten really into cycling, as lame as that might sound. 

That’s not lame. That’s rules!

KEVIN: I love toys, you know, so got the drift car, got the mountain bike. That makes me happy. 

If you had a skateboard too, you’d have it all.

KEVIN: I’m too old for that. I’ll shatter my femur multiple times!

[Laughter]

HAYDN: I got nothing. Nothing awesome has happened to me this last week. 

LUCA: It’s all doom and gloom. I reckon the most awesome thing that’s happened has been honestly showing up at work. No one I work with—God bless them, I love all these people so much—really knows what my life is like outside of work. I love the feeling of walking into work and no one gives a fuck about what I’ve been doing. It’s so funny. All your friends and family are like, ‘Oh, great video, great song,’ but I walk into work and everyone’s just like, ‘Have you seen the email? Have you done it?’

[Laughter]

HAYDN: It may be a cop-out sort of response, but I had a similar realisation when I was doing a lesson. I was like, You know, it’s very different. I’m a different guy when I’m a tennis coach. I realised that this week as well, especially because we haven’t been working very much. I’ve been doing it all, you know, six days a week, and then suddenly, I’m not during this break, and we’re focusing on music. I go, Man, I turn into Coach Haydn. My voice changes, everything’s different. And I think it takes time away from work to realise that sometimes.

KEVIN: Haydn’s a weapon on Minecraft, by the way. 

HAYDN: Yeah, I’m pretty good at Minecraft,.

KEVIN: If he’s not doom-scrolling or playing tennis, he’s building crazy shit on Minecraft.

HAYDN: That’s absolutely true. I’m pretty good at woodworking too.  

LUCA: I’m amazing at the online MMORPG RuneScape. Thank you for asking good questions.

KEVIN: Yeah. Thanks for the lovely chat!

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Armour, 100% and Bloodletter’s Lena Molnar: ‘I’ve always been a somewhat confrontational person’

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Lena is a force of nature—an advocate, researcher, and community builder whose work spans music, activism, and disability justice. From creating zines to process grief to putting on shows that strived to reshape Meanjin/Brisbane’s punk scene by prioritising non-male artists, to her current efforts in preventing violence against women with disabilities, she is driven by a deep commitment to change.

She’s not afraid to talk about hard things like death, power, and systemic inequality. Lena challenges the status quo through grassroots organising, academic research, and award-winning advocacy, carving out space for those too often overlooked.

In this conversation, she reflects on loss, activism, and the ongoing evolution of both herself and her communities. Gimmie also dives into her musical journey, creative philosophy, progressive punk ethics, and the themes behind her projects—including her latest Naarm/Melbourne-based goth-rock post-punk band, Armour, as well as 100%, Bloodletter, and more.

 LENA: You’re a really good writer! 

GIMMIE: Thank you! I’ve been doing this for a long time—30 years, in fact. For a really long time, I didn’t believe I was even a writer. I doubted myself because I used to cop so much flack from people telling me I couldn’t write—mostly from guys in the scene. I was actually told that I should go back and pass high school English, along with so many other snarky comments that constantly put me down.

I used to get upset about it, but then one day, something changed for me. I realised: hey, I’m doing what I love, I’m having a lot of fun, I’m making these meaningful connections and doing work that means something to me. I feel like I have purpose.

LENA: There’s a couple of things I want to speak to there. I think you’ll just end up doing the thing that you want to do, regardless of what people tell you or say is the right way of doing something. If you feel good doing it, you’ll just keep on doing it or find a way to do it, because you feel bad when you’re not doing it.

You’ll feel like you’ll be doing it in some way—either professionally, in your own way, or by finding an outlet to do it, like a zine, writing a book, or whatever. Or you’ll just be having those conversations anyway. I’m speaking about you, but that’s the same for doing some sort of art, having a creative practice, or finding whatever your thing is.

If you’re a creative person or have some outlet, there’s always going to be people—especially when you’ve got some sort of marginalised experience—who tell you, ‘nah, the way that you’re doing it is not the way; it’s not my way.’

But if you do it from your heart, it doesn’t matter what the “right way” is. People are going to connect with it. If they connect with it, then it’s going to foster your own community and your own platform. That’s how you know it’s the right way, regardless of what the outlet ends up being.

Whether it’s through a zine, a book, a magazine, a piece of journalism, or even just using the radio or whatever, you’re obviously really good at drawing out conversation and stories from people. You have your own storytelling practice, and that’s really important. Like, fuck the correct writing conventions. People engage with how you tell stories, Bianca. It’s so cool.

Thank you. I just really care about the people I interview. I would never speak to someone whose work I didn’t find interesting or whose work I didn’t enjoy. My time is really limited because I do so many different things, so I have to just focus on what I really love.

I’ve been wanting to chat with you for ages—even as far back as when we saw you at Nag Nag Nag. I especially love your band Bloodletter and your earlier band, Tangle. It’s been really cool to see your evolution as a creative and how one thing informs the next. It’s the coolest thing to watch people grow.

LENA: Thank you. It’s really special that you mentioned Tangle, not my first band, but one of the first bands that played a lot and I got to do a bunch of things with. It’s nice that you can see the connection between what I was doing then and what I’m doing now. One of the privileges of staying in the creative arts community, like punk or any underground scene is seeing the beautiful ways that people change and grow, but become more and more themselves. That’s just an honour to grow up together in the different ways that we do. 

In my experience of community, I’ve seen that sometimes people don’t want things to change—particularly in the punk and hardcore scenes. There’s that other side of things where, when people try to grow and evolve, others want to pull them back, saying, ‘Hey, no, but this is cool. Let’s just stay here.’

LENA: I’ve definitely felt that in many different ways, like with regards to style and genre. Especially in hardcore, there are very fixed ways of thinking. I have a respect for that in some regards, but also, I am not held down to any preconceptions that there’s a certain way to be—for me, at least.

It’s actually quite unhealthy for me to think that I have to be a certain way to be authentic or to be, like, quote-unquote, punk or whatever. That’s sort of the antithesis of how I relate to creative practice and the subculture that I’ve grown to love and be a part of. I wouldn’t want to hold anyone else back that way, but I understand why people sort of feel that way.

I feel it’s really important to hold things down in a particular way. But yeah, it’s a devil’s bargain of, yeah, these are the things that keep us safe and the logics of genre or punk, per se, or hardcore, while also it should be about letting people in and letting people be free to be their freaky selves as well.

I read an interview with you where you talked about growing up with punk and DIY. You mentioned that, in your youth, you noticed conflicts and approaches in hardcore and heavier music that were a little at odds with things in your life.

LENA: I have an interpretation of a punk ethic that is very progressive, very open, and about changing and supporting people to change while being accountable as well. There’s an openness to conflict in that sense, where conflict brings about disruption and change.

But there have been things that have happened in my life where people are very resistant to that kind of accountability—especially because of their own behaviour. These situations have been quite damaging within communities, and it’s severed ties due to the inability to communicate or because of what’s led up to some really poor choices. Yeah, violence and abuse within interpersonal relationships and smaller scenes in communities.

To me, that’s at odds with my personal ethics, which I drew from the people I had the privilege of hanging out with early on when I was coming into punk. That’s really informed my entire life. But I understand not everyone sees punk—or lives in the world—providing that kind of ethos.

And yet, not everyone has the same viewpoint as me, and that’s totally fine. I live in a community where folks don’t all have to agree. But, if you don’t agree with people, what do you do about that? 

It seems like it’s getting harder to have these conversations, even just in everyday life, because everyone is so this way or that way. I’ve always thought that opening up a dialogue with someone is how you can actually start to affect change.

LENA: Totally. If you can’t talk about it, then you probably can’t do anything about it. A lot of people are afraid of being wrong because they think that means they have to change, or that they have to do something that means their way of thinking hasn’t been right. It’s too difficult for them. And that’s not just a punk thing. Every community suffers with that. It’s very nuanced. There are some really beautiful people in our community who are quite open to having these kinds of conversations. I’ve been inspired by them throughout my life. I call a lot of those people my very good friends.

Was punk scene the first community that you came to? 

LENA: I grew up in a household where I had family around a lot of the time. There were a lot of folks who had migrated from the war, in a community with a lot of people who were struggling in different ways. I always lived around a lot of different kinds of people, and my community was always like family—extended family, neighbours.

There were a lot of interesting conversations about ageing and mental health that were normalised very early in my life because of my family’s mixed cultural background. We talked about trauma and death quite a lot, very early.

Those kinds of conversations meant that community was much more of a flexible idea to me: Who’s around you? What are you doing together? But also, what do you need from each other at that time?

I’ve got a really open idea about what community is, but I’ve never been the fixed-group, nuclear-family kind of girl. It’s always been more inclusive. I think that way of growing up has really imprinted on me, it’s a really special way to grow up.

You mentioned growing up where conversations about death were normalised. I know about a decade ago, you did a zine called Good Grief, and it explored grief and loss. I’m interested to talk about this; in the past few years I lost both of my parents. It’s been something that is on my mind a lot.

LENA: I’m sorry that you lost both your parents. 

I’m sorry you’ve lost your dad too. My parents no longer being here is something that still feels really strange for me. I’m not sure if it will ever not feel that way.

LENA: That was basically the reason why my friend Erica [Newby] and I put that zine together. We both lost a parent within a couple of months of each other, and we found that no one except for each other got it. My friends were really beautiful at the time; they tried, but mostly, it was like, ‘If there’s anything I can do,’ or ‘I have no words.’ It was very much like, ‘You tell me,’ like, you do the work. Then I started getting a lot of ‘You’re so strong.’ I’ve been getting that my whole life—‘Look at you go, you’re so strong,’ and ‘You fucking kill it.’ And I’m just crumbling inside.

Photo: Jhonny Russell

Same! I also get, ‘You’re always so positive!’ It’s like, yeah, but you don’t see me on my bad days when I’m in a ball, crying and feeling so low.

LENA: I feel like I recognise that about you in the few moments that we have seen each other.

I’ve experienced very deep sadness, depression and crippling anxiety in my life, and in those lowest, low times, I felt no one was there for me, I didn’t have any support despite knowing A LOT of people; obviously that’s changed having Jhonny in my life. But because of those experiences, though, I always try to be there for others and try to remain on the positive side of things. But it’s not always realistic.

LENA: Yeah. And it does damage trying to be like that a lot. I had a feeling that we were gonna talk about death and grief. It’s washed all over me—I’m a death girlie. [laughs]. I’ve always been a spooky little bitch!

[Laughter]

LENA: I guess I had lost people prior to my dad dying; I was 22. But no one so close to me like my dad was. My dad was my best friend. My friend Erica lost her mother to cancer, so it was two very different kinds of grief. My dad passed away very suddenly. I was on the phone to him one day, and two days later, he was dead. Heartbreaking.

Whereas Erica was anticipating the loss of her mother, and that’s also very tragic, as anyone who loses a parent or a loved one over a long illness knows. Both are bad. Especially at that age when you’re still coming to terms with yourself, and everyone around you is still quite young too. In Anglo-Queensland, where we were, people offered lots of prayers but weren’t really sure what to do. So we came up with the idea of doing the zine. We reached out to folks that we knew, and beyond, to submit whatever creative stuff they had about their experience of loss—about what it felt like. We wanted to share that with others so they could gain some insight into what grieving can be like, and to normalise those conversations a little bit at that stage in our lives.

I still have a copy of one of the masters of that zine I made, and I look at it every now and then. I’ve lost people since. We’ve already talked about change, and now we’re talking about death. The only constants in life are change and death. I’m continuously reminding myself of that. I talk about it with my staff. You just have to roll with that—change and death. Those are the constants in life. You can’t be afraid of it. The better you get at anticipating it, but not living in fear of it—living in spite of it and building your life around the choices you make despite these things being inevitabilities—you’ll make better choices.

But you’ve got to be able to support people in their fear of those things as well. Especially folks who aren’t brought up in a way or are unable to come to terms with talking about it. It is scary, and people run away from it. In the disability community, there’s a very close relationship between how people perceive disability and death. We’re living reminders of mortality, and that you don’t have all the strength you think you do. Something could happen to you, and the world isn’t built for that.

You recently won the National Disability Award for Excellence in Innovation.

LENA: My organisation did. I delivered a program through my organisation called Changing the Landscape, which provides resources on preventing violence against women with disabilities. The program targeted a national audience of practitioners in the disability service sector, as well as gender-based violence workers. These resources include videos, posters, and materials based on a 100-page document detailing the rates of violence and what can be done to stop it. They’re beautiful resources that I’m very proud of, especially considering I did a lot of that work just after a significant surgery. While I’m the program manager for that suite of resources, it took a lot of work on my part, but I’m just happy to have been part of such a dedicated team.

What motivated you to start working in that kind of space? 

LENA: Gendered-violence or disability?

Both.

LENA: I have experiences of both. I had trained as a sociologist and did my honours thesis in urban sociology about gentrification—specifically, how people perceive their role in changing public space in a highly gentrified area known as West End. I was really interested in some things that didn’t end up getting discussed in the findings or didn’t emerge from the data. And that’s because I didn’t draw out a particular feminist analysis on the project, which was limited by the nature of an honours project.

So, I then just got into the swing of being a research assistant. But all the while, I was doing activist work on the side.

Before that, I had been doing activist work around gender-based violence, fundraising and learning how to mediate through grassroots organisations. I had been involved in this kind of work for a while. 

After the publication of Good Grief, people started asking Erica and me if we were going to table the zine somewhere or if we were planning to do a distro. At the time, we had no intention of doing anything like that. We just wanted to create the zine and put it out there. But after people kept reaching out, asking us to do more, we realised there was a need in the zine space. We thought about what we would want to do, and we decided to start collecting and distributing zines written by women and queer people to sell at a market in West End.

We started doing that, and then I began incorporating records that were not just from cis men—bringing in women and non-binary people into the lineups. Eventually, Erica didn’t have the energy to keep going, so I continued on my own. Because of my priorities in the music scene, it ended up being a little more music-focused than zines, but I always maintained a bit of both.

This background relates to your question because, in doing all of this, I began booking shows here and there. The key was that there would never be an all-male band on the lineup. As a result, the shows I booked in Brisbane at the time had very creative lineups—something different from what was happening in the punk scene. At that time, it was mostly bands with the same members, and while they were really talented, the shows felt repetitive. Sometimes that’s cool, but when it’s the only type of show you can attend, it becomes limiting. I wanted to create something different.

Every other show I did would be a fundraiser for an organisation like Sisters Inside. I also started selling secondhand T-shirt runs to raise money for Sisters Inside. It became a part of what I was doing—some form of fundraising or activism, mediation, and being that girlie who always had something to say about what was going on and why certain things were such a problem. I became a little bit problematic but just stopped caring.

Going back to my time as a research assistant, after finishing my degree, I had no intention of working in the gender-based violence space. However, when a scholarship came up at RMIT University, it seemed to align perfectly with my skill set. They were looking for someone with experience in visual methods and a background in gender-based violence activism to research how young people engage with social media to prevent gender-based violence. I saw it as an opportunity to do something new, to align something I was already doing with my skillset, and to see what would happen. I had never really thought about doing a PhD, but it seemed like a good opportunity, especially since I was starting to feel burnt out being that girlie in Brisbane.

I had a lot of friends in Melbourne who knew what I was about and wouldn’t make me feel like I was alone. So it just felt like a good time to take the opportunity and run with it. 

When I got to the end of my PhD, I was looking for work outside of academia because I don’t see the point in doing research if you can’t share the knowledge and apply it somewhere. I still feel like that. One of the roles that was coming up was at this organisation that I work for now, which is called Women with Disabilities Victoria.

Photo: Jhonny Russell

To bring the conversation back to music, do you feel that each bands you’ve been a part of has represented different parts of your personal and musical development? 

LENA: I wouldn’t say different parts because I don’t like to separate the self. Maybe at one point, I would have, but I’ve gone through a bunch of stuff in the last couple of years, and I’ve done a lot of deep reflection on everything—the shit, all the little things I’ve done. Definitely, in my younger years, other people would have asked, ‘How do you make sense of all this? You do this, and you do that, and you do this—how is it all the same?’ But in my mind, when I look at all that stuff, I see it as the same girl. I see the common thread. It all makes sense to me, and I can see where it can go.

Creatively, I’ve done a lot of stuff that might not connect together on paper, but it all informs one another. It’s always been about asking, ‘What else can I do? How else can I express myself? That sounds fun, or I haven’t done that before’. That was the thinking at the time—‘I haven’t done that before. That sounds fun. That’s a nice group of people, or an interesting group of people to work with. I would really like to try that. Let’s give it a go.’ And when it stops feeling like that, you let go of it.

There have been a couple of times when I’ve been super passionate about something, and you can probably tell when you’re listening to it. It’s like, ‘Oh, all those steps, all those little pieces I’ve put together, they’ve come into play.’ But it also goes back to an old band I did. It’s like, ‘Oh, she’s still doing that. She’s still thinking about that thing, and it still matters.’ That’s how I know it’s always been about finding the best way to express myself. It doesn’t matter the genre or the medium.

I had some downtime a couple of months ago, and I was drawing a lot. To me, my drawings are the same—they’re about the same things that I write my lyrics about.

You mentioned threads; what are they?

LENA:That’s something that I’m less open about. I’d like to hear what you think. 

Thinking of your new band, Armour, even just in the name, there’s a really strong imagery to begin with. Armour feels like it’s both defensive and empowering. People go into battle wearing armour, so I was wondering if you’re exploring internal struggles or if it’s something larger and more outward?

LENA: Always, for sure. That’s always been a part of the ideas I’ve written about, throughout my practice as a creative person — as a poet, as a lyricist, as a writer. It’s stuff that I explore in my academic space as well.

I’m fascinated by struggle and change, and what people do to avoid it, or what people do when they are confronted. And that’s not necessarily a negative type of struggle or defence. It’s not something I’m always consciously aware of; it’s just something that I’m drawn to.

…I know that I’ve healed from some stuff I’ve gone through in my life because, working in the prevention of gender-based violence, for example, I see the long game. I can talk about violence all day, for example, because I know what the point is. And I see how to make change.

That’s why I’ve always been a somewhat confrontational person. But I know how to use those skills to get people, hopefully, going. I’ve got a good sense of humour to get people to think about things in a different way and bring them along for the ride, where it doesn’t have to be like this.

Part of why I really love your band 100% is because there is a lightness. I’ve read you say that the vibe of 100% is kind of like your aunt or Dolly Doctor. Any time I’m seen 100% live, it’s so joyful.

LENA: We have a cute little world that we created in that band. Like, it is what you imagine girlhood to be. And also, what maybe I do have nostalgia for. I did have moments of that typified girlhood with my friends when I was a teenager. But there’s the the dreaminess of that band— that was still, make-shift and put together through our own DIY lens, or in a futurist way of, like, what would the ideal be like? And what would we tell ourselves?

A lot of the lyrics were , okay, what would I want to hear if I was in this situation? And drawing from a few different situations that I did know about. Or if I was watching a movie, I’d think, what project would write the sweetest songs and charm each other through that? It was about supporting different aspects of songwriting between the three of us. None of us had ever done something like that before. It was really magical.

Yeah, well, it’s that— even though I really like the cover you put out that had the cake on it. That spoke to me in so many ways. One of my best friends made that cake too.

You mentioned a dreaminess, I feel Armour has a dreaminess, but a different kind of dreaminess. 

LENA: Armour is the step between 100% and Bloodletter with a touch of Tangle. But in terms of tone, it’s definitely, at times soft sweetness. But also, I’m sweet, but, if you fuck up me or my family, I will fucking kill you vibes! [laughs]. That’s what being community minded is about, right?

[Laughter]. One of the songs I really love on the EP is ‘Heat Dream’. It has this surreal vibe. 

LENA: What makes you say that? 

Well, for one thing, the imagery, the fantasy and the dreaming in its lyrics.

LENA: There is a literalness of, like, I don’t do well in the heat [laughs]. It’s verbatim describing my experience of not doing well on a hot night. Knowing that others feel the same as well and taking it to the extreme. Growing up in the tropics, like in Brisbane, but also, like, there’s definitely being— like, is this fantasy? Am I awake right now? What was going on? What the fuck was that dream?

Your song ‘Sides of a Coin’ has a bit of a different tone to the others. 

LENA: People are really engaging with that song. It’s really nice. I wrote the lyrics to that one really quickly. Those ones that just poured out. We weren’t sure whether or not we liked it as a band. So I tried to do something else with it. But I just kept going back to, this is how it has to be. 

Lyrically it mentions about breaking the chains and setting yourself free, and there’s a sense of freedom from constraint. Maybe a feeling of liberation? You mention seeing the coin from the other side; what’s the significance of that?

LENA: I’m going to speak abstractly, because people will have their own interpretations. When I wrote that, I was thinking about the nature of truth. 

I really like to write songs that engage with other songs, that sort of build a world. But that song, in itself, is a conversation. You see the coin from the other side—truth is subjective. There’s evidence, obviously. But if a rock fell between you and me, and someone who couldn’t see the rock asked us to describe it, how would we do so?

From your side, you might see the rock has some moss on it, some speckles, maybe a big crack from when it hit the ground. Thankfully, neither of us were hurt. From where I’m sitting, I can see that there’s light behind you, so you can notice details that I can’t. On my side, it’s the same rock, but all I see is grime. This rock is dirty. I mostly see the shadow of this rock right now.

We’re having a conversation about what we see, and to describe the rock, the arbitrator asks, ‘Are you sure you’re looking at the same rock?’

Yes, it’s the rock on this street, blah, blah, blah. So, what is the evidence? Are we going to fight about whose rock is the correct one? Do we get an opportunity to look at the other side of the rock? Or can we agree that on your side, it’s a nice green, sparkly rock with a crack, and on mine, it’s a funky, dark, grimy rock with webs?

It’s the same rock. And it’s a beautiful rock. And we’ve both survived.

Wouldn’t it be nice if everyone could be open to each other’s side of the rock? 

LENA: Yeah, well, you don’t always get to that part of the conversation [laughs]. Sometimes you’re just like, can I just move the rock? 

Do you see a narrative arc for the EP? 

LENA: We just thought they sounded good in that order. Most of the songs were written at the same time. From my side, as the lyricist, they probably represent different aspects of things I was processing and responding to. I also added other bits in terms of lyrical content and other elements. 

Was there a particular thing that comes to mind when you think about that period and what you were kind of writing to? 

LENA: Something I really like about Armour is that it feels authentic as a band. I think there’s a lot in my part of it, which is about bringing people together—for healing, but also for a fight.

I was interested in the EP closer, ‘Last Train,’ because a last train could be a powerful metaphor for endings, choices, or opportunities. I also got a sense of exploring how distance or endings can bring clarity—or even healing.

LENA: That’s a really apt interpretation, without getting into the direct inspiration for that song itself. Each song has its initial influence, but if a song is conceptually strong enough, it will have a meaning that resonates with anyone’s experiences. And that was definitely something I was going for with ‘Last Train’: how do we move past an ending? What choices can we make? It’s about ownership of choice as well.

There’s a line in it that talks about breaking apart and yet making amends. Sometimes, those things can be in contradiction with each other.

LENA: A long time ago, in my early 20s, I came across the notion of creation and destruction, either in a zine or on someone’s bum patch or something like that. I spoke to it at the beginning of our chat—how, as a particular kind of troublemaker, I see change as good. But confrontation, too, can be a way to make change. It’s not the only way, of course, but I’m not afraid of conflict because it means things are moving. It can mean things are moving, as long as you know what to do with it. I try not to be too stuck in place.

That doesn’t mean I’m not stubborn. Things can hurt when you’re forced to do things outside of your control, but learning to let go is a big part of life. When you know things are ending, there’s a beauty in being open to what happens next.

I’m a big fan of saying no, so that you can rest and open yourself up for what the next yes is. I really respect when other people do that, even if it means they’ve said no to me [laughs].

I say no to a lot of things now. As Gimmie grows and so does my book and editing work, I get asked to do a lot of events, projects and stuff. I used to always say yes to everything because I felt I had to. But I’m a lot better at saying no now. I listened to this interview with a writer [Shonda Rhimes] and it really stuck with me. She talked about saying no to things without saying sorry or giving a million excuses for why you can’t do something. I used to feel bad for saying no, or people would get upset with me for not doing what they wanted or not meeting their expectations. I felt I had to apologise or explain myself. I felt bad for saying no. The writer shared that she simply replies: ‘No, I’m unavailable for that.’ And the first time I did that myself, I felt so good. That should be good enough.

LENA: It’s really respectable to know exactly where your limits are and hold up your boundaries, especially at the stage of life I’m at now. It’s a valuable thing to model for others. It’s scary how many people-pleasers I see, or how much people-pleasing behaviour I observe, where folks take on so much because they think, ‘Yeah, that’d be fun. That’d be cool. I gotta do it. Nobody else is gonna do it, or nobody else is going to do it the way I think it should be done.’

There’s a huge risk, not only in overloading yourself but also in not allowing someone else the opportunity to do it. Even if they do it a way you wouldn’t necessarily agree with, or do it differently from how you would, there’s a control aspect for some people. It’s also just a fear — the fear that if people recognise you now, they might forget that you exist later.

But there’s a beauty in being comfortable enough to say, ‘My time will come again.’

I love that! I think coming from the punk and hardcore community, something I’ve struggled with is allowing yourself to have success and actually celebrating that. I’ve always thought the mentality was weird — that when something becomes more popular, people stop liking it, even though the people creating it are still doing what they did with the same heart.

LENA: It’s not just the punk thing, but also the punk and tall poppy syndrome thing that comes with being in Australia. Like, ‘Oh, if it’s popular, it must be shit.’ 

But I’m talking about when it’s the same — or it’s probably even better than when they started. 

LENA: Yeah, like ‘sellouts,’ all that shit. I understand sort of where that skepticism comes from. I goes back to what we were talking about with gatekeeping and of the purpose in small communities — why you would gatekeep, so that you keep your community safe. You want it to be special. You also don’t want yucky people or horrible people to come in and exploit what you worked so hard for or what was so important to you and gave your life meaning, to become like an open house necessarily. So, there’s a meaningfulness and care that goes into people saying, ‘No, no, no, no, no. It’s not for everyone. You go away.’

Lately, I’ve seen a lot of gross elements coming back into shows, stuff that was happening in the ‘90s and early ‘00s, there seems to be more violence and shit behaviour from crowds. Did you see what happened at Good Things festival on the weekend? In Brisbane there was lots of young girls reporting sexual assaults with older guys grabbing at them and not allowing them to exit the pit to safety. Also, people were crowd killing and going around punching people in the pit. Predictably, Good Things festival were deleting comments about it on their social media.

LENA: Something that I was thinking about when I was talking about, the ideal part of gatekeeping is that it keeps you safe, but the thing is, in my experience, a lot of the folks who end up doing that can also be the ‘yucky’ people — or they end up being the yucky people who have the loudest voices, saying, ‘This is what punk is.’ Like, ‘If you don’t like it, go back to the back of the room, don’t come into the mosh pit,’ and all this shit. And it does, regardless of how into being part of the mosh pit you are, or your perception of what’s a good time in a shabby mosh pit, and where the boundaries are, it does impact your engagement. Like, how ready am I to participate? Or when am I going to fuck off? Because, like, ‘Oh, that person’s there. This is no longer a fun time.’ Where, like, yeah, I can withstand a little bit of pushback. But like violence is different to what we recognise as like a mosh pit. For some people who come, there are some people who come to punk spaces or hardcore spaces because they’re attracted to being enabled to be violent. 

They then — and this goes back to some folks having adopted a totally different ethos than what I found in my punk upbringing — and that’s on them, and that’s on me. But, you know, part of it is not being able to have conversations about, like, ‘Is that a way to treat another human being who’s also trying to have a good time? Can you recognise when you’ve crossed the line?’ And then bringing in other factors, like sexual assault and ableist behaviour. I’ve been at shows where folks using mobility aids are completely dehumanised, completely objectified, or treated as though they’re not even there. Or their wheelchair is just a piece of furniture that people can dump their bags on. That hurts my feelings — as an audience member, as a performer, as a member of the disability community — to see that folks in the audience, my peers, my community members, are not being recognised as human beings who are afforded the same right to enjoyment. For whatever reason, they’re either not actually being seen in the space, or where they are, the things that enable their participation are being used as, like, dumping grounds, just regular furniture for other folks. And it’s going to impact their freedom. It’s not good enough. It’s not right. But, folks just don’t think about everyone.

Exactly. That’s my point. I don’t think it’s asking too much of people to be thoughtful and mindful of other people in the same space. I’m tired of being told by bros that I’m too sensitive and punk rock is about violence and I should get out of the way so they can have fun.

LENA: You’re not too sensitive. You see everything and, yeah, I do too. Stuff that other people just don’t see. It would just take the smallest change, hey?

Yes! What are some things that never fail to make you smile? I saw you had a little gathering yesterday of friends.

LENA: Every end of year, my friends do a barbecue before everyone goes away for the holidays. My friends are really good at getting together and eating food. My friends are big eaters. We’re really good at doing nice things together.

I’m very motivated to find a thing that folks will like to do, like a movie or a thing that’s happening out in the regional areas, getting folks in a car together. Or going on a trip.

I love my friends. I’ve got the most beautiful people in my life. I’ve had some really tough things happen in the last couple of years. And it previously has been really hard for me, and it’s still really hard for me to ask for help, but they’ve shown the fuck up for me. That speaks to stuff that I’ve done for them and for community as well.

I can smile so hard, I cry when I think about the beauty of my friends, that I have the privilege of keeping in my life.

I love bringing people together. That’s a big reason why I like like to do music with other people. It brings people together in a beautiful way to think about what we have in common.

I saw in your Insta bio, that you said you’re: living deliciously. What’s that mean to you?

LENA: I really try to hold on to the good moments and make space, ‘cause my work is really hard. It’s really stressful. I’ve had a lot going on. I really try to make sure that I have delicious moments in my life and indulgent times, or even just me time. I strategically place me-time in my life, but also I have so much time for my friends. They’re beautiful, beautiful, beautiful.

I try to hold that up, and I don’t think it’s just only trying to look on the sunny side of life. It’s making sure everything is in balance. ‘Cause I can easily tell when the scales have shifted to the side of no, no, no, no, no. It’s about going the other way.

Before we wrap up, I’d like to talk about Bloodletter a little more. 

LENA: Bloodletter was a band that I felt like, well, finally, I’m doing something that is the stuff that teenage me would be so proud of. I’m very proud of the recordings that we did. Fantastic group of people who liked music with some really heartbreaking songwriting. Some songs, every time we’d play them, I’d say, ‘Can we not play this song? It hurts my feelings.’

But I learned something every time I was a front person in a band. I learned how to work through that kind of thing—how much of myself to put into something—because I think it’s impossible for me not to put myself into it. But also, I learned how to work through it so it doesn’t feel like I’m bearing my soul every single time.

Jasmine [Dunn], who was in Bloodletter, played second guitar. She also plays in Armour. Moose is the main songwriter in Armour, and he had been sitting on five out of six of the songs on this current cassette for a few years. He’d demoed them and just been sitting on them. He’s a songwriting wunderkind, and we’ve been friends since maybe I was 20 or so. It’s a really lovely, long-standing friendship—he’s like a brother.

I was trying to figure out a solo project. I was teaching myself Ableton, which is still very hard. So, like, maybe in 20 years, there’ll be a solo project! [laughs]. But anyway, I sent him something I was tooling around with, and Moose said, ‘Lena, you need to be singing in a band. I’ve got some stuff I’ve been sitting on. Would you like to listen to it?’

I was like, ‘I’ve been waiting for you to tell me you had something. I’ve been waiting for a time where we were both available. Let’s do it.’ So he sent me five of the six songs that are on this tape in demo form, and I pretty much had two and a half of those songs written within a week. I broke away, and I was like, ‘I know exactly what to do. I’ve got stuff.’ It all just came out of me. I thought, ‘Perfect. This is gonna work out great.’

I knew exactly who to get as a second guitarist. When we got to that point, we filled out the band, and I thought, ‘Jasmine is someone I’ve always enjoyed working with in this kind of band.’ We had such a good time in Bloodletter together, and she lives in Melbourne now too. She’s so talented, as is everyone in Armour, so lovely to be in a room with.

That’s where that sound sort of comes in. Jasmine knows the tone, and she knows what I like. It’s very cheeky. Everyone in the band is very cheeky. They’ve got a good sense of humour, very chill, which makes it easy to be in that group.

With Bloodletter, you could lean into the horror, lean into the spooky stuff, while still talking about my lived experience. I really needed to do that band at that time. It was a good move away from having been in some ratty little punk and hardcore bands, which were great at the time, but Bloodletter was so different. Especially coming from Brisbane at that point in time, we were like, ‘Yeah, this is something else.’

Do you think that’s the band where you really started to find your voice?

LENA: I think so. I’ve always sung, but I definitely found my power in my voice at that time. I felt like I gained the most confidence through singing then. I was like, ‘No, I know this is what I have to do.’

And that connects to what we were talking about at the beginning. You go through all kinds of phases or times in your creative practice where people tell you the right way to do things, or what things need to sound like, or whatever. But if you trust yourself, you know.

This is the thing I always end up doing. This is the thing I’ve always done. I’ve got different ways of doing it. I’ve got my own way of doing it. But no one’s going to tell me how to use my voice.

Bloodletter in particular—and now in Armour as well—I don’t sound like anyone else. I trust the way that I sing. It’s not always in key, but it always sounds like me.

Follow: @armourmusicgroup + Armour bandcamp + 100% bandcamp + Bloodletter bandcamp.

Barely Human’s Max Easton: ‘Punk taught me to think more critically.’

Original photo: Lauren Eiko / handmade collage by B.

Max Easton is a writer from Gadigal Country/Sydney with a deep love for music and storytelling. He’s the mind behind BARELY HUMAN, a zine and podcast exploring underground music’s ties to counterculture and subculture. Now, ten years of that work has been collected in his self-published book, Barely Human: Dispatches From An Underground Music Anti-History (2014–2024), featuring print essays, podcast scripts, zines, polemics, and lost writing on Australian underground music and beyond. He’s also the author of two novels published by Giramondo—The Magpie Wing (2021), longlisted for the Miles Franklin Literary Award, and Paradise Estate (2023), longlisted for the Voss Literary Prize and Highly Commended for the Victorian Premier’s Literary Award.

With a new novel in the works for 2025–26, Gimmie caught up with Max to talk writing, DIY music, and the impact of bands like Low Life, Los Crudos, Wipers, Haram, and The Fugs. We also discussed the influence of zines like Negative Guest List and Distort, along with his own experiences playing in Romance, The Baby, Ex-Colleague, Double Date, and Next Enterprise.

GIMMIE: Honestly, I don’t really enjoy a lot of music writing that’s out there. Your work with Barley Human is one of the exceptions.

MAX EASTON: That’s so nice to hear.

Your work is thoughtful and explores the underground, but it also gets you thinking about your own life by the time you’re finished listening to a podcast or reading the zine or book.

ME: That’s cool. That’s a nice effect. 

How’s the year (2024) been for you?

ME: Good. I’m doing pretty good. I’ve been very lucky this year. It’s the first year since I was a teenager where I haven’t had to work a regular job. I got a grant to write a novel.

That’s great! This is for your third novel?

ME: Yeah, which is amazing because I’ve never had anything like that before. It’s been this really interesting, small-business-y type year where I’m trying to be very careful with my spending and accounts—just doing my best to make it last as long as I can. I’ve been able to write whenever I want, which has been great.

It’s also given me more time to focus on music. I’ve been working on archival projects and putting together a collection of music writing, something I’ve always wanted to do but never had the time for. I’ve even been starting bands and putting on shows again. Being free of full-time work for a year has been really, really good. I’m so lucky.

It’s like you really want to make the most of it!

ME: Exactly, because the money will run out in January or February. Then I’ll go back to work, which I’m honestly looking forward to as well. I’m going to be very grateful for this time.

Congratulations on being longlisted for the Miles Franklin Literary Award too. How’s that feel? 

ME: Super weird! Especially with the first novel I wrote, I didn’t really realise it at the time. I didn’t think anyone would actually finish reading it. Like, I never thought anyone would get to the end.

When I was drafting it, my process was very much like, oh, maybe I like this joke in the back; maybe I should put it in the front—that kind of thing. Because, in my mind, no one was going to get to the end anyway.

Why did you think no one will get to the end? 

ME: I just didn’t think there’d be any interest in it. I had never written fiction before and then suddenly locked into this book deal. It’s one of those weird things—I didn’t expect it to do much.

Even with the Miles Franklin longlisting, I didn’t know what that was. I’d never heard of the award before until my publisher was like, ‘Oh, we’ve got some really good news for you.’ So yeah, it’s been really weird to enter into the world of literature.

Especially because I was more familiar with being a blog writer or a zine writer—writing about bands I had connections with and that kind of thing. It felt strange to step out into the public and suddenly be seen as a fiction writer.

How’s the third book going? 

ME: Good. I’ve got a lot of words, but the quality is not really there yet. 

That can be fixed in editing. 

ME: It can. I’m really impatient. I want it to be done so I can start editing, but I need to be done first. You edit as well, right?

Yeah, I edit book manuscripts. I work in publishing as a freelance editor.

ME: That’s sick. So, you’ve dealt with a lot of frail writers.

That’s my specialty. I always tell writers that they have to push through and get words on the page, even if they’re not the greatest. Then you can finesse them. But if there’s nothing on the page, you have nothing to work with. Progress not perfection, that can come later. Being a writer too, I know how hard it can be to get ideas onto a page.

ME: Yeah, it’s a really interesting mental game—trying to write, think, and navigate all the different steps and phases. I’m trying to get better at not overthinking things, panicking, or stressing out, but you can only control so much in your brain.

I saw you mention that with this book, you wanted to have a more positive view on the ideas of independence and autonomy. 

ME: Yeah, because I think the second book was quite cynical. It was a satirical novel, kind of satirising everyone, including myself. It had this flat cynicism to it. The first one, on the other hand, had a kind of flat existentialism.

For the third book, I really wanted to do something different. I wanted to capture the joy of organising things and doing things with your friends—the joy of being in a band, the fun you have, and the creativity involved. Like, what happens when you decide to organise a show in a weird, unexpected space that hasn’t hosted a show before? I feel like the first two books were missing that fun side.

So with this third one, I’m aiming for more positivity and optimism, while still grounding it in reality. You know, not everything works out, and that’s okay. It’s about trying to strike that balance at the moment.

That sounds interesting. I can’t wait to read it. I’ve been thinking a lot about joy lately, especially because there’s a lot in the world not to be joyful about that we’re constantly encountering every single day without even leaving our own home. Stuff we see online, on TV, and in the media.

ME: Yeah, 100%. It’s like a very stressful dark time. There’s a lot of stressful dark information, which is very serious. And I think like we’ve got to engage with it and think about it in a serious way. But, like you said, you still have to appreciate the good things that are happening and try to rally around that instead of letting the bad stuff pull you down, which it’s just really easy to do. 

We were talking earlier about having shows in spaces that haven’t had shows before. I recently did an interview with Rhys who does Boiling Hot Politician. He mentioned how his album launch show at a pub got bumped last minute for a wedding and he ended up having it in a rotunda, guerrilla-style. The Sydney Harbour Bridge and Opera House were the backdrop. He told me how joyful it was, so much so he literally hugged every single person that came.

ME: Wow. That’s perfect. 

He knew of the spot because, during the Olympics, he had taken his big-screen TV there, plugged it into a power point, and watched the skateboarding with his friends.

ME: I love that. That’s real community to me. It’s about autonomy, which I’ve been thinking about heaps lately. There’s so much you have to do, so many people you have to ask permission from to get something going.

It’s often a missed opportunity. Like, we want to play a show this weekend, but we have to ask these 10 venues if they’ll let us. I miss the idea of truly doing it yourself.

A few outdoor shows with generator setups have been some of the best I’ve been to, even if they sounded awful. It’s fun. You’re doing it together, without asking anyone’s permission. It’s hard to find that kind of experience.

I felt that way watching the drain shows, especially after the lockdown in Naarm (Melbourne). Like the one Phil and the Tiles played—it looked wild and so cool.

ME: They’re awesome. 

It’s the best when people come together and think outside the box and achieve something cool.

ME: We played a show at a pub recently where no one really wanted to play this show at the venue, everyone I spoke to didn’t want to be there. We all talked about how anxious the place made us feel, how we don’t really get along with anyone who runs it, or it’s just a bit difficult.

Then it was like, well, why are we doing this? It’s because we don’t have as many choices as we’d like, but I’d love to just open a pub where we wouldn’t feel so bad.

I’ve always had a dream to open an all-ages space. Being a teen in the 90s, we had a lot of those spaces. It was so cool to have something fun to do, and to be able to go to a show where people didn’t need to (or couldn’t) drink.

Drinking is a massive part of the culture for a lot of people. I’ve done a lot of interviews with creatives lately, and I’ve noticed that people get to a certain age and get stuck in a bad cycle with that, and it really starts to affect their life. Often, there’s not a lot of support for that. It can really start to impact mental health too.

ME: It’s really hard to break those habits, especially if it becomes part of how you make music. Isn’t it the same?

It’s only been in the last few years with band practices where I’d always bring a six-pack, you know, because it makes things easier or whatever. It’s just the way it is. Then, over the last few years, I started asking, ‘Wait, why?’ Now I just bring a big soda water—it’s the same thing.

Once you’ve got the habit, it’s like you’re in your head thinking, ‘That’s how you do it.’ I’m still the same. When I start a show, I feel like I need two or three drinks before I play, but I don’t know why. It’s just what I’ve always done. It’s funny, these habits we develop over time, and then one day you stop and think, ‘Why do I do that?’

As I’m heading into my late 30s, part of that is becoming a bit more cynical and negative. This year, I’ve really wanted to make sure that if I get into a negative mode, I do something to counter it. Like, if I’m going to complain about a venue we have to play, then I have to put on a show at a venue everyone likes to make up for it. I really don’t want to become that kind of complaining, older person.

Like, old man yells at cloud! 

ME: Yeah, totally. It is easy to fall into. 

Do you think anything in particular is impacting you feeling more negative?

ME: I’m just finding it hard to find the conditions that helped me discover the idea of DIY and punk music. I didn’t really discover this kind of music or this world until my early 20s, because I grew up in Southwest Sydney. I was trying to be a rugby league player. That was all I cared about. I liked music, but the music I liked was just whatever was in Rolling Stone. I’d buy the magazine from the newsagent, and whatever they told me was good, I’d say, ‘Oh, yes, this is good.’ I just didn’t know.

Moving into the city and going to DIY spaces like Black Wire and warehouse spaces in Marrickville was when I realised I’d never really liked music before. I realised what I’d been looking for was there.

What were you looking for?

ME: A sense of community and a sense of connection. I did access that through message boards and fandom, but there was this huge distance. The bands in Rolling Stone would never be bands I’d play in. I never thought about playing music either.

The DIY spaces were different. Within a couple of months of going there, people asked if I played any instruments because they were starting a new band. I’d never thought of it before, but I said, ‘Yeah, sure, I play bass.’ I went and bought a bass and tried to learn it before the first practice.

It was really exciting. It changed the direction of my life.

I think about Sydney now, though, and the lack of all-ages DIY spaces. How would someone discover that now? It’s like going back to this idea of the band on stage, the punter off stage. The band is ‘king’, and you are watching them.

That’s sort of informed a little bit of negativity over the years, but like I said before, I really don’t want to get bogged down in that. I want to build something so people can discover this stuff on their own.

How did you feel when you first realised, I CAN play music or I CAN be a part of that?

ME: Just happy. It was that simple. It was happiness. When I moved to the city, I didn’t have many friends, and I didn’t really understand or believe in depression or anxiety at that time either. It was the late 2000s, early 2010s – it wasn’t really a conversation.

But playing music, having scheduled band practice every week, planning how to play a show, how to record – it really gave me a lot of meaning. Especially since I couldn’t play rugby league anymore. I missed that teamwork aspect, the purpose of going to something two days a week. Music gave me purpose again.

It also opened things up. Because I could play in a band, go to a show, organise a show, and then start talking about worldly political ideas I’d never been exposed to before. I was really just a centrist, working-class guy who voted Labor and thought that was it – that’s all he had to do.

Punk taught me to think more critically, to consider all the intersecting ideas in the world. It opened my world so much.

Same! What compels you to write underground music histories with your zine and podcast, Barley Human?

ME: Like you, I had written in the past. When I started writing for stress press, it was mostly to get free CDs and gig tickets. Then, discovering punk, I realised there was a purpose – telling people about the stuff you’re seeing rather than just mooching off the industry. It was about finding the connecting elements between all these small scenes in the cities.

Eventually, it turned into more international history stuff. Like I said, I discovered punk in my early 20s, and everyone else already knew the references to all these bands. I didn’t know who Crass were, for example, so I’d have to look them up, research them, and figure it out. I learned about anarcho-punk, then had to dig deeper into these worlds.

At the time, I was doing the work for myself. I thought if I could use that research as a primer for others interested in the scene, it could help people who don’t know all the main names. It would make the transition easier.

Even with some less positive bands, I think it’s important to understand why people are interested in figures like GG Allin – the positives and negatives. He’s a very present cultural figure. It was cool to wrap that into a story or explain why X-Ray Spex and Crass were so influential. Why were they cool? Why are these people interesting?

That’s cool you do primers. In my experience of punk culture, there’s often times people can be very pretentious and clique-y and condescending to people because they might not know whatever band. Not everyone can know everything. I’ve always hated that elitist attitude and the ‘I’m better than you’ vibe. It’s lame.

ME: As a community, it should be about saying, ‘Hey, have you checked this out?’ You should be able to explain things to people without judging the fact that they don’t know. It’s a real bummer too because everyone had to learn something at some point, right? A lot of it is a replaying of the treatment someone felt when they first started going to shows. It’s like, ‘Oh, everyone was snooty to me for not knowing all the bands, so now I’ve got to be snooty.’ But no, you’re supposed to help them in. You’ve done it, so give yourself credit for learning all this stuff, and use that to bring others through.

And that’s not even just for punk stuff, but everything in life. Life’s better for everyone when we help each other.

ME: 100%—you get it. 

Being a part of the Sydney scene is there anything that you might know of that’s unique or lesser known that outsiders might not easily discover or know about it? 

ME: It’s hard to say because I can’t really get a feel for what is well-known and what isn’t. I feel like a lot of bands do a pretty good job of making themselves known these days. But, I don’t really look at much social media to get a feel for which bands are really popular and which ones aren’t.

Is there a reason why you don’t really look at that much social media for that stuff? 

ME: I mean, I do look at it, but I don’t really get a feel for it, you know? My favourite band in Sydney right now is my friend’s band, Photogenic. They’re so good. I feel like a band like Photogenic deserves a little more recognition. They’re the best band in town. They taught themselves their instruments not that long ago—about six years ago. I feel like that’s a part of it too. I love their music, I love them as people, and I love the message it sends to others. It’s like… anyone can be the best band in town if you get together and try to make something happen.

I wanted to ask you about the band Low Life, because you did that episode, ‘I’m in Strife; I Like Low Life’, and I was reading on your blog, where you mentioned that Low Life are probably the band that for you, has most closely dealt with aspects of your upbringing and present. I was wondering, what kind of aspects were you talking about?

ME: A lot of it was that sort of Low Life mentality. Maybe they were the first band I got excited about in that 2012–2014 period. A lot of it was because they seemed really depressed, and the world around the music was quite violent. They dealt with stuff like childhood trauma, the resulting depression, what it’s like to be at the hands of violence, and also to feel anger and sadness. There was this mentality of coming together with people, not in a super positive way, but more about finding your way in the world, a world that doesn’t really want you there. It resonated with me, especially with the backdrop of crappy experiences. They really meant a lot to me when I first heard them and got excited about them.

Isn’t it interesting how a band can write about all those things you just mentioned that aren’t so positive but then listening to it felt like such a positive thing for you?

ME: Yeah, it wasn’t even an album track; it was a song called ‘No Ambition’ that they just put out on the internet. It was maybe one of the first songs of theirs I heard, and it really hit me. It was weird—it made me realise I was depressed. Like, this buzzword I’d seen everywhere was a real thing. Stuff like that is why I think I care so much about music. Sometimes, it just accesses a part of your brain that you didn’t even know needed accessing.

Do you feel like you were kind of going through depression at the time, partly because of the sporting injury, losing that whole community, and then moving to the city, not knowing many people—like, all those things?

ME: Yeah, that was all a big part of it. But it was also childhood stuff I’d never dealt with that I was dealing with at that time. Plus, I was really stressed with work and uni. So, it was like high levels of stress, anxiety, and depression hitting at the same time, without the language to understand what it was or how to deal with it.

I’ve dealt with severe anxiety and depression throughout my life too. I remember the first time I had a panic attack—I thought I was dying. I had no idea they were even a thing. Even when I think back to being a child, I used to get a lot of stomach aches and things. Knowing what I know now, I understand it was probably from all the stress I was going through.

ME: Yeah, when you’re experiencing those things for the first time, especially as a kid, it’s hard to know what they are. I would get anxious, and people would just tell me I was worked up. The first time I had a panic attack, I thought my childhood asthma had come back, so I went to the doctor and got a puffer. With depression, I thought it was just a being lazy thing.

But you learn and now you know better, which is great. You mentioned on your blog about going through multiple versions of the Low Life episode, and you mentioned you were sort of having a bit of an identity crisis. How did that sort of shape the final direction of the narrative? What did you learn from that process? 

ME: A lot of it was because they came on really strong, which was exciting. They were this unknown band that brought a lot of people together, and people got really excited about them at first. Over time, though, it was like the realisation that, even though their lyrics were often satirical, they made people uncomfortable. The crowds were violent, and some of my friends didn’t feel comfortable going to the shows. But by that point, I’d already gotten a Low Life tattoo. I thought it was just like getting a Black Flag tattoo—this was the best band in Sydney during our lifetime, and they were playing right then.

I was reading when you wrote about that, and you were talking about how, you’d seen a bunch of Black Flag tattoos and had a lot of band tattoos yourself. But then you were like, why don’t you have any local band tattoos? 

ME: We’re always so backwards-looking—always looking back to 50 years ago, and now it’s even more so. Before the Barely Human stuff, all I cared about was what was happening in the moment. But the last 10 years or so, it’s been more about trying to look back while still focusing on the present. I feel like there are lots of lessons for us to learn, but we act like they’ve already been learned, like it’s over. It’s that “end of history” feeling. There’s so much we can learn from the past and apply now in a new context.

You’ve called Barely Human an anti-history.

ME: When I was trying to outline which bands to profile, I asked myself, what’s the unifying theme? Part of it was that, if I wanted to talk about the birth of punk as a genre, I didn’t want to talk about The Clash or The Sex Pistols. I’d rather introduce it via X-Ray Spex. When I wanted to talk about blues music, I didn’t want to focus on Robert Johnson alone—I wanted to talk about people like R.L. Burnside and lost versions of the genre, the kind of stuff people usually skim over.

Same with post-punk: I thought the stories of bands like the Television Personalities and The Raincoats would be the best way to tell that story—not the typical narrative people think of when they think of post-punk as a genre. The anti-history part was to take the mainstream history, read it, and then ask, who’s being left out?

For example, when we talk about hardcore, we mention Black Flag, Dead Kennedys, Minor Threat, or some variation of that story. But Los Crudos, who came in the ’90s toward the end of that movement, represent one of the best versions of what hardcore became—a community-driven movement, an identity discussion, and the expression of personal struggle or the struggles of your background.

I wanted to pull out those hidden aspects that lie beneath the mainstream story. I’m not sure if it’s truly anti-history, but for me, it felt like I wanted to retell the accepted version of events.

I’m not sure if you experienced this when you were writing for street press, but there was a point when I wanted to make music writing my living. It shifted from writing about bands I was genuinely interested in to writing about whatever band the editor sent an email about. They’d say something like, ‘We’ve got this touring band, we can pay $100 for an interview, and it’ll be published across all these different magazines.’ And I started saying yes to that kind of stuff.

It was so depressing. There was this one band, I can’t even remember their name, but they were a huge touring power-pop band in the early to mid-2000s, and I thought their music was terrible. The things they said in interviews were like, ‘I just love changing the world with my music,’ and that kind of stuff. I just couldn’t handle it anymore.

I got paid $100, which, at the time, felt like a big win, but for what? For all that suffering? I never want to go back to that, writing about things I don’t actually want to write about.

I’ve totally been there. Almost every publication I’ve written for, except my own and when I wrote for Rookie, has been like that. I really hate the way the industry works, especially with PR companies. 

For example, I have a friend who runs a podcast, and he’s been getting really depressed and worn out from it. He told me that certain publicists have said, ‘If you want to interview this band, the one you really want to interview, you’re going to have to interview these four other bands on our roster first.’ So, he’s spending all his time doing interviews with bands he’s not interested in, just to get the one he actually wants, or they blacklist him.

ME: Wow!

Yep. It makes me so angry. I had an interview set up with a band through a publicist not too long ago, but then something terrible happened. A family member, he’s a teenager, was with his friends, and a horrific accident happened and his friend tragically died. Understandably, we went to be with our family, and I had to cancel the interview. I told the publicist, ‘I’m really sorry, I can’t do this, I need to be with my family right now.’ I offered to reschedule when I could, but she seemed annoyed with me. They even asked, ‘Can’t you at least post about the show on your social media?’ It just felt so cold and transactional and heartless.

ME: Oh my god! 

Yeah, true story. At the time, I had another interview lined up with a different publicist, but that publicist’s response was the opposite. He immediately asked if we were okay, if there was anything he could do, and assured me that he totally understood. We ended up rescheduling the chat for another time. He was like, ‘Don’t sweat it,’ which is the right response—the human response.

ME: Yeah. That’s unbelievable. And just the idea of blacklisting your friend for not doing all the interviews.

That happens more than you’d think. Back in the day, I was blacklisted by a promoter because I didn’t turn up to review one of their shows, even though I explained I was with my mum who was very sick in the hospital! I have so many terrible stories like this about publicists and the industry here in Australia, and my writer friends have told me heaps they’ve experienced too. 

ME: I want to blacklist whoever that is. I have a very quiet, small boycott list. I will never book a show for anyone with a manager, anyone who’s a publicist, or anyone who demands a guarantee from a DIY show. There are all these things, and I’ve got a little list. I’m never doing any work for them because, when I put on a show, I don’t take a cut or anything. So, it’s like, if I’m going to work for free, I’m going to do it for like-minded people who are here to have a good time and try to bring people into this world together so we can keep building it and go somewhere with it. But the idea of what you went through with your family member—heavy stuff, like the death of a teenage boy—it’s not like a broken fingernail. It’s repulsive behaviour.

It is! This is why Gimmie exists outside of the industry and we only work with with good people.

ME: 100%! Same here.

What have been some of the aspects that you found most fascinating about underground music that you’ve discussed with Barely Human

ME: Once I started making it a bigger project, where I was connecting different bands together, a lot of it was the connections that bands from completely different sounds, completely different cities, and worlds all kind of had similar to each other. Or the things that they’d be inspired by and the way that a movement or a kind of style developed. There’s so much in common between, say, The Fugs and Crass, which is like a hippie band and a punk band. Those ideas and notions I found really interesting, and something I hadn’t thought about until I started looking into them. Same with a lot of the proto-punk bands and the post-punk bands: they had this similar kind of response to what was going on around them and this antagonism. Or, like, Electric Eels were influenced by a poet like E.E. Cummings. It’s finding all these different connections as you read about a band, which you don’t get when you just play their music.

I really like the idea of bands coming together through time. It’s really almost a conspiracy-theory-type way of looking at the world—all this stuff kept happening through this process, and we kind of connected back to another time. 

One of the coolest bits was I did a Stick Men with Ray Guns podcast episode, a documentary-style thing, and then the guitarist from Stick Men with Ray Guns emailed me in the middle of the night, a year later, saying I’d made all these mistakes. 

Oh no! 

ME: I emailed him back. He’s like, ‘Let’s talk to each other about it.’ And we had this two-hour-long conversation. I posted him some stuff, and he posted me some stuff, and I got a channel to the guitarist from one of my favourite bands in this late ’70s, early ’80s era.

Stuff like that is really, really cool. And you find out that, so much of what motivated those musicians motivates my friends now. Or talking to him about how they just wanted to annoy their audience, and wanted to be so loud that it made them hurt. They wanted to feel violence. It’s kind of like, the second band I played in, Dry Finish, we had to play at this pub that I didn’t want to play at. And I was like, ‘Let’s do a noise set instead of our punk set.’ It was like almost like what he was saying to me was something I said 10 years ago to our friends. I love those sorts of things. 

Barely Human started as a zine series; how did you first find zines? 

ME: Through the punk scene, Negative Guest List and Distort were the first zines I ever saw. It was at a time when I was discovering punk too. It was like, okay, cool, I can read what these people have to say, what’s new that’s coming out. They’d also have these historical type things. Whatever obsession they had at that time would just end up in the zine. It would be books as well.

So much of Dan Stewart’s writing with Distort was philosophy. I’d never thought about philosophy before. That was my first exposure to the big historical thinkers. Same as Negative Guest List. It was movies. Sometimes, they’d just talk about a movie that had been really influential on me. Both of those zines were super influential.

Why did you decide to shift into a podcast? 

ME: When the zine started, it was with the long essays that I couldn’t get published anywhere. So it was like self-publishing these thoughts. The podcast wasn’t something I’d ever thought of.

But then this guy emailed me out of the blue and asked if I’d be interested in any audio work. They were kind of doing seed funding for new creatives, and if the podcast went well, they’d give you a deal with Spotify or something like that. So it was like, yeah, sure, I’ll do it.  

The podcast did, by my standards, really well. I think about 2,000 people listened to every episode, which is crazy. But to them, it was like nothing. Still, I got it going, and it got me thinking in that way. So I’ve continued back via the zines and mixtapes in the years after that, even when it didn’t get picked up or whatever. And now I want to try and see if I can DIY it and do more episodes, on cassette. 

What led to the decision to evolve Barely Human into a 300 page book? 

ME: It got to the point where I was starting to think about doing a new podcast season, trying to figure out how to do it. I was going through all my old notes. Even just searching through Gmail—it’s like, I don’t know where I wrote about this band, I can’t find where it was. So I just started putting everything together, archiving all my stuff.

And then, as things go, a lot of this writing is quite old now. It’s 10 years old or stuck somewhere. You can only listen to it on a podcast, so it’s stuck somewhere on the web. I thought it would be nice to bring it all together, just to wrap up that 10-year period for myself.

Then I thought that would make sense, especially when every now and then someone emails me, like, ‘Oh, I’ve always been looking for your Butthole Surfers zine.’ It’s like, so out of print. The podcast I hear is like half of what you wrote. That’ll happen once a year, so it’s not a huge demand. But I thought it would be good to have everything in one place, in case someone wants to find some of this stuff.

So it was kind of just this idea of wrapping everything together, putting it down, and then I could move on and think about the next thing. It’s nice to have as a document.

Was there a band or artist that is featured in your book that you found had an interesting or unexpected story? 

ME: Stick Men with Ray Guns’ story. I didn’t realise how dark their story was. I just thought they were a fun Texan hard punk band. That was a surprise, and to the point where I had to wonder whether I should finish writing about them too. I just started hearing about the singer and cases of domestic violence in his past. It’s like, I don’t think I should be talking about this band. But then it was kind of, well, should I not talk about it? Should I finish telling the story? It seemed important for me to finish that story.

Some of the other bands, were bands that were very present in the world. I didn’t really know much about bands like Dead Moon and Wipers. I wanted to write about them, kind of like at the start, just wondering, ‘Why are they on punk t-shirts everywhere? Why have I seen them on t-shirts everywhere, but I’ve never listened to them? What makes them so interesting?’ And I thought I wouldn’t find anything interesting. But they’re so cool. They’re like, they were two of my favourite bands after I started thinking about them, you know, and finding out the way that they made music and the way that they were so defiantly independent for so long.

I really loved reading about band Haram in your book. You mentioned on your blog that it was a tough section to write; why?

ME: Because I really wanted to write about them, it was more from the podcast, the way that that started. It started with these bands trying to provoke the FBI and the CIA, like The Fugs and their run-ins with the FBI and the CIA, and their run-ins with Crass. So, I kind of wanted to do this full-circle type thing, because their arm was tracked by an FBI anti-terrorism task force purely because they sang in Arabic, which is also something they played with in their imagery, you know, like just using Arabic script to write ‘Not a terrorist’ on a t-shirt. Then to find out that this FBI task force never translated this stuff and just the pure anti-Arabism, pure Islamophobia. The hard thing for me, writing that, which was once I was already in and doing it, it’s like, this isn’t really my story to tell. I felt like I was really writing about things I didn’t understand. No matter how I put it together, it felt like I was sensationalising the fucking horrible experiences that Nader had growing up and then as a punk musician being trailed by the FBI. I did the best job of it I could, but it was really important to me to tell that story of a punk band of today in New York getting tailed by the government, by the racist government.

Whenever we, you know, are all like a little bit like, ‘Man, it’s just so hard playing punk music in Sydney’ and like, ‘Oh, no, I have to play a venue around the corner that I don’t really like’ there’s a bigger context, like, people are being watched and isolated and surveilled. 

I liked that you told the story using a lot of archival and interview stuff, so it was being told in Nader’s own words.

What have you been listening to lately? 

ME: II was listening to The Spatulas this morning, they’re a really interesting DIY type folk adjacent type thing. Celeste from Zipper was in town, I’ve been listening to them a lot lately.

We LOVE Zipper! What have you been reading?

ME: I just finished the Tristan Clark’s Orstralia book, the 90s one. I loved it. It was really, really interesting, especially the Sydney stuff. f

I’m three quarters of the way through Alexis Wright’s Praiseworthy, on a fiction front. It’s wild. It is so good. It’s the trippiest, it’s hilarious. It’s really funny. 

I love Alexis’ work. She just writes with total freedom. What are you doing music-wise? 

ME: The last two bands broke up. I was playing in The Baby with Ravi from OSBO, and the band Romance. We got our last releases out and kind of broke up. We’ve started new bands now—a band with Greg and Steph from Display Homes called Ex-colleague. We played the other night. My partner Lauren, who used to play years and years ago, has taught herself drums for this other new band we’re in with my friends. We’re called Double Date. We’re both couples. Then, starting after Witness K slowed down a bit, Andrew and Lyn started jamming, and I’ve been jamming with them as well. We’re playing our first show soon—we’re called Next Enterprise. It’s been really fun to play again!

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Private Function’s Chaotic Tour Diary

Original photo by Jhonny Russell / handmade collage by B

Tour diaries are often full of glamorous highlights and polished moments, but not this one. This is the real deal: messy, chaotic, and sometimes hilarious. Naarm (Melbourne) band Private Function’s adventure took them from the Aotearoa (New Zealand) wilderness at Camp A Low Hum and beyond, before looping back around Australia. Along the way, they encountered highs, lows, and plenty of ‘what the hell just happened?’ moments.

Written by frontman Chris Penney for Gimmie, this diary offers a peek into the madness—good shows, wild experiences, and the kind of stories that only make sense after a few too many beers. If you’re looking for a laugh, keep reading. It’s a series of events he’ll never forget (and possibly regret some). You can also find our in-depth chat with Chris HERE.

Originally, this was going to appear in Gimmie’s next print edition, but with the cost of living making it harder to afford groceries, rent, and other essentials, we’ve put our print edition on hold for now.

Private Function Tour Diary:

So, a little backstory about this tour: it was actually meant to be a co-headlining tour with our New Jersey pals, Screaming Females. Unfortunately, a couple of weeks before the shows were announced, they announced that they were splitting up.

It was totally heartbreaking—I love those guys so much, and I was completely devastated by the news. I really hope they get back together one day; they were one of the best that ever was.

Vale, Screamales.

(I don’t wanna get too sidetracked here, but I’m not sure when or why we started saying “vale” all of a sudden. People just started doing it one day, and I guess I just went along with them? It’s kinda like that biscuit Biscoff. Biscoff didn’t exist when I was a kid, and now it’s everywhere—and Australia is pretending like it’s always been here. You can get Biscoff Kit-Kats now, and they’re marketed like, “FINALLY… YOU ASKED AND WE DELIVERED! TWO CHILDHOOD FAVOURITES TOGETHER AT LAST!”

It’s just like… man, have we gotten to the point where we’ve truly mined all the best flashbacks from the past, and now companies are attempting to create fake memories of our childhood to sell us imaginary nostalgia?

Fuck Biscoff, and fuck the Lotus company.

…That’s bands for ya, though. They love breaking up. They’re literally always doing it—it’s wild.

YUGAMBEH COUNTRY (GOLD COAST) 

First stop of the tour was the greatest country in Australia… QUEENSLAND. Always a pleasure heading up north—great beaches, great weather, and great people.

The first show was at Vinnies Dive on the Gold Coast, one of our fav venues in Australia and run by our old mate (and first PF manager) Glenn Stewart.

We got to the Gold Coast early in the day. Aidan and I had to drive out to the country to hire some gear for the night. It was ruthlessly hot that day, and when we knocked on this random person’s house, it was answered by an older, sweating man in nothing but tight budgie smugglers.

It would have made a beautiful Queensland postcard.

The man looked us up and down in silence for a few seconds, then just said, ‘Well, well, well… looks like we’ve got some rockers. I better go put a black t-shirt on.’

Paying for their best dance moves! Photo: Jhonny Russell.

He came back out with a black shirt—still not wearing pants.
God bless Queensland.

The lineup that night was Shock Value and Dad Fight—both awesome bands we’d wanted to see for ages.

We decided to try something different for this show. Instead of writing a setlist, we put all of our songs in a hat and had the audience take turns choosing the next song. The sound guy, Bailey, decided that a hat wasn’t funny enough, so he gave us a vacuum cleaner to pull the songs out of. So, throughout the show, I was lugging around this huge old vacuum cleaner.

Getting the crowd to pull the setlist out of a vacuum worked so well that we decided we’d do it at every show on this tour.

After we finished playing, Anthony was watching the merch table and decided to arm wrestle people. If you beat Anthony, you got a free PF shirt.
Nobody ended up beating him.

As all the alpha males slowly shuffled away from the merch table DEFEATED, a new challenger appeared… She was a tall goth chick who demanded that Anthony have a thumb war with her.

Powering up the setlist. Photo: Jhonny Russell.

The reason? She was born with three thumbs. Two of them were amputated shortly after birth, but you could see the little scars where they originally were. If thumb wars had a general, Anthony was staring at her.

The thumb war was truly epic. People gathered around, cheering. She had an odd dexterity and speed with her thumb that made pinning her down almost impossible. The battle raged for a few solid minutes.

But eventually, she was knocked down by the undeniable girth of Anthony’s thumb.

Vale this final thumb. May you rest in peace with your two fallen sisters.

MEANJIN (BRISBANE)

The next day, we woke up and went for a walk around Surfers Paradise.

We saw a sign for ‘THE WORLD’S BIGGEST TIMEZONE’ and decided we had to go.
It was pretty big!


(But, like, not THAT big.)

They had one of those big old ’90s shooting galleries—a full cowboy/western-themed set where you can shoot the hats off cowboys and knock over beer cans, etc. I always forget that Milla has an insanely good eye for shooting. She used to do it as a kid in Canada, and whenever we get the chance to mess around with a gun, she absolutely nails it.

We spent a couple of hours at Timezone and then bailed to drive to Brisbane.

The Brisbane show was awesome, as it always is. Brisbane has some of the best live music punters in Australia—always ready to get on it and get wild.

Last time we played in Meanjin, it was at a house party for our good mate Kirby’s 21st. It was an awesome party, and it’s where we first saw My Friend Chloe play live. We were so blown away by their set that night we asked them to open up for us at this show. They killed it.

We also had Prink on the bill. We’d always wanted to see them live and loved every second of it.

I really love The Zoo. It’s such an awesome old venue, and we hadn’t played there for a few years, so it was great to finally get back. All the staff and everyone involved are so goddamn lovely. We love yas.

We all got up surprisingly early the next morning. Aidan woke up and decided to cook a huge batch of scrambled eggs for breakfast. He had me laughing so much—he was loudly singing as he cooked, changing the lyrics to Waylon Jennings’ ‘I’m a Ramblin’ Man’ into ‘I’m a Scramblin’ Man.’

Scramblin’ Man.

The eggs were 10/10. The man knows how to scram.

GUMBAYNGGIRR COUNTRY (COFFS HARBOUR)

Whenever we tour Queensland/Northern NSW, we can usually fit in three shows—Gold Coast, Brisbane, and Byron Bay.

But (and I’m really trying not to be a cunt here) I kinda hate Byron Bay, and I don’t really wanna go there again.

The small crew of locals are awesome, but it’s mostly just dealing with annoying backpackers and general Australian fuckwits on holiday. Byron Bay is like walking around a giant corporate shopping centre, but for some reason, everyone’s patting themselves on the back for not having a McDonald’s.

Our friend Aidan (not to be confused with our scramblin’ man Aidan) had just started a new venue in Coffs Harbour and had been asking us to play there for a while. We’re always keen to play a new town, so we jumped on the opportunity.

The venue was amazing—a good-sized little room at the back of the Coffs Harbour Hotel. It’s called The Backroom, and we can’t recommend it enough if you’re a touring band. It’s so important to support up-and-coming venues in smaller towns, and we couldn’t have been happier to play there.

Coffs Harbour has a really solid scene going on, and I hope it keeps growing.

The lineup was Power Drill and Purple Disturbance.

I always love seeing Power Drill. Every time I’ve seen them live, they fucking kill it.

Purple Disturbance are an anomaly. They’re one of the best teenage bands I’ve ever seen, and I’d recommend everyone keep an eye on them. I saw Tom, the singer, getting kicked out of the pub after their set. I ran up and asked what was going on. He pointed to his bare feet and said he’d lost his shoes somewhere inside. He’s also 17, so I feel like that wasn’t helping him get back in, lol.

We slept at the pub that night.

We drank downstairs until it shut, then went upstairs and watched Carrie on the TV with Power Drill. I forgot how awesome Carrie is. Sissy Spacek rules so hard.

We woke up (always a bit disappointing) the next day and drove back to Brisbane to fly home.

NAARM (MELBOURNE)

Hometown show, baybeeeeee!

We played at The Nightcat. For anyone not familiar, it’s a 360-degree stage in Fitzroy.

We’d never played there before, and I hadn’t been in years. It’s semi-rare for a rock band to play there since it’s usually a soul, hip-hop, electronic, and “world music” venue.

Nighcat projection. Photo: Deaf Chris

Bit of a side note, but “world music” is such a weird genre. Do people still use that term?
PF is from the world.

OFFICIAL PF PRESS RELEASE: From this day moving forward, Private Function demands to be classified as “world music.”

I reckon The Nightcat show was one of my favourite shows we’ve ever played. The sound was amazing, and the lighting was some of the best I’ve ever seen. The lighting dude even had a laser projector shining the words “STILL ON TOP” onto the roof.

It was also the first time I’ve ever used a cordless mic, and I’m not sure I wanna go back. The freedom, bro. BRO, the freedom.

Photo: @deafchris

Anthony, Milla, and I were all wireless for the set, so it felt like we really took advantage of the 360-degree stage.

The lineup was Walking To The Grocery Store and Dr Sure’s Unusual Practice. Both bands were on fire that night, and the whole show had such a great vibe.

The Nightcat truly rules—what an awesome venue.

The next day, we had to fly to New Zealand at 5 AM, which meant we had to be at the airport by 3:30 AM. for the international flight. Half the band just stayed up after the show and went straight to the airport.

Photo: @deafchris

AOTEAROA (NEW ZEALAND)

We landed in NZ a few hours later. Most of us managed to get some sleep on the plane, and the excitement of being in a new country helped everyone push through the exhaustion.

Our other ride is this dragon – Wellington Airport

Aotearoa is unbelievably beautiful—every corner of it is just breathtakingly gorgeous. It’s fucked up, man. It’s really amazing.

The reason we were there was to play Camp A Low Hum. If you’ve never heard of it, here’s the deal:

Camp A Low Hum is a two-weekend-long camping festival just outside Wellington. Its brilliance comes down to the curation. It’s predominantly organised by Ian Jorgensen, who travels the world watching live music, then somehow puts together the greatest festival lineup you’ve ever seen.

One of the coolest things about this festival is that the lineup is never released. You don’t know who’s playing until you rock up to the gates with your ticket. They hand you a lineup, a timetable, and point you to a spot to pitch your tent.

I was lucky enough to play Camp A Low Hum back in 2014 with my other band, Mesa Cosa, and it’s incredible to see how much it’s grown and perfected itself. Every single act I saw this year was ridiculously good.

I don’t have enough space to shout out every band I loved, but my standout sets were Party Dozen, Cable Ties, Dartz, Georgia Knight, Splinter, Dole Bludger, and Tongue Dissolver. I probably saw 20 more bands, and every single set floored me.

An awesome addition this year: every stage was 360 degrees. No backstage areas, no separation between artists and punters. It was brilliant.

Honestly, I could write a full review of this festival and all the things I experienced—things I’ll remember until the day I die—but I’m starting to bore myself here. I’ve gotten way off track.

At one point in this diary, I was rambling about PF being considered “world music.” Now I’m wondering if I should’ve cut that (or this) in the final edit. (I didn’t).

AHURIRI (NAPIER):

During the week, we went on a small tour with this amazing band from Wellington called Dartz. They just released a new album called Dangerous Day To Be A Cold One and I think you should go put it on right now and read the rest of this tour diary listening to it. It’s outrageously catchy and super fun.

We played two shows with them around Aotearoa. The first one was in Napier at a place called Cabana, which turned out to be the oldest music venue in New Zealand.

Napier is a super unique city. There was a massive earthquake there in 1931 and it basically flattened the whole town. The local council decided to re-build everything in the style of the time, which luckily happened to be Art-Deco (my fav).

It’s currently the Art-Deco capital of the world. There were some amazingly unique Art-Deco buildings there—some that really stood out were the buildings that blended Art-Deco and traditional Māori art.

The Māori art style is more detailed and playful than you would expect to see on a traditional Art-Deco building, so the rare amalgamation of both the minimalist geometry and intricate curvature really complemented each other and brought the buildings closer, architecturally, to something resembling more of a subtle Art Nouveau style.

The next morning, I was driving the car and thinking about all the little cultural differences between Australia and New Zealand.

All of a sudden, I saw a bumper sticker that was one of those “two in the pink, one in the stink” hands, except it only had “two in the pink.”

I yelled out, ‘Woah, check it out! In New Zealand they only have two in the pink and NONE in the stink on their bumper stickers!’

… Jimmy pointed out that it was a peace sign bumper sticker.

TAIRĀWHITI (GISBORNE):

This next venue might be one of the coolest venues I’ve ever been to in my life.

SMASH PALACE!

‘ANTHONY SMASH!’

Smash Palace is your typical ‘bunch of crazy crap on the walls’ bar but taken to the extreme. The beer garden has a complete World War Two fighter plane hanging over it. It’s so big they used to have a restaurant inside it. It towers above you the whole night alongside a giant papier-mâché  T-Rex and a roof filled with thousands of hats from all over the world stuck to it.

The opening band was called Spiky. The singer Corey is in a wheelchair, and funnily enough, I recognised him from his old band Sit Down In Front, who I’d been following for a few years on Instagram. They did solid 77’ punk with a bunch of covers thrown in. I reckon the singer did one of the best Bon Scott impersonations I’ve ever heard. Ask any singer—Bon is fucking hard to replicate.

Dartz played next, and it was one of the best shows I’ve seen all year. Hopefully, if you pushed play on their album when I told you to, you should be at the track ‘Paradise’.

‘Paradise’ is a subtle anti-colonial anthem addressing not just colonialism but the financial inequality that runs rampant through New Zealand. It also has one of the best lyrics of 2024:

You built your house on stolen land, so we gotta reclaim the beach now, imma roll up and spread out on my 97’ Digimon beach towel.

In my long life of listening to music, I’ve heard the phrase ‘I love you’ seventeen million times. I’ve heard the phrase ‘’97 Digimon Beach Towel’approximately ONE time in my life.

That’s innovation, and innovation is true art.

Holy shit, did we have a great time at Smash Palace! The bartenders made these insane homemade shots that were some of the most unique shots I’ve ever had in my life. We sat and drank with the bar staff until the police literally stormed the venue and shut the place down.

I’ll remember that night for the rest of my life.

BACK 2 CAMP A LOW HUM:

We drove back to Camp A Low Hum the next day.

Camp A Low Hum took place over two weekends this year. Although there was no festival during the week, Ian (the camp organiser) had organised a series of seminars and talks for anyone who wanted to stay. The mid-week topics ranged from “touring New Zealand successfully” to “manipulating analogue televisions to create practical effects.”

One amazing thing Ian arranged mid-week was turning one of the stages into a recording studio where the artists could record new songs, then cut them straight to vinyl at camp. The rule was the songs had to be new, and the record had to be a split with another band playing the festival.

We decided to record three new songs and split the record with the Dunedin band Pretty Dumb. We became mates with Pretty Dumb at the festival and hung out with them every day. I never actually got to see them play live, though, and I’m so pissed off I didn’t.

Lauren nailed every single Chesdale-inspired cover.

Lauren from PF is getting some major props right now…

It was our job to hand-draw all 25 of our record sleeves. During the week, we became obsessed with this cheap New Zealand cheese called Chesdale, so Lauren decided to theme every record cover around Chesdale Cheese. She’s an amazing artist and totally, totally killed these album covers. Good onya, Lauren.

Just living our best cheese slice life!

Long story short, for any keen PF fans out there: there are twenty-five PF records with three never-before-heard songs floating around NZ. Try to get one, I dare you. Then give it to me, because I don’t have one.

We played our final NZ shows at the second Camp A Low Hum weekend and headed home.

I’d like to add that I checked the PF bank account, and between all six of us at Camp A Low Hum, we drank:

  • 26 cases of beer
  • 7 bottles of liquor
  • 5 goon sacks
  • 3 cases of Strong Zero

It was a bit much.

We’d like to thank Ian for having us at the festival, and all the amazing organisers for putting it together. Y’all killed it.

On the flight home to Australia, Lauren was cracking me up because we were delirious, talking about how we should save Furbys from wet markets and how Furbys would probably make the best bushmeat.

Driftwood and good vibes only!

TARNDANYA (ADELAIDE):

Welp, I fucked up.

They say that sometimes you’ve got charisma, and sometimes you’ve got charisn’tma (I’m pretty sure they say that).

And at this Adelaide show, I definitely had charisn’tma.

PF is a band that’s always trying to push the limits of live performance and see what we can get away with on stage. I’ve had a long conversation with myself this week about where “the line” is with our live shows and when it should not be crossed.

“The line” for me is when somebody feels unsafe or unwelcome at a show. And I know some people felt that way at our Adelaide show.

I was way too drunk and belligerent to be on stage that night. 

The show just went way too over the top.

I’m so sorry to the venue and the staff.

If there’s anyone I don’t want to make uncomfortable, it’s people just doing their job. Especially people in a bar.

The rest of the show was really great, though!

Witch Spit were genuinely amazing, and The 745s absolutely killed it.

Adelaide holds a really special place in our hearts, and we always love going there.

A homemade one-of-a-kind PF shirt!

DJILANG (GEELONG):

When we arrived in Geelong the next day, we got some bad news: one of our close family members had to be taken to the hospital for an emergency operation. Everything is good now, but it was pretty scary for a moment.

Because of that, we had to cancel the last three shows of the tour.

It was a total shame because we handpicked the lineups for those shows and were so keen to see every single band we were playing with.

So, Geelong would be our last show of the tour…

And it was GREAT.

The Barwon Club is always a great venue to play at, and everyone in Geelong is consistently a legend.

Persecution Blues opened the night, and had Pint Man with them. If you’re not familiar with Pint Man, he’s a member of the band who just stands there, staring at the audience and drinking pints. He drank 6 pints in a 40-minute set. That’s a good effort. Not only was it the best Persecution Blues set I’ve ever seen, but it was also one of the best shows of the year.

Pintman from Persecution Blues.

Next up was Dragnet.

I feel like such a dumbass because I’d heard of Dragnet but always assumed they were a glam band for some reason. I dunno why. They were insane. It was perfect jangular egg punk—pinpoint precision and perfect execution. Also, any band that incorporates a sampler into their set wins my heart forever.

We drove back home that night, coming down from a great tour…

BACK TO (A HARSH) REALITY:

A few days after the tour finished, the PF wheels really started falling off…
Just like every band in Australia right now, we’re consistently dealing with the punishing reality of being in a band.

Juggling mental illness, dealing with the stress of social media, becoming increasingly aware that financial freedom will probably never be attained through music, watching rock and roll slowly slip into obscurity, and yet continuing to dedicate our lives to it. My heroes are senior citizens. That was an odd realisation. (Love you forever, Ozzy.)

Photo: Jhonny Russell.

The pressures of being in a touring band grow with every tour—it’s a lot.
Funnily enough, I’m typing this tour diary as I sit in the waiting room, waiting to see a psychologist for the first time in my life.

I’ve become increasingly paranoid that World War III and climate change are running at a direct parallel to each other. The ocean is heating up at record speeds, and we’re becoming complacent with the normalisation of genocide and murder. I feel like growing up during peacetime has made me pathetic, and as we walk into the war-torn future, the children of “Gen Alpha” will throne upon me, staring down at my weakness like a demon disgusted. I need a gun.

These kinds of thoughts have been spinning in my head like a mouse on a wheel, and as I take a moment to stop and think about the future of Private Function, one thing enters my brain…
It’s just a band lol.

Who gives a fuck.

PF STILL ON TOP!!

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