Alex Macfarlane: ‘You can’t really ever regret working within your means and not grasping at every opportunity for the big time. You can always be happy that you’ve done things yourself.’

Original photo: Füj / Handmade collage by B.

Alex Macfarlane is a passionate music enthusiast with a deep appreciation for creativity and individuality. He values authenticity and the unpolished nature of music, often prioritising natural expression over technical perfection. Alex is deeply connected to the music community, he plays in Faceless Burial, The Green Child, Francis Plange, and played in The Stevens, The Twerps, Tyrannmen, Pious Faults and more. His commitment to fostering creativity is evident in his role in starting a label, Hobbies Galore, to support artists he loves, like Mikey Young, The Stroppies, Blank Realm, and J McFarlane’s Reality Guest, as well as his own solo releases. Above all, Alex embraces the unexpected, finding beauty in unconventional music and performance.

Gimmie caught up with Alex for an in-depth conversation that spanned a couple of hours. In this epic chat, we dive into his musical life—from playing with his dad in a prog band as a teenager, to his one-man grind band in high school to now. We also touch on his lifelong friendships with local musicians who inspire him, his new album Meanderings, the Faceless album they’re working on, international bands he’s helping bring out, and his experience running the label. Plus, we discuss his writing process, the music and bands he’s been getting into recently, burnout, books that have had a big impact, and so much more!

ALEX MACFARLANE: Having been involved in various other labels—being on them—and being like, ‘Why does it all have to fit into the calendar? And why does this need to go here? Or why do we need to do that? Why do we need to have video clips and photos and that kind of stuff?’ It’s like, can’t we just do what we like?

Exactly. I think it’s weird that everyone often conforms to certain ways of releasing an album that’s set by particular systems that I don’t really care for. I was really happy that you released your latest album, your solo release Meanderings on a Monday. Because the standard is to release things on Fridays.

AM: Well, I don’t work Mondays. I usually get most orders on the first day, so I thought, anyone who ordered on that day would be in the post that afternoon.

I love when a label is prompt with mailing out orders. I’ve experienced many labels (unfortunately many indie ones) that take ages and have little care for getting your order out to you in a reasonable time once they have your money, which sucks. I find too, that when everything comes out on the Friday, there’s so much new stuff that sometimes things get lost and I don’t always see everything, and miss out on seeing/hearing some cool stuff. 

AM: I feel like I’m pretty tapped out on Fridays as well. By the time I get to the end of the week, I don’t feel very like absorbent for new things. 

Cover illustration by Travis MacDonald

I get that. What do you do for a job? 

AM: I work for a bunch of barristers in the city, where I was the mailman for seven years, delivering parcels to the courts and stuff like that. Eventually, they found out that I recorded music. So now they’ve got me, basically, going around fixing people’s fax machines, and they’ve got me recording a podcast for them. I do the sound for live webinars too. Anything that has an electronic element, I’m now doing. But it led to me getting calls from random barristers at all hours, being like, ‘I can’t get my Zoom to work,’ and that kind of stuff. But then, suddenly, it leaked into day-to-day life.

Do you like that work or did you prefer being in the mail room? 

AM: I got to walk around, and no one really knew what you were doing, which was good [laughs].

I noticed that you put out your first Hobbies Galore release on October the 4th, 2016. Today is October 1st, so in the next week it’s coming up to your labels eight year anniversary!

AM: There you go. I wouldn’t have known that. That was a while ago. I’m trying to remember where I was at that point. I was living in Footscray, and memories are a little hazy from that time. It definitely happened, there’s obviously a definitive date. 

What have you been up to lately? 

AM: Pretty busy. It’s always busy with music stuff. The last couple of weeks were really busy because I’ve been playing in the band, The Green Child. We’ve been trying to figure out how to turn it from a recording project into a live project. That’s been a lot of programming sounds and relearning songs that I maybe didn’t think I was ever gonna play live.

Then a similar thing coincided with Pious Faults, who I was playing with the other night. I recorded a bunch of keyboards for their new album. Then they were like, ‘Do you want to play this show with us?’ So I said sure, but that, again, was a bunch of stuff I wasn’t considering actually playing live. So I was relearning all of that.

I also had to relearn the Frances Plange set. All his songs are 20 minutes long with no repeating parts. On top of all that, the metal band, Faceless Burial, I’m playing in is recording this coming weekend. It’s this 18-minute song with a million notes in it.

And we’re also booking this festival in November, where we’re bringing out two international acts—friends of ours from Copenhagen and New York. We’re organising nine visas, internal flights, accommodation, venues, and all that kind of stuff.

Then I’ve got the sort of four-ish releases on the label at the moment, and they’re all getting posted out all the time, so there’s that to finish. That all happened in the last month.

Before that, I was doing a lot of solo shows, which I’ve now cut off so I can have some time to think about these other things. Prior to that, it was just a string of international tours with the metal band. We had two Euro tours, the second one just Scandinavia. Then we got back for a week, went to Southeast Asia, came back from that, did a national tour, and then went straight into all the solo shows, which led me up to this time.

Phew! You do more in a few months than a lot of people do all year. I admire that work ethic. Do you like being that busy? 

AM: I think so. I mean, yeah, I have always been playing in a lot of bands at once. As long as all of the bands are completely different, it’s fine. I’d have a harder time if I was playing the same instrument in every band, or if the projects sounded similar. I’d feel like it’s less necessary to be doing them all at once. The individual ones, keep me on track a bit, so that I don’t try and put some horrendous metal riff in a folk song or something like that [laughs]. I’ve got compartmentalised sections in which I can more effectively channel things.

I know there was one point where you were doing six bands at once. Have you ever got burnt out from doing so much? 

AM: Yeah, I’m pretty, pretty constantly burnt out. I don’t really sleep very much. There’s a genetic insomnia thing that’s hard to beat. I feel like I don’t really relax very often, or if I do, it’s reading or listening to records. There’s always some sort of activity; I’m always up and doing things. I’ve found ways to be able to do a lot of projects at home, I find it relaxing to be at home working on projects. I definitely find being out of the house to be the taxing aspect of it. Even though I really like seeing people, seeing other bands, and collaborating with people, I would sort of—if I was working on a solo release—I wouldn’t really find that to be a tiring experience. That would be what I do in the downtime from shows.

Like I mentioned earlier, you just released Meanderings, and I was looking back at your catalog, and noticed that you’ve released over 100 solo songs. Why do you like writing songs? 

AM: I really like it, but it’s always just been a compulsion. I’ve been playing in bands since I was like five. From early high school, I was regularly gigging in pub bands.

The writing was my reprieve from that. At that point, I was drumming in everything—I wasn’t playing any other instruments. I was teaching myself how to play guitar and record stuff as the break from that. I was doing pretty shitty at school, so I guess it was an escape from that as well.

It’s kind of been a way of diary keeping. The songs became less and less autobiographical because I realised that if I wrote stuff about what was entirely happening to me personally, I’d never want to hear or sing those songs again. So they became more a way of cataloging everything I was seeing, reading, watching, or listening to.

It would be very rare that I would ever listen to anything again that I’ve written or recorded. But if I look back at the song titles, I can occasionally remember what I was reading or thinking about, or trying to combine at the time.

I got into home recording pretty early. It’s just a fun and funny thing to do.

Having a foundation playing drums, does that influence the way that you think about songwriting at all? 

AM: It definitely makes me wish that I could afford to rent a house where I could play drums—like something that’s larger and doesn’t have neighbours all around it. I miss playing drums, it definitely gives me more natural timing. 

I was playing bongos in my dad’s band when I was a child. That was a decent foundation—well, purely only in skills that stem directly from playing bongos, not really a decent foundation in the accumulation of wealth or anything like that, something someone else might find to be important. But, the bongos is a good place to start. It definitely, definitely set me up.

Your album’s called Meanderings, and meandering is kind of wandering and not really having a direction, just taking it slow; was that the approach you took to writing this collection of songs?

AM: Yeah, I would say so. Generally, I don’t realise that I’ve got a release until I’ve got too much for a release, and so I’ll cut it down from a bunch of songs. It always seems like a random amalgamation of all kinds of different things that I was working on all at once. I see them all together and I think, ‘Oh, that could make a release.’ And then I seal that off as one point and then move on from there.

It’s certainly the approach to any solo thing that I’ve ever done. It has been relatively aimless. The binding factor becomes clear only once all of the elements are on the table.

I really loved the Lucky Dip release in 2021, where you made 15 tapes taking portions from over a hundred unreleased songs, making a unique tape for each person. Even the art was one of a kind for each.

AM: That was during lockdown, so I had some spare time. I had a lot of spare music, folders and folders of things that weren’t necessarily good enough on their own, but I didn’t want to throw them in the bin.

I had a bunch of cassettes from a defective pressing of the first Hot Topic release, who became J McFarlane’s Reality Guest. The first bunch of tapes had someone else’s music pressed on them, so I had spare 20-minute tapes. I made a playlist that lasted the amount of time that all of those tapes would take to run through. 

I played that playlist for a whole day, and into the night, and put tapes in as it was coming up to a random point that people would get on the release. All of the covers were folded photographs taken from either around the house or the last trip I’d taken before lockdown.

I don’t really like wasting stuff. I figured I may as well do something with the tapes, and didn’t want to waste the tracks, so it seemed like a good way to free both of them from my house and mind.

Do you have any idea how many songs you’ve written? There seems to be hundreds and hundreds, like, too many to count.

AM: I’m not sure. Some of the bands that I was playing in had really short songs. So we’d have a lot on an album. Prior to any of that, I did maybe 15 albums in high school under the name Major Macfarlane, which were burnt CDRs with hand-drawn covers. They were extremely disposable. Songs would be, my friend Gus playing slap bass and me destroying a mandolin over the top of it or something. And then I’d be like, that’s a release! [laughs]. Let’s put that out. 

Luckily, that was more before most people had internet and things really got digitised. That stuff doesn’t really exist on the internet, which I’m happy about. Because most of it would be pretty embarrassing, but it does exist. Some people have sent me photos, that  they’ve still got it, and it always kind of seems like a threat.

That’s so cool you were doing that so early. I remember when I was in school I’d make zines, and people didn’t seem to understand that you could actually make your own things, you didn’t have to wait to finish school or didn’t have to be a professional or make it perfect.

AM: That’s it. When I was starting to record music and had a CD burner, I felt like it was a really good way to show other people that you can make stuff as well. You could have them feature in your project, or record someone and seal off where they’re at, and then put it out. Even if it’s in really meagre quantities, you still have that record.

A lot of that maybe you wish wasn’t documented, but at the same time, it’s better than wondering, ‘I wonder what that was like.’ Yeah. It was—oh, it was horrible [laughs].

I look back on all my old zines and totally cringe, but you’ve got to start somewhere. I didn’t know what I was doing. I just wanted to share all this cool stuff, bands and music, that was happening around me.

AM: Totally. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. That’s a similar motivation that was getting me to do things as well—being able to not be precious about things. When you have the pressure of a real label or a larger publisher or something, I can imagine it would be that pressure of thinking whatever you put out has to be a really concise, a boiling down of where you’re at, at the time— I feel that stunts your ability to move forward. If there’s a lot of pressure on something, and then maybe it gets let down with the way it’s received. If you do it in smaller quantities and a lot quicker, you don’t have as much time to think, ‘I should have changed that.’ Then you’re already thinking about how you can amend those errors on your next release, rather than thinking about how you should have done it on the one that’s already out.

There’s a lot to be said for like that spontaneity. I really like a lot of music when people record stuff and they’re recording the song as they’re making it. Sometimes if you record something over and over and over, it can lose the magic that first take had. 

AM: The majority of bands that I’ve been in, I’ve done at least some of the recording. Many bands that I’ve played in, that would be very demo quality to someone else, but if that does the trick, then there’s no point in trying to do like a slick version of it.

One band that I was playing in, The Stevens, we had really low standards for what was releasable. There was a larger international label that we looked up to a lot when we were getting into music. They called up because they were interested in putting out the record, and they were like, ‘We really love the demos. When’s the album going to be ready?’ And we’re like, ‘That’s the album. Sorry. It’s not gonna get any better than that.’ 

So, you might miss some opportunities, but I feel like it’s a fairly true way of doing things. I feel like you can’t really ever regret working within your means and not grasping at every opportunity for the big time. You can always be happy that you’ve done things yourself.

Totally! I don’t think you could pay me to be a part of the big time or industry. The music industry has never been kind to me.

AM: Those two words need to be separated as quickly as possible. 

Yep! [Laughter]. I’ve seen many bands I love get caught up in bad deals and situations chasing the wrong things, and I think what they ended up creating suffered for that. 

AM: Yeah, without a doubt. I feel like if it gets a hold of you at the wrong time, when you’re young for example, it creates a bunch of, in my opinion, incorrect reasons for making things. I guess there’s no incorrect reason, but there are less pure intentions.

I remember I was talking to Shogun from Royal Headache/Antenna, a little while ago, and he was talking about when their band blew up, and he told me that at the time, he was hating every second of it. 

AM: Yeah, that is often the case. 

I’ve been around a while now, I’ve seen it happen over and over again, and sometimes it destroys the want to make music, and that’s really sad. 

AM: I guess, it becomes more of a job and usually people don’t like their job. 

Do you feel like there’s a conceptual continuity with your solo music? 

AM: Maybe. It’s all pretty disparate. All the different things that I’ve been doing comes from the same pool of like influences, which is always expanding and changing. But it always has the same foundations. Like we were talking bout, the solo stuff, it’s really unplanned. I don’t really know the purpose of the song, even sometimes after it’s already been released. There’s that kind of continuity. I can always tell what I’ve been into on the day of making a song. It’s usually all made at home by me in a state that I can’t really remember that well. Then I have a song at the end. 

Most things usually start on the couch. I’ll sit on the couch with a guitar, and then I’ll go into the music room. It’s not really a studio, just a small room. I’ll come out of that, and it’ll sound really different from what I was anticipating. The continuity is unexpected experimentation and unclear aims. But that doesn’t really make for much audible continuity, aside from the fact that I try to have fun with language and try to put some note groupings together that don’t sound quite right to me at the time. The general rule is if I think it sounds like a song I’ve heard, then I won’t release it. I try to combine a lot of elements that maybe shouldn’t be combined, just so I can trick myself into thinking it’s worth releasing in some small portion.

What kind of things were you into while you were writing this collection of songs? 

AM: Looking over at my box of recently played records—I’m trying to think of any things that directly influenced it. I was liking this guy called Daniel Schell a lot, who played in a band called Cos and some other bands. I was listening to traditional folk stuff, but that’s been kind of a constant because my dad was into a lot of that. I was also listening to Véronique Chalot, and I started getting classical guitar lessons at one point, but quit them really quickly.

I was listening to a lot of Brazilian guitar music, so I was playing a lot more—very poorly—on a nylon string guitar. But then I was also listening to a lot of electronic music and metal, too. All of that swells in. 

As for direct influences, I’m not entirely sure on this group of songs. The second-to-last song was a progression from—I ripped up a lot of chords from a Donald Fagen solo song. Sometimes, when I get really stuck on a track, I’ll try to learn a song by someone who’s completely out of my realm of abilities. They’ll go back and forth between chords so much, whether it’s Donald Fagan or Egberto Gismonti or, Grant Green—someone who’s so unattainably talented. I’ll learn a few seconds of one of their songs and, within the first half-minute, there’ll be enough chord changes to sustain me for two songs.

I end up doing a similar thing with lyrics. I’ll have a bunch of things around me; I’m always taking a lot of notes. So I’ll have notes and then a reference book of poetry or the local paper, the Banyule Banner, or something like that. Whenever I have a gap in my notes, I’ll flip to one of those pages and get something out of it. It all blends together.

That was a long and confusing answer, but that’s the long, confusing process when I’m making tracks.

Photo by Ella Cattach

No, that’s not confusing. I followed.

AM: Okay, that’s good. I got confused by the answer [laughs]. The pulling together of really disparate things—musically, it can start with one or two notes, and then I play around with those until they’re harmonised. There was one track on this album called ‘Golden Braid’. I was enjoying a movie by an Australian filmmaker, Paul Cox. He made some nice, and some less nice, movies in the 80s and 90s.

There was a section in one of his movies without music that I took and stripped out the video. I soundtracked along with the audio. The scene involves a guy who works on old clocks, and he’s moving through his house, flicking the clocks and walking up and down the stairs. I added sounds to react to his footsteps and to the notes made by the clocks.

I often use methods like this when I don’t feel inspired to make music. I’ll watch a movie or read a book with the intention of borrowing from it. Even if I don’t have any specific ideas, I might take note of a particular scene—from, say, 33 to 38 minutes in a film—and come back to it later. Then I pick it apart or bookmark a page in a book, and those elements might end up combined into a song.

It’s not always about having original ideas but about reprocessing what you take in. What you ingest, media-wise, is important if you want to create. It’s similar to a diet—if you have a bad one, you won’t make anything good out of yourself. If you don’t read, watch, and listen to good things, you won’t be able to turn that into anything worthwhile either.

I remember talking to the band Adult from Detroit once, and they told me that when they made a particular album, they like set up an area in their basement and painted everything black so it was this big black space with nothing else there to stimulate them. They wanted to see what they could make with no distractions, which I found interesting.

AM: That sounds terrifying!

I’m always fascinated by the different things people will do to experiment with music, sound, and art. I enjoy when things are pushed further into some other place to what I’ve seen/heard/experienced before. I loved to be awed by things.

Something I’ve always loved about your work is the songs is the titles. They’re all very prog rock kinds of titles. 

AM: It’s what I was raised on. I spent a lot of time as a kid reading and listening to music. My dad was really enthusiastic about getting me into the music he liked—maybe “forceful” isn’t the right word, but he was definitely very passionate. So, I’d spend hours reading King Crimson liner notes, Jethro Tull inserts, and Genesis albums. It was all very fantastical.

My folks were hippies in a good way. They’d say things like, ‘If you don’t want to go to school, you can stay home and read this Ursula Le Guin book instead,’ and I’d think, ‘Great, I’ll just do that.’ They were ahead of their time when it came to the idea of a “mental health day.” I heard them use that phrase long before it became more mainstream. It was useful, and I think you can certainly get a child more enthusiastic about learning if they’re not forced into the rigid structure of the education system. People tend to forget that.

Words have always been really important to me. I’ve always found them funny, especially when they’re misused or when people take poetic license to invent words. Whether it’s Donovan, Flann O’Brien, or Monty Python, there’s a playful way to use language that keeps it entertaining for me.

I noticed that you tagged your new release on Bandcamp as “silly”. 

AM: Oh, yeah. That was a suggested tag. I probably would have said something a lot more mean about it if if it didn’t suggest that. I was glad they gave me something as silly as the word silly. 

Are there any books you’ve read over the years that had a big impact on you? 

AM: A lot. It’s a relatively typical answer, but [Italo] Calvino was important when I first read him, as was Flann O’Brien, who I mentioned before. I’ve read a lot of sci-fi, like Stanislaw Lem, and authors who wrote short stories. There’s also Leonora Carrington, who created these fantastical micro-worlds.

For me, there wasn’t much distinction between a song and a book. I didn’t get into movies until much later because, when I was younger, I couldn’t grasp how many people it took to make a movie. I’d get to the credits and think, ‘It takes so many people to make that—that’s ridiculous.’ If I saw an actor in another movie, it was confusing. I’d think, ‘Wait, he’s not that person?’

In contrast, if someone wrote and recorded their own music, it felt like there were so few steps between the creator and the listener. The same goes for a book—the separation between the writer and the reader seemed much smaller. There were fewer hands the work needed to pass through, at least as far as I understood those industries.

I feel like I have a very high threshold for whimsy. Growing up, I listened to a lot of folk rock. Whether it was Fairport Convention, Shirley Collins, Pentangle, or similar bands, there was always a mix. You’d have a few serious ballads that everyone gravitates towards, but then there’d be a really ridiculous track—something with everyone dancing around the maypole and full of whimsy.

Now, it seems like most modern folk, or even the dreaded term “neo-folk,” leans heavily into the mournful, dark elements. I suppose that’s more palatable, but it feels like whimsy has really gone out the window.

Photo by Sarah Pilbeam

Maybe that’s what sells better? I’m a big fan of whimsy too.

AM: I feel like consistency has become increasingly important. For people trying to sell records, everything needs to maintain the same vibe from start to finish. There’s a sense that listeners don’t want to disrupt the flow of their experience. This trend has only worsened with playlist culture, where people choose a single vibe and then listen to an endless list that matches it, without really exploring the artist’s broader work.

I’m not a fan of complacent listening. I don’t like algorithms, playlists, or anything that curates music based solely on a single mood. But people are free to enjoy what they like—I suppose I shouldn’t be harsh about it.

Is there a reason why you don’t listen back to your own stuff much? 

AM: There’s a lot of great music out there. I tend to spend any spare money I have on records. I really enjoy talking about them, visiting record stores, and chatting with whoever’s working there. I love learning about what they’re listening to and getting their recommendations. 

When I find a record I like, I research everyone who worked on it—the people in the studio, the musicians—and I try to connect all the dots. I’ve spent so much time doing that, so it’s rare that I listen to my own stuff. When I’m making music, I listen to it a lot because I’m focused on working out the sounds. But after the gruelling process of production, I don’t always want to hear it again. I remember what it sounds like, and when I’m playing shows, I’m performing those songs. Some are okay, some are bad, and I try to focus on making more that are just okay, avoiding any of the bad ones.

What records have you got lately or be recommended? 

AM: I’ve got a pile of records over there. Some of my favourites include a reissue by Enno Velthuys, which I really like. There’s also one of Alvin Curran’s reissues, the new Oren Ambarchi record, and a beautiful album called Small Boats by Steve Atkinson. I also picked up a record by Pari Zangeneh, a blind Persian singer who’s amazing. And there’s the reissue of Dorothy Carter’s Waillee Waillee, which is gorgeous, slow folk music.

I try not to get too deep into the reissue culture, but when something I haven’t heard before pops up and I can grab a copy at a reasonable price, I do. I really appreciate the people working to make these albums available again. Of course, there are mixed views about the environmental impact of vinyl production, but compared to other manufacturing processes, I guess it’s relatively more acceptable. Records have always been important to me, along with books. I know they’re made of paper and plastic, but I forgive myself for that.

Yeah, I’m the same. Our house is filled with records and books, more than anything else. I read this interesting article not too long ago about the environmental impacts of vinyl versus streaming. It said that vinyl is actually less harmful in some respects, and is considered more sustainable when compared to streaming in terms of long-term usage—one record can be played countless times, spreading out the initial environmental cost over time. Whereas streaming carries a high carbon footprint primarily due to the energy required to power data centres and network infrastructure and the components used to make your phone or computer to stream stuff. It was interesting to hear a different take, usually people automatically think vinyl is worse and don’t take into consideration what it actually takes to stream things.

AM: Yeah, I think you also become complacent with waste because you rely on devices like your phone. You need it to work all the time, so when it stops, you throw it out and get a new one. Meanwhile, with my turntable, I’ve repaired it several times. Most people wouldn’t bother repairing their phones; they just get a new one instead.

Additionally, for the new Green Child record we’re working on, we found a pressing plant that uses recycled cooking oil, making the process more environmentally friendly. The records are injection moulded, which avoids traditional pressing methods. We’re doing it as a split with Upset The Rhythm from the UK. I’m always trying to find better ways of doing things. 

That’s great! That’s like with Gimmie, we print on environmentally certified and recycled papers, which are from sustainable sources, and use vegetables based inks, and the printer recycles all waste products. But we definitely live in a society that’s all about convenience. 

AM: Yeah, it’s less important to have all the knowledge in your head because you can just look it up on your phone. That’s good and bad—mainly bad, maybe. I’m undecided about the merits of technology and its impact on creativity, as well as the general retention of knowledge. There are certainly some benefits, but I’d have to think harder about them because my apprehension tends to outweigh my appreciation.

We haven’t done a print issue in a little while, though. We know people can’t really afford stuff right now with the out of control cost of living. I see on Bandcamp, even other musicians I follow, that used to buy other artists records all the time have stopped doing that so much.

AM: Yeah, everyone’s feeling that. The cost of making things in general has risen, along with the cost of postage. It’s really tough—if I want to send a ten-dollar tape to America, it costs about 26 dollars. So, I charge slightly less, but anything I’m sending overseas, I’m losing money on. I like the idea of someone having it far away. There’s something really exciting about that. I guess I had a good deal with postage in the early days, so I feel like I’m still making up for that, and I can pass on the savings, a bit

Yeah. I put out a book this year and in I wrestled internally with having to charge people so much for postage, especially overseas. 

AM: People who appreciate physical media will always find ways to access it. Books, in particular, are often still quite affordable, especially when you consider the value they provide. For example, a single book can offer so much in terms of knowledge or entertainment. When I discovered online book stores, I realised I could get almost any book delivered to my house for about $8. That’s remarkable when you think about it—you’re getting someone’s life’s work brought straight to your doorstep for such a reasonable price.

Of course, newer books can be more expensive. When I’m in a bookstore, though, I don’t mind paying a bit more. It feels like it balances out, considering how inexpensive secondhand books or online deals can be. The same applies to records. You can often find a great album for around $10 at the right places. That’s essentially an encapsulation of someone’s creative vision, available for less than the price of a pint.

And what does a pint really give you? At best, a moment of enjoyment; at worst, a ruined next day—and it might even keep you from reading that book you just bought.

Yeah. I try and buy stuff from the actual artists at shows. 

AM: Yeah, absolutely. Bandcamp is still one of the better options online, but there aren’t many alternatives. I’m always brainstorming creative ways to avoid relying on platforms like that. Sometimes I think, Maybe I could find a different approach.

But anything that delivers directly to someone’s house feels a bit intrusive. There’s a need for some level of anonymity—you wouldn’t want me showing up at your house in the dead of night with a tape. That would be horrifying!

Maybe something like a community drop-off could work. For example, if I had 10 deliveries in Thornbury, I could say, Hey folks, they’re all in the neighbourhood library at the end of the street. Go for it! But then again, you can’t always trust people. They’d probably all get stolen anyway.

Unfortunately, that can be true.

AM: I’ve been thinking about ways to navigate these challenges. There’s definitely a shift happening with physical media. It’s becoming less of a middle ground—dominated either by massive producers or by extremely niche creators. For someone relatively obscure, like myself, using the same facilities as mass producers can be frustrating. If you’re pressing a record at the same place handling huge albums, your project is likely to get pushed to the back of the line.

That’s why I’m considering how to make my process less dependent on those channels. It might mean going back to hand-painting and stamping all the tapes, doing the covers myself, and dubbing the tapes manually. It’s more work, but it seems like the only way to keep costs down. In my mind, a cassette should never cost more than $10. The last batch I made was $11, just because that was close to the production cost. To balance things out, I tried to offset the Bandcamp cut and offer slightly discounted postage. As a posted package, that price seemed fair.

Still, I think I’ll need to get more creative to keep things affordable. People who buy tapes from completely independent artists deserve something extra. Whether it’s throwing in free items or adding a personal touch, it’s important to show appreciation. After all, buying a tape from an unknown artist isn’t a typical thing most people do. It’s not often someone wonders, I wonder what this person has been working on at home all year? Maybe I’ll buy their tape. It’s rare, and when it happens, it means a lot.

Totally. The’s why I hand-gift wrapped each book and included a handwritten note. I notice that all your tapes sell out. 

AM: That’s because I don’t make very many, which is good because I also don’t like going to the post office much [laughs]. So I condense it into three or four trips where I’ll take everything down.

I’m lucky to have friends here and overseas who run record stores and are willing to take the risk of stocking my tapes. That helps a lot. I feel like word of mouth plays a big role in these things. I find out about so much if a record store posts about something. If I like what they like and they post something I don’t know, I’ll check it out right away.

Whenever I take anything I’ve put out to a shop, even a simple picture of it can be a great way for people to find out about it. For like-minded people who enjoy discovering niche things, record stores are still a good place to explore. You can chat with whoever’s working, look at posters, or browse the recent releases rack. It’s like stepping into a different world—a world you wouldn’t encounter unless you visited that specific place.

I see this more often in Melbourne, especially when friends from overseas visit. Part of their trip usually involves visiting lots of record stores. I’ll introduce them to the shop owners, and soon they’re talking about what they’re buying, exchanging recommendations they wouldn’t have found anywhere else.

That kind of localised, face-to-face interaction is becoming rarer, but it still exists, and I appreciate that.

Same! You mentioned earlier that your dad was very insistent on you listening to his kind of music. What was the first kind of music that you listened to that was not his stuff? Did you ever rebel? 

AM: Yeah, a lot. I don’t think he fully gets any of the stuff I make. His music is very from the heart, whereas mine feels more from the head. He reminds me of that all the time. He’ll say things like, What is this? What could this song possibly mean? And I’m like, I don’t really want people to know what it means.

The other day, I recorded some demos for him. His songs are very direct, like, I know exactly what that song is about—that song is about being furious about the referendum result forever. And I agree with him, which was nice. But I like keeping things a little more obscured so that I feel safer, I suppose. He’s a pretty heart-on-the-sleeve kind of guy.

That said, a lot of what he’s into has influenced me, whether I like it or not. He’s always been into folk and prog, which is still a big part of what I listen to. But everything just got more extreme from there. My two older sisters introduced me to metal and industrial music, which definitely broadened my tastes.

My mum, on the other hand, got me into a ton of amazing stuff, especially early electronic music. So, growing up, I didn’t stray too far outside of that realm. Getting into really extreme metal was a bit outside my family’s wheelhouse, though. That happened thanks to one of my sister’s friends, who taped me some truly out-there albums when I was way too young for them. That was mind-blowing.

As for the more heady ends of electronic music, that came from a friend’s dad. He gave me a bunch of stuff that absolutely blew my mind—Kraftwerk, Laibach, and Autechre, for example—when I was still in early high school. That music was confusing in a good way. Even though it was retro by then, it felt completely fresh to me.

I think my family stopped exploring new music at a certain point. They were lucky enough to grow up in times when incredible stuff was happening. My mum, for instance, is American, and she lived in California in the seventies. She saw bands like The Who, Led Zeppelin, and Crosby, Stills, Nash & Young playing in her town. If you’ve experienced that, maybe it’s not going to be super impressive when your kid comes along and says, Hey Mum, here’s Primus.

I love Primus. I met Les Claypool when I was 16 and showed him where the local record shop in Brisbane was. Watching him flip through records and picking out things he was interested in was so interesting to me.

AM: That’s incredible. I suppose it was just the more extreme stuff that was slightly outside the family’s usual listening habits. But at the same time, my sisters were really into a certain level of extreme music—maybe not as much the rest of the family, though. Between all of us, we covered a pretty broad range of styles.

It’s like that in my family too. I have four older siblings and my mom and dad, and we all love music. Being the youngest, I absorbed everything.

AM: Yeah, my sisters are both more than ten years older than me, so there was this big gap where it felt like I got an early introduction to everything everyone liked. By that time, they already had their own personalities and tastes—it wasn’t like a bunch of kids growing up together. It was more like a kid surrounded by adults. We didn’t live together much, but we still hung out a lot.

Photo by Mochammad Rezy Diandra Putra

You had a one-man death metal band in high school, right?

AM: Yeah, yeah, yeah. I made a lot of different kinds of music in high school, and kind of still do. There’s always been a lot of wanting to do everything at once. So, there was a really bad one-man grind band, and then a more electronic grind band. Then, really silly solo stuff that was super slapstick, skit songs, where I would get any friend who was at my house to play a part. We’d record all of that.

I was lucky and unlucky in some ways that the place I spent most of my time, from late primary school to whenever I moved out, was with my dad. It was a one-bedroom apartment, and he wasn’t working at the time. So, I was working several jobs while trying to do school and play in these bands. My room was the living room of the house. There was band gear around all the time, and my sister’s friends would jam there, my bands would jam there, and there were a bunch of other musicians from the area who’d come around and play.

That meant there were constantly parties happening, which wasn’t always great. But it definitely solidified a lot of friendships, and you were allowed to experiment a lot with music—and other stuff. I was lucky in a way, though. The apartment was on top of a clock shop and between two banks, so the walls were really thick on either side. As long as we were done by 10 o’clock, we could make as much noise as we wanted. So, if I got home from school, and thought, I’m going to make a solo grind EP tonight, I could just do that. I could drum and shout really loudly without really disturbing anyone, though I’m sure I was disturbing a lot of people walking past on the street.

I’ve been told in recent years—when I mention the circumstances—that people would walk past and hear crazy music coming out of that house. We’d have parties where people would pull up in cars, get out of the car, and climb onto the roof. They’d crawl up onto the awning of the shop and climb through the front window just to see what band was playing. It was a bit of a mess, but we always had a “whoever wants to join” vibe. It was tough to find the entrance since it was off a little alleyway, but we met a lot of strange friends that way.

A lot of them were really good musicians in the area, and I still play music with some of them now. It solidified a lot of friendships, especially with the older crowd. I was still in the safety of the family home, but it was when everyone else was in their teenage prowling phase; they’d hear rock music and just think, Let’s go into that house.

Did you did you teach yourself to record? 

AM: Yeah, I can’t really remember how that started. I just had a microphone and a cassette deck and slowly built off that. The school I was at had a digital 8-track, so I borrowed that. I didn’t have a computer until quite a lot later when I bought one for myself. Then I started using that along with a tape recorder and things like that. It all built from there.

Also, any of my sister’s or my dad’s friends who had equipment they didn’t need would dump it at the house, knowing it would get used. I’d end up with guitar amps, pieces of a drum kit, recording gear, or a keyboard. There was a constant rotation of people and music gear coming through. It meant I was talking with a lot of different people all the time and using a lot of different gear. People brought in different influences, which made it interesting.

But, as I’ve said about a few things, it wasn’t very good for schooling. I had a lot of friends, though. It was a cool house.

You mentioned having a band with your dad and your solo stuff; what was your first band with your peers? 

AM: That was, oddly enough, probably still the core group of people I’m friends with now and have made a lot of music with. I’ve known my friend Gus since he was born, basically, since our parents were friends. He did The Stroppies, and we were in Tyrannamen, Twerps, and Stevens together. Before that, we were in a few other bands, including one called Teen Archer, which wasn’t very good, and another called Showcard. I was in Showcard from when I was about 13.

That was probably the first proper band I was in. For 13-year-olds, we weren’t the worst band in the world. We played a lot of cool supports, like Spiderbait, Frenzal Rhomb, Bodyjar, and The Datsuns, all while still in high school.

What did Showcard sound like?

AM: This could be the first time I’ve publicly talked about this band. It was very rock. The shows were fast and crazy. We loved The Datsuns, that New Zealand band. All of us moved from one school to another together at one point, and at assembly, they had heard that there was a new band at the school. So they asked us to play. We did a Radio Birdman song and a Stooges song.

We started off as a Metallica cover band. Our first show was at my sister’s birthday, and we played stuff from Metallica’s first three albums. After us, her friends played songs from And Justice for All and The Black Album. They were really good players. The guy in that band gave us our first proper drum kit and taught me how to play drums.

It was a bad stadium glam band, I guess. As a live band, it was okay, but there’s a recording that exists. I think my dad still has about 50 unsold copies of it, gathering dust under his bed next to his own album, which is doing the same thing. But, they’re probably both fun. I don’t think it’s on the internet, so that’s good [laughs].

You mentioned in our correspondence that Hobbies Galore have a couple of releases coming out. Tell us about them.

AM: Most of them are out or announced now. We had the J. McFarlane’s Reality Guest CD, which was sort of my idea—I thought, ‘CDs are going to come back.’ I think I’ve been proven wrong, as they’re not quite there yet. But in my mind, they’re back. I still really love CDs. They’re an important format for me. That’s how I got into most stuff, on CD. The CD is still in the car, and in the house too. 

Then, there’s my new Matt Harkin tape, and The Green Child LP, which is getting out there. I’ve never really done a proper release where there were singles, a lead-up, and video clips. But, Upset The Rhythm in the UK is driving this one. They’re really good, and they’re doing a lot of the hard work, which is nice. I’m along for the ride a little bit, which is cool. I’ll be handling the physical distro in Australia once the copies arrive. In the meantime, he’s planned everything out really well. I’m like, ‘Oh, that’s how you do it.’ That’s how you run a label.

After that, I’ll probably take a break for a while, because I’ll be doing a lot of shows with Faceless Burial at the start of next year. I’m also working on some new stuff with Francis, and that always takes a bit of mental energy because the songs are complicated. I’ll also start doing Green Child shows next year, which takes a lot of learning as well. So I feel like I won’t have much time to focus on making more releases.

I’ve never really put out anything by someone I haven’t met. I get a lot of emails from people, and a lot of it is really good. But if they’re not a friend of mine, I’m like, ‘Oh… you should start your own label.’ That’s usually my first piece of advice. Then I lie and say it’s fun [laughs]. There’s no huge queue of releases waiting to come out, but if anyone I’ve known for a long time wanted to release something tomorrow, I’d be like, ‘Sure.’ It doesn’t need to fit into any kind of schedule.

That’s kind of how poor I am at planning and running a real label. All of my releases for this year are coming out in the same month. But that’s fine—there are no rules. I feel like it saves people on shipping. A lot of people now can order two things at once and avoid paying shipping on two separate orders. I had a bunch of people who ordered the Matt Harkin tape, and I emailed them saying, ‘Hey, I’m releasing something next week. I know you usually buy everything from me, so I’ve just put it in with your order. Don’t order it when it comes out.’ That’s probably the kind of behaviour that will make sure you never break even on releases, but people appreciate it.

There’s a group of regulars who seem to buy everything before even listening to it. I can pretty much guarantee there’s a group of people who will get whatever I release, some of whom live overseas. It’s expensive to ship things overseas, so if you release everything at once, you can bundle them together and save on shipping costs. It’s hard to buy physical media from Australia. So it’s nice that people want to do it at all. 

You mentioned that Faceless Burial is going to record some new stuff. Is there anything you do to prepare for that? 

AM: Lots of practice. I practice before work, most days, leading up to a tour or a recording. At the moment, I’m practicing pretty much every night of the week with Faceless or Green Child, or I was doing practice for the Francis and Pious Faults stuff as well, just in my own time. When I was doing solo shows, I practiced a lot for those because I get really nervous.

For Faceless, it’s really on the edge of all of our abilities. None of us are technical players with any real theory knowledge. We don’t demo a lot of stuff—we still operate kind of like a pop or rock band in that sense, but it’s very much not like one. Pop bands will demo everything and send you exactly what to play. But with the metal band, we write in a room together, which seems counterintuitive because we’re just relying on our memory to remember all of these crazy time signature changes from the week before. The only thing we have to refer to is someone’s phone notes or a quick recording, and we’re always chasing our tails, trying to piece it together.

The first song on this album is 17 minutes long, with very few repeating parts. And if a part does repeat, there are a number of intricate changes that make it impossible to remember. Everything about the progressions is reversed when it happens again, that kind of stuff. It’s really fast the whole time, which is another thing. Max, the drummer, is like the best fast drummer in town, to the point where he really hates playing slow. So if we’re writing a long song, it can’t be a slow one—it has to be fast. He might perish at the end of this recording; it’s really pushing him.

It’s pushing all of us, which is good because I like to be challenged. But I also get really nervous about recording or playing, so it means I have to practice a lot at home.

Photo by Charlie Foster

Why do you get nervous? 

AM: Letting other people down is the main thing, especially if I’m working on someone else’s project. I’m not very good at remembering other people’s songs, and I’m not very good at improvising on other people’s stuff. I can do it on my own songs, but I just don’t feel confident doing it on someone else’s music. So, I have to try my hardest to commit everything to memory.

But there are a lot of conflicting things. For one, I’ve only recently figured out what the notes are on the guitar neck and the keyboard. Before that, it was all based on shapes and remembering those, but the shapes were getting really mixed up because I was storing different band stuff at the same time. So, I tried to get some basic theory knowledge. It’s quite hard when you’ve never worked with it before, but I’m realising that’s probably how people remember multiple things at once, because there’s a connection.

For example, if I’m playing an A in one band’s song, it feels like a completely different note in someone else’s project. In my head, it’s within a totally different context, and the shape it links to in the song is completely different. I guess I don’t have those safe tricks or routes worked out yet. But it’s something I’m working on. In the meantime, it just means I have to practice the individual songs a lot to remember them because I haven’t figured out a better way of remembering all of the stuff yet.

Do you have to be in a different headspace for each of the things that you do? 

AM: To some extent, with Faceless, there’s a huge performative aspect to it. You’re moving around constantly, that kind of thing. But I feel like it’s just really about what the music makes you do. It sounds cheesy, but it’s true. In a band like that, you’re sort of permitted to let the music take over, to let it do anything to you.

Whereas, if I’m playing in something like a sit-down folk duo with Francis, even if the music is telling me to jump around, I usually feel out of respect for the project that I should probably stay in my seat. I wouldn’t do a big circle motion or anything like that because it would detract from the person’s vision.

I did get kicked out of one band for behaving incorrectly, but it was pretty subtle. I think I just held my sticks in the wrong way or something, and they said, ‘You’re out.’ But yeah, you have to be in a fairly different headspace for each project. Still, I take a pretty similar approach to all of them.

What’s something that you’ve seen lately that’s felt really refreshing to you?

AM: People like Francis, and Mikey and Raven from Green Child are people I’m regularly impressed by. They’re always sending me stuff that I think is incredible. I was a huge fan of their work even before collaborating with them.

I feel like there’s a degree of effort that goes into metal bands’ shows, setting a bar that isn’t always matched in terms of effort in other genres I see more often. Local metal bands like Vile Apparition, who are my favourite local band of any genre, impress me every time. Every show is impeccable. They’re great writers, great players, and just good people.

There’s a base level of effort in metal shows that I really respect. I find it impressive that there’s no commercial desire, just an unusual compulsion within that world to keep pushing for no reason. Being technically impressive isn’t everything, but I do find that drive inspiring.

Sometimes, though, I can get a little disillusioned with seeing shows all the time. That said, I’m regularly impressed by certain metal bands, or really anything with that live-show energy. You can get totally taken away by it. Bands like local punk and hardcore groups—Syntax and others—always put on a show where you can tell they’re fully there for the duration.

Kissland, a new band I like, has Max from Faceless in it. But I don’t want to just name friends’ bands. I’m trying to think of what else I’ve seen recently that isn’t metal or hardcore. I finally saw Kraftwerk, and that was incredible. They’re a band you know will always put on a good show.

Otherwise, I’m blanking on other recent shows. I should make some notes to refer to, because there are a lot of great things I’ve seen recently that I’m forgetting. I feel like when you’re seeing so much all the time, it’s harder to remember what has really stood out, at least for me. A lot of the people I see are my friends, and the more I know about the individual, the more impressed I am with what they do.

Photo by Füj

I think that all the time. I’ll see people I know and, you know, we’ll just be chatting and then they’ll get up and do their thing. And it will just be like, who are you? This is amazing. I’m always impressed, and always inspired by all the people that I know. We’re lucky to know so many creative people.

AM: Yeah. If you’ve been doing something for a long time, you tend to gravitate towards the people you admire in many ways. It’s strange for me, even with someone like Max from Faceless. I looked up to him when I was growing up, seeing him play in hardcore and grind bands at underage shows. Then, years later, I end up working with him. Or Mikey—before we started playing together, I was really into all of his stuff. It’s funny to think, ‘Oh yeah, you’re that same guy whose t-shirts and releases I used to buy.’ Now, we’re making t-shirts and releases together, which is surreal. But I do feel lucky to be regularly impressed by a lot of my friends’ output and to be able to support that.

In terms of like creativity, what are the things that are important to you? 

AM: As cliché as it may sound, I’m always impressed by people who do a lot themselves in the DIY scene. There’s a split in my head, though, where I really appreciate people who have no technical training or regard for it. People who might just say, ‘I know these three people, let’s make a band together,’ even if one of them has never played guitar—that I love. Sometimes, it’s as exciting for me as seeing one of the best technical death metal bands in the world. For me, there’s no real separation between these things. If someone is following their natural instincts—what they enjoy making and hearing—that’s what matters. You can tell when people are genuinely following their desire to create. It sounds cheesy, but when people are truly passionate, it comes through in the music.

I also enjoy massive pop bands, though, and it all comes down to the sound for me. Whether the audio is technically good or bad doesn’t matter as much. I can strip away everything else and just say, ‘That song is great.’ In the end, it’s about the sound, and beyond that, the intention behind it.

Do you get a lot of enjoyment listening to music or do you find that you do kind of pull it apart? 

AM: It’s really equal, like, I feel I can just tell what’s happening a lot of the time. I don’t really sit there and analyse it; I never think, What is happening in this track, and how can I make something like it? It’s more about hearing everything at once. For me, a lot of it is about connecting the dots—understanding where something fits in the greater landscape of music. Like, how that band came from where they did, when they did, and who else they were involved with.

I definitely don’t technically analyse songs while I’m listening to them, but I can absorb those elements without fully deconstructing everything. I do listen to each instrument individually and how what it’s playing relates to every other instrument. Then, I think about how those parts fit into the album as a whole, how the album fits into that artist’s catalog, how that catalog connects to other artists on the label, how the label connects to other labels at the time, and so on. You can connect all the dots about where things were coming from and who was making them. But then, you still get those complete anomalies—and those are the most intriguing.

Absolutely. That’s when we found Guppy and ended up putting out their record. We started a label just to release it because we loved them so much. My husband Jhonny and I saw them play, and we both had that moment where we looked at each other and said, Are you seeing this? Are you hearing this? Then we ended up becoming friends with them.

AM: It’s hard to find, especially if you’re not actively seeking it out, but occasionally something pops up, and you’re like, That’s pretty wild.

I felt the same way when we finally got to see Pious Faults.

AM: Yeah. They’ve had a really unusual trajectory, where most people know them for that release, which had more of a cooked hardcore vibe. But over time, they’ve evolved into a completely different band. They’re about to release a really strange album, and they had me do a bunch of stuff on it.

We’ve heard it’s been in the works for a while. Is it the stuff you played at the Brisbane Institute of Art show the other night?

AM: Yeah, we pretty much played the most of the album. 

The sound in the room was incredible. 

AM: It was fun, and I got to catch up with a bunch of old Brisbane friends, Blank Realm, and Leighton, who put on the show, and some other folks. I always have a great time in Brisbane. I was seeing someone from there for a while, so I spent a lot of time up there. 

I’ve always felt like there’s a unique microcosm in Brisbane, where what’s internationally recognised as refreshing in Australia is the entire lack of ambition. And I mean that in a really positive way. Ambition within yourself is great, but ambition in terms of fitting into the world or proving something to others can sometimes be detrimental. Brisbane seems like an even more distilled version of that, with so many bands doing their own thing. They’re really happy to just play for their talented, interesting friends without any need to push for broader recognition, continually putting out impressive and bizarre stuff.

I know a bunch of people who went to this big festival in Japan earlier this year, which featured a lot of huge noise artists. Masonna played, and I think his set lasted just a couple of seconds—like, the main act people went there to see was just this burst of light and noise, and then that was it. People were talking about it. I was like, you’re never going to forget that.

Wow.

AM: Yeah. But it’s kind of rude as well, but it made for a great story. That might not have been a story otherwise.

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Wet Kiss: ‘At the end of the day, you’re living for yourself. You’re living for your art.’

Original photo: Jhonny Russell. Handmade collage by B.

Gimmie recently caught Wet Kiss at Season Three, Fortitude Valley’s ‘weird little space for special things to happen,’ on an ordinary Tuesday night—except that a big music industry conference was in town, drawing its crowd to the usual venues. But this wasn’t part of that hustle; it was a DIY gig, tucked away from the conference crowds. No lanyards or VIP attitudes here. Just a small, dimly lit room up a flight of stairs, usually an instrument shop by day. The building, built in 1902, once housed a grocers and an oyster saloon. Now, it is packed with an all-ages crowd of people hungry for something real.

Wet Kiss is kinetic and visceral, wildly powerful, and funny. For Brenna O and her band, music isn’t just an art form; it’s a lifeline. They are sensitive souls making music for those who need it to survive, just like they do.

Brenna dives into depths others often shy away from, exposing hidden corners and bringing them into the light. She’s both a unifier and a disruptor, challenging norms in ways that make her performances crackle with excitement, spontaneity, and truth. She invites her audience to surrender to the moment, and the emotional catharsis that only sharing space and time with non-conforming misfits can evoke. The band feels bigger than the room they occupy tonight.

Gimmie chatted with Brenna a couple of weeks later about the band’s upcoming album, Thus Spoke the Broken Chanteuse. The album channels the eclectic spirit of David Bowie and Iggy Pop’s Berlin era, infused with the theatricality of Judy Garland and the storytelling of Lou Reed. The album showcases Brenna’s artistic and personal evolution, bringing a sophisticated writer’s eye to the fringes she moves in. She shares how moving out of her comfort zone and embracing the unknown in Berlin, helped her discover her true self and solidify her creative identity.

The album features anthems for the dolls like ‘Skirt,’ celebrating performance and vulnerability; ‘Gender,’ which literally touches on waiting at the gender clinic while abroad and the emotional experience, and the challenges and anxieties of navigating the more stringent healthcare requirements for hormone therapy; while ‘Small Clubs’ is about resetting oneself and living freely. ‘Chick From Nowhere’ explores stumbling out of bars at dawn, capturing the bittersweet highs and lows of fleeting connections. ‘The Gay Band’ addresses loss and memory, revealing the emotional toll of friends who have passed away, also delving into the courage required to come out to one’s parents. And track ‘Isn’t Music Wonderful’ celebrates the beauty of music and the deep connections it fosters, while also confronting the struggles of making a living in the industry.

Brenna tells us, ‘You’ve got to live like you’re in a movie.’ Each song captures that cinematic quality of life—vivid scenes filled with laughter and tears. With Thus Spoke the Broken Chanteuse, she invites us to step into her world, encouraging us to embrace the chaos and beauty of our own stories.

You’re up coming record is fire! Dinosaur City sent us through a sneak peek. It’s one of the best things we’ve heard all year.

BRENNA O: Thank you! We’ve worked hard and stayed true to ourselves. Things are good. We just played a show in Sydney at the Oxford Art Factory on Friday. I hope never to play there again. It was a nightmare. 

Why? 

BO: It was too crowded. I can’t even compare it to Brisbane or Melbourne, but it’s like piling people into a venue that doesn’t feel right. Intense security, a terrible green room, and only three drink cards each—we weren’t treated like stars at all [laughs]. It felt like a cattle factory.

Was the show good, though?

BO: The show was really good, and the perks were, it was incredible to have all these bands that I know from down here playing and hanging out—it was lots of fun. I’m really ragging on the venue, but… look, it wasn’t the worst experience. I’ve had worse. I’d rather play at a dingy house show that’s covered in black mould where everyone running the event is sweet to me. That’s the priority. I don’t care if it’s a big space, and it was, but it just didn’t feel great. Still, the show was fab. The next day, my partner, Dan [Ward], who does BODIES, put on a house show with Daily Toll and Spike Fuck, and it was really good.

Nice! We love Daily Toll. I’ll have to check out Spike Fuck. Anything else been happening? How’s life?

BO: My life, my life… I’m living with my partner in this room that’s, covered in absolute garbage moment, out at their brother’s house. We’re looking to move somewhere, but we don’t know how or when, and I need to get another avenue of money so I can figure out how to get myself out of this place. But it is cute and sweet and safe.

I was in Berlin for over two years, and I started coming back and forth when we were asked to do Rising. I was in a real flow in Berlin. I had a whole group of friends, and I was gigging. But after I left, things in Australia started changing, like the music scene, and there were new younger bands starting, and they were really digging us. So I just wanted to come back. It’s so nice to be around that.

You’re asking me how my life is. At the moment, I’m seeing everything through music. I really don’t know how to talk about my life without talking about that. It really is becoming very all-consuming, and because my partner and all my friends are also completely obsessed, we’re all bonding as a group over our ability to make music, share skills, and encourage each other to try and be superstars. I feel very surrounded by love at the moment. And you’re calling me and being very sweet, I really appreciate that you reached out to me.

It’s a pleasure. We’re fans of what you do. We’ve got your other album She’s So Cool

BO: With the first release, it probably felt like it came out of nowhere. It was a bit ambiguous who we were, and every song was made with a different intention. Whereas with the new record, it was all recorded and produced in the same space. All the lyrics, all the chords—everything was laid out on the floor, and we vaguely knew what we were doing. But the first one, we were just experimenting in this old warehouse I used to live in, which gives it this disjointed, fun house kind of vibe. The whole band are all members of the band, Bodies Of Divine Infinite and Eternal Spirit, which I kidnapped [laughs]. I was doing solo things and projects before this—noise and karaoke—and it was so terribly awkward.

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What initially drew you to making music?

BO: I always wanted to. I remember when I was 17, it hit me in a classroom—really, really penetrated my psyche. I didn’t finish high school because I never got very good grades and had terrible attention. One day, this person came into our art class, and he made miniatures—miniature figurines used for stage props and plotting out different scenes. It wasn’t that they filmed these miniatures, but they were a way for directors and cinematographers to figure out how the cast would be sitting and how everything would look dramatically.

It was fascinating, and it gave me a little insight into the ins and outs of a different type of career or reality. I had such a bad time in high school. A teacher—my English teacher—once told me, ‘I think you should walk across the road and file an application at Woolworths and just finish school now, because you’re never going to make it.’

They were wrong! My English teacher told me I will never ever be a writer and first year out of high school, that’s what I started doing and I’ve done it my entire life. So they were both wrong. Never listen to people that don’t get you.

BO: Yeah. They were incredibly wrong and jaded. Look at you—you have a magazine that everybody loves 

It’s really nice that the people who we love and respect and enjoy their music, love and respect and enjoy what we do—that’s all you could ask for. Gimmie has become a community of people that simply love music and art, and that means everything to us.

BO: I saw Amy Taylor gave you a shout out the other day. 

That was so, so kind of her. A lot of people don’t realise how much simply sharing what we do, telling people about us, really helps a little independent publication like us. 

BO: She is such a stunning person. 

Yeah, she totally is. It’s cool that she’s totally herself, writes amazing songs, supports and helps others. One of the loveliest people in music. Amyl and the Sniffers deserve all their success and more, they’ve worked so hard. Their new record rules!

BO: We love them! I love them. I love Amy. She’s always been so supportive of us too. We opened for them at Berghain when I was living in Berlin. The whole band came over and it was very sweet. 

Why did you move to Berlin? 

BO: After lockdown, I’ve always had this habit of going overseas every year. I try to save money and go—I went to New York, then Iceland, and then New Zealand, which is not as crazy, but it was very nice. Then I kept going back to Berlin. And as much as I think the place is awful in a lot of different ways, I just needed to get out of here. I had this death drive. I was dying here and needed to see if I could push myself to struggle in all sorts of ways and do something really creatively fulfilling.

That’s how I wrote the rest of the album. I went there on my own and had to make a whole new set of friends, get a job, and experiment with a new life—dealing with a new language. Now I have friends and all these people over there that I know I can go back to for the rest of my life. But other than that, there was no job, no real reason for me to go there. I had two friends who were already there, which made it a little easier.

But why does anyone go to Berlin? I think it’s just renowned for taking in a lot of global stragglers—people who are seeking an escape and a way out of judgment. Because I never really could hold down a job, and no one there gives a damn what you do. No one asks about your job; it’s almost like a dirty thing to ask.

I worked in a bar there, and I also worked for a fashion seller called the Grotesque Archive. I played shows, and Dan came with me for a year. The band joined me for a bit, and otherwise, I just did things solo. My visa is still active until September next year, so I will go back to see that out and see what happens. I’m excited; I feel like everything’s happening here for me, though.

I get that feeling. That’s so great! We’re so happy for you. It always fascinates me when people go live in a totally different place to what they know. I’ve had opportunities to but never took them up. When I was 18, I was offered a job at MTV in New York—but I didn’t go. 

BO: Why?! 

I’ve always been really close to my mum and she was unwell for a long time with different stuff. I’ve never had a lot of friends and spent a lot of time just with my family growing up. So to me, the idea of moving to New York, seemed like such a scary idea at the time. I didn’t know anyone, I was barely out off high school.

BO: That’s fair enough. You’re still so young at 18. 

There are so many times in my life when I’ve turned down seemingly amazing opportunities. Sometimes you have these dreams, and when you’re close to getting them—or do get them—you find they’re not what you thought they’d be. You realise you don’t want that, and that’s okay.

BO: Mm-hmm. Particularly when you’re doing your creative gift, your gifted talent, and then you find yourself doing it for another institution or someone else. 

Exactly. When what you love becomes tied up with industry and the machine of products and profits, it can get hard. We care about people, not products—that’s what makes Gimmie different.

BO: Yeah, that situation could be so miserable and heartbreaking. I know a lot of people that work in fashion and you have to shut off a bit of your brain. Maybe that’s your instinct that things are not right or you’re not fulfilling your creative purpose because you are so drawn to the glamour of the institution or the company.

I love fashion! But like the music industry, it’s an industry too. People and products are disposable and what matters most is the bottomline—profit. Not creativity and innovation. Obviously, I’m in favour of artists making a living, and people should do that in whatever way works best for them. However, it saddens me to see big corporations making more money—often much more than the artists themselves—from the heart and hard work that the artists put into their craft. Without the artist they don’t have shit.

BO: Yeah, it’s funny being a musician at this point in my life, not because I’ve always been super DIY, but because I now have a manager. I’m so grateful for Jordanne; she’s not industry at all. She tries to be the anti-industry. However, you have to talk to these people. She took us to Austin and South By Southwest—not to play, but to meet people. Some of them were great, but some of them… maybe this is going to get me cancelled but—just a whole bunch of people with no talent [laughs].

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[Laughter]. I get what you’re saying…

BO: Trying to make deals and use the people who are creating things to get the money. I don’t know, maybe it’s a bit cliché, but it’s interesting to see. I feel like there are ways to connect with the people and the right labels that will fulfil every goal and dream you have.

When you first started making music, you were making it on your laptop and more electronically, right? 

BO: Yeah, I learned when I was using GarageBand. I had old microphones from the drugstore and effects pedals that people would hand down to me. I knew this older synth musician called Matthew Brown, and he mentored me, helping me figure out the basics and tried to do shows from my studio in school. To be honest, when I was 17, I had a few bands where I’d sing and play guitar. One of them was called Total Loser Friends, and another one was called Gay, which Daphne [Camf] from No Zu, who’s passed away now. It was when we were like, maybe 18 or 19.

Those were my early band experiences, and it was this—you hear about this all the time—before you know how to play a single chord or how a song’s meant to be structured, the music just comes together so quickly. You’re so proud of everything you do, and you feel so reckless. It’s such a great feeling that you can’t get back. When you’re at a bigger level of scale, for me, you have to figure out how to manifest that thrill in a different way. You keep building it, making it larger, and get more ambitious because you don’t have that naivety anymore. Those bands were so fun to play in.

And I never had stage fright—I never got stage fright until I started doing solo laptop stuff and realised that I had no clue what I was doing. Things always went wrong. I would plug the pedals backwards, or I would use a mixer and it would blow out the sound. Or, no one came. I would have shows at the Post Office Hotel here in Coburg quite regularly to one or two people, and just push through.

It took me a while to figure out what I was writing about. It took me a while to realise, okay, you can’t go on stage unless you’re wearing heels, can’t go on stage unless you’re wearing makeup. You have to present yourself to the audience and also have a lyrical message that can be fully involved in the theatrics and storytelling.

It takes so much bravery, struggle, and learning to get to that point for me, which I guess progressed as I started transitioning. Before that, I was super awkward. I saw someone at the Oxford Art Factory who’s known me for a long time, and they said I used to be a bit more quiet. When you’re on stage, it’s like a kind of persona or extension of yourself anyway.

With the new album that’s going to come out, it feels like what you’re doing is finally fully formed. All the pieces are there, and it works. Its’ really levelled up.

BO: Thank you. Definitely. It paints a complete picture. It almost feels like a concept record or, as you said, fully realised—the lyrics, the instrumental changes, everything. I hope that they paint vivid images in your head.

The last record was, I’d have a poem here and a piece of writing there. When I was in front of the microphone recording the track, I was actually going for my phone and jumping through lyrics. It wasn’t as cohesive. It was more cut and paste—a Burroughs kind of thing, more immediate.

Whereas the new one was, I’m going to write this song, and it’s going to be like a little opus—a complete message. So I can see how it would feel more complete.

What do you see as the biggest concepts or themes running through the record? 

BO: Because I moved when I wrote a lot of it—either just before I moved, or some of them while imagining what it would be like to live overseas—and some were written overseas. It’s grappling with the desire to be a star, to be successful, to transcend what I saw for a few years: stagnation, a lack of growth. I was comparing that to my physical body, as well as my intellectual growth.

What it took to make friends and try to get attention in Berlin was for me to alter myself a little bit. I bleached my hair, took a lot more drugs than I’d ever taken, and pushed myself further. The album reflects the real intense highs and lows of that experience, and my poetic take on how I felt in those moments. For example, there’s a track called ‘Chick from Nowhere’. It’s about coming out of bars when it’s daylight, trying to go home with someone, or feeling the ups and downs. It’s like cocaine—going up, crashing down. There are references to how in Berlin you don’t ring houses by numbers but by names. The chorus is sort of like, ‘Did you go to work? Did you go to sleep? I’m outside. I’ve got your name. I’m inside your place.’ It’s about looking for a certain type of friend. It’s daylight, I feel disgusting, I need to come in for a shower [laughs]. These are lived, messy experiences.

I also tried to take elements of glam rock, music often sung by men about women, and flip it—trying to be the woman they’re singing about. The broken heel running down the street, trying to get home, trying to get some money.

Another track,’Skirt’, is about this experience where I tried to play a gig solo at my friend Dan’s apartment. He’s a musician in Berlin. He suggested I do a solo set, and it was a disaster. I couldn’t play the instrument, I got really drunk before the show, and I had my leg up on the amp while telling jokes. I held the audience the best I could, but afterward, someone said, ‘Everyone was trying to see up your skirt to see what was going on up there.’ I thought, bastards! [laughs].

But then it came to me—trying to make an anthem for the dolls about performing and being vulnerable. It’s about what people are really looking at when they see a trans performer. The album has deep emotional stuff, but I’m also trying to enact a raucous, fun side.

Is there any specific emotions you mostly wrote from for the album? 

BO: There’s a lot of longing in this album. The main theme I get from reflecting on it is that you can’t always get what you want. You may move somewhere, but you’re never going to escape yourself. You will always be followed by that person, by your past, by who you are.

In the song ‘Small Clubs,’ it’s about this experience of resetting myself. I’m now playing to not many people again, and I don’t know many of them. Maybe it hasn’t instantly improved my music career or my status in society, but who cares? I’m just going to do it anyway. I don’t care if people at home are telling me to come back and saying I made a bad decision. A lot of people told me I had made a horrible choice by leaving, which is so wrong.

When I left, I met great people. I wouldn’t have played with Berghain or had all these incredible experiences with Amy, or lived my life freely. At the end of the day, you’re living for yourself. You’re living for your art. So, of course, it’s good to travel. But to get to the main themes, I don’t know if there’s a lot of happiness in it. I wasn’t really feeling happy or sad; I was just trying to think super forward and become a vessel for experience. I’ve had years where I wasn’t doing that. I wasn’t thinking of my life like it was a movie.

My friend Jai, who’s the guitarist for EXEK, we became close friends in the past year. He’s always saying, ‘You’ve got to live like you’re in a movie.’ It sounds full of shit, but I just love that. That’s exactly the attitude I want to have: living for right now. I don’t think there’s any one emotion encapsulated in this album, you just have to dive into it. It’s a chaotic two years of life lived, and it seems like something out of a movie.

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Let’s talk about other songs on the album. First, opener ‘The Gay Band.’ It’s a powerful track, starting with piano and your voice. It’s from the heart, and I believe you. 

BO: Oh, that’s such a beautiful thing to hear! Because it’s the most important thing: belief—selling it. That’s why I love Madonna so much as a singer. Not because she has an extreme belt or anything; there are other singers I respect in so many different ways. But she’s the queen for me because she sells a message. Even if she’s singing about something you can’t remotely relate to, it doesn’t matter because her conviction makes you care.

What’s your favourite era of Madonna?

BO: I have a lot! I would probably say that the ‘Live to Tell,’ ‘Papa Don’t Preach’ era, around ’86, is my favourite. I love that whole decade—from ’85 to… oh God, I love her too much to even just pinpoint an era. But I like that. I like when she is basically herself—along with Michael Jackson, George Michael, and Prince—all those monolithic figures from that ‘80s. That’s all the stuff I grew up on. I just miss living through it, but I know it so well. That was a powerful era of Madonna, and that film she put out, is probably my favourite too. But then Ray of Light, of course. 

That’s my favourite! 

BO: It’s a comeback album of the century. It’s incredible. 

So we were talking about conviction in delivery…

BO: Conviction! Oh my God, thank you. Because you can’t hear it when you listen to your own music; you don’t hear as much. You don’t hear conviction. I’m not listening to it and thinking, ‘What a genius!’ It is hard; it is hard to listen.

Was it hard to give that performance when you recorded the vocals for it? 

BO: I did. When you’re doing a take, you’re like, ‘I have to make this work.’ You have the choice to be, ‘I could imagine if I delivered it really dry and distant,’ which can be one way an artist might do it. But to me, that’s not why I like music: to feel distant or sing like my voice is simply just an instrument padding something. I really felt it.

The themes of the songs, particularly that one, are about memories and people who have passed. I’ve had many friends pass away in the past eight years—more than I feel like I should have. And you lose something every time someone dies, but that’s not fair. I don’t want to lose anything, and I don’t want to lose people. I don’t want to lose myself. If someone dies, it’s a gift for you to keep living.

The other central themes of that song are also about confessing things to your parents and coming out.

One of the lines that really got me is when you sing about telling your parents, and they didn’t understand, and you cried. I wanted to cry when I heard that. I wanted to give you the biggest hug ever.

BO: Thank you. 

It moved me because it was real. 

BO: It’s really sweet of you to say. I’ve got tears in my eyes. It was about, I’m coming out and telling you, okay, it didn’t work out. And, there’s someone who I had a crush on and they’ve changed as a person and I have a friend who’s passed away, and—can I move on? 

All heavy things. I love that you combined all that into one song. 

BO: They all seemed related, in a sense. 

Letting go of things. 

BO: Yeah, totally. 

Letting go of things and becoming who you are—who you’re meant to be.

BO: Definitely. When you’re writing, you have all these subconscious things; everyone has intrusive thoughts that flow through their brain. So when I’m writing, I just write down all these thoughts, mapping them out as they convey a message. I never questioned that all those messages meant something, but when you put them together, it definitely forms a complete feeling about self-acceptance and letting go.

I knew it was really deep. 

BO: I didn’t even know it was that deep! [laughs]. Thank you. 

What can you tell me about song ‘Metal Silhouette’? 

BO: That song is punk rock and very fast. One of my favourites is Only Theatre of Pain by Christian Death. Al and I love that band. That was the one song for which I wrote the lyrics the morning of; I tried to picture different scenes and memories of intimate moments I had with my lovers or people I really had feelings for. I aimed to grab little moments and scenes, making a lot of poetic innuendos and metaphors. It had to paint quick images in your head about what you were hearing, as it was going to be a really fast song. Around that time, I was also listening to a lot of Placebo, so I was thinking about what could be the coolest thing to say in a poetic way.

Where does your love of words come from?

BO: I’m a real acolyte of Lou Reed. That’s why I feel I see lots of references, like streets and walking. A lot of his lyrics are just him walking through a rough part of New York, and all the poetry is already there for him. It’s already written; you just write about what you see.

In terms of writing, I’m also dating a poet, so we have very different approaches to how we write about things. We’re always trying to challenge each other. I guess I’m trying to write poetically, in a way, to upstage him and excite him with what I’m creating. I like the Beat poets, especially Ginsberg, and I really enjoy Patti Smith’s first album.

In a way, telling the most straightforward story may not be the right message for me. I prefer tongue-twisting wordplays that may require a second take. Rozz Williams from Christian Death, uses a lot of metaphors too.

When I’m writing, I often shuffle my sentences around in my notes. I know there’s a different phrase I can use or a totally disconnected word that can create something rhythmically exciting. That’s what I’m going for in many ways—an unexpected twist in the use of a noun or something.

However, I didn’t have any creative writing mentors who informed me. I only really started reading as an adult; as a kid, I was never encouraged to read.

Did you grow up in Melbourne? 

BO: Yeah, I was on the west side and then moved around to the east with my mum. My parents split up quite young when I was young.

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Did your household encourage creativity? 

BO: No, no, not at all. They never did anything creative or musical. They’re not bland people at all. My mum is great; she’s queer. Basically, I was raised vegetarian, and I’m still vegan, and she’s vegan too. My dad is in the country with his new wife, and they’re conspiracy theorists—kind of like libertarians who live off their own land. So, they do have their quirks, and they like music a lot. My mum likes glam rock, KISS, and Bowie, and she probably inserted a lot of these references.

Where your love of these things come from?

BO: Yes, it’s almost embarrassing to say. Isn’t it cliché, being brainwashed as a child, and then it transfers into your adult life [laughs].

It could have been worse; at least they’re very cool references.What was the kind of music you found yourself that was your thing? 

BO: The Velvet Underground and the more gritty aspects of that punk glam thing. My mum was a product of the 90s; she liked Alanis Morissette and all that kind of stuff. My parents were 17 when they had me, so by the time I was growing up, they were very set in that world. But I found myself in the 2000s, listening to the Yeah Yeah Yeahs. The music I started discovering, like Ariel Pink and all that stuff, was all through blogs. Those are the things that your parents can’t introduce you to. As a kid, I liked the Spice Girls.

I’ve got a Spice Girls record. 

BO: Cool! I still do love them. I went to the CD store, and they had these multi-set collections. I didn’t know the bands; I was about 15 or 16. I picked up The Mamas & the Papas, The Cramps, and the B-52’s. I racked up all these CDs just because they were on bargain.

Those were the things that rotated throughout my teens, they were self-discovered. It was a crazy lesson to go from sunshine pop to L.A. punk and then to weirdo art student music. Those are huge influences that informed everything for me, and I saw them as very much the same things. I discovered them at the same time, and it made sense to me that sunshine pop in the 60s in L.A. would have informed The Cramps.

I like The Mamas & the Papas a lot because they convey such a breadth of feeling in one song, balancing happiness with the saddest chords. The melodies they sing, their voices, and the harmonising—even when they’re flat—are so beautiful.

I really love the melodies on your album. Gimmie have been thrashing it since we got it, and they get stuck in our heads. Like, you know how you’ll be humming something to yourself and then realise, ‘Oh wait, that’s Wet Kiss!’

BO: Oh my god! Yes!

You’re really masterful at writing poetic verses and then catchy choruses. Those hooks!

BO: A chorus should be catchy. That’s just how I think. It has to be absolutely catchy. Then you have all this space to experiment with the verses, but you don’t want them to be dull either. 

The chorus of ‘Skirt’ gets stuck in my head all the time. 

BO: I’m thrilled to hear this. 

There’s a real attitude to it.

BO: It’s, well, you’re looking up my skirt, but like, so what? Fuck you. 

I love that. It’s a tough sounding song. ‘Isn’t Music Wonderful’ got me in the feels too? What a title? 

BO: That title says it all. It’s just about how great and how beautiful music is, and how to live your life fully involved in its production, waiting for it to blossom and be loved by other people, hoping it will be. It’s about connection. When you’re writing, you’re making connections with others.

It’s also about struggling to keep making music. Like what it says in the verses: ‘Every success, another $2 address.’ Because as much as you keep playing great shows, you don’t get paid very well. The things that we all wear on stage are generally from the op shop. We keep trying to glam it up as much as possible. But it doesn’t really matter, because playing a show with the people that you love and care about—your closest friends—is a really great feeling.

Also, though, how good is it finding a $2 dress at the Op Shop?!

BO: Yeah! But maybe it’s more like a $24 dress these days, I should say [laughs].Finding a nice dress is like the best feeling in the world. 

The next song ‘Gender’ seems like a significant song?

BO: Yes. That song is about waiting at a gender clinic. I wrote it when I was at the doctor in Berlin, trying to get a script for hormones because, in Germany, they don’t have informed consent like we do here. Basically, when I wanted to get on hormones here, I just went to the doctor, and they didn’t throw them at me carelessly, but they were like, ‘OK,’ after maybe two or three meetings. They wanted to know that I’d researched and understood the risks and was ready to do it for myself. But in Germany, you have to have six or eight psychiatric appointments. I was really worried. 

Understandably. 

BO: So I was in the waiting room, and in a situation and stressed. But at the same time, I’m like, ‘How can I turn this into a rock song? How can I make this experience reflexive, but kind of dynamite?’ I was trying to write really literally. That night, Dan was still with me in Berlin, and I made the three chords, and then we were jamming and having some wine. It came together. That’s why some of the songs are so absurdly sexual. It’s about the male unwanted attention that comes from becoming more and more beautiful. 

In the lyrics you talk about adding another page to your diary. Do you journal a lot? 

BO: I have a diary. I have multiple books at this point. Yeah. When I write a diary, I always say that I like to leave it on the table because it’d be such a shame for someone to open it and read my dark secrets [laughs]. I like to write it like it’s a novel. It helps me cement that feeling, which is the creative process of writing and living fulfilling your life. That motivates me.

But lately, the entries have been so matter-of-fact. Maybe because I’ve been busy—I played this show; it was good. This person played with me, I like this band, and I didn’t like this person. That has been the last few weeks of my diary entries. I don’t know why my mind is trying to get out the facts at the moment. But generally, I write long-form.

I also write film reviews. My partner has a publication called No More Poetry. And No More Poetry have a magazine called No, No, No mag. And I contribute long-form essays basically every issue where I review a film, but it’s more a diary about my life. 

I’ll have to get a copy, I’d love to read that. So, in your song ‘Chick From Nowhere’ I noticed that the tentative title of the album was a lyric from that song. 

BO: Yeah. Thus Spoke the Broken Chanteuse.

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Where did that line come from? 

BO: The ‘Broken Chanteuse’ line comes from this writer called Max, from a magazine called The Stew. He reviewed our first album and said that I had yellow teeth and called me a Broken Chanteuse. I thought he was such a little cunt for saying that. But I really love Max. Basically, I was like, wow, that’s what you think of me. But then I was like, no, this is the lore. He was building this lore and image of me based on what he thought about the music. So I was like, well, I’ll feed that back into the music: ‘So she’s got yellow teeth. She likes what she sees. That’s what it said in an underground magazine.’ I thought it sounded cool. 

There’s a Nietzsche book, Thus Spoke Zarathustra, that quotes that ‘God is dead.’ That’s the book Bowie was reading during his most schizophrenic period, when he was creating his Berlin albums.

I didn’t know that. I love trivia. What can you tell us about ‘Pink Shadow’? 

BO: That song was written before I went on this trip to Berlin, but it’s about the last time I was in Berlin. I was in Berlin for three months. It reflects on 2018, when I was having my ass kicked by being in such a difficult situation—struggling to get to know people and dealing with my own difficulties.

That was the first trip where I took my first estrogen tablet in Paris. I was such an egg, so undeveloped at that point in my life, while making music. I played one show in this girl-only art complex that was housed in a big pink shed. That’s why the opening line is ‘In a pink shadow in a lesbian’s bungalow.’

I was staying at this commune, KuLe, which has been around since the ’90s, where artists can live. I actually played there again when I moved back in 2022. The song is also about the experience of living with those people. I was there around the time they hosted the African Biennale, and it was really fun. I had a great time.

But it’s funny because, when the African Biennale was on, the way the European residents handled the presence of Black people was strange. There was this trepidation, like a fear of doing the wrong thing. I mean, this happens everywhere, in every country, but it felt particularly odd there. There was this weird defiance, and KuLe sits right across from a big German art institution, yet the African Biennale was just so much cooler.

It’s mentioned in the song, and other elements of the song reflect teething, growing, and figuring out how messed up Europeans can be. It’s about figuring out my life too, knowing I was going to go back, and reflecting on the memories.

That’s really interesting. ’Bunk Buggy’ is another song that always gets stuck in my head. 

BO: ‘Bunk Buggy’ is the only song not about travelling. It’s about my dad. Like I said, he lives out in the country. As I mentioned, me and my mom are vegan, but he works for abattoirs—he kills animals. I don’t think he exactly likes it, but he doesn’t have much choice. He’s a very funny guy. He likes talking about conspiracies. He really likes Trump and Alex Jones [laughs]. But then he’ll oddly know who Blaire White is, a trans YouTuber who I don’t like it all. And, Catboys and all these esoteric memes. He’s a gamer. He’s a very strange guy. But then he just says these funny things. He was messaging me: I’m going to work today. And I’m riding the bunk buggy. I replied, What is the bunk buggy? He said a tractor that plows all the fields for the wheat, so you can feed the pigs that are in the pen to sustain them before you slaughter them. At the time he was getting severely underpaid and wanted me to help him. I tried. But his workplace, has all these signs about, if you complain or join a union, you’re like a communist. Crazy shit. 

Wow!

BO: He has no choice out there. I guess the song is an exercise in making a different type of song. I had the funny word, wrote down all these lyrics, and then we were jamming. Before this record was even conceived, this has been a song we’ve had for a long time. I just inserted ‘bunk buggy’ as a chorus.

I was also inspired to write it after hearing this Cocteau Twins song called ‘The Spangle Maker’. It’s about a man who works in a spangle factory—those little metal spangles. It’s such a beautiful song, though I don’t think ‘Bunk Buggy’ is a beautiful song. It’s a raucous rock song.

I thought there was something about my dad’s profession and the despair of that which I could form into a song. When it comes together, I think it’s funny because, to me, ‘Bunk Buggy’ sounds like I’m trying to create a new dance. It’s not a known word, but it’s a funny phrase to say. I was trying to make it end the album with this refreshing, strange, off-kilter vibe that reflects the reality the whole record is composed of.

Is there anything that you find challenging about writing songs? 

BO: The writing itself—you get the ideas down with pen and paper or in iPhone notes, and you’re looking at them, and you’re like, this conveys a feeling, but it just comes across wrong. You’re like, I couldn’t, that’s not me. That’s not my voice.

So it comes back to what I was saying earlier: wordplay and getting the message across. I find that challenging. Recording is also a big challenge. I probably did the vocals in three takes. There’s a lot going through my head—a lot of pressure in those high-stakes moments, and that’s where a lot of swearing happens. There’s fighting, and a lot of vulnerability.

Our band has a rule: anything that happens in the studio doesn’t count. You don’t count that in the friendship. So if someone calls me a fucking cunt, or vice versa, we leave that in the room. Then we all hang out, and it’s fine. It’s part of the creative process. [laughs]. We need to be violent, focused, and emotional. Recording is a hard part of the writing process because when you record, you sing it, and you’re like, ‘I can’t say this!’ Then suddenly, you’re doing a little edit, adding an extra bit. Or, in the studio, people are like, ‘You should use this word,’ and sometimes I’d be like, ‘No,’ but other times I’d say, ‘You know what?Yes.

So the writing is still happening during that process. It’s only right when you’re singing it to yourself before it’s even becomes a song. I have songs ready to record right now that I hum the melody to, and I think they’re so catchy, but I’ve never actually recorded them outside my head.

For example,I wrote one recently that’s about how big shoes—heels that fit a bigger foot, like a transperson’s foot—are often ugly. I had the melody [sings] do, do, do, do, do, do, do, do, do. It sounds so corny when I say it, but I wrote it on guitar, and it sounded a little better. I sang the lyrics to my partner, and they were like, ‘That was so bad.’ That cut me. But now that I have a test audience, I’ll keep working on it over the next six months.

Another difficult part of writing is dealing with rejection—when you present something and people are like, ‘I don’t understand what you’re trying to say,’ or ‘I don’t like this topic. You could do better than this topic.’ But sometimes you’re like, ‘But I want to write a song that some weird person would react to, even if it was just one person.’

Photo: Jhonny Russell

I like that. What was one of the most sort of emotional moments for you when you were recording? 

One song I’m not happy with the the performance, and I went back into a studio of my friends to rerecord it, and I think I might attach it, send it to my mixer, is the song ‘Babe’. I had such a difficult time singing it, because that one song needed more, it’s like, my personality was not enough, and it needed me to sing really clearly on pitch. The chords, everything was pulling you into like this pitch, and it’s this rocky, slow, melodic, tight of jam. I had to do that a thousand times! When we got it back, I had to auto tune and pitch correct so many parts of my vocal delivery, because it sounded bad if it was a little flat or a little sharp or a little yell-y. 

That was so emotional because it was devastating to realise, this song isn’t working, but we had recorded it. What do we do? So I went back into another studio and recorded another version, trying to throw the original out the window. If it doesn’t work, I don’t know what to do with that song, because it just feels like it isn’t connecting.

In the studio, doing try after try, with people saying, ‘You can’t sing it,’ that was quite emotional because I want to be a good singer.

Did you ever think you’d be a singer? 

BO: Yes. 

When did you first know that was what you wanted to do?

BO: When I bought those CDs that I spoke of earlier, like the The Mamas & the Papas, and I would sing along to them. I would tell everyone, ‘I want to be a singer.’ And everyone knows that I can’t sing one key [laughs]. My whole family is always like, ‘You’re okay.’ I would belt out songs in the living room. I would learn lyrics; I’m very good at remembering long streams of lyrics. So I always knew I would be one.

I’ve tried and tried for years, and I always told people I was tone deaf. Then in Berlin, I got a singing teacher who was an opera singer. 

Awesome!

BO: She taught me a lot about breathing from my diaphragm, singing in key, and gave me a lot of tips for staying in key, like remembering the notes as numbers and mixing those numbers up. That way, you learn the position of the notes.

I developed a lot more just from those lessons and her encouragement. She had a great understanding that you can copy Patti Smith, you can do the New York Dolls, or you can sing like Bessie Smith and try to be more belt-y. But those people, when they get older, lose their voice because your voice is an instrument. It’s like a boxer, someone who’s constantly putting their body in the fray of damage.

So, it’s a choice. If you want to just be a punk singer and scream, scream, scream your whole life, your career might only last 20 years. But she was trying to encourage me to learn more technique to sustain longevity.

Once I got that skill, I became more critical of how I deliver. But I don’t get vocal fatigue after shows anymore. Still, I can’t always sing on pitch all the time.

It sounds pretty good from where I’m standing. 

BO: Oh, thank you. I can hit it better than ever. By the third album, it’s going to be even better and better and better. I have no doubt. But that ‘Babe’ song, it’s a challenge. It’s a cover by a very little known artist from the 70s. 

When I heard the original, it’s this folk song, and he has a kind of similar voice to me—he sings a little high and nasally. He’s an outsider, freak-folk person, and I love a lot of independent releases from the 60s and 70s. I loved it! I was like, oh my God, the chorus! I would love to sing this.

It’s hard to say why someone like Bette Midler or Helen Merrill or any jazz singer would choose a specific song to cover. You hear it, and you’re like, I feel like I could do something interesting with this. I did add one verse myself. It’s simple, heartfelt, sweet, and also a little cool. I was drawn to it. Our version doesn’t sound much like the original, except for the chords.

But my band doesn’t like playing it live, so we don’t do it. They don’t really like the song. No one really likes the song! [laughs]. So, grappling with that is still an ongoing issue.

Everyone in your band seems so strongly individualistic, which is really refreshing to see, especially live.

BO: Everyone’s very independent. We’re all encouraging each other to do our own thing, but we are just that, there’s no fake put on. We’re in a flow state at this point because we know what we’re doing and it’s just—FUN!

I feel like you’re really hitting your stride. I’m excited for you to put this album out into the world. I sense that bigger things are on the horizon.

BO: I feel like something is coming, and I can just feel it in the air myself, too. Usually, when I say things like that, I pinch my arm until it bruises because that’s my spiritual side trying to tell me not to be audacious or gloat, or I’ll ruin it. It’s a superstition I have. And, I don’t feel like pinching myself at the moment. I feel like flowing with an accepting love. I know something great is going to happen! I’m ready.

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Negative Gears: ‘Making music has always been a part of personal growth.’

Original photo: Jhonny Russell. Handmade mixed-media collage by B.

Negative Gears’ Moraliser stands out as one of the most exciting punk albums to emerge from Australia in 2024, brimming with turbo-charged aggression and a time-bomb of tension. The Sydney-based band has crafted a record that not only captures the raw energy and intensity of punk but also layers in thoughtful, pointed commentary on the issues plaguing their city. From selfishness and materialism to a shallow obsession with wealth and status, Moraliser takes direct aim at Sydney’s desire to emulate America—critiquing how this trend often brings out the worst in people. Yet, amid the biting criticism, the album also celebrates the resilience and unity of Sydney’s underground communities, presenting a complex, vulnerable reflection on modern society.

What sets Moraliser apart is Negative Gears’ ability to summon intense emotions while dripping with excitement and urgency. The album resonates as a commentary on the cultural zeitgeist, capturing the frustration and hope that define the band. Drawing from years of personal growth, Negative Gears has found the motivation to push through, finishing an album that speaks not just to their local scene but to broader cultural discontent. Creating with no rules, their music embraces personal exploration and community over chasing status—Sydney has truly shaped this record, both in sound and spirit. 

I understand you work at Sydney Theatre Company, right? 

JULIAN: Yeah, I do. Four of us do—me, Charlie, Jaccamo, and Chris. Four out of five of us are there [laughs].

It seems like it’d be an interesting place to work? 

J: It is interesting. It gets the bills paid and most of the people there are pretty cool. The production end is all carpenters, props makers and painters Everyone is creative to some degree. 

It’s such a millennial stereotype to say “creative”. But the irony is that, at our end of the building, we get to make the stuff, take it to the theatre, set it up, and put a set together, or paint it. You get no credit for it. It’s pretty much exactly like the DIY scene, in the sense that you just do it with your peers. Your peers respect you if you’re good, but no one else gives a shit [laughs]. The people who are called the “creatives” are the designers who come in and give you their design, and then they talk about stuff like, ‘No, no, paint that black—blacker’ or whatever [laughs]. It’’s fun. Chris does a lot of painting and Jaccamo, he’s with us in logistics; we run a lot of trucks and help put up the sets. 

It sounds a lot like my job as a book editor, you do a lot of work behind the scenes and no one actually knows how much—in a lot of cases, a lot—you’ve contributed to a creatives finished work. And, as you said, you don’t get credit for it, which for me is fine. I’ve always preferred working behind the scenes.

J: A lot of people who are into the underground or slightly outside of art shy away from making that their job. So it’s nice when you can use the skills you’ve learned in your art or your passion and then, effectively, make your deal with society. I remember my mum would always say, ‘You take the skills you’ve got, and as long as the hours and the pay are all right, you make your deal.’ You might not be getting everything out of life; your job might not be what you live for. But if you love the stuff you’re doing outside of work, at least you can be happy with the deal you made.

Totally. I’ve always had jobs to pay the bills and then all the other stuff I do, like Gimmie, we just do it for fun. We do it because we love sharing music and stories with people. There’s quite a few writers out there that like to be unnecessarily critical of things and in fact make try to make a career and persona from that, they think they’re edgy and cool. I’d rather write about what I love than what I don’t, and share that.

J: That’s the difference between things that have impact and those that don’t, in a lot of ways. Like, all that Vice stuff, and all that muso journalism that was BuzzFeed-y, clickbait-y—it’s pretty much all dead. I remember around 15 years ago, that was the main way you’d hear about so many things. Now all that stuff is gone. The only things that remain are done by people who love to do it. 

What got you on the musical path? 

J: The first underground band I ever saw was Kitchen’s Floor in Canberra. I’m from Canberra—me, Charlie, and Chris all are—we went to school together. Chris and I saw Kitchen’s Floor when we were about 15. They played at the Phoenix with our friends. Kitchen’s Floor was kind of like the moment of, ‘Oh shit!’

Everything else we’d seen up until that point was stuff like The Drones, or various bands playing around pubs. But Kitchen’s Floor had this vibe—we were into The Stooges and Joy Division—so it was the first thing that had a bit of that kind of ethos. It was one of the first things that really clicked for us.

Bands going around Canberra too—Assassins 88, Teddy Trouble, The Fighting League—seeing them was sick. Melbourne bands came too, like Pets with Pets. You look at that stuff and you go, ‘Oh, I could do that.’ We already knew we could play; we’d been in little scrappy punk bands. So we formed a band at Tim from Assassins 88’s house. We were around at his place, and he was like, ‘You guys should have a jam.’ We had one, and he was like, ‘All right, you guys have a gig next Wednesday.’ And we were like, ‘Oh shit!’

Photo: Jhonny Russell.

Was that Sinkhead? 

J: No, no, no, that was when we were like kids. We’re all 32 now. That was when we were 16. Sinkhead was when we moved to Melbourne.

I moved when I was about 18. Did the whole classic ‘go away to Europe for a year, find yourself’ thing, and then came back to Canberra. But Canberra wasn’t very exciting anymore, so I went to Melbourne and moved into a house with Jonny Telafone, a really good solo musician who does a lot of John Maus-style stuff, but without the influence of John Maus. Charlie and I got together, we were 19 then, and she and Chris and I all lived together. And then we met Jaccamo that same year. 

Skinkhead was Charlie, Jaccamo and I initially. Chris was playing in another band, but it wasn’t really doing much at the time. And he ended up moving back to Canberra for a bit. But we basically did Sinkhead pretty much only in Melbourne initially, for four years. We only ended up playing three shows in Melbourne ever, maybe five max. Then we decided to move to Sydney after the Melbourne scene had died down. 

When we first moved to Melbourne, there were bands like UV Race, Total Control, and so many other good bands playing, like Lower Plenty. By the time we left in 2016, it felt like there wasn’t much to see anymore. The Tote was getting really monoculture. I remember lots of venues were just 98% dudes in leather jackets with full black outfits [laughs].

Then we started seeing all this stuff popping up from Sydney, like the Sex Tourists with their EP, Orion with theirs—both the tapes—and then The Dogging, Low Life record. There was the Destiny 3000 thing going on too. All the videos of the shows happening were really different. The crowd had colour and it was very diverse.

Randomly, Ewan from Sex Tourists was looking for a housemate. I said to him, ‘We’re thinking about moving to Sydney. We might come up and check it out.’ We went and saw a Sex Tourists show that weekend, and we liked that the entire scene was filled with all different kinds of people. It felt way more exciting and a lot more accepting. Jaz from Paradise Daily Records was putting on a lot of shows at that time, and it felt alive! There were really, really good bands, and it felt more like what Melbourne was like in 2010.

Melbourne had now gotten a bit rock-dodgy. People weren’t experimenting as much, or maybe the ones who were had chilled out and weren’t digging as much. Sydney has a really diverse underground scene. I don’t really know why Sydney does and Melbourne doesn’t. Like I said, Melbourne felt really monocultural, it’s the weirdest thing when the scene’s so big when it comes to punters. But it almost felt like it suffered from it. People who were in big underground bands almost started to get an ego. Like, you’d be talking to them, and they’d look past you. In Sydney, there’s just not enough people in the scene for it to be like that. Everyone knows everyone, and it’s got that real community feeling, which is more what we’re interested in. We’ve never had a huge interest in climbing the cultural ladder of Melbourne or wherever. It had started to feel boring. There were great elements too, but Sydney was definitely more exciting for us.

I understand that, I’ve had people look past me how you were saying. I find it funny when people in local bands can sometimes develop a big ego; I wonder if they even realise it? I find they’re usually the ones who are the most insecure and really care about what people think of them.

Congratulations on your new LP, Moraliser!  It is without a doubt one of our favourite albums we’ve heard all year. We’ve been waiting for something that’s truly amazing—Moraliser is it!

J: That’s awesome! 

We haven’t been as excited about a lot of music this year so far. There’s some cool things that came out but maybe not as much as previous years. There seems to be quite a few copycat bands around. Like, they see certain bands doing well and going overseas and then they decide to replicate the sound and even sometimes copy their look. Our favourite is people doing their own thing, like Negative Gears.

J: Thank you. I really appreciate it. I mean, I’m sick of this record at this point [laughs]. We put a lot of work into it. At the end of the day, hopefully that shows, that’s all you can hope for. It took us so bloody long to get this record done. 

So it’s a relief it’s out? 

J: Oh God, yeah. It’ll be even more of a relief when everything is done, because right now we’re in the position where we’re organising the Melbourne launch, and we’re going to go down to Canberra, and then we’re going to do a Europe tour in February next year and play all these songs. But the irony is, we’ve actually been playing lots of these songs for years.

Because the record took me so long to mix, it’s like, in our head, releasing it meant it was done, but then all of a sudden, you have to keep playing them, because that’s the first time people actually really enjoy seeing them—because they’ve heard them recorded. We misunderstood how important that was. Previously, after a show, people would be like, ‘Some of these new ones sound pretty good,’ but now that people can hear them recorded, they’re like, ‘Oh, I love this song now that I can really hear it.’

Why did it take so long to make? What was it that you weren’t happy with that made you keep trying new mixes?

J: Man, there’s lots of factors. I’ve got really hectic ADD, and my attention span goes through these wild cycles with creative stuff. I will hyper-focus on something, like, ‘Okay, I made this song sound like this and it sounded great.’ So I would then go back through the whole record and think, ‘I’m going to make everything sound like this song.’ That becomes my new thing—this song is the one that sounds good, and I’m sure of that.

Then I’ll go back, redo everything, and basically overcook the record. I’ll mess with it too much, and then, in a month, I’ll realise I screwed it up and need to scrap the whole thing and start again. That was part of it. But there was a point where I got better at that. About two years in, I kind of stopped doing that. But for the first years, I wasn’t entirely sure what the sound of the record was supposed to be, because it had really expanded.

The first EP was just one guitar, one bass, and a synth. We knew what every song should sound like—it was really stripped back and simple. There was a bit of arty noise stuff here and there, but I knew what I wanted that record to sound like from the start.

This time, we went in with no rules. When we started recording, my focus was, I don’t want to make a record we can necessarily play live. We can figure that out later. We just wanted to put in the stuff that sounded good. For example, ‘Lifestyle’ has six synth parts. Lots of them are really quiet, stereo-panned, but I knew we’d never be able to play any of that live. We were just trying to increase and decrease the dynamics.

Because we had it so open-ended, part of the challenge was not knowing when to stop adding things. We recorded the bones of the record pretty quickly—in about two or three months. But then COVID hit, and that wrote us off for a whole period.

We had movement restrictions, so Charlie and I couldn’t go to the studio. The whole thing was on pause for about six months. After that, it was trying to wind back up and get back into gear to finish it.

Near the end, it started to feel like it had been going on for so long that it became hard to find the motivation to finish. I was really struggling to wrap up the last 10%. After the whole COVID thing, it had been two years of being in and out, with no one playing shows. The whole scene in Sydney changed over that time, and I found it quite depressing.

All these bands we used to play with before COVID had split up. Bands I loved to see. When we started coming out of COVID, it was an unrecognisable environment. Oily Boys were gone because Drew had moved up north, and bands like Orion, and BB and the Blips had split up too.

Bryony from BB, went back overseas. She was in about five bands, she was in Nasho and a whole bunch of other bands that all broke up. 

Photo: Jhonny Russell.

I LOVED Nasho! I love all the delay and effects on the vocals. 

J: Yeah, yeah, yeah. Nasho was sick! Bryony is a powerhouse. Everywhere that she goes, she does that. I think she’s in Berlin at the moment. I’ve seen her already popping up in a couple other bands. She’s a total beast. She’s really good mates with Tom from Static Shock, who is the record label for us over there. It was pretty sick having her here for a year, she pretty much revitalised the scene by herself. She really stepped up and made stuff happen. 

So COVID hit and then the scene was really different, it was strange. It was like, can you play a show? A couple of shows that did happen everyone pretty much got COVID straight away. I was just struggling to find any motivation. I got it back when we started gigging again.

We met lots of the young people from the Sydney scene. It was like, ‘Who are these new people?’ We were always younger than the big, dominant Sydney scene from 2014 to 2019—the Repressed Records crowd, Bed Wettin’ Bad Boys, and Royal Headache etc. Now, for the first time, we weren’t the young ones.

All of a sudden, lots of good bands started to emerge, like Dionysus (which turned into Gift Exchange) and Carnations. All the new bands gave me a sense of, ‘I’m not over, we’re not over.’ I thought I was dead. I thought everyone was getting over it.

I knew I’d finish the album, but it felt like the immediacy or the purpose for it dropped a little bit. You write the music for yourself, but releasing it is usually something you do because you want to have a party, play some gigs, and go on tour. Like I said, it felt like so many people around us had stopped, and the community was dying a bit.

It wasn’t like that for everyone, but for me, that was part of what I enjoyed, and it felt like it wasn’t there. Then, it built back up again. And, we got enough juice to get through it.

Growing older, I’ve observed that things just work in cycles. Things ebb and flow and that’s natural. When things change or become a challenging it’s good to keep in mind why you do things, like you said, you make music for yourself. Sometimes people can lose sight of that or they can actually be making stuff for the wrong reasons. It’s your job to work out how you can live a creative life that you’re happy with.

J: Yeah. When COVID hit, you start to think like everyone did: what am I exactly doing here? We’re all getting older, and at the time I was thinking, I hadn’t really ever had a job that I enjoyed. I worked for 10 years at complete shitholes that I hated. It was like, what am I doing?

Charlie had it figured out. She’d gone to TAFE, got into this costume thing, and started making costumes for theatre and movies. 

That’s really cool!

J: Meanwhile, I had no idea what the fuck I was doing [laughs]. I think that probably played a part too in why the record took so long. Before COVID I was doing a bit of audio engineering for other bands. I’d record bands and thought, oh, maybe I’ll go into audio, work at the ABC or something.

But my passion for that died pretty hard when I was trying to sit in front of a computer constantly, feeling guilty, trying to make myself finish a record. I was like, I don’t want to do this for work as well. I need to get out of the house. I needed to do something physical because I was too wrapped up in guilt. That was the worst thing. Even though it took five years to mix, it’s not like I took massive stints off. I was thinking about it constantly, every day.

I thought, I’m letting our whole band down too. They’d send me messages like, Hey man, how’s the record going? Are you okay? And so it didn’t ever go away. It didn’t take five years because I was lazy. I was thinking about it and working on it all the time. I was cooking myself over it. Doing it again and again—trying to change the tones, overdubbing the guitars, deciding it doesn’t need guitars, pulling things out, putting things back in again, redoing the vocal takes.

Then there was one song where I couldn’t write the fucking last lyric, the last verse in ‘Ain’t Seen Nothing,’ the last song. I wrote it nine months ago. It took so long to write because I didn’t want the album to end on this really negative thing. I wanted it to have this gleam of hope at the end. By the time I’d done it all, I was in a very different mental headspace, and I was like, fuck man, this album is so dark at so many points. That was definitely where I was mentally when I wrote those songs, but I wanted there to be something at the end that was like—but it isn’t that bad.

I noticed that sense of hope on that song. I think the album reflects what a lot of us feel with all the challenges of modern living. ‘Room with a Mirror’ is a really powerful song. It sounds so brutal; was there a lot going on with you at the time it was written?

J: Oh, fuck yeah. It is brutal. It was definitely in that period of self-reflection or trying to get outside of your box and at the same time hating the concept of trying to get out your box in the first place. There’s some funny lines in that one for sure. 

Do you find that writing songs and getting all these emotions, thoughts and feelings out helps you? 

J: Yeah, for sure. It’s how I process emotion. Like a 100%. I’ve done it since I was 15. I remember writing a song on my 17th birthday about being 17, and how fucking hard it was, which is a joke now, obviously [laughs]. 

I write plenty of songs that I don’t release that aren’t for this band that will be me just getting shit out. Some of them occasionally get popped out, I did a random solo tape called Goose ages ago.

Living in Sydney influenced Moraliser. In our correspondence you mentioned gross attitudes, selfishness, wealth, status and obsession. 

J: Moving to Sydney is a great way to solidify anti-capitalist views. Living in Melbourne, especially in North Melbourne, you’re in this weird little lefty bubble where it’s like, ‘Oh, they make little bike racks so you can go fix your bike, and the council puts on music events twice a week, and they’ll do an organic market fair,’ and you feel like, ‘Man, Australia’s pretty good, it’s not that bad’ [laughs]. While moving to Sydney is a great way to be like, ‘Man, Australia is fucked.’ 

It’s bizarre here. Everything is zoned into these six or seven different cities: the Shire, Lower North Shore, Northern Beaches, Eastern Suburbs, Inner West, Far West and South Sydney, and the Hills District as well. Every single one’s its own little city with its own rules—social and economic—because the class distinction is so huge. It feels very American to me, very polarised. The wealth gap is huge. The privilege of the coast is huge, like the privilege of the views, because it’s not as flat as Melbourne; every hill is expensive, every flat is cheap.

I used to live in Dunedin for about a year, and Dunedin was like that too. The tops of mountains were the only expensive places. But Sydney definitely shaped the record. I found it pretty weird, especially since I grew up in Canberra.

Nic Warnock wrote a review of Moraliser, and he said at the end of the review, ‘I think growing up in Canberra informed this, even though it’s not in the presser.’ I asked him, ‘What the fuck do you mean by that?’ And he was like, ‘Oh, just your views are probably inspired by those previous places.’ I thought about it, and yeah, he’s totally fucking right.

Art by Matteo Chiesara and Negative Gears. 

Canberra is this weird sort of zone outside of the rest of Australia. I go visit my parents, and there’s a little booklet on the table about what the Labour government—which, by the way, has been in power for about 34 years—has been doing for you. You look at the paper, and it’s, ‘Retirees have been getting together with the youth to graffiti,’ or, ‘We’re putting in a tram,’ and ‘We’ve re-greened this whole area.’ Canberra still has its problems, but it’s a bit of a left-wing bubble. Even though it’s gross in some ways, it doesn’t have the money or the display of wealth that Sydney has.

That was really shocking to me. You don’t see Lamborghinis in Canberra; everyone drives a fucking Subaru. It was quite weird to move to Sydney and be like, ‘Oh, we live in Sydney now, let’s go to the beach!’ And then you go to the beach, and it’s not a beach—it’s not Batemans Bay or Brawley. The beach is a park for rich people, a place where they show off designer outfits and spend their lives looking good. It’s a status symbol.

All of that was really confusing and exciting—not that I thought it was great, but I reacted to it strongly.

We live on the north side now, which is the home of the enemy. When we first moved here, Tony Abbott was the local minister.

For example, ‘Ants’—that song is about living in this apartment. My grandma bought this apartment in the late ’60s. She passed away, but she lived here her entire life after her husband died. It’s this tiny apartment—it’s got three rooms. We’ve been living here for a couple of years now, and the whole thing about ‘Ants’ was that we felt weird, like we’d crossed the bridge. We were living around all these fucking rich strangers. There’s a school across the road, and you can see the Harbour Bridge out the window.

The song was about, ‘God, I cannot fucking stay in this place. I’d rather fucking kill myself than be in this place’ [laughs]. But at the same time, understanding that the whole I’m alone in paradise lyric is like, no one knows us up here. We can leave the house looking like complete shit. We can leave the house and no one knows who the hell we are.

It’s basically a sea of old people who are chilling—presumably investment bankers or something like that. And it’s, wow, we are kind of alone in the middle of nowhere. It’s sort of nice being able to not see anyone, not having to interact with anyone, and to just be anonymous.

Photo: Jhonny Russell.

So where you live is the tower you talk about in the song?

J: Yeah, it is.

We can relate because we live on the Gold Coast, it’s laid back but there is a lot of wealth and status, or at least people trying to portray that, here. Everyone always spins out when we tell them Gimmie is based on the Gold Coast.

J: That’s so funny, isn’t it? Like people think that if you move away from the centre of a culture capital, that your art’s going to be damaged or like that you’re different in some way.

We love the weather and being near lots of beautiful nature spots. Brisbane and Byron Bay are an hour each in different directions. We also get to stay out of a lot of scene politics that can happen in bigger music communities. We feel like we’re alone in our own bubble most of the time.

J: Yeah. Living here reduces anxiety. Charlie, especially hates if we go somewhere, and we see someone we know, even if we love them, even if it’s a really good friend of ours, if she’s not prepared for for the social interaction, she’s not keen on it. Here we get to be on a bit of an island. We’re never gonna see someone we know at the local Coles or wherever. When we were living in St Peter’s, everyone who we work with lives there too. We’d go to the Marrickville Woolworths and you’d see three people from bands and your boss—we’re not particularly good at like living in that environment. 

Maybe it is because of growing up in Canberra where everyone’s separated so much in different suburbia. We’re not good at being in a city but this feels like we’re in a suburb. 

What was the thought behind the album title, Moralizer

J: I was listening to the lyrics. So much of this shit is so preachy [laughs]. Listening back, there are a lot of lines where I was like, oh, man, I wish I didn’t sound like I had the answers. That was never my intention. But there was so much fucking preachy shit about people who live ‘X’ way and people who live ‘Y’ way, and all this kind of shit. I felt like the title Moraliser was like a funny stab at what the record sounded like—someone standing on a fucking wooden box being, ‘This is how you should do it. This is how you live your life, and I love you. I’m a fucking false prophet.’ [laughs]. 

I thought it was funny because it was kind of true. It was a moralising record. There’s so much in there, so much critique, judgment and speculation. That was part of the reason I really wanted that last song to have a little upside to it.

In light of the darker take on living on the album, I wanted to ask you, what do you do for fun? 

J: What did I do for fun? God, I don’t know. Oh fuck this sounds lame but the funnest thing for me is every Friday the band writes or we record or we practice together, then we’ll go to the pub, it’s become a ritual. Our band is our closest unit of friends. 

I don’t have any other hobby I do outside of this. If I ever have free time i’m probably going to do it do music.

Is playing a gig fun for you? 

J: Sometimes. It’s not fun before, like the whole day before it’s—okay, here we go. We’re going to go do this again. But really, are we sure we want to do this? [laughs]. This is our life choices? Are we certain about this? And then when you’re doing it, I get on the stage, I’m like, yeah! Fuck yeah! I’m stoked. Afterwards, feels good and a relief too.

Photo: Jhonny Russell.

Is there a song that’s on the album that has a real significance for you? 

J: ’Ants’. It feels like the most whole song where I feel like everything in it is bookmarked really well. Everything is a holistically completed idea. I’m probably biased here because I wrote that song by myself [laughs]. Jack obviously did all the drum parts, and everyone recorded their bits at the time of the final recording. But, I did a demo version of it in 2019 that’s the same structure and mostly the same lyrics.

‘Pills’ maybe, too. It really feels like the first house we moved to in Sydney in St. Peters—with Ewan. That song was very much about time and a place. 

Maybe ‘Ain’t Seen Nothing,’ because the big final ending took forever for us to get to. It’s nice having a little verse in there about shacking up and having kids with Charlie.

Awww, that’s really sweet. How is being a part of Negative Gears affected your personal growth? 

J: It’s one and the same. Making music has always been a part of personal growth; it’s never been a thing that’s gone away. Seeing the songwriting actualised—seeing a song that I’ve worked on being turned into real life and then reaching completion—gives you a kick from the goal of it. Exploring the depth of how you feel about something is really good for personal growth. Sometimes you just have a feeling about something, but it’s not until you really dig into it that you understand where you stand on that issue. At least, that’s how I feel.

‘Attention To Detail’ is important. I remember I was fucking furious around the time that song got written, and I feel like I got it all out in that one song. Like, ‘Well, yep, I pretty much laid down everything I’m pissed about,’ and it was really cathartic. It was solidifying. It wasn’t just global lethargy; I wasn’t just over the world. I was very specifically pissed about a lot of things [laughs].

For everyone, I’d say it’s been a long journey. We’ve been a band for a pretty long time; all of us have played music since we were young. We all find it a constant ticking eternal thing. That you work on, that gives you a purpose to get through the rest of the week. When someone has a good riff, you’re like, ‘Oh, that’s pretty good!’ It keeps you interested and excited, and it’s something to fucking enjoy when you get off work.

It’s also something to talk about. We have a group band chat where I don’t think there’s been a two- or three-day gap in messages for maybe seven years. 


Wow. Is there any particular directions or collaborations you’re interested in exploring in the future? 

J: As far as art stuff there’s a bunch of people that I’ve been really interested in seeing if they can do some work for Negative Gears things. 

Music stuff, I was literally thinking about this today. Felipe from Rapid Dye, and Toto who I play in Perspex with, and Charlie and Jac did this band that started in the middle of COVID. It was called Shy Violets, sort of a poppy scrappy band. We wrote an album’s with of songs, 10 or 11. And then it all just flamed out. We never did anything with it. We never played a single gig. I’d really like to get that back together in some way, shape or form at some time.

I get to pour most of my creative energy into Negative Gears, which is a blessing and a curse. It is nice to have a break, though. 

We haven’t talked about the song ‘Negative Gear’ on the album yet; it’s almost like a theme song for the band, at least that’s what it seemed liked when we saw you play at Nag Nag Nag fest.

J: Yeah, it felt like the theme song on the record. That was kind of the plan. I fucking love that song. I think it’s one of our best. The coolest thing about that song is we all actually wrote it together.

Lyrically, it’s exactly what I described in some of those other songs. Like I mentioned earlier, I was in a spot where I’d been working fucking shit jobs for years, and I really had no idea what the fuck I was doing with my life. The whole thing was kind of flipping it on the band name, being like, ‘Yeah, I’m in a fucking negative gear. I can’t get anything going.’

At the time, I did have a $4000 credit card debt. And I had this big fucking growth in my throat that was freaking me out. That’s the first line of the song: I got a four grand credit card debt and a lump in my throat. It was painfully obvious when I was swallowing because it would make me puke. This weird fucking thing in my throat—I’d drink some beers, and I’d just start throwing up because it was clogging my throat.

Wow. 

J: It felt like I’d hit fucking rock bottom. God, my mum’s going to read those lyrics and she’s going to be sad. She’s going to send me some messages. I’m always honest with her. 

It sounds like your mum’s an important person in your life. 

J: For sure. She’s a very fucking incredibly strong, powerful force of nature. She was a behemoth of a person to grow up with for sure. And definitely still is. She’s a powerhouse. It was the reason I ran away from home when I was 14. But you know… [laughs]. We’ve been all good now for years. 

Can you tell us about the song ‘Connect’?

J: It was a bender song. We had the studio in Marrickville at the time. We weren’t the only ones there. Mickey from Den was recording a lot of bands there, and I was recording bands too. Eventually, the rent got too expensive. We turned it into a rehearsal space, which I think lots of the younger bands ended up using.

I’d pretty much tapped out of it. I was sick of managing it, so I passed it to Chris and was like, ‘Dude, I can’t handle this. Do you reckon you could do it?’ And he was like, ‘Fuck yeah,’ and just started getting people in. I think R.M.F.C. was in there, Carnations was in there, and Dionysus was definitely in there. It was this tiny little room in Faversham Street. We built a little studio, chucked all our gear in, and it became a hub.

It was pretty much a song about getting wasted at this place again and again. In the early periods of recording and writing that record—actually more the writing—we spent a lot of time in the studio in Marrickville, having these nights where the sun was fucking rising, and everyone was wasted. It was like, ‘Well, what’s next?’ There was a desperate sense of wanting to reach out to people, that horrible feeling you get at the end of the night where you’re like, ‘Oh, what’s everyone doing?’ or ‘What’s everyone up to?’ And, you’re realising you’re going to be the person chilling on the couch on a random street in Marrickville, sitting outside wasted at 6 o’clock in the morning. 

It’s a pretty straightforward song, not much depth, except for one line I throw in… I’m a master of the diss track. That’s the one thing I’ve got down—every song’s got disses in it [laughs]. There’s a diss in the song, something about buying fake iPhones and checking biceps. There was a crew of guys hanging around at that time, and I was like, ‘Oh yeah, these guys are mad!’ I remember telling the guys, ‘Yeah, bro, I gotta get the latest iPhone and start working out so I can fucking hang out with them—it’s gonna be sick.’ [laughs].

Photo: Jhonny Russell.

Last question, what’s some things that have been making you happy lately? 

J: I was stoked when I started realising that the Sydney music scene had regrown and was in a really good spot. 

I’m happy in most senses right now. Me and Charlie have a good life. We spend a lot of our time together, we work together and we play in this band and it’s fun. 

Outside of listening to, and making, music, I don’t fucking really think about that much. It’s been many years since I wrote the songs for Moraliser— you grow up. Charlie just said those feelings from the record, it’s still lurking, it doesn’t go away [laughs]. I’m very extroverted. I love talking to people. I come across as a super enthusiastic, excitable person, which I totally am in my life. But, Charlie is right in the sense that, I do still tip every couple of weeks, for days on end it goes and that’s when I write the majority of my music. I find that helps when I’m like that. I tip and I lose motivation. I do what everyone does—you fucking hate yourself and you feel like a piece of shit. It’s just part of my way of dealing with it all. 

I do think it’s funny, though, for the people that know me well—my close friends—when they hear my lyrics. Because most of the time, I’m like, ‘Hey, it’s so great to see you! Wow, so nice. We haven’t seen each other since Tuesday! It’s gonna be so good to hang out.’ I don’t seem like someone, I guess, who would have that darker side that’s in my lyrics.

But it’s just that I love people, and I love being around people, connecting with them. I love community, and I love building long-term friendships. That’s very different from how I feel inside when I’m alone.

I’m definitely in a much better place than I was five years ago—Christ! [laughs].

Follow: @negativegears. GET Negative Gears’ Moraliser (out on Static Shock/Urge) HERE.

Billiam: ‘Figuring out how to do stupid punk music in a way where I’m not completely destroying myself’

Original photo: Ada Duffy. Handmade mixed-media collage by B.

Gimmie caught up with Naarm/Melbourne-based musician Billiam just days before he set off on his first international tour across Europe to support his sophomore album, Animation Cel. The album showcases Billiam’s signature blend of ‘Autism-core’—a term he uses to describe the deeply personal, anxiety-fuelled punk—paired with irresistibly catchy hooks. Animation Cel is his strongest work yet and secured him a home on one of Australia’s best independent labels, Legless Records (Stiff Richards, Split System, Cutters, Phil & the Tiles & more). 

His music explores important issues like mental health and identity, while also embracing more playful subjects such as video games, defunct theme park Sega World, and even a tribute to enigmatic artist Shawn Kerri (known for her work with CARtoons Magazine and iconic images for the Germs and Circle Jerks). In our chat, Billiam shares how music helped him find a supportive community, identity, and discusses his creative process, and plans for his next album. Plus he reveals bands his been loving lately, that you just might too. As long-time Billiam supporters, we totally back him.

BILLIAM: Things have been absolutely hectic all year—lots of personal stuff, music stuff, gigging, and running around. It’s been fantastic. I’m very excited, and very happy the record’s out, very happy people have enjoyed it. I get to go over to Europe with the band. Everything is exciting.

That’s so great to hear! We’re so happy or you!

B: A few aspects have been challenging but like overall, hopefully it’ll be worth it when we’re over in Europe.

What’s been challenging? 

B: Last year was fairly hectic, mental health-wise, so I was just learning to deal with my head and translate what’s going on in my head into the real world, which sounds really wanky. But it was also about figuring out how to do stupid punk music in a way where I’m not completely destroying myself and can still look after myself. 

Managing Split Bills has been getting so hectic, making sure that everyone in the band is treated well and we’re not getting ripped off and that we’re able to make this massive Europe tour work and not come back in tattered rags and stuff like that. It’s really sad that you have to look out for people ripping you off, but it happens. I’m trying to avoid it as much as I can. 

Your upcoming European tour is the first time you’ve toured overseas?

B: Yeah, first time playing overseas, first time going over by myself as well! 

Other than playing shows; what are you most looking forward to?

B: I’m really looking forward to being in Glasgow. I’ve got a few days after the tour. I’m absolutely stoked to go to Glasgow. I’ve wanted to go for five years now. I LOVE Glasgow. 

I’m really excited to look at how different areas of Europe and the UK function when it comes to booking shows and the infrastructure around it. I’m really excited to jbe able to drive 3-5 hours and end up in a different city, with a different scene and different people. Obviously, Australia isn’t really designed for that, everything’s so spread apart.

Why do you love Glasgow so much? 

B: A lot of my favourite bands of all-time have come from Glasgow, like Yummy Fur, Bis, Lung Leg, stuff like that. Bands that have been incredibly instrumental to me, especially in the past few years. That gave me a new outlook on recording and writing stuff.

Your new album, Animation Cel is out! It’s one of our favourite things that you’ve ever done. 

B: Oh, that’s very kind of you. I’m really stoked you like it. 

It got started pretty quickly after Corner Tactics. The live band started, and it gave me a different outlook on what songs work well for Billiam. I’d been thinking about which songs work best live and how people react to that. At that time, I felt more confident with the little Tascam digital recorder I was using, so I was more willing to try different things. Halfway through recording, I found out Wild Wax wanted to book the European tour for us, so I had to get into gear to make sure all the labels had the final album ready. So they could like plan it and have the records ready for when we got over there. It was a pretty hectic production schedule, but a really fun one. 

It was a really fun record to make—a fun snapshot of my life, where I was mentally. I sometimes view albums like TV show seasons, and this one feels like the fun, happy-go-lucky second season where we’ve got a bigger budget. The next one I’m working on is more the fucking dark, groovy reboot or something like that. It’s a bit more sad and stupid [laughs].

I love that analogy! For Corner Tactics I know you wrote around 130 songs…

B: Yeah. Corner Tactics, I did write around 130. For Animation Cel it was around 70. I haven’t actually counted. The rate of success was a lot higher with this one. 

Having so many songs to chose from, how do you decide which of the songs make the cut? 

B: Gut feeling. I tend to rely a lot on other people too. I’ll send songs to the band and friends and if they have a really strong reaction to it, I generally feel a lot more confident putting it on the record. Sometimes, I’m not the best judge of what is best like in terms of my music. I like a record that flows really well, so if I can’t find a way for a song to flow in the record, I’m just happy to leave it, rework it or put it out on like a compilation. 

What was one of the first songs that you sent to people that got a really strong reaction? 

B: People really were keen on ‘Maid Dress’. I wasn’t as confident putting that on the record cause it’s a slower song. I didn’t know how people would react to it. But they really liked it.

Also, people were keen on the title track ‘Animation Cel’. Ada had been begging me to use ‘Sega World’ for three years ‘cause it was an old Disco Junk song. There was a point where Ada was going to join Disco Junk, and the whole conceit of her joining was that we’d start playing ‘Sega World’ live. I finally recorded a version I was happy with. She’s pretty happy that it’s in the set and that it’s on the record. 

Is there a track on the album that you’re really, really happy with?

B: I was super happy with like the final track ‘Shawn Kerri’s Grave’. Also, some of the faster songs like ‘Carrot in Your Hand’ and ‘Bash My Head Against A Myki Pole’ and ‘My Metronome’. I like those songs production-wise. I was really happy with how they sounded. I was just happy that this record sounded a bit better than the last one. It’s kind of like that evolution a little bit. 

You recorded everything yourself again?

B: Yeah. But it’s the first time people have played on one of my albums. I recorded in the front room. 

Over time or sessions close together? Previously, it’s been a quick process, like a few days.

B: Over time. I would come home from work, record a song quickly, get the drums down, and then work on it until I went to bed or had dinner. At the end, I compiled them. It wasn’t like I did demos and then recorded them all at once. The album is basically the demos, pretty much.

One take? 

B: Generally the first take I got that I thought was good. Especially with drums. I’m not a good drummer. Once I get a take that’s usable—I’m done, done, done. Throw it in the pile! [laughs]. I definitely think there’s an advantage doing everything myself. 

The next Billiam record, I’m recording at the moment, is a bit more professional. I did the drums and bass with Eric who does Checkpoint and Hobsons Bay Coast Guard. 

The next album is a concept album, right?

B: I’d call it like a very shit concept album in that the concept’s not really entirely developed [laughs]. It’s based around a lot of the stuff that happened mental health-wise. It was a challenging year in a lot of aspects. The record’s, me, processing… [pauses] …maybe that’s the wrong word. I’m writing about it, looking at it. It was all I could think about for the year, and I only really was coming out of it March of last year. 

I’m sorry you were struggling so much. I feel you. Mental health is something that I struggle with, that’s part of why we haven’t been doing as much Gimmie stuff for a little. It can be hard to do stuff when it’s just hard to get through the day. Things are getting better, though.

B: Yeah, it’s awful that shit happens to you as well. It’s just shit trying to swim through everything. Sometimes it feels like you’re like trying to run in syrup and you can kind of get close, but you can never get to like full speed. There’s this weird guilt thing too. I feel like it’s self-indulgent to talk about my own mental health, but it’s been really good to write about it. I’m pretty proud of the songs. Hopefully people dig them and think they’re cool. 

So Animation Cel is a lighter and funner and the next record you’re working on is the opposite… 

B: I like doing a different thing each record. The next one is veering into The Cure and a lot of more dreary subjects. After, the next record is going to be very stupid. I’ve already got a list of songs that might go on it—all of them are very silly. I’m just going to flip-flop until I find a nice happy middle ground. 

You’ve been having a prolific output. We’re so proud of you! It’s been the coolest watching you grow. 

B: Thank you. Tell Jhonny I said, hello and that I love him.

Will do! What was inspiring you when making Animation Cel?

The Split Bills starting up. Since Disco Junk had ended, I hadn’t really had a band. I was doing solo shows with a backing track. I got to do a lot of great stuff because of it, but it wasn’t the same energy as a band. T second Split Bills started up, everything was so turbo so quickly. Obviously that takes a toll on you and can be stressful, but it was cool. 

Right out of the gate, we were playing shows and people were really responding to them, having a really good time. People were excited, people wanted to hear my music; I don’t say that in an egotistical way. But I could really stretch out and try different things and see how they worked.

Wanting people to hear your music and being happy people are responding positively to it isn’t egotistical. You should be stoked about that! It’s totally okay to celebrate that.

B: I guess. 

You’re always so humble. 

B: I don’t try to be I’m just in my head—that’s how I am. I think it’s a very common thing for people on the Autism spectrum to be unable to process how people perceive them a little bit. 

Being on the spectrum inspired quite a few songs that were on the album, right?

B: Yeah. ‘My Metronome’ was based on a conversation with Ada. We were talking about music and how sometimes Ada can’t listen to it because she’s worried the song’s going to go out of sync with itself, and that really upsets her. She couldn’t explain why the idea of a song going out of sync was so upsetting, but it stressed her out to that degree. Ada isn’t on the spectrum, but I related to that struggle—something you can’t fully describe, but it upsets you so much. I thought that was a really good idea for a song. A lot of my stuff has to do with living on the spectrum and that kind of thought process.

I don’t realise how much it impacts how I think about the world and how I write until I talk with other people or they talk to me about things. I’ve had people come up to me and say, ‘Hey, I really like how you title songs. I think that’s really unique and different.’ And I’m just like, ‘Oh, thank you,’ but—it’s not a conscious decision. It’s just something I did because I thought it was interesting; it’s how it sounds to me.

Two songs that are my favourites on the album is ‘Hydraulic Press’ and ‘Protect The Emerald’. 

B: They’re fun ones! 

And ‘Kerri Shawn’s Grave’. That’s your longest song on the album. 

I think it might be the longest song I’ve ever written. It has an actual drum kit on it. I was very proud of how that one came out, because it was cool to see I could do a slower, washier song, that wouldn’t turn out horrifically bad.

It’s about the cartoonist (who was one of the few female contributors to CARtoons Magazine, and produced iconic images used by the Germs and the Circle Jerks)?

B: Yeah, absolutely. I went down a rabbit hole on her and her art. The fact that we don’t know where she went—we don’t know if she’s dead or alive or if she had an accident and has been incapacitated because of it—there’s all this mystery surrounding this influential and important cartoonist.

I had heard she had a fall, which resulted in had chronic cognitive problems, and now lives with her mother.

B: Yeah, I read that too. I’ve also read people say, ‘I met up with her in the 2000s and she was completely fine.’ Then there’s people who are convinced that like she died basically as soon as she stopped publishing things. There’s no concrete answer. Sometimes that can really freak me out if there’s no concrete answer to a person’s existence, especially someone who’s like created something so sick. Especially when you go down the rabbit holes of punk, there are so many bands with songs I love from records I love, where there’s genuinely no information on the internet about them. It adds this kind of question to their music, like: what happened to them? I’d love to connect with them about their music, but can’t.

Yeah, totally. There’s quite a few women in punk that I really love, from older eras, and’ve tried to track them down to chat with them and many aren’t interested in talking to anyone, or have a whole different life, or can’t even be found.

 B: Hmm. that’s interesting. I’m so used to having grown up on the internet where everything is accessible. And if you had a question, you could just have it answered. And the absence of that can sometimes really wig me out, especially if it’s something that I’ve connected to so greatly. I think that’s the same for a lot of people my age, getting wigged out by how confusing living and not being able to know things easily. 

‘Manitee Show’ is a great song too. It has the sample with the woman’s voice at the beginning.

B: That’s Jane Fonda. She did for Good Morning America, because she was talking about how she didn’t end up going to the Oscars because it was on too late and she wanted to go to bed. I found that line, ‘I’m challenging musicians…’ made me laugh so hard. I wrote the song entirely just to use that example! [laughs]. There’s no other reason. That song only exists because I wanted to use that sample and it made me laugh every time I played it. 

Amazing. It made me laugh. I really like this variety on this album. 

B: Yeah, I think that’s something I like as well. It was really nice to try out different songs and experiment with different things. It’s definitely informed the future of Billiam because some artists, like Alien Nose Job, can have one concept and stick to it for an entire record, and that sticks. A part of me wishes I could do that, but I know I’m way too scatterbrained. I want to put every idea on there, and I like the idea of it almost feeling like a playlist—a very cohesive playlist—instead of a concrete record where every song is meant to sound exactly like one thing.

It’s cool that Legless Records put it out. Legless are one of the best labels in Australia right now. They’re a label we trust to bring the heat, everything has been gold.

B: Not only is everything that they’re putting out gold, but I have the most respect I can have for a person in the world for Mawson, because of how he runs Legless, Split System, Stiff Richards, and all his bands. There’s no ego behind it. He’s doing it entirely for the love of music and wanting to spread it.

When Animation Cel was coming out, he was having a kid, and I felt so fucking bad because I was like, this person is having a child—a physical being that’s going to be running around the house—and he’s packing up pre-orders for my fucking record. I was just like, oh my fucking God, I hope he’s somehow able to make this work and it’s not too much for him to do. He was so kind about it.

Mawson is definitely one of the nicest people we know in the Australian music scene. He’s a real one. It’s cool how’s he’s built Legless up and a community around it of bands and networks—like a big family. 

B: He’s lovely and cares so much about everything he does to a degree that’s sometimes scary [laughs]. Like we were talking about earlier, there’s like so many people who are out to scam people and use them. Mawson is just so obviously not that. It’s sick to see the label doing so well. I’m very honoured to be a part of that history. I feel like it’s going to go down as like one of the great independent labels. He’s got an incredible catalog. This year so far there’s Autobahns, a new Stiff Richard song, and the fucking Cutters record! Yeah. It’s so good—it’s fucked! AND the Split System album! It’s amazing what he’s done and how he’s put it together with no moral compromise—it’s all based on community. Even when he puts on shows, he treats the bands so well, and that whole crew, everyone’s so lovely and so supportive. I have as much love as I physically can for a human being towards Maswson and Legless. 

Totally. We love Mawson too. Since we first spoke to you all those years ago, your music has been getting a lot of attention. Like, you were featured on Bandcamp for the Best Punk Albums of August. 

B: That was so cool. That was very surprising. I didn’t even know what to do for a second! [laughs]. I was just like, holy shit! Damn!

And you were featured in the a Spin magazine article.

B: Yeah, that was a very funny article to be a part of. It’s been cool and very nice, the words people have said about the record. It’s lovely to hear that people care. I can’t ever really have a great grasp on what I make; I make things and hate them half the time. Whenever people have a response to it, I’m grateful that they’ve given me the time and put the effort behind it to listen to it. There’s so much INCREDIBLE music coming out right now, I’m so stoked people consider me to be a part of that. 

We love the artwork for the new album!

B: Sam [McKenzie] is a genius. He knocked it 5 miles out the park, to the next stadium and then knocked it out of that one. It was the perfect album cover. I’m so happy with how it turned out. So incredible. It elevated everything, like 10 levels. 

Album arty by Sam McKenzie

What have you been listening to lately? 

B: This is a bit embarrassing to admit, but The Dare. I love that new album, What’s Wrong With New York? It’s super silly dance punk; very much like a throwback to LCD Sound System. I love the new Rixe 7”. The new records from Party Dozen and Shove—love those bands.

So, you leave from Europe on Wednesday…

B:  I’ve never been to an international airport alone, so I’m a bit nervous about that, but I’m really excited to go. I think the excitement is making up for the fear at the moment [laughs]. I’m very excited to look for weird records, see weird bands, and meet cool people.

Out of all the things you’ve achieved so far, what’s something that you’re most proud of? 

B: The collaborative stuff I’ve done. I’m really proud ‘cause I feel like I’ve spent so much time in my room, writing with myself and I convinced myself I wouldn’t be able to collaborate. Those records I’ve made has shown I can. I’m proud that people connect with the music too—that’s like the main thing.

Why do you think you make music? 

B: I’m not good at anything else. When I was a kid, I don’t think I particularly excelled at anything. I just watched YouTube, played video games, and didn’t really have a social life. When I turned 13, I started finding more mainstream punk music. Then I heard Modern Living by The Living Eyes, and I found this community where people wanted to talk to me, were supportive, and were excited to connect. When I found that community, I thought, okay, I’m going to do music. I’m going to make music. I’m going to play it live. I didn’t know how, but I was determined to do it. And now I’ve done enough that people think I’m worthy of going to another country to do it! That’s really cool.

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Lothairo: ‘The senses are heightened, the joys are heightened.’

Original photo: Jack Gruber / handmade collage by B

Lothario is the fierce solo project of Naarm/Melbourne musician Annaliese Redlich, a bold and unapologetic artist who channels her emotions into punk, born from restless nights and raw energy in late 2022. Exploring themes of rebellion, desire, and conflict, Lothario’s music exudes both vulnerability and defiance. Annaliese’s lyrics capture moments of catharsis as she sheds her skin, becoming who she is and who she wants to be. Initially composed in her living room, with only her beloved cat Gene Parmesan as a witness to the exorcism of old ghosts and dreams. Lothario has now evolved into a full band for live performances. They’ve quickly gained attention with sold-out releases and a rollicking US tour in 2023. Now, with her highly anticipated debut album Hogtied out, Lothario is gearing up for a European tour this October/November. Grab her record and catch a show if you can!

ANNALIESE: I’m totally floored by how much love and support there is out there for Lothario! My cup is fucking full with love and I want to keep focusing on that because that’s such a gift. I feel vulnerable around this record, but that’s what I wanted it to be. I wanted it to be me. I wanted it to be the first thing in my life that wasn’t attributed to a man. 

It was so important to see this through as much as possible by myself, with the wonderful contributions I requested from my amazing friends on drums and my amazing brother for mixing. I really wanted to stand on my own feet and spend time staring in the mirror, asking, ‘Who am I? Do I like what I see? Do I back who I am?’ Yeah, I fucking do! So when that comes out, you do have that ‘oh shit, I’ve got nowhere to hide’ moment. The senses are heightened, the joys are heightened.

The questions in your own mind, is what ‘Hogtied’is about. It’s me asking all those questions of myself: 

If I squeal like a pig would you let me win, roll me up tight like a second skin?

If I take the crown and kill the king would it wipe the doubt that lies within within?

And if I make you a lover would it take all the trouble that terrified double life, cries in the night that haunt me?

And the knives come out when the lights go out, when the lights go out, would you steal them from me?

It’s the ongoing questions. It’s a work in progress. It’s super important for me to back myself. 

Last time we spoke for Gimmie, you said that you felt that like your life was going at warp speed; has that changed? 

A: No, absolutely not! Although this year I’ve tried to slow it down a bit. I was burnt out at the start of this year. I put the first single, ‘Drunk Fuck’ / ‘Black Hair’ out in June last year. I ended up putting two other singles, ‘Doggy’ / ‘Missing Person’ and ‘Hogtied / King Rat’ out last year, finished the year off doing a US tour, and started this year, recording and getting all the rest of the tracks done for the album. 

We’re getting ready to launch the record in Naarm/Melbourne, and then we’ll go over to Europe for a month and a bit. So it’s been wild!

That’s so exciting! We’re so happy for you.  How do you feel both you and your creativity has grown in the last year? 

A: I feel unbridled joy. I feel anxiety. The nurturing of my creativity up until this point has never been… [pauses]… I’ll try and speak in positive terms. It’s always felt like it’s come in unpredictable seasons. While I’m really comfortable with that idea of creativity ebbing and flowing, and it being a season—not worrying too much if it goes away because it will return—having felt so creatively enriched in the making of this record, that sense of burnout at the start of the year did panic me a bit.

I was like, ‘Oh gosh, here we go again. Have I rung it dry? Have I emptied the well?’ And it’s like, no, it’s still there, but you have to slow down—the warp speed wasn’t something that could keep going like that. It’s almost like a bit of mania, in a way. I need that space to sit down, go into my cave, and record to flesh the rest of the songs out. But it’s felt incredible. It’s felt like the awakening of this thing in me that’s always been there, but now I have control and animus over it—this guiding hand, kind of directing it and making it happen. That’s the most important feeling in my life. 

We’re so happy for you! And, proud of you!

A: We all have fantasies, right? Of what we could do and how amazing we could create—how many records we could make or books we could write if we didn’t have to work for ‘the man’ or do whatever. But I think the most productive times for me in the early Lothario days were when I respected my own time. It was knowing when I had to work and do my job, and then knowing when I would be creating and purely doing that. Knowing when I needed to go exercise—it’s all part of a full, varied diet. I was in my state of flow.

What part of the process of making the album did you enjoy the most? 

A: Writing the songs, coming up with riffs, layering them together—every part! [laughs] Sitting down and challenging myself with guitar solos, layering those into the mix, and seeing the songs take shape. Feeling, particularly with the ones that are more deeply personal, like I’m excising trauma or anguish or pain—committing to putting those words and thoughts down on paper, voicing them, and hearing them in a song.

There’s so many parts I enjoyed, like working with the amazing Sorcha Wilcox from band, Aardvark, for the front cover. 

Cover photo: Sorcha Wilcox 

It’s a stunning cover! It really stands out, and is really memorable. 

A: I’m visually driven as well. It’s a strong part of Lothario, the visual unity with the sound. That was actually a bit of a stressful point for quite a while. Everything I was trying just didn’t feel right. But then finally, in April, I had this flash of idea, and I’d seen the cover for Aardvark’s record, and since then become friends with those guys, Sorcha is their guitarist and a photographer.

I loved her ideas about art and photography. I was really drawn to her, so I called her up. I had this idea and told her about it, and she was like, ‘Fuck yeah, I want to work on that.’ I’d seen Chains Of Metal, the amazing Sydney-based maker of fetish wear, on Instagram and messaged her. She hand-makes exquisite pieces of wearable art, but I couldn’t really afford to buy them—they’re expensive but totally worth it. I threw it out there: ‘Hey, can I borrow this for a shoot?’ She wrote straight back, and I thought we would have to go through a negotiation or something. But I had already given her my address, and she was like, ‘It’s already in the mail for you. Just send it back when you’re done.’

Sorcha was ready to take the photo, and my friend Baker lent me the dagger. As soon as that idea came together, it felt so strong. It was like the feeling of all the songs coming together, and this project—a wonderful state of flow.

What’s the newest song you wrote for Hogtied

A: ‘G.E.N.E.’, ‘Panter’, and ‘Suckhole’. ‘Suckhole’ was the final one, and definitely the narrative’s the most terrifyingly honest. Like, here’s my experience, and fuck you! 

Was that one hard to write? 

A: It scared me to write it. It wasn’t hard to write. Once I tapped back into that experience and feeling, it flowed out. It took on its own thing. And I was like, ‘Whoa, okay. Shit, do I really want to make that public?’ I mean, it’s still a story, a creative expression; it’s not a diary of my day-to-day. But I was like, ‘Oh, do I want to own that publicly?’ I was like, ‘Yeah, I fucking do. I really, really do.’ In this process with Lothario, I’ve learned that this is probably where the important, nourishing, life-building stuff is for me. If I can learn how to be openly vulnerable, strongly vulnerable, and truthful in my experiences, that’s going to help me and hopefully resonate with others who have had similar experiences or are drawn to it for whatever reason.

Since the record came out, a few people have told me they really identified with that song. They’ve messaged me or the song’s been talked about in reviews of the record, and it was really pretty overwhelming and moving for me to hear it talked about, as a song about relationship abuse or domestic violence. Calling it that, I was like, ‘Whoa, whoa,’ and then I was like, ‘Yeah, yeah.’ I don’t know why it’s such an overwhelming feeling, but I guess it’s the externalisation of internal stuff. That process is pretty magical and amazing to me, and empowering and scary.

I’m sure a lot more people will relate to it as your record gets further out there in the world. As scary and vulnerable as it can be, it’s important that, if we’re feeling comfortable enough, we can share our bad experiences, not just the good. I went through a similar process while putting my book (Conversations With Punx) together. Some not-so-great things I’ve experienced came out in my writing and some of the conversations I had, and I had to decide whether or not to share them. I wasn’t ready to share all of them, so some got edited out. But now I’ve started to talk about more of those things, like in an interview I did recently (Future Waves zine). Seeing strong women like yourself and Amy Taylor speaking up makes me feel a little braver. You sharing your experiences in ‘Suckhole’ might help a listener realise what’s going on in their own relationship and might help them get out of a bad situation too.

A: With that song, it’s about, you think you’re standing on one solid bit of ground, right? You think you’re on one bit of territory when you start out in a relationship. And even though you’re smart and you know, you can see what’s happening, you discount that. And then the next minute you’ve slipped a bit further in and then the next minute you slipped further in. And then when you look back, you’re right in the fucking hole. In the verses it’s:

Lock jaw, sink pit, worried sick, terror fit, deaf, dumb, blind, broken down to the bit

Pinch myself but I’m not there, all the cuts are just the cost of care, right?

Broken down but gritted teeth, my eyes start to see

Snap lock break bits finally, you’re fucking dead to me 

It’s like, I’m starting to see, even in this state of no strength. I’m feeling, and I’m seeing, and I’m knowing, and I’m fucking taking this back, and you’re done. Whatever that experience and pattern and trajectory is, it’s very different for everyone, but I think that realising you’re lost means you can find yourself again and get out of whatever the situation is. I don’t want to make any definitive statements about this stuff for other people; I’m sensitive to that…

People can always take what they want from a song. Once it’s out there, it’s sort of no longer yours in a way. You can’t control how people perceive it, because everyone’s going to bring their own lens and their own experience to it. You might say it’s about something, but then someone else hears it and thinks it’s about something totally different, and that’s fine. That’s the beauty of art.

A: Yeah. For that song, I really wanted a.. obviously ‘My Pal’ by God is one of the great Australian rock songs, and stuff like Radio Birdman and The Saints, and I really wanted to wrap it in that vibe of the classic male Australian rock thing, but have this message about losing yourself and the salvation that you can find as a person in the depths of despair. I wanted it to sound like despair, but there’s also a sign of hope and cathartic. We’ve played it once live at a secret small show last week. When we played it, and when we practice it—I get really emotional.

Listening to it, you can feel that emotion. Did you get emotional recording it?

A: It’s always like that for me. When I came up with the words, it just came out that way. A big—fuck you!

Where do you tend to write most of your lyrics? 

A: Everywhere. I can be walking around and have a riff in my head or have something and my first stage is recording voice memo notes in my phone. Then, I’ll either come up with words because I’ve got a pattern that I want to fit into something, but often there’s just sentiment that comes of an experience I want to write about. 

With ‘Suckhole’ the tune felt really desperate to me and it felt dark, but then ultimately it should have redemption.

I have lots of dreams with really strong themes. ‘Hogtied’ was a dream but also based on experience. ‘King Rat’ was about a dream and a series of visions I had around a certain time. Rats kept coming up in my life.

I saw a dead rat on the beach. It was really beautiful; it was bright blue, and it was after a storm. I was like, ‘Am I hallucinating? Wow.’ I was in a really bad situation in a relationship, and I went out in the middle of COVID, in winter, to the beach down in Melbourne, to the surf, and I got a wetsuit. I was winter swimming a bit at that time to shake myself out of a funk. I’d gone for a swim around Brighton, and there was so much crap in the water and flotsam and jetsam along the shore.

I was feeling devastated and was walking when a bright turquoise-blue thing caught my eye. I thought it was a bit of plastic, but it was this big, plump, dead rat on the edge of the water. It had no fur and was beautiful and grotesque. I felt so sorry for it; I felt this sense of grief for it. I left, wondering why I kept thinking about this rat and why it looked so beautiful. It was this alien, beautiful thing in the midst of rubbish, leaves, and stuff.

Rats are so maligned and regarded as dirty in Western culture, whereas, in other cultures, they’re not. In Chinese culture, they’re in the horoscope; I’m a Year of the Rat baby. They’re cunning, smart, clean, and such social animals. They’re actually so smart and beautiful. And just the symbolism of the rat—this poor dead rat that was shining like a beautiful diamond along the coastline amidst the garbage where no one would see it, but I saw it.

I have periods of intense deep dreaming. I feel like i’ve had less this year than usual, which makes me a bit sad. It’s more just a sign of that burnout and putting my head down and getting through stuff.

Was there anything in particular that had you burning out? 

A: The US tour last year was pretty full on. You have to be careful of the people you have around you and make sure that they’re like family. I’ve never done anything more than just a couple of days with a couple of shows, chilling with mates. It’s always been really family like. You’re doing this really big, difficult thing together with not much money and who knows how much payoff. You’ve got to make sure that everyone in that group is playing their part, helping, being supportive, and respectful. My live band—Shauna Boyle (Cable Ties, Leatherman), Elsa Birrel (Shove), Jay Power, and Al Hall (Cutters)—and former members who contributed to the project’s early live shows—Billiam, Sarah Hardiman (Brick Head, Deaf Wish, Lou), Moose (Rat Bait, The Uglies), and Lach Smith (Revv, Billiam and the Split Bills)—are amazing.

Every day, there were amazing, mind-blowing people showing up. People offered us to stay at their places. We played a show in Pensacola on Halloween, which is at the top of Florida, an hour from the border with Louisiana. It was an all-ages house show at a place called the Bug House, with an age bracket mostly between 12 and 20, and some parents. There were kids running Halloween stalls, zine stalls, and everyone had costumes. One person was doing tarot readings, and there were food stalls.

A girl and a non-binary tween grabbed me after the show and were like, ‘Oh my god, we have so many questions for you. We need to know: How do you do this? How did you start this? What do you do? How did you start playing guitar?’ I just let them talk at me super excitedly. They said things like, ‘We want to play guitar,’ ‘I was playing in a band with my male friends at school, and they were like, “I don’t like them”’ and ‘Nobody wants to do what I do, and I’m so frustrated’ and ‘I want to do what I want.’ The other one said, ‘I don’t play an instrument, but I really love this. I love this and want to be part of it.’

Photo: Matt Redlich

Good stuff like that, connections like that, makes it all worth it!

A: Yes! We shut everyone else off and sat down in a little huddle to talk about my experience. I told them, ‘Don’t worry too much about it. It will come, and you will find your people. Don’t feel pressure. Keep doing your thing. But also, if you need to stop doing it for a bit, that’s okay too. Don’t judge yourself for not having the resources around you right now to actualise the thing that you ultimately want to be. If you want to be involved in shows but don’t play an instrument, maybe you could organise shows, make flyers, or be someone who goes to your friends’ shows and tells other people about them and promotes them. You could take photos. Try a bunch of things. You’ll start to make friends and find what’s right for you.’ It was just a tremendously special conversation.

Another cool moment was when we played in Detroit with Timmy’s Organism, and having Danny Kroha from The Gories in the front row watching me play guitar and writhing around on the floor screaming! I was like, what the fuck?Oh my god!

I love America because of that crazy pendulum swing of existence there, for the good and for the bad, for the scary and for the beautiful—it’s a cartoon world in a lot of ways. That appeals to me. I’ve met so many Americans in the punk scene who are so open and so heart-on-their-sleeve friendly.

You mentioned the two young people who came up to you at the Halloween show. Was there someone when you were growing up, that you had an inspiring chat with, like you did with them?

L: No, which is why I recognise the importance in doing that. When I was growing up, you and I have talked about this before in our chats, going to shows when we were kids, and sadly we didn’t see many women on the stage. The ones you would see, would blow you away.

Adalita from Magic Dirt was one of those for me.

A: Yeah, and who didn’t want to be her? She is just a fucking goddess! you know, and 

I know that you’re close to your parents; what’s do they think of your record? Have they heard it? 

A: They have, they love it! They don’t like punk music. Obviously the aesthetic and narrative of the record is not necessarily something that my parents would choose, let alone choose to see their daughter excising. But they’re so proud. Dad and mum actually made it to a show when they were working in St. Louis. Mum had seen us play a few times. Dad had never seen us play. Dad’s a classical music guy, but he was cheering and losing his shit!  He was proud as punch. All these younger punks were coming up to him and having photos taken with him.

The themes on the record are pretty universal to the human condition. But, I’m a female and they’re my experiences of the hypocrisy of the patriarchy and treatment of women’s bodies. My mum’s a big one for words and she’s asked me about a lot of the songs. She is really proud and amazed that I can access and articulate my own experiences and excise my feelings and express his stuff. When she saw the cover, she was like, ‘Whoa, that’s powerful! So that’s, It really is. 

That’s awesome! I see that the record is pretty much sold out everywhere already! Congratulations.

A: I should be getting the records tomorrow from the States—I cannot wait to see it! They’ll be some available at the launch, if there’s any left over they’ll go up on the bandcamp. 

I’m sure you’ll sell all those at the show. All of your previous releases, the 7”s have been long sold out.

A: I’m always amazed and thrilled that happens!

You’re such a sellout! In the best way possible. 

[Laughter].

A: Yeah, unashamedly so!

You’ll be doing a European tour soon; what are you most looking forward to doing in Europe, besides playing shows?

A: Wild Wax that’s bringing us over asked is there anywhere particularly you want to tour? I was like, ‘I don’t care, anywhere that will have us.’ I love seeing places when I’m making music or DJing or just meeting music communities. I can’t wait to cruise around after the tour is finished. I’ve always wanted to go to Spain, so I’m particularly pumped for that. It seems so beautiful and romantic. My best friend’s coming over at the end of tour and we’re going to Turkey and Greece for a bit. 

I’m also looking forward to seeing my friend Marion, who is Fuzzgun, and he plays in Autobahns and Lassie, he does guest guitar on Panter too. They were out here in January doing a tour, and they stayed with me. He’s gonna be in our band in Germany because our guitarist Al can’t come. We’re’ landing in Leipzig and we’re gonna hang out at Marion’s place, he lives in a squat with Jules from Autobahns and Marion’s beautiful partner Tati. I’m looking forward to seeing what a European gas station is like too [laughs]. I’m sure we’ll see lots of them. I just can’t fucking believe I get to do this—it’s it’s a thrill for sure! 

Hopefully we can wrangle a US tour next year and maybe a bit more Europe. I don’t really want to stop. I want to keep going as long as we can.

We’re interested to see where Lothario goes next creatively. All your releases have been in a way are inspired by certain challenging life stuff, it’s cool to imagine where you might go now you’re in a better place.

A: There’s a song that I don’t have a title for yet, it has a catchy pop-ness like ‘Black Hair’, but even more so. I was really surprised when I wrote it. People I’ve shown it to have given it Joy Division comparisons, and Jay Retard. It has a post-punk meets edgier punk feel too. Maybe I’m leaning into that a little bit. I’m really excited.

My brother, is an amazing music producer and is one of my biggest supporters. He creates really polished music for other people. I don’t want to do that with this, but he was talking about how he’d love to record stuff for me; I recorded the other stuff all myself. I am equal parts totally keen and absolutely don’t want to do that. I don’t want to change the vibe. I don’t really want to overthink it too much. 

Anything else to share with us?

[Annaliese’s cat appears]

A: I wrote a tribute song to my cat Gene Parmesan [‘G.E.N.E.’] I imagined him as a street tough, a punk walking the night, being tough—a wild cat! just, He was my omnipresent producer in all the sessions. I’d record in the living room and he’d start to do zoomies and I’d be trying to ge a guitar take, and he’d run over the top of my lap and I’d fuck it up at the last minute [laughs]. He’s been my rock in my, in my darkest times. 

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Private Function’s Chris Penney: ‘I try to create art as escapism because everything else freaks me out!’

Original photo: Johnny Russell / handmade collage by B

Private Function are a punk band that embodies more than just chaotic energy and humour. Beneath their wild shows, tongue-in-cheek attitude, and fun exterior lies a band that blur the lines between art and everyday life with witty commentary on modern life.

Gimmie recently caught up with Private Function’s frontman, Chris Penney, for a candid conversation that covered everything from his roots growing up in housing commission to his first experiences with therapy. He reflects on how his formative years and growing up with his metalhead single mum shaped him, and tells us about his first concert, and the time he sat on Ozzy Osbourne’s lap. He shares his theory on the moment he feels culture died, and his honest opinion on NOFX and Blink-182, while celebrating the revival of Australian music in the 2000s by bands like Eddy Current and Royal Headache. We hear the story of what drove their manager and booking agent to quit. And, talk about joy, creativity, and so much more. Chris’ blend of quick wit and sincerity makes for an unforgettable conversation.

CHRIS PENNEY: I’m the classic example of a housing commission boy, come good. I grew up in Redfern in Sydney on Morehead Street, which is a pretty gnarly street. 

You know, how you can do that thing where you say the name of your first pet and the name of the first street you lived on, and that’s your porn star name? Well, mine’s Jesse Morehead—that’s pretty good [laughs].

Seriously, it was a pretty crazy place. It’s the most condensed housing commission in Australia, which, to be honest, maybe isn’t the best idea. I think there’s talk about maybe taking it apart, but there are easily a thousand different apartments on that one block. So it’s pretty fucking full on to live there. Especially back in the ‘90s, I saw some crazy, full on stuff. There’s many, many stories; a chick got stabbed to death once. 

Whoa! Oh-no. I guess, high-density housing commission projects can face a lot of challenges like overcrowding, maintenance issues, strained infrastructure, and there’s also social stigmatisation. All these things can lead to deteriorating living conditions and lead to stress, anxiety, and depression, as well as diminished overall well-being and quality of life.

CP: Yeah! And these things do happen. There shouldn’t be that much housing commission condensed into one street. 

Did the things you’ve seen growing up there have an impact on you? 

CP: I don’t know. Maybe? I mean, the only thing I can think of is that I’m extremely emotionless—probably that. So this week, I actually went to talk to a psychologist for the first time in my life, which was pretty good.

That’s good to hear, I’m stoked for you. I’ve been to many over my lifetime and it takes a while to find a good one sometimes, but when you do, I’ve found it can help.

CP: Yeah, it’s interesting. I’ve never done it before. So I don’t really know what to do, because I don’t really know what I need out of it. I’m pretty together. Although it would seem very much like I don’t have it together [laughs]. But I have a bunch of crap going on. 

It’s cool; I can talk to the guy about the end of the world, which is kind of fun. I made him squirm. I talked to my girlfriend; we’ve been sitting down and chatting, and I go on these crazy doomsday rants about the end of the world, or World War III, and the climate crisis running in direct parallel with each other. And we’re storming ahead into this apocalypse. It’s coming so soon. She’s like, ‘Yeah, I don’t want to hear any of this.’ [laughs].

A lot of people are like that. It’s constantly in our face in the news so they don’t want to spend much more time thinking about it. It’s a really interesting time. But no matter when you look back in history, there’s always been terrible things happening. As humans, how do we cope with this? What do we do with this information? Because obviously it can start to affect our day-to-day lives.

CP: For sure. It’s something I think about a lot. The news is always happening, right? The world’s always happening, always changing. There’s always people dying. I guess there’s more emphasis on that stuff now because of social media, how dramatic that is now. Is it any more or any less important than it’s been in history? I don’t know. I don’t know shit. But, things are always gonna wrap up, and things are gonna begin. And people should want to know about it.

Yeah. I don’t have answers either. The world can definitely be a difficult place so to stop from feeling overwhelmed, I chose to dedicate my life to things like music, art, connection, conversation, and community, and sharing knowledge, ideas and experiences with others. Through my work it’s important to counter the shitty stuff in the world and offer something that’s a more positive offering for people’s lives. 

CP: Yeah, 100%. That’s absolutely what I try and do as well! All the art that I create, and that we create in Private Function, is hopefully that. I try to create art as escapism because everything else freaks me out! I try to keep this one escapist form of art that’s joyful, fun and stupid at the same time. I fucking swear to God, if this psychologist makes me cease it, if I become a more serious person because of this prick, and I have to release art that isn’t fun and dumb—I’ll be so upset! [laughs]. 

Photo: Jhonny Russell

There’s definitely a place for fun and dumb art. Not that I think your art is dumb, by the way. There’s a place for all kinds of art. Art is more important to society than a lot of people think it is. I think often there can be a misconception that real art has to be serious.

CP: Yeah, totally. I couldn’t be serious, man, even if I tried. Private Function definitely has an element of humour, obviously. But it’s not jokes. The way I try and approach it is that it’s like a joke without a punchline. The vibe is funny, but there’s no actual joke here. I really like relying on humour and comedy in a song to bring these artistic ideas to life because I feel like humour is the only artistic avenue that still has innovation in it.

For instance, the scratchie record we did, people would think that’s a funny, stupid idea. But it’s also innovative because it hadn’t been done before, which, to me, is important.

I couldn’t think of anything serious that hasn’t been done, and hasn’t been done significantly better than I could ever hope for it to be done. Like, every song about love has been written, every song about addiction has been written. It’s set in stone, how they’re meant to sound and how that it’s meant to be shown to people. But with humour, there’s this depth of endlessness that you can continually find things in. BUT then you just have to deal with people being like, ‘You’re a fucking joke band!’ [laughs]. 

Frank Zappa used to get that too. Full transparency, it took me a little while to come around to Private Function, and to get it. On the surface level, and the way PF were pitched by publicists and seen in the media, it kind of seemed that way. But when I took the time to listen and saw a live show, I realised it wasn’t that, it was more that. You write great songs and you’re one of the most exciting and entertaining live shows around.

CP: Yeah, it’s funny, right? [laughs].

When I look back on all the things that people discounted as just publicity stunts, I see the innovation that we’re talking bout.

CP: This has been an eight-year project now. At the beginning, in the first few years, people were really into it, and then some of those people left. People come and go, and there are always new fans. Now it’s almost like, to get into Private Function, you need to understand this linear story, along with all the concepts and imagery that are repeated and consistently used, blending into each other. There’s themes about the whole thing. To jump into the band now, and to take it at face value, is like jumping into a podcast after it’s been going for years. It’s like, ‘Oh, fuck, what the fuck is all this? Who are these characters and these people?’ It’s hard to do.

I think the live show sells quite a lot. That’s the one thing that’s changed a lot of people’s minds about us. I like our albums but the songs are quite different live to how they sound in the studio. Recording is hard. Especially for me, because I’m not the best singer. When we’re jamming, I’m like, ‘This is fucking amazing!’ And then you hear it in the studio and it’s like, ah, maybe, my hubris has gone to my head somewhat [laughs]. 

How did you first discover music? 

CP: My mum. I had a young mum. She’s only 19 years older than me—54. Because I grew up with a single mum who was a huge punk and metalhead growing up. She was massively into Metallica and all those kinds of bands. From a young age, she was taking me everywhere and making me go to shows.

My first show, I still got the ticket stubs, was in 1996, The Offspring. I was nine. There’s a photo of me with Ozzy Osbourne too, when I was 10 years old. She took me to a signing and I have a photo of me sitting on Ozzy’s lap! It’s really funny.

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Ha. That’s awesome!

CP: [Laughs]. So she would just fucking blare music through the house. She’d be cranking Tool. So I was listening to all that stuff from a young age, and it just went on from there. My mum would listen to The Stooges, so I would.

Self-exploration is such an important part of being a music fan, and formulating who you are. Remember before the internet? 

I sure do.

I think it’s the worst thing that the internet has taken away from us, like self-exploration and finding those things you like on your own and not just having someone hand them to you. In the pre-millennial age, finding stuff was a major part of formulating your self. 

Now it seems like everything’s at your fingertips and there’s overwhelming so much choice. Back in the 90s and before, you had to really dig for stuff and it wasn’t just readily available. Things seem to hold more value because of the effort you’d go to to discover them. Music didn’t seem as disposable.

CP: Yeah, 100%. It was way more satisfying to find things yourself. I went and saw EXEK the other night.

We LOVE them! They’re one of our favourite bands!

CP: Yeah, they’re great. The singer Albert asked this question to the audience on the mic, he said, ‘Does anyone even have passion for music anymore? Does anyone care? And, there was a quietness and awkwardness from the audience. I was like, yeah, people don’t care! [laughs]. It’s funny to see that; you could really feel it in the room, people don’t have that connection to music like they used to back in the day, and what it used to mean. 

Anyway, like I was saying, I was listening to all of this music way younger than I should have been because of my mum. Getting into my teenage years, it should have been pop-punk, like NOFX, Blink-182, and AFI, but I was like, ‘This is fucking shit!’ [laughs]. I missed all the music that I should have liked during my teenage years, and I’d think, ‘Well, we’ve already got The Stooges, so what’s the point in this?’ I jumped over this whole chunk of music that lots of people my age were into. It’s funny that older music was my teenage music. I’m pretty happy for that because that other stuff IS fucking shit—my mum was right [laughs].

Was there anything, though, that you discovered yourself? 

CP: For sure. Billions and billions of things. You ever heard this album? [holds up a record] Rites of Spring! I bought this just now. I actually hadn’t heard them until last year, which is so fucking funny, I went through my stupid Minor Threat thing and then I was like, who’s another guy in Fugazi? 

Guy Picciotto!

CP: Yeah. So I was listening to them all year and then I went into Rowdy’s Records today to go get a bunch of record sleeves. They had that album behind the counter and I bought it. It’s an original press, which is pretty cool. I’m always finding fucking new music. My fucking record player has been broken for over a year but I’m still buying records. 

Nice! When and how did you first start playing music? 

CP: High school. We just liked to play because we like rock and roll. None of us could play any instruments, AND some of us still can’t play instruments [laughs]. We jumped into it and figured it all out. That was a long time ago, I guess, I’ve been playing music for 20 years. 

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Did you ever think he’d be a front person? 

CP: Yeah, I’ve been a front man for a long time, in every band except for Mesa Cosa. I’m still technically in Mesa Cosa, I guess [laughs].

Is there anything that attracted you to being a vocalist? 

CP: Not being able to play an instrument [laughs]. And, it’s fun. I like a band with a front person, which sort of oddly it’s becoming kind of rarer. Especially front people that jump around. I like to jump around, it helps me sing, which is funny. Having a front person adds a whole other element to have a connection into the band, in a way, because you’re out in the crowd.

I noticed when you play live that you’re very aware of all the stuff that’s going on around you and you genuinely engage people.

CP: Yeah, yeah, totally. I like looking at people. It’s cool! [laughs].

Not all bands do that, but it’s always nicer when they do. Sometimes, when a band gets lost in their own world and ignores the audience, it can be boring. When we saw you play, it was great how you involved the crowd by letting them choose your set through picking song written on pieces of paper they’d pull out of an old vacuum cleaner. Everyone was into it. The show’s vibe was chaotic but positive, with people looking out for each other. After going to some rough hardcore shows lately, where a bunch of the audience felt pretty thoughtless, it was refreshing to experience the opposite. Your show was joyful, and I wasn’t on edge, hoping I didn’t get hurt watching a band play. It was a real highlight of my week.

CP: I love that you got that from our show! Thank you very much. You used the word joyful, which often has connotations with it being kind of silly and stuff but it doesn’t need to be that. It can be joyful in the way that… [pauses]… it’s cool to have a show that’s kind of like a [Steven] Spielberg movie, where you’re like, [puts his arms in the air triumphantly]. I always find that it’s a good movie if it’s got me going like, ‘YES!’ [pumps fists in the air]. Like, watching Smokey and the Bandit, it’s like, YES! They got the beer to the party! They beat the cops—fuck the cops! It’s that kind of joyfulness that could take you on an adventure. It’s a different kind of joy.

What you said about the show, really means a lot. I don’t even mind when we get criticism. I love really respectful, truthful opinions. Criticism of anything should be more truthful—more real.

So, we just talked about Private Function shows being joyous, in your tour diary, you’ve written for Gimmie, you mentioned a show you played in Adelaide that wasn’t so great; what happened?

CP: I really fucked the cat with that one [laughs]. So basically, what had happened is, I was very drunk, obnoxiously drunk, and there was a balcony. I got up there to jump off the balcony… I’ve done it before. But this time, I had an idea that before the show, I wanted to hide a 6-pack up there, and during the show, I could throw beers out to the crowd. I had to buy a 6-pack, and it was $66 from the bar.

I was like, ‘Can I get it half price ’cause I’m playing?’ And they were like, ‘No.’ So, I was like, ‘Alright, I’ll do the 66 bucks!’ I went and put them in the balcony. But then, during the show, I got up there, and they were gone. I was like, ‘What the fuck?’ I was up there and looked like an idiot.

Then I, literally like a small baby, threw these chairs off the balcony into the crowd. It was nothing of a deal, basically like crowd surfing; everyone got them and put them down. But, mid-show at the bar, I was like, ‘What happened to the 6-pack?’ And this chick was like, ‘Oh, I took it away. You can’t have an unopened beer in the venue.’ I was like, ‘Oh, what? That sucks!’ She felt pretty bad about that.

It wasn’t joyous that I made someone feel bad. Like I said, this was mid-show, and it’s always important to remember how much power you can have mid-show. I apologised that night to her, and I wrote her the next day too. It’s good to acknowledge when you’re wrong.

The show was a little bit more violent than usual. We had found a ladder that we were jumping off into the crowd, and the crowd surfing got a bit wild. It was a bit much. I got in so much trouble for that show. Like, we no longer have a manager or a booking agent anymore.

Our mosh pit is a fun mosh pit. It’s not as wild as Speed shows, and that early-2000s hardcore vibe is back in a way, kind of like that weird energy at shows.

Its funny you mentioned early-2000s hardcore, because after going to shows since I was young, that’s the era that made go, nah, I’m out for a while. With all the macho-ness happening and the way women were treated, the vibe was not fun anymore. 

CP: Should we talk about the early-2000s? It was full on. Like I was saying about Redfern, it was a different fucking time in the ‘90s and into the early-2000s—crazy, really bad shit happened. The art is bad as well, of the times. Does art imitate life here? Everything from the early-2000s fucking sucks. Especially rock and roll, man. From 2000 to 2009, it’s the most dogshit period of music [laughs]. It fucking blows, man. It’s like  everywhere lost, what it is to be a human, for some reason. Maybe because of the introduction of the internet? You can see it in Australian music as well, you know, that’s a period when Australiana, or sense of a national identity disappeared completely. People were like, ‘No, we have to play the game of what it is to be an American artist right now.’ So, they’re replicating these ideas of post-9/11 America. It’s like you’re really pushing that into your art, into everything you’re making, and it’s made the worst fucking things possible. 

Here’s a funny example, if you want to pinpoint what happened. The fan belt on my car broke and I had to wait on the side of the road for a fucking tow truck. So I watched the first episode of the show from mid-2000s, it’s called Supergroup. It’s this reality show where they get put together a super group of musicians like Sebastian Bach, Ted Nugent, Scott Ian from Anthrax, Jason Bonham, the dude from Biohazard, and so on. All these musicians who are washed up. Clearly, what’s happened is, the producer is like, ‘OK, guys, so you’re rock and roll icons, but we need you to play up to the South Park generation. Be a bit more pushy and a bit of a dickhead.’ I was watching it and was like, whoa! Scotty walks into this reality TV mansion and he’s like, ‘What a fag palace. Does Liberace live here?’ It’s like, boom, this is it’s so intense. I think it’s the pinpoint of the moment where rock and roll died. That TV show, everything about it, is everything I hate about rock and roll, and is what I had to grow up with. 

In the 2000s, I started to look elsewhere to find that energy I once got from rock n roll, punk etc. I did an interview with Michael Franti once and we talked about how sometimes you just have to go where the energy is. 

CP: Yeah, for sure. You chose the right time to get out [laughs].

I was going to a lot more hip-hop shows, and electronic shows, and doofs. I think there’s always good stuff going on somewhere, you just have to look harder for it and sometimes find it in unexpected places. 

CP: I have this weird time thing in my head. 1997, I think, is where music and all culture die. A little after, there’s some cool stuff because things had been in the pipeline and were finally coming out. But by 2000, that’s when everything stops and becomes convoluted and strange. It doesn’t make sense, and it took almost a decade to figure itself out again. It really was this blurred idea of everything coming at you. Like you were saying, it’s jumping from scene to scene; there was just so much happening. Predominantly because of the internet, it was a bombardment from every angle, on everything you could possibly be shown. And because you’re shown so much, everything became nothing.

But then 2009 rolls around, I was in Sydney, and not long after Royal Headache’s first release came out. I saw Eddy Current Suppression Ring at the Excelsior Hotel and holy shit, it was so good! In my mind, Eddy Current, and then Royal Headache changed everything. Things got back to some sort of level of normality for a while. 

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I chatted with Shogun from Royal Headache recently for his new project Antenna, which I think is even better than Royal Headache. He told me about how he was struggling mentally for a lot of the band’s existence, especially when they gained so much popularity. He spoke of how he felt a little abandoned by the local punk scene. Have you ever had anything like that?

CP: Yeah, for sure. It’s always gonna happen. I spoke to him about it back in the day. They were going through some weird stuff. They seem to always be going through weird stuff, though [laughs]. But he hatred it, I never really understood it. But now I do. You mix music and bravado, and Private Function are always gonna be on top! [laughs]. Some people sometimes see us say that or write that and they give us shit. It’s like we’re not the first band, artist, or human in history to have a bravado or be like—I am the greatest! [laughs].  It’s a stupid joke. But I think it’s a very easy thing for people to hate.

Where did ‘PF still on top’ come from?

CP: My mate is this tagger dude, Metho. There was this wall he tagged and then a friend, Matt, had written above it ‘Metho sucks. Fuck Metho.’ Then Metho wrote above that ‘Matt’s got no friends.’ Then Matt came back and he went on top of that one, like, ‘Metho fucks dogs.’ Metho came back and it kept going. Eventually Metho got this huge, huge ladder and went to the very top of this factory and just wrote ‘Metho still on top,’ above everything. So Matt couldn’t get any higher than him. Me and Joe, the old guitarist used to always see it and laugh—fuck it’s funny. Shout out to Metho wherever you are! 

I know a big thing for Private Function is concept over quality; where’d that approach came from?

CP: We’re all pretty artistically minded people in every aspect. We can all write songs, it’s very easy for us. We like to challenge ourselves with other things. We just recorded a new album last week. We went into the studio and figured most of them out in the studio while we’re recording.

Did you ever go to art school?

CP: I avoided all that stuff. I was too dumb. To me, art is innovation, and it doesn’t matter what the form is. It could be painting, it could be a movie, it could be whatever. But it has to have innovation in it, and the closer you get to innovation, the better the art gets. That’s my takeaway—that’s what I think art is. So that’s why I’m always trying to think about that, which is hard to do in rock and roll and in music because everything’s been done. You know, it’s been 70 years or whatever of people doing things, and it’s hard to really do more.

That’s why I try to focus on concepts because conceptuality is quality. Songwriting quality does have an end, but conceptuality—if you can think of an idea, there’s no limit to where it can go. 

The scratchie album cover, I was pretty proud of that. I thought it was cool because it hadn’t been done before; it was a conceptual idea. Or the idea of putting piss in the records—which maybe only had been done before once before.

Or pressing bags of speed into records, that hadn’t been done before. Maybe innovation is too strong a word, maybe they were just unique, and that’s the satisfaction I get from making art—trying to do something unique.

That’s something a lot of people come up to me and talk about. It’s inspired them in some way to think about things a little bit differently, and that’s more important than teaching them how to write a good song or whatever. If you can teach someone to just think about things a tiny bit differently, you’ve really given them something. It’s important.

Totally. That’s the stuff that really excites us the most. 

CP: Yeah, me too. 

All of us have ADD. So we also want to do a show, where we would be able to sit through it and be mentally entertained the entire time, something that creates its own story. I want to give people something, no matter how small, that they can take away from it, and retell it and it can be part of their life. I want to give them a pub yarn.

You mentioned you were working on the new record; what kind of things have you been writing about? 

CP: About things that I look at. Most of the times I’ll see a sign, her like I’ll see this bottle of water here and be like [sings]: ‘Cool Ridge, Cool Ridge, Co-cool Cool Ridge!’ I have these rules for songs which are, I don’t write about people I know, I think that’s really bad luck to write or get inspiration from people you know; that’s fucking instant karma for you, mate. I don’t write songs about sex, I can’t do it. 

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Why is that?

CP: I mean, I can do sex! [laughs]. Here’s the thing, Bianca, I respect sex too much. I really like having sex and when I write about sex, it either comes out as seedy or a joke—I don’t want to do that to sex. Sex is better than the songs I could write about it. There’s already a billion songs written. It’s hard to write a song about sex well.

That’s nice that you care about it so much you don’t want to fuck it up.

CP: Exactly. Yeah, somethings are off limits. I also try not to swear that much as well in songs, which is funny. 

Why? 

CP: I find it unnecessary. There’s a lot of words you can say. I swear, there’s a lot of swearing. But I tried not to do it. I really only swear when it like needs to be there. That’s the, I’m just not gonna swear for the sake of just like swearing rule. It has more impact then when you do.

Have you ever written la really personal song? 

CP: No, I don’t think so. 

You don’t use writing songs to process stuff in your life?

CP: I’m not smart enough, nor good enough as a musician to be able to put my problems and thoughts into a genuinely good song. It’s not going to come up, it’s going to be bad. I’m just going to stick to three chord songs about different signs and things I see. Otherwise, no one’s going to like it. I do like writing though, I liked writing the tour diary for you guys. 

You know how in records, there’s sometimes those really long, waffling inserts about the history of the artists? They’re so shit! I always try and read one, then get halfway through it, and it feels arrogant, waffling, irrelevant, or like they’re probably lying [laughs]. I wrote one of those for the new pressing of 370HSSV 0773H (the scrathie record). It’s poorly written nonsense about the story of this album. 

That’s cool. Looking forward to checking it out. I love what you write for Gimmie. In our correspondence you mentioned you took so personal stuff out; how come?

CP: I was going to bring up like what happened with the manager and the booking agent stuff. I showed it to the rest of the band they’re like, ‘Nah, now’s not the time.’ I really thanked them for the work they did for us, it can’t be underplayed how much they’ve done like for the band. 

We took that out bits and bobs just to make it even. That was the most dramatic part of Private Function’s career. We were like, ‘Shit, we didn’t know, maybe the band’s breaking up, I don’t know,’ because everyone was like, ‘Fuck, what’s gonna happen now? No manager, no booking agent.’ 

We’re actually kind of stoked, to be honest, like we’re not doing anything much. We wanted to have a little break. But we were like, ‘What’s going on? I don’t know what to do anymore, what do we do?’ And then everyone’s got their own mental health issues they’re going through, just like every band. We’re all just dealing with our own shit, dealing with the reality of the modern world, and dealing with all the problems that every single other artist is dealing with right now as well. We’re not immune from any of that, we just don’t wear it on our sleeves as much as some other artists do. And I don’t think we get a lot of—it’s awesome if artists can get inspiration from things like that—but for me, it doesn’t work.

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Is there any kinds of things that you do for your own self-care? 

CP: Not really, I’m all right. I’m sweet. I was a workaholic. I’m always working on different things 

What kind of things? 

CP: I’m always doing jobs. I’m always writing songs. Always focusing on something.

You mentioned challenges of being a band; like what?

CP: There’s this real expectation when you’re perceived to be successful that you have heaps of money and that everything’s really easy, and it’s like, motherfucker, there’s no money. It’s also like, we’re a 6-piece band who’s going to travel around Australia. The fucking costs of just dealing with six people to go play shows like Vinnie’s Dive—there’s no money there. Like, we have to pay for six flights, have six people in accommodation every night, and then pay for the opening bands, the gear hire, the venue hire, and then, at that point, the manager takes 20% of every ticket, the booker takes 10%. There’s so much going out that at the end of the day, you’re like, ‘Oh, that barely covered the costs at all.’

I thought managers got less than that? Like, 10%.

CP: I guess the industry standard is now like 20%. I think it’s a bit much to be honest, but it’s a hard thing to argue with the industry about that and individuals about that as well. 

I think there’s so many problems in the actual industry. The industry treats people as products for the most part. When I was young, I also wanted to work in the music industry because I love music, and then I started working in it and it was fucking horrible. 

CP: Yeah, it can be. The only time I do interviews is when there’s an album cycle and I’m forced to do it. I fucking absolutely hate interviews. But this chat is different, it’s really, really lovely.

Also, for the record, you’ve mentioned you’re dumb a few times throughout this chat; you’re totally not!

CP: Aww, thank you very much. That means a lot. I’m excited about the future!

I’m excited for your new album! 

CP: Me too. Have you ever thought of being a psychologist, you have a very calming aura, and you’re good at listening.

Thank you. I’m actually a book editor by day and work with fellow First Nations writers, helping them get their story on the page. It’s important to me, to try to do something that I think is worthwhile with my time because our time is really valuable. 

CP: Absolutely. Time is all we have. That’s it. Nothing else matters. As you get older, you start to see the value in time. Even to conceptualise the idea of time is fucking crazy, man—it goes like that. I heard an interesting thing about time the other day. There’s this kind of worldwide collective feeling that time is speeding up, and we’re losing time; most of the world are feeling this. This report said we were losing time because now a majority of the world have like iPhones, and if you look at the amount of hours you use in a a day and in a week, sometimes it’s four or five hours a day. You do the maths, that’s 24 hours a week. Now we’re down to six day week, because a day has been used being on your phone. You don’t actually really get anything out of that really. What you get back is quite a small amount to how much time you’re giving away. You’re basically giving away your fucking time to companies for free so they can advertise you bullshit.

I haven’t used my personal Instagram, since September last year. It was a New Year’s resolution. I can’t do that anymore. It’s a fucking weird realisation where it’s like, I’ve been on social media for 20 years. How much more time do I give the machine? When is this end? Is the answer, never? It’s this thing that I have to chase and follow, especially to be in a band now. It feels like I’m giving my time, my life away, for something that I’m already giving so much of my time to, being in a band. 

What do you reckon you’d do if you weren’t in a band? 

CP: I ask myself that every single day. I have never known a reality as a man where I wasn’t there. 

What do you kind of get from being in a band? 

CP: The avenue to be able to make the art that I to make, is a big one. Everything I want to do at the moment, artistically works in the realm of a band. I love all the the record covers and these weird little conceptual ideas. It scares me as well, though, because I have a small skill set of things. If I was to ever stop being in a band and get a real job and grow up and be a real boy, this fucking Pinocchio little motherfucker, it scares me because I’m pretty skill-less. And, I have no inheritance coming my way. I don’t know what’s gonna happen when I stop playing in a band. 

If you reflected on all the things it takes to be in a band, you’ll see you have many more skills than you think you do. It takes a lot to keep a band going for years.

CP: I guess, yeah. Hopefully with the end of this year the idea is to have a moment, after losing a manager and a booking agent and kind of like our mental state, and have some time off to reflect, recess, and reset. It’d be my first time in 20 years, where I’ve not been doing something. I don’t know how that’s going to go [laughs]. Expect a mental breakdown in the third quarter of this year. 

Ideally, in the perfect world for me, I would be asked to go on the reboot of Supergroup. And I can be in a piece of shit.

Yeah, but you’d actually have like a grasp on what South Park is. 

CP: [Laughs] Exactly! Yeah, instead of just effing and jeffing mindlessly. 

I’m sure I’ll be fine. I’ve never been massively phased by anything. I’m the kind of guy that, when stuff really does fall apart, I’m always pretty good at figuring things out.

I noticed that on social media, a lot of people comment about your band, and not always in the most positive light. But I love how you handle those comments. I saw a snarky one where you responded with, ‘Is that the best you can do?’ You seem to use humour to diffuse what they’re saying.

CP: Everything on the internet is a fucking joke. I don’t care how anyone feels about anything, and I don’t even care about how people feel about the art or who we are. To save debate, it doesn’t matter to me, so it’s funny to make fun of all these idiots. But I don’t want to do it because I don’t want to make fun of anyone or anything. Really, nothing matters. Nothing that we’re doing actually matters, so for people to get upset about something that doesn’t matter is just ridiculous. The idea of being really famous — oh man, I would definitely lose my mind. Even now, I’m relatively known to an audience, and, like, jeez, going to the pub sometimes can be a bit of an ordeal.

I had a great chat for my book with Amy Taylor the other week and we were talking about how she’s in the public eye and always being scrutinised by people, and of what it’s like to grow up in front of people, and make mistakes and grow. 

CP: I can imagine. She’s great! She’d have a pretty interesting story as well. Amy rules!

She does! 

CP: She’s always been a very real person. She’s the best. So cool. The first Private Function show was with Amyl & The Sniffers. That was the night their original bass player quit. That was a funny show. Bryce and Declan, for some reason, when they were playing, were just yelling at each other. I think Declan punched Bryce in the face, and then they just started fighting. The bass player was like, ‘Fuck this,’ threw his bass, and walked off. Then they were fighting, got into the mosh, and were pulled apart, dragged downstairs. And then they started fighting on the street. I think Amy was still on stage. So I hopped on the drums, and then my friend, my flatmate, got on bass, and we jammed for a while. Then they broke up for a bit, and Gus joined the band. I love seeing a show where everything just falls apart, and it becomes chaos.

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Lost Animal: ‘I don’t want to sound like anything else.’

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To us here at Gimmie HQ, Jarrod Quarrell, creator of Lost Animal, is one of the most underrated songwriters in Australia and one of our all-time favourites. He creates poetic expressions. His work is very interesting in a highly original way and richly emotional. The songs reveal themselves more over many listens and always feel fresh. His powerful, beautiful, transformative, and unforgettable songs possess the vast depth of the human spirit. Last time we were in Naarm/Melbourne, we met Jarrod in Fitzroy Gardens, a historic park lined with elms and autumn leaves, to chat about life, feeling good, and the music he’s working on in his own time.

It meant a lot to have this chat—enjoy!

Thanks so much for meeting us today! We’ve been having such a nice time in Naarm/Melbourne. It’s always such a pleasure to come down here for Jerksfest out in Djilang/Geelong, Billy does such a wonderful job. It’s nice to explore the city too. We went to a shop that sold all these old movie day bills. We got this awesome Breakin’ one!

LOST ANIMAL: Breakin’ was one of my favourite movies as a kid. I was in a breakdance gang in Papua New Guinea called, The Rap City Connection. 

That’s awesome. Do you reckon you could still do it. 

LA: I’m sure I could do a dolphin dive or something. Might hurt myself, though [laughs]. 

I’ve always loved breakdancing too, but I was so bad at it!

LA: Well, yeah, I was the worst in the game. They were all legit dudes in Papua New Guinea. They had afros, were good dancers, and did helicopters and headspins. I couldn’t do all that. 

How’s life been lately? It seems like you’re in a really good place.

LA: Life’s really good. I’m making a new record, so that’s probably got a lot to do with it. Always happy when I’m making tunes. I’m very well. Thanks for asking. 

I remember you saying once that, ‘Music on records I make, are a fuck you to the bad things in my life.’

LA: Yeah, I guess. The new music feels like I’ve transcended all that shit and I’ve finally got to a good place, where I can just be good and make tunes.

I was talking about it to a friend recently. Those were dark times for me—those two records, Ex Tropical (2011) and You Yang (2016), were hard to make. It was my spirit trying to get out, trying to shine through when I wasn’t well, trying to overcome all the shit that gets you down.

The music you created before Lost Animal was darker as well?

LA: The lyrics are a bit dark. I always wanted Lost Animal music to not be dark; I wanted that to be up. 

When I listen to a lot of your songs, even though they are dark lyrically, the music is uplifting.

LA: Yeah. You can dance to it. Lyrically, it’s hard to write songs about feeling well, I’ve found, without sounding like an idiot [laughs]. I’m rewriting lyrics a lot on this record. Like, I write them and think, yeah, that’s it. Then I’ll go to record and think, is it because it’s cheesy? Or not because it’s cheesy—just because I want to nail it. I really want to get it right. I’m more engaged. I am happy making the effort, happy just doing it.

What are the things that have helped you be more engaged? 

LA: Therapy. Psychedelics. Music.

Jerk Fest last year was probably the impetus for it all. When Billy asked me to play, my instinct was to say ‘yes,’ but I kind of didn’t want to do it. Even up until the day, I didn’t want to go. But then I had a great time and really enjoyed playing. It dawned on me how lucky I was to be able to do it, and how fortunate I was to be asked to play good shows like that, six years after putting out my last record. It hit me. Then, around that time, I started feeling better. I found a good therapist after searching for one and going through a few bad ones. That gradually led to writing the right tunes.

I started a side project with a friend, Stuart from Primitive Calculators. That really helped with the playing. I was always just a songwriter—I wrote, and I was a front guy. So it was really good to just play. All those things combined put me in a better place.

Photo: Jhonny Russell

Jerk Fest is a pretty special event. It’s such a great opportunity to see so many bands play, and catch-up with people.

LA: Yeah, that was part of it—nice people saying nice things.

We were so stoked to see you play! You mentioned being asked to play shows six years after you put out your last record, those albums are timeless. You could listen to them today, and they still sound so fresh. I don’t know anything else that sounds like that. 

LA: That’s cool. I’ll take that [laughs].

We love that there’s so many different elements from all over the place. I know you’ve got a punk rock background and like you were saying there’s a love of hip-hop, and then there’s rock and electronic elements.

LA: That’s where the new record is. It’s kind of along those lines but maybe a little less electronic. Lost Animal, to me, has been beats and piano chords, songs built like that. Now it’s just become a bit more jamming in one key and building songs around grooves and little riffs rather than me writing songs. Then they turn into songs. It could go any number of ways. I was trying to make it go that keyboard chord way, and it really wasn’t working.

We had two songs we were working on that I thought were shit. Then I wrote one that was good, and four months later we had the whole record. You Yang was mostly written in the studio. I had a handful of songs I’d written. So for this record, I was like, I’m never going to do that again. Because it’s expensive, taxing, and stressful, but I really like doing it—almost writing songs to tape.

Before, I’d always done demos to write. With this new record, I got to a point where I’d written a song and recorded it, and then we had nothing else to do, so we wrote two songs in a day, Dan Luscombe and I, who I’m making the record with. It’s been written in the room together. I’m usually the impetus, and he’s the finesse guy, making me redo things or asking, ‘How about you try it this way?’

Are you ever surprised at how he finesses things? 

LA: I’m surprised at everything. I try to say ‘yes’ to everything he suggests and just try it. If I don’t like it, I’ll tell him later. But I don’t think it’s come to that. I’m less controlling now. There’s co-writes with him; I’ve never done that before. Maybe once with Shags [Chamberlain]. 

So you’ve been more controlling? 

LA: Yeah, way more. Now, I feel like the less I try to control things, the better things are. And if you’ve got a talented person in the room that wants to do something cool, you should probably shut your mouth and let them do it.

He’s the man. He finessed the fuck out of Amyl and the Sniffers for their latest album. 

LA: Was it a big change? 

Yeah. He really brought their sound together. Comfort To Me is miles ahead of their other releases. Sonically it sounds really big. It’s so cool seeing them progress as songwriters too.

LA: Dan’s got really good taste. He can play anything. He’s got that classic songwriting sensibility, but is open to stuff. He’s played with everybody. 

I remember a post you made on Instagram a while back and at the time you mentioned you were exploring Middle Eastern scales. 

LA: Yeah, because I never learnt how to play. 

You’re self-taught?

LA: Yeah. When I started this thing with Stuart, because it’s a guitar duo, I thought, ‘I better brush up on my guitar playing.’ I loosely learned different scales from around the world, but mostly I stuck to the blues minor pentatonic. Most of the new record is in the blues minor pentatonic, which is the first thing everybody learns.

I’ve kind of grown up on some basics, and that was enough because I’ve been playing for so long. My playing feels pretty good. Even if you’re not trying to learn, if you play music for 30 years, you’re going to learn.

How many songs do you have? 

LA: Right now, we have 10. So we’ve got an album on tape. They’re not all finished, but they’re all pretty much structured up and I’m writing the lyrics.

Do you usually write lyrics afterwards? 

LA: Yeah. If I demo something, often there’ll be a phonetic vocal line, so sounds or sometimes, whole lines will jump out. But I often don’t finish writing the lyrics until all the songs are done and it’s time to put the vocal on. Sometimes a whole vocal will just fall out with the song. But generally I’ll wait till the end because it can change. And there’s always a better fucking line.

Is there any lines that you’ve written at the moment that you really love? 

LA: Yeah. Some say that life’s a game, it’s just a setting. Some but life’s a bowl of berries, so come get some. I wrote a really trad soul ballad, ‘The Sun Cleared the Rain’ which I’m really proud of.


Was there anything in particular that inspired that one? 

LA: I was just writing a song. I was sitting playing keyboard. It was one of those things where I’ll mumble it a line, and it just all fell out of my mouth. I was listening back to it. Sometimes that happens, but it’s really rare. It kind of feels like channelling. You’re not really thinking about it too much. Trying not to think about it. I try to not direct it and not control it. I try to let it come and to recognise what it is and let it become that. 

You’re really great at writing narratives.

Narratives? Really? I don’t feel like I write that, really. I feel like I’m a surrealist. It’s just feelings. But sometimes they do turn into stories. ‘Lose The Baby’ is a little bit like that, I guess. But ‘The Sun Cleared the Rain’—that’s kind of just telling. That’s a narrative. There you go. It’s about when you need something and something comes along into your life, but it’s not necessarily great for you. It’s quite relatable for everyone, I think. Very universal.

What else are you writing? 

LA: There’s a song called ‘On A Bird Now,’ which is about transcendence—about turning into a bird. I wrote it when I got back from Indonesia. I was trying to write proper haikus: five, seven, five syllables, which is fun. And that led to that song. We just pressed record. It was a weird way to record a song. That’s fine. It’s just about being in the now, transcendent. Maybe a bit psychedelic. Maybe a bit witchy. 

I noticed in a story on Instagram you posted a photo of a book on the occult.

LA: I am reading those books, yeah. I’m just a curious guy. I like to read. It’s too early for me to talk about that stuff. I’m learning. But it’s definitely not what people think it is. It’s an occult universe, for sure. There’s more out there that people don’t get. 

Totally. So many unseen things!

LA: Yeah. I guess that’s what the record is about. 

You mentioned Indonesia, I know travelling there recently inspired you. You said you cured your insomnia while there.

LA: I don’t know what it was. Maybe the weather; it was the wet season, balmy, raining. Maybe it was because we were busy doing a lot, and I wasn’t concerned about shit. I was with my godson and my best friend, so I was chill. I was fucking glad though, man, because when we left, I was literally sleeping two hours a night. It’s fucking horrible. At home you’ve got your routine, your comforts when you wake up in the middle of the night, you don’t have that shit when you’re away. So that was a challenge. Gradually, like a week into the trip, I started sleeping better. By the end of it, I was sleeping 8 hours a night. 

How did that feel? 

LA: It felt amazing. I cried with happiness, a few times, on that trip because I was just so relieved to be out of the country and to be sleeping. I used to live in New Guinea, and the smells are the same, the weather felt the same, it brought a lot of things back. It was very emotional. Also lots of fun.

Was there anything in Indonesia that you saw that was really cool? 

LA: I saw the fucking devotion. Because there’s Hinduism, there’s Buddhism, there’s Christianity, there’s Islam. Hinduism especially seems really just present. They put out offerings every day. Light a candle. They’re more present. It’s so chaotic. But the chaos kind of works. I thrive in chaotic places.

I felt I got mega-stressed when I got off the plane back here. It was a culture shock. It was just like, oh, fuck, this again. Back to all that shit. I was cool, though. Went back in the studio, wrote two songs, wrote two songs a week after that.

You asked me what I liked about Indonesia? Probably the sense of connection. It just seems so fucking ancient, too.

Is there any other places you feel really connected to?

LA: I feel kind of connected to Castlemaine, because I was born there, and conceived there. But no, not really. 

You mentioned that a lot of your album and just in general, your life lately, has been about being present. When did you first start noticing that?

LA: Therapy. She helps sort me out. 

A good therapist makes all the difference. I’ve been through some terrible ones. 

LA: Yeah, well, the first ones I went to were. She spoke to me for half an hour and then prescribed me something which made me feel awful.

This lady I’m seeing now is a psychologist, so it’s just talk therapy. A little bit reiki as well. So feels me out. Sometimes if we get stuck, she does tarot. In a nutshell she was like, ‘You’re awesome. Just be awesome.’ And I was like, ,What? I’m so fucked up. What are you talking about?’ It took me months to get on that. 

I guess the therapist could see beyond all the stuff you’re hung up on to see that real you, which IS awesome! 

LA: As soon as I walked in the door, she could see what I was, and what I’d forgotten, or it was a flickering flame, and she put that in me back there.

That’s so great! Do you have any thoughts on what your album you’re working on might be called?

LA: Yeah. A Dragon Ascending Toward Heaven

Where inspired that? 

LA: A friend did my my birth chart when I was 21, and he was like, ‘That’s what you are. You’re a dragon ascending toward heaven.’ I was like, ‘Okay!’ [laughs]. 

I was going to call it I’m a Bird Now. But we were recording the song and Dan’s like, ‘There’s an album called, I’m a Bird Now.’ Luckily, I’d already thought of the other title, and decided to call it that.

I think that one’s seems really fitting. That’s exciting! I’ve got goosebumps as soon as I heard it. 

LA: [Laughs]. It suits it. 

Have you thought about cover art yet? I know you paint, have you thought of painting it yourself? 

LA: I won’t paint it. I haven’t been painting much. I tend to do other things like that if I’m not writing to try and have an outlet. I’m not sure what it will be yet. The last albums have been a side profile shot, maybe it could be a side profile shot of an animal or a bird. I did some photos with a friend, and one was double exposed, that looks really good. 

Have you tried anything different on this album? 

LA: I’m playing a lot more guitar. I’ve be singing a bit more rather than just sort of the talk singing I do.

Is singing something you’ve always done since you were little? 

LA: Yeah, I always wanted to be a singer. Always wanted to be a front man. 

Who was the first performer to inspire you?


LA: Michael Jackson. No one’s done it like Michael Jackson has done it. Maybe Prince too. 

The first people that made me think I want to do that more, was maybe Bob Dylan, and songwriters like that. Dylan is a big fav. If I could write songs like he’s writing when he’s fucking 85 or whatever he is, that’d be cool. I just don’t want to sound like that, though. I don’t want to sound like anything else. 

That’s the best thing anyone can do—not be a replica of something that already exists. That’s the highest achievement you can get. 

LA: I think so. People ask me, ‘What kind of music do you make?’ I just say—good. I refuse to describe it. I can’t describe it. That’s all a little bit stupid. 

Most reviews these days should just be called ‘comparisons’ because that’s all they do. But they’re really bad with the comparisons. I find that a lot of people who write about music don’t have many reference points; they have a real limited knowledge and just compare it to something popular, even though it doesn’t sound anything like it.

LA: Oh, man. You shouldn’t seen some of the comparisons we got in America. One said we were a cross between Pearl Jam and Gorillaz. I mean, yeah, there’s a little bit of dubby stuff and melodicas and stuff. It’s like, ‘Okay, your record collection is big Billboard Top 20 stuff, right.’ I used to get really annoyed at all that. I’ve just let it all go. 

I used to go see a psychic, and I’ll always remember a piece of advice she gave me: what other people say about you is none of your business. 

LA: Very true. Yeah. My therapist really helped me with that.

You don’t want to take on that energy they’re putting out there. It really has no effect on you unless you let it. 

LA: Yeah, totally. 

Or people will say something to you and they haven’t even really thought about it much, but then you take it to heart and it’s a big deal for you and upsets you, but it doesn’t do a thing bad from them.

LA: Yeah. And perception is a funny thing too. A lot of times someone has been a bit standoffish and I thought, they haven’t liked me. But it’s come to pass that they’re just a bit shy and actually admire me. Sometimes your perception is off of what people think.

Some people definitely mean it, though [laughter]. I always take people on a case by case basis because sometimes you can hear things about people, but then whatever your interaction is with them could be different.

LA: Yeah, it’s a good way to be. 

In front of us is, over there, is a fairy tree apparently and it was created as a place that is sacred and safe and it’s a place for kids to imagine and dream. I was wondering, do you have a place like that? 

LA: Yeah. 

Where’s your fairy tree? 

LA: In my mind, my consciousness is my fairy tree. 

Do you meditate?

LA: Yeah, I meditate. I’m reading a book on Astral travel, which is basically a form of meditation. 

I’ve meditated on and off for about 20 years. I find it really useful, especially for my mental health.

LA: I did a short course on Transcendental Meditation. They gave me a mantra.

I’ve always wanted to try that. 

LA: Just make up your own. 

Really? 

LA: It’s like, we know what to do. Just make up your own mantra, really. That’s all it is. I changed mine because I didn’t like it. It didn’t feel right. I was like, well, fuck that, I’m just going to change it.

And then it felt right?

LA: Perfect. Yeah. 

That’s very punk rock! [laughter]

LA: [Laughs] Well, meditation is pretty punk rock, I guess. 

Photo: Jhonny Russell

Has it helped with being present?

LA: Yeah. Or maybe not. No, it definitely does. I’ve been thinking about meditation. People think you’ve got to quiet the mind. That’s not it. It’s like getting away from your mind—like, consciousness is here, it’s not in there. It has to be nothing. I feel like that’s what I’ve seen. Consciousness feels like that. And I feel like I’ve got consciousness on multiple levels. My instinct feels like it’s here. My intuition is in my solar plexus. Sometimes I can feel things going on behind me, in my back. I’m just starting to become aware of things that maybe I had little inclinations towards and maybe ignored. I’ve looked at these things in the past but never stuck to them, never really put them into practice in any kind of way. I’m becoming a bit more disciplined about it, being more disciplined about my mental health and doing what it takes to protect it. If I’m tired, I rest. If I’m stressed, I don’t go to those places that stress me out. Hard-earned lessons. Same mistakes made over and over again.

A lot of stuff in Buddhism and different spiritual texts, say that you’re just going to keep learning a lesson over and over and over until you get it.

LA: Yeah, that makes a lot of sense to me. 

And then if you get it—you level up. 

LA: Yeah, I think so. 

It’s so good to see you healthy and it’s such a good place and making music. Like, you mentioned to us before that you were thinking, you have this opportunity, you’re still here to make music, you can do this! 

LA: Yeah. I realise that’s a great thing about music. It’s not like we’re the people that are going to come up with the thing that’s going to save the planet, but it might be the people that write the song that inspires the person that saves the planet, and that’s enough. Just play your part and do it the best you can. 

I love that when we make a song it can inspire and go places that we may never go, and affect people in ways we’ll never know.

LA: Yeah. I get people write to me all the time, from Europe and America. Or they’ve heard, Tropical Fuck Storm do my song [‘Lose the Baby’] and they reach out to me. So, yeah, it’s beautiful. 

How did you feel when they did your song? How did it come about? 

LA:They told me they were playing it. Dan was still in The Drones; they’d done a side project thing and played the song a few times, so I knew that. Then Gareth wrote to me and said, ‘Look, we’ve been playing the song, and we want to put it on a 7”.’ I played it with him a couple of times. It was cool.

I was in a band called St. Helens. Towards the end of St. Helens, I’d started Lost Animal and had written ‘Say No To Thugs,’ ‘Lose The Baby,’ and a bunch of the songs on Ex Tropical. I thought, oh, maybe I should give them to St. Helens. So I tried them in St. Helens. The St. Helens version of ‘Lose The Baby’ isn’t too far off from the TFS version. It’s a long version. To me, the TFS version just sounded like the St. Helens version, but they wouldn’t have heard that. Gareth is a great songwriter, and he wanted to do my song—that’s cool.

Both you and Gareth are my all-time favourite Australian songwriters.

LA: Oh, really? 

Yeah, for real!

LA: I’m playing on a song of Gareth’s next week. He’s reissuing his solo album, he’s re-recording a song. 

Awesome! I know you grew up in the bush, like country Victoria, and Papua New Guinea, and you lived in Geelong.

LA: Yeah. Castlemaine too. Some other places, and then I moved to Melbourne when I was 21. 

Why Naarm/Melbourne?

LA: When I was a teenager, Geelong was awesome. Heaps of fucking great bands three to four nights a week. 

What bands did you see? 

LA: Bored!, Magic Dirt. There was Warped and She Freak, they were Geelong bands. There’d be bands that tour, like, Meanies, and Hard-ons. And then international bands. Especially back in the 90s, like Shellac and Fugazi. They’re probably the best live band I’ve ever seen, as far as energy goes. 

We love those bands. I saw Fugazi when I was younger and they were incredible. When you play, is there a kind of, like, energy that you try to bring? When we saw you play at Jerk Fest, you brought a really cool vibe to the room.

LA: I just try to be open. I try to give as much of myself as I can and not hold back. 

When you first started doing Lost Animal, that was the first time you were playing with a backing track, and I understand that was challenging in the beginning?

 LA: Yeah. I used to shake.

Really? Wow. 

LA: Yeah. But that’s what I wanted to do, so I just made myself do it.

It’s good to put yourself in situations that scare you sometimes, I feel like we really grow in moments like that. What are the things that are making you happy right now? 

LA: I’m happy knowing I don’t feel like it’s a struggle anymore. I feel like I could sit down and write a song anytime I want to. I just hope I keep feeling like that. It feels like after this record, the next one will be ready in a year and a half. I’d be very surprised if there weren’t four records in the next five years. That’s how I feel. We’ll see.

I hope your creativity keeps flowing. We’re so here for as many Lost Animal records as you’ve got! 

LA: Let’s hope! I feel good, which is nice. 

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Punter’s Nathan Burns: ‘We have to fight for change.’

Original photo: Jhonny Russell / handmade collage by B.

Naarm/Melbourne-based anarchist punk band Punter exploded onto the scene in early 2020 with a scorching demo, released on cassette by hometown label Blow Blood Records. Fronted by vocalist-guitarist Nathan Burns, Punter’s music challenges societal norms, with thought-provoking lyrics. Their 2023 self-titled debut full-length quickly became a staple on the Gimmie turntable, offering an eclectic mix of songs that delve into anxiety, fear, death, grief, boredom, and class politics. We caught up with Nathan just before he left Australia to tour Europe with Punter and travel indefinitely. He’s since explored Greece, the underground catacombs of France, and Spain, with his latest stop being the UK.

NATHAN BURNS: It’s been nonstop since Punter got back from tour with Rat Cage because we’re going on tour in Europe in three days. The space in between two tours is about a month and a half. Two weeks of that are taken up by me, realigning myself and working out who I am again, and adjusting to the fact that I have a lot of shit to do, but it can all happen on my own schedule. 

Prior to that, I’ve been working a lot, for about six months, and doing band stuff all day, every day after work. I’ve been floating in a kind of timeless continuum in a way, but it’s full of deadlines in another way. I’m wrapping up my life here as well—moving out of my house and getting rid of my shit. I sold my car. I’m going travelling indefinitely after the tour. So it’s a lot at once, changing stuff.

I read a list recently about stressful events humans go through and death of a loved one, losing a job, and moving house or country, were all up near the top of it. So much is happening for you right now.

No one in my family or immediate friendship group has died recently, but you’re on the periphery and it’s always going to be constant once you get to my age, 30. It’s funny, these nexuses where everything happens at once. All that energy.

It’s exciting you’ll be travelling indefinitely. Not a lot of people get to do that. Do you know where you might end up or are you just going to wing it? 


I’ll be lurking about in Europe. There’s options for me to get a visa until I’m 36, in France and Denmark. They’ve raised the age in those countries for Australians. In Switzerland, you can maybe get a permit to stay as an Australian now. It’s easier than before. I quite like Spain and connected with a few people there. I haven’t sorted out visas or anything yet. It’s all been too manic with the tour stuff, band shit and recording.

Have you been to Europe before? 

Yeah, my old band, Scab Eater toured there and I lived there, the cycle is repeating now. I lived in the UK after the Scab Eater tour in 2016 for about a year and hung about there and did little trips to the mainland, to the continent and back. The band had fallen apart over there and I came back here and started Punter. I’m ready to not be in Melbourne anymore.

Why did Scab Eater fall apart? 

We did two months of touring; it was stressful for certain members, to be honest with you. I felt like I was living the dream, but there was definitely struggling to cope with two months and 50 shows. We tried to tee up some other gigs in the summer, a year later from there, but by that point, a lot of people’s plans had changed, and we bailed on those gigs, which was pretty embarrassing, as far as I’m concerned. It had gotten pretty dysfunctional as a group. It can be really stressful when people are out on the road; you’re in such close quarters, and you’re basically living with each other the whole time. It can be really stressful for them. We pushed it further and further and further until we found out where our limit was.

Did that experience affect how you do things now with Punter?

Kind of. The personalities are slightly different with us. It’s a bit different playing in a three-piece. Jake, who played drums in Scab Eater, is also the drummer of Punter. In that way, we have that dynamic still as old friends. Then there’s just one other person, Bella, the bass player.

Scab Eater was a big rowdy boys club, and we’d fight like brothers, argue and be really stupid little boys together. You bounce off each other. With Punter, things are more chill; there’s less huge personality stuff and egos bashing their heads against each other. There’s probably more drinking and a bit less adventure as a group.

And I’m certain that although we are about to go on tour for a month in Europe, I don’t think two months on the road would ever be on the cards for this band like it was for Scab Eater. Everyone were travellers in that band, either on the dole or people were on their big holiday to Australia from the States. There was a lot of transients with that band. The other members of Punter are pretty settled in Melbourne for the time being.

Photo: Jhonny Russell

What do you enjoy about travel? The adventure? 

Absolutely. That’s what I’m in it for. I always want to improve myself through it somehow. It’s very easy to walk around sticking your beak into other societies and going, ‘Oh, that’s pretty, isn’t it? Oh, you’re pretty poor, aren’t you?’ Or how does that feel? And then you kind of get disillusioned. But the aim of long-term travel is to seek experiences that improve you as a person or connect you with other people you can learn from or offer what you have—skills, wisdom, or experience in an area—to whoever you meet along the way.

I enjoy that about travel too. You can actually see how other people live their lives firsthand. Lots of places in the world are very different to Australia. 

Yeah. There’s a fair bit of phobia that sort of infected Melbourne society, particularly in the last few years. In the punk scene, I’ve noticed a distinct lack of traveling punks or whoever coming through and being put up by people here.

When I was a teenager, let’s say like 14 years ago, I was hanging out at a big punk house, and there’d be six Europeans that had come through for the first half of summer and then another six had come through the other half, and they’d all crash on the floor or the couch. Everyone was constantly meeting people from different parts of the world. That exchange felt really vital to me because it showed us, our little squat in the suburbs, that if we ever went overseas, there was this whole network of people that we could connect with, and that gave us mobility for travel in the other side of the world.

Hearing people’s stories was inspiring. Learning about the ways in which we differ because of where we come from was also really important. I don’t see as much of it anymore. It’s very easy to feel daunted by the experience because it’s almost like that culture is really not in my sphere anymore and certainly not really in the punk culture that I’m a part of here right now.

Is there anything that you like like about European culture that’s different from here? 

It’s hard to say without coming off slightly insensitive because there are so many little cultures. Broadly, I guess what interests me with Europe is a twofold thing that’s sociopolitical. In that, it’s not colonised land in the way that we think of it being colonised land here in Australia. It’s also a place that has experienced vast amounts of political turmoil and change in the time in which Australia has been a British colony.

So, the average person there, between them and their parents, in certain countries, may have experienced really radical political change from regime to regime, to democracy, to fascism, or whatever you’ve got, within 60 years or something. They really have an ingrained understanding that politics matters. It affects your life, and it affects everyone, and that there are certain things worth fighting for.

I don’t think it’s as easy for Australians as a whole to feel passionate about political change because we’ve pretty much never seen one since the British came. There’s definitely things that we benefit from as workers or whatever, like the union movement from the 50s through the 80s, that now has resulted in quite high wages for certain parts of working-class society. There’s this narrative there. There’s the Eureka stockade. There’s all this stuff, but the system has remained the same, and its goals have remained the same. The exploitation of the country and the society that has resulted from that have remained the same. It’s very hard for us to imagine something being different, and there’s a lack of imagination there.

To go on a little bit, the struggle against capitalism or the state or whoever it is at the time that the people have essentially mobilised against in a popular movement, like right now, it’s in France. It’s [Emmanuel] Macron because he’s raised the retirement age. Those struggles are uncomplicated by this extra element we have here, where the European descent people or other migrant families that have come since, we have to fight for our rights as working-class citizens, or let’s say, working to middle-class citizens, anyone who’s not part of the elite. We have to fight for change.

But we also have to keep in mind that it’s not our country and that there’s this underneath that struggle, that shit’s the tip of the iceberg. That decolonisation is this huge other part of it that we have to learn to unpick as people who aren’t First Nations people. We have to work all that out and work out how that relates to our goals. A lot of our goals, let’s just say, like white activists or whoever, might have more of a relationship to things that we actually don’t like about colonisation than we admit.

And that’s saying we want the political change that we see in Europe. We want the radical political, we want their type of socialism or anarchism or socialist democracy. But to want that stuff here could be, at points, in direct opposition to what decolonisation actually means for First Nations people in Australia. In Europe, it’s likely that the movement is always going to be a bit more straightforward, and we’ve got a lot more to try and work through and learn here.

As a First Nations person, I know that many of us have immense intergenerational trauma that filters through everything, in ways that you wouldn’t even think it does.

My grandfather lived in a time where after 4 PM and on Sundays, Aboriginal people were forced to vacate the town centre beyond the boundary posts; this wasn’t even that long ago really. The society that he lived in made it seem shameful to be Aboriginal. A lot has changed but it’s such a complex and hard thing trying to navigate and process—to just exist. Being a First Nations person, just existing can be a political act. Everything you do is so often looked at and scrutinised.

It must be hard knowing that that’s the stage where it’s at, because that’s a long road from simply just existing.

It can be. Every time I walk out the door, I have so much to think about and protect myself from. 

What was your first introduction to punk? 

Superficially, my first introduction to punk would have been borrowing a Good Charlotte CD from the library when I was about 11. The lady at the library was like, ‘Oh, that’s that punk rock band, isn’t it?’ I was like, ‘I guess, maybe it is.’

Then I wound up in Borders Books one time. They had CDs and CD players on the wall that you could sample your CD with the little scanner and play what was on there. I found all these CDs, like the Punk-o-Rama compilations and Rock Against Bush CDs. I was pretty into all that pop-punk and ’90s skate-punk stuff. Through those compilations, I was exposed to a great variety of things that were happening in the mainstream. There was stuff on there, like Madball, which for 15 years, ever since, I’ve been like, ‘This just keeps getting better the more I listen to it.’

I liked all that kind of stuff until I was about 16 and wound up going to shows, finding out about gigs through meeting people around the neighbourhood. I grew up in Brunswick, which through the 2000s was the place where you went and lived if you were a punk on the dole because it was cheap. You could afford to live there. Back then, it was a rundown, working-class neighbourhood, and there were heaps of abandoned buildings everywhere, so everyone was squatting. There were lots of parties happening all the time in them.

I went to school across the road from a block of squatted warehouses; they were all artist warehouses that weren’t all even necessarily punk. There were unicycle-riding, circus-hippie types and all that kind of stuff. You’d run into people, and that sort of autonomous, anarcho-punk culture was right there. Anything else like hardcore or metal was all happening between Brunswick and the city too. I was very lucky geographically. It was a really exciting time.

At some point, I realised when I was 18, ‘Oh, shit, I think this is actually better than most places. We’re kicking ass over here in Melbourne.’ It’s not the same anymore; it’s more expensive to live there.

How did you learn to play guitar? 

I had the benefit of guitar lessons through school when I was about eight. Like your foot on the stand and reading the music off the page. That kept going until I was like 12 and I was starting to try and learn a bit of flamenco. About then was when the punk started happening and my folks got me like an electric guitar. I started to learn how to play power chords.

I had a band, some friends at school that we knocked about with when I was about 14. Classical guitar lessons was really important to the way I play now. I learned to be nimble and expressive through that. 

Photo: Jhonny Russell

I can see that, you have a unique style of playing. 

I don’t really know scales and keys very well, standard nuts and bolts. In the last four years I started playing leads. I stopped really being concerned with music theory. As a player, I was in a state of arrested development that I’m only really just emerging from now. It’s this kind of awkward, clunky stage where I think a lot of original sounding things happen by accident.

Are there any songwriters that are inspirational to you?

As a child, I was totally into The Living End. The sort of songwriting conventions that Chris Cheney has, crept into my songwriting decisions. There’s a lot of changes from minor bar chords to major ones.

Also, AC/DC and The Clash. When I was about 18, I was obsessed with Tom Waits. Hard to say how much of that ended up in my music, but I spent, endless hours with Tom Waits records.

King Crimson was another. They have an attitude towards creating music in a progressive and original way. Although to compare oneself to the King Crimson is pretty presumptuous. More recently, I became obsessed with The Jam and Paul Weller, his lyrics were observational and depicted scenes as he saw them in a way that said so much about who he was as a person without having to delve into his own personal feelings in an explicit way.

I was attracted to that in Sleaford Mods as well. It’s so accessible and witty. I remember when I was with them a lot around 2015 or 2016, those guys have this way of making everything sound like actual conversation. I’ve strived to replicate that a little bit because I’m good in conversations and not as good as a poet. I try and make the lyrics of a song more like having a conversation with me. I get across what I’m trying to express uninhibited.

Do you think your involvement with punk, helped shape a lot of your political views or how you see the world? 

It’s a chicken and egg situation. Yes, it did. Unequivocally, it did. But I was raised in a pretty political family, a decently educated, lefty, middle-class family in Brunswick, so that shit was all around, it was constant. John Howard here’s this guy, he’s on the newspaper, he runs the country, he’s a prick. Every day swearing at the newspaper, this guy’s a prick and he’s in charge. So when you get raised in that kind of environment, I was raised into anti-authoritarianism. 

My grandmother on my dad’s side was a Labor politician under government. They were, as a Canberra family, academics and so forth. My dad went on to work as a solicitor in Native Title. So that was obviously something he’d come home and talk about all the time. For what it’s worth, he got terribly jaded by it, which I’ve heard happens to almost every Native Title lawyer. For those that might be reading this, that are new to the concept of Native Title, it’s the attempt by the Victorian or State Government or whoever to resolve disputes between different mobs who claim traditional ownership of the land. The state attempts to mediate between the different groups that lay claim. It’s vastly complicated, obviously, by The Stolen Generations and genocide and who can actually trace their lineage back during all the chaos of what had happened in that time. 

And then on top of that, you’re trying to apply the white man’s legal system to this other culture that has their own way of doing things. And since you’ve come in and fucked it up and now you’re going to use your legal system to try and stop them from tearing each other apart over the land that you’re, oh so graciously, giving them back. My dad did that for a bit because he wanted to feel like he was doing a good thing while putting food on the table. He would have tried his darnedest. It sounds really, really hard to me. 

The politics in punk appealed to me as a kid because there was already conversations happening in my house all the time. On the other hand, my dad worked for the institutions of government, so I could be a bit like miffed about that if I wanted to on the odd day.

The more I listened to punk music, the more political bands always stuck out to me. Growing up around the sort of autonomous DIY and anarcho-punk stuff informed me on so many things that my parents wouldn’t have really held as their own political beliefs as well.

I noticed in the liner notes for your self-titled album, you mentioned that Punter are Anarchists. What does that mean or what does that look like for you?

Anarchism – there are different sorts of strains of it and different beliefs that people choose to express through that word. But the most pragmatic way to look at it for me is to try and establish a society which is not based upon structural violence or institutions whose sole purpose is to punish or inflict violence on other people.

So the idea is that everything that we’ve created as a society, let’s say, Western society, over the thousands of years, is built to rest on these pillars of enforcement, where the principles of the society must be enforced. That the only way to make things fair and just is to punish the few people that disobey. Institutions that have violence at their core are unnecessary.

From there, you could hope to build a somewhat utopian civilisation whereby people didn’t need to be punished and where bad things probably still happen, but maybe in much less frequent amounts.

In your liner notes you were also talking about, the trauma and the collective trauma, we experienced through the pandemic and lockdowns. Melbourne had the longest, most harshest lockdown out of every everywhere in the world—you mentioned you felt like it changed people’s brains. What were the changes you saw in yourself? 

I feel regularly more afraid—not just of the future and what’s going to happen broadly in a political sense or anything like that, but just afraid of taking risks on a day-to-day level. I feel more withdrawn into myself. I feel like the instances where I speak my mind in a confrontational way, maybe where I tell someone what I really think, even though it’s going to be hard to say, have diminished greatly. It’s hard for me to imagine change in my life or the lives of the people around me. You know that thing they say about depression – it’s impossible to envisage happiness or the change that’s going to, step by step, bring you out of that. It seems all-encompassing.

I feel like everyone went through that a little bit. There’s like a fog beyond the city limits here. And because Melbourne’s been such a self-absorbed cultural town anyway for so long, we’ve been up our own ass for ages. Then we got forced into the isolationism of Melbourne and I suppose a lot of people probably just went, well, yeah, that’s alright. What do we need the rest of the country for? Bogans. Whatever.

Photo: Jhonny Russell

Do you kind of get tired and overwhelmed by all the shit that’s happening in the world?

Currently that’s the case. 

How do you deal with this feelings? 

Just try and launch myself into it. That’s what I’m hoping to do when I hit the road after the band does our tour. 

Because you’re taking risks? It’s a risk not knowing what will happen or where you’ll go. You’re running headfirst into all these things that you’re afraid of or scared of, and going to do it. That’s a big leap. 

I hope so. Look, let’s be honest, there’s definitely been riskier things than an Australian citizen travelling in Europe and having a little holiday that he saved his money up for. But I’m hoping to engage in some risk taking behaviour whilst I’m over there. Hopefully it will make me a more fortified character when I do, because I know I need to break myself out of the rut that I feel I’m in and that I feel like a lot of people that we know down here are in. 

European societies, whilst being superficially similar to the Australian society here, it’s different, it’s older, there’s far more people, there’s more poor people. The systems in place for people’s health care are different. A lot of people died during the pandemic and it just gave me a bit of a different perspective on that.

My mother was in a coma in the Royal Melbourne Hospital during the first outbreak of the pandemic. We weren’t allowed to go there for months at a time. She was coming out of it and she’d had a stroke.

I’m so sorry you had to go through that. It must have been brutal nor being able to see her because of COVID. That’s full on. 

It was crazy. Obviously when someone in your family is sick or in a health crisis or in the fucking ICU, that’s this whole thing, it takes over your world. Then suddenly the pandemic happened out of nowhere on top of it. It was something that we obviously didn’t really see coming. 

Before, you were talking about a fog and depression and not being able to see happiness sometimes; I was wondering, where do you find moments of happiness?

Being able to lose yourself a little bit can be the closest you get. Happiness is probably a bit of a misrepresented overused word. The place that people commonly find happiness is in the arms of their lover. That to me is closest to the definition of happiness. But there’s all these other forms of release that we have and music is a really obvious one that allows us to transcend the happy/sad dichotomy because there’s so much melancholy in happiness, don’t you reckon? Sometimes sad songs make you real happy. When they’re singing about heartbreak or death or grief, all these things like that. Whenever I feel quite happy, there’s always got to be a little bit of a blue note to it, otherwise it wouldn’t be legit.

Jamming is a big one for me. I don’t mean jams in rehearsing the songs from start to finish. Jamming when you’re actually improvising or writing a new song with everyone in the room contributing parts and it’s coming together and everything outside of that room does legitimately go away because you’re building in there.

I tried to take up surfing in the pandemic. I fell off a lot. I was raised boogie boarding, so maybe I had some kind of base layer of knowledge for what waves to take and things like that. Unfortunately, I busted my shoulder, six months into the whole thing. I couldn’t really touch it for another nine months. But floating around on the surfboard just made me feel grouse. It was nice being on the water. That made me really happy.

It makes me happy too. I find Punter songs to be mostly observational. Is there a particular song on your album that’s more personal? 

They’re about broader things that we all experience. Look, when you say ‘personal,’ like something that I feel like I’ve really gone through just me… no, not really. I was trying to reach out into the pool of emotions out there amongst me and my peers and just the people of Melbourne. At that time, when we were stuck in Melbourne (where a lot of the lyrics came from), the closest it would get would be on our song ‘Curfew Eternal,’ is about grieving during a time of upheaval or change.

That’s when my mother was in a coma following a stroke or recovering from the stroke. It’s a bit of a blur. There were moments in which we didn’t know if she was going to survive or if she would want to survive, if that was available to her.

That song, whilst being set against the backdrop of the pandemic and lockdown, was really about these golden clichés – like embracing life and seizing the day – and trying to say that we’re heading into an era of increasing social instability. The powers that be are going to try and do whatever they can to make you feel like you cannot take risks. The greatest risk that you can take is to express solidarity with the other people in your community, and that as soon as you do that, you are giving up your only opportunities to make money and achieve security for yourself.

The song is desperately trying to push back against that concept and say that the only hope that we have is to constantly throw our lives into turmoil together to try and make it through and to push back against all authoritarianism. The really severe brand of authoritarianism that I feel is looming in the not too distant technocracy that’s coming quite soon.

I’ve always, like my parents were, been very anti-authoritarian too. Most people teach their kids that if something goes wrong, police are there to help you, well, my parents were always like, ‘Don’t trust cops.’

My parents eventually developed that position after I got arrested enough and they had to deal with them. But before that, it was very much like, oh, you know, the cops are all right, the Salvos are all right. They’re trying to do what they can. 

Photo: Jhonny Russell

What did you get arrested for? 

Kid things; graffiti or drinking. There was a couple of instances where I was involved in direct action stuff that wound up in criminal damage cases and stuff. I was in court. But generally just getting picked up by the cops and my parents would get called up.

Around 2015, wasn’t Scab Eater in the news in connection to an ANZAC War Memorial being graffiti? How was that time for you?

I’ll start by saying my parents were not particularly phased after everything they’d already gone through up until that point. That time, I’ll be quite honest here and say that it was terribly exciting for me, having grown up as a punk rocker as a little boy, as a teenager, and getting into the really up-against-the-system kind of political punk stuff. Suddenly I was public enemy number one. I felt great…

It was a good opportunity for the scene to have an argument with itself because there were so many people who were way more offended than they should have been. Also, a lot of really reasonable people that got to pick it apart for what it was.

It was a thing that happened in response to the 100 Years Centenary of ANZAC, which at that time was everywhere. They spent more money somehow on the 100 Years Anniversary in terms of billboards and bus stop advertisements, like ramming this glorious soldier shit down your throat. At some point, there was going to be this sentiment expressed in one way or another. These ANZAC memorials get defaced every year; this just had the band name on it.

Regardless of your opinion on the Australian Government or the Allies, or what’s become of the world since World War II, or whether or not we should have been involved going into World War I and II, it was deeply unpopular with working-class people. It was divisive. It wasn’t this one-sided thing where the working class all went off to war and then people like me, 100 years later, shat on them for it.

ANZAC was invented to stir up patriotism and militaristic patriotism at that. There was a lot of debate about how much money should actually be spent on it—millions and millions every year. It’s this huge amount of money for people to glorify stuff that we shouldn’t have been doing. There’s a way to still grieve the exploited people that wound up being tricked into going to war and killing each other. Everyone should just listen to Discharge on that day [laughs].

How was your show last night? 

It was killer. It was a mixed bill. Over 100 people through the door on on a mixed bill always feels like a success.

We love mixed bills! 

They’re always so under-attended. This is the only reason that all bills are not mixed because people know that they’ll get a crowd with five things that are the same thing. It’s a commercial decision every time you see it. And that’s the kind of artistic landscape, the heavy-handed over regulation of live music creates, less mixed bills in the city of Melbourne. What the fuck is that? 

Punter’s self-titled album is out via Drunken Sailor Records (EU) and Active Dero in (AUS/NZ) – GET it here. Punter have no socials. 

Artist and Split System bassist, Deon Slaviero: ‘Looking for new ways to approach creating… keeps the process fresh and interesting.’

Original photo: Jhonny Russell / handmade collage by B.

Split System bassist, Deon Slaviero’s creative journey began in childhood, inspired by his brother’s guitar sessions. He started playing music himself in high school, forming bands and collaborating with friends. His love for art grew alongside his passion for music, influenced by the dark, bold imagery of heavy metal album covers and the chaotic style of street artists. Additionally, the warped, monstrous characters from cartoons fuelled his creative vision. These diverse influences continue to shape Deon’s distinctive artistic style. He creates artwork for releases, shirts & posters, for bands including EXEK, Screensaver, Autobahns, C.O.F.F.I.N, Stiff Richards, Grade 2, Unknowns, Cong, Ghoulies, Lothario, Private Function, Civic, and more—basically, everyone! 

Gimmie caught up with Deon to explore his art, creative process, influences, challenges, and future plans—it’s exciting, and we can’t wait for it to manifest.

Also, we got him to choose songs he’s been listening to on repeat for our CRAFTY CUTS selections. He chose a track from a local band who he recently saw live that were fire! A track that’s his go-to when creating. There’s also his go-to track for creating, a gem from a 1978/79 Brisbane/Meanjin punk band, and a favourite from a local band whose entire discography he loves. Additionally, he selected a track from a band blending Lou Reed, Iggy Pop, and T-Rex, a standout German punk band, and favourites from Sydney/Gadigal and Melbourne/Naarm bands.

Why is it important to you to make art?

DEON SLAVIERO: Making art is somewhat meditative for me, once I get into a flow with an idea I’m completely absorbed by it – it’s a nice space to be in. It’s also a really good activity to shut off from a hectic schedule and hang out with the creative part of my brain for a bit. 

How did you first become interested in music and art? What kinds of things did you find yourself drawn to?

DS: As a kid I remember my brother playing guitar at home and bashing around with his mates in our shed. I always thought it looked like heaps of fun and wanted to be involved. I started noodling on the guitars he had lying about and just fluffed around till something eventually sounded okay. In high school (around Year 8) I started hanging with some crew who were into similar music to me and jamming with them. I’ve stuck to that approach which has given me the opportunity to collaborate with some really inspiring musicians and make some great friends over the years.

My interest in art kind of coincided with my interest in music, in my early teens I was introduced to a bunch of bands on the heavier side (Diamond Head, Mortal Sin, Venom, Dead Kennedys, Slayer, Metallica, Misfits, Motorhead, Iron Maiden) which all had bold and iconic album covers usually including some kind of mortal decay paired with bold illustrated logos. Discovering these bands and the associated imagery really resonated with me and sparked my interest in horror/darker leaning imagery.

Did you have a favourite artist growing up? What do you appreciate about them?

DS: As a kid I was always drawn to animation, in particular Aaahh!!! Real Monsters which featured all these bent monster characters usually with multiple limbs and warped faces – Gromble and Ickis are my favourites. ARM is great for inspiration when illustrating. 

As I got into my teens I was drawn to street art. One artist that stood out to me was Neck Face, I love all his line work, bold colours and how chaotic his ghoul characters look. I also draw heaps of inspo from his work.

When and how did you first begin making art?

DS: I remember loving drawing as a kid. Mum always encouraged creativity in the household, I remember her teaching me how to draw Disney characters and always having art supplies around to tinker with. Towards the back end of high school I found a deeper interest in art and started to develop more of a style. 

As for what I’m making now, that kind of came out of just making art for myself and mates musical projects and it’s snowballed from there.

You studied at RMIT; was formal study helpful to your art practice in anyway?

DS: After studying at RMIT I actually stopped practicing art for a while, I think the structure of study stifled my creativity/drive and I shifted my creative energy to making music. Now that I’m back to practicing art on a daily basis I definitely draw a lot from what I learned about spacial awareness and composition and weaving in and out of those ‘guidelines’ to try and create something visually interesting. 

Can you tell us a little about your art workspace?

DS: Currently I’m set up in my spare room at home which doubles as my music studio. Amongst guitars, amps and keyboards are a few old scanner/printers and a bookshelf filled with my collection of reference books. The dream is to set up a shared creative space with a music studio and have the room to do some more large scale works and printing.

We admire your unique art style, particularly your striking posters, flyers, and album artwork. Your distinctive aesthetic is easily recognisable. Could you share some of the key inspirations behind it?

DS: Thank you so much! I’m stoked you’re liking it.

I’m really interested in creating movement/flow through the interplay of layering shapes and creating a storyline through that. I generally find shape inspiration through everyday objects around me, observing my surroundings whilst going for a walk or ride. I think the inner city marriage of organic and man made structures creates a unique landscape through the interplay of dissonant and complementary shapes. 

I am also an avid collector of old printed material, specifically fan zines, travel guides, coupons, instructional material and classified sections. Distorted and aged print just looks so gritty and has heaps of depth, I love it. Old booklets and brochures can sometimes have some real quirky taglines which can also spark up an idea for me.

Has your style changed over time?

DS: I’m constantly trying to evolve my style and explore new ideas. Looking for new ways to approach creating and coming up with a concept keeps the process fresh and interesting.

I used to be caught up in making more concise and cleaner works, letting go of that has allowed me to be more free within what I’m making and just trust the process rather than being too calculated from outset. Sometimes the little mistakes can make a piece stand out and lead to more ideas.

What mediums and techniques do you enjoy working with most? Are there any downsides to the mediums you choose? 

DS: Collage, cut ups and mixed media are the techniques I enjoy working with most, I love my scanners and photocopiers. Collaging, scanning and digital processing can be laborious but I do think the end result is worth the yakka.

Are there particular motifs that you’ll never get tired of using in your work? Do they have a special significance to you?

DS: I always try to base my work around a central character that ties into the subject of the work. Depending on the imagery I use, whether it be photographs or illustrations, these elements can really set the tone for the work, create a narrative and dictate how I choose to lay out the composition.

I really enjoy artwork that looks striking on first glance and at closer inspection more elements pop out and send your eyes on a journey around the page – that’s what I’m ultimately trying to achieve through my work. 

What do you find most challenging about making art?

DS: Self-doubt in my output is definitely something I struggle with. I‘m super critical of my work which can be stifling at times, especially longer lasting work like record covers and merch. Posters are good in the sense that they only exist for a small period of time. I like how they are somewhat disposable so it takes the pressure off allowing me to be more experimental.

Can you tell us about the best and worst bits of doing commissions making art for someone else?

DS: I really enjoy collaborating with the clients I work with, workshopping visual ideas and concepts really helps the process and gets the best results. Bringing someone’s idea/vision to life and seeing their reaction is so rewarding.

The worst part would be trying to balance my commission work with other parts of my life, there are a lot of moving parts at the moment so it can be tricky to balance at times. I wouldn’t change anything though, it keeps me on my toes and I love what I do.

What’s one of the pieces that you’ve had the most fun making? What did you enjoy about the process?

DS: Probably the ‘Whip Around Melb’ poster for Split System – I had heaps of fun creating the Speed Demon character and the piece has a good balance of hand drawn, scanned collage and digital elements. The band ended up using this imagery for some T-Shirts and as a backdrop for our Golden Plains set which was animated, it was so cool to see the little devil dude bouncing around on the big screen.

What’s some of the best advice you’ve ever gotten in relation to making art, and who gave it to you?

DS: Advice from my high school art teacher which has stuck is: Try to create something new everyday, you never know what might come out’. I think it’s a great habit to be in and has helped me develop some ideas I’m really proud of.  

What’s next on your ‘to-make’ list?

DS: Ahhh, there are so many things to do!!

Planning to screen print a few of my own t-shirt designs which I have been meaning to do for a while. I’ve just got a few screens made so I’ll be printing some tees soon!  

I’ve been working on putting a zine together which will be purely illustrations and little comics mostly drawn whilst sitting in the van during my two month stint touring Europe with Split System and Bad Dreems last year. I’m keen to showcase some of my art that is 100% hand drawn and not digitally manipulated. 

Split System is taking some time off gigs over the next couple months to work on some new music which I’m really excited about. It’s always great creating some noise with my Splitties brothers and I’m really looking forward to what we cook up next. 

What do you like to get up to when not making art?

DS: When I’m not making art I’m usually playing bass with Split System and Bad Dreems. Other than that hanging out with my partner doing some wholesome outdoor exploring.

I also really enjoy music research and finding some gems from the past. Recently I’ve been deep diving into the NTS radio archive finding some focus shows. Here are a couple playlists I’ve been enjoying: ‘POST PUNK BRITAIN: IN FOCUS – THROBBING GRISTLE’ and ‘OUTSIDER OLDIES – HOZAC ARCHIVAL SPECIAL’. 

Anything else you’d like to share with Gimmie readers? 

DS: DM for commissions! 

Plus, Deon’s CRAFTY CUTS selections:

Future Suck: ‘Hell For Leather’

Buddies from Melbourne. This track hits so hard and Rhys’ guitar solo in this rips. Their set at the Legless/Rack Off – Total Tote Takeover gig recently was on fire.

The Cleaners From Venus: ‘Living On Nerve Ends’

The Cleaners are a newish discovery for me. Martin Newell’s output of jangly lo-fi pop tunes with clever one liners is in great abundance. Cleaners are always my go to when I’m doing some artwork.

Exek – ‘The Lifeboats’

I love all of Exek’s output, so it’s hard to pick one song. The Lifeboats is one I’ve had on rotation a lot lately, hits some NEU! and Brian Eno (another green world era) areas which I really dig. 

Fun Things – ‘Savage’

Brisbane band from 78/79, this one is an Aussie punk rock nugget. 

Buzzcocks – ‘Breakdown’

From their Spiral Scratch release with Howard Devoto on vox. I love how raw and bratty these songs sound.  

Listen HERE.

Lafff Box – ‘Talking’

Nothin’ like some fast German punk. Lafff Box rule and their whole S/T is great – quirky, catchy and hardcore, all the good stuff.

Peace de Resistance – ‘Heard Your Voice’ 

This track is my favourite from PDR’s Bits and Pieces LP. The record is like a mix of all the bits I love about Lou Reed – Rock N Roll Animal, Iggy Pop – The Idiot and T̤.̤R̤ex ̤- ̤̤Electric W̤a̤r̤r̤i̤o̤r̤̤. PDR has a knack for making songs that sound so familiar and nostalgic but fresh at the same time. I’m also a big fan of their other projects, Institute and Glue.  

The Velvet Underground – ‘White Light/White Heat’

Post Warhol VU. This track is so gritty and groovy, I really love the constant piano and claps throughout the track. Feels like they were trying to get back to basics on this release and keep things gritty/stripped back compared to the debut which was a lot warmer sounding.

Listen HERE.

The Judges – ‘The House Always Wins’

Relatively new Melbourne band with some shredders on the tools, this track streams along nicely from start to finish. 

Gee Tee – ‘Pigs In The Pit’

I was a little late to party with Sydney punx Gee Tee but after catching them at Binic Festival last year I was a convert. I love that their songs aren’t too serious but seriously rock. The Pigs In The Pit chorus line is a real earworm too.

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